I give this to you.
It is not an easy thing for me to do, you must know. If I seem hesitant, it is not because I do not find you of worth, quite the opposite. It is because I am more scared than I have ever been in my life. I am not in control, and that is terrifying to me. Terrifying that I want this so bad, that I have been waiting, holding out, and searching the ethers for you.
I will not hold back. This moment of turmultuousnous, of timid reserve, is just the calm before the storm. I am terrified you won't be able to handle the initial rush that hits you. I pray that you are grounded enough to stand against everything that I am. I so badly want to believe that you are everything and more you have chosen to be. Still, I will not hold back. It is not my nature, it is not what you deserve. You deserve my all, you have earned it. You have unleashed the Phoenix, and if you only stick your hand into the flame, you will realize that everything burns, not in fire, but in beauty and richness. You have unlocked a world beyond your wildest dreams. And know, that even though I soar, it is with you I will always perch, to whom I shall always return. With a fierceness much like my freedom, is my loyalty and devotion. My place of safety. The only place I belong.
It looks like a simple box I pass to you, but pandoras looked much the same, did it not? Unintimidating, yet irresistible? Do not open it unless you do truly wish to claim and own what is inside. This is the only and last warning I shall give you. I have come too far, you could walk away now and break my heart, but walk away if you must, because if you do not, you risk more than just someone else. You risk yourself. You offer up the one thing that I have been waiting for: Protection. You resolve that you have seen what is in the box, and that you cherish it above all else. That you have seen what no one else will ever lay eyes on, and that you defend it with your every fibre. When no one else sees who I really am, they see what I want them to see, you know me. You hold in your arms a person worth protecting from everyone except yourself. A jewel the world will never understand and never want to. A world that will constantly try to change you, to make you walk away. Can you embrace that challenge? Do you want to fiercely protect something that only you can see? That even the most attentive onlooker will only ever catch glimpses of? A belonging to each other so deep that most would look upon it and not even begin to understand, appearing from two different walks of life, yet having something they could only ever dream of.
It will not always be easy. But I make you the promise, that I will always be here. A commitment, that I will always stand by you, choose what is best for you over myself and work alongside you in growth. We Will descent into madness together and conquer it, as with everywhere else. I will never stop trying to be a better person, sub or anything I am needed to be for you. I will not give up on you, I am a part of you. You have breathed me in, to live in the every pulse of your beating heart.
So please, do not take this timid moment for anything other than complete submission. I already belong to you, and the fear of rejection, at this stage, is terrifying. Yet I still insist on trying, in one last attempt, to scare you away. Because you should also be terrified. In this box is where my soul and heart and mind meet. It is a power no man should have, and yet, I need you to have it. Need this more than I need breath, love, live. Because it so much more than these things. I have never given this away, I have been my own guardian out of necessity. Then you came along and have proven you can handle it, want it; Not only today, but tomorrow and beyond. Through good and bad, you will not dismiss the importance of it. That you hold more than just yourself with you now. And together we are greater than the sum of our parts. I am ready. You, and no one else that I have ever walked this earth with or ever will, will have this. It is for you and you alone.
~Oracle
