I have no idea why my psyche spawns such emotional reactions to color ... but it does. I have stated in my profile that I am not fond of the color pink, and yellow is not far behind.... unless coupled with reds and orange with perhaps a drop of blue at the center... like fire....without the blue... like Autumn.
Anyway... after a long conversation with someone last night, I went to sleep. The dream I had was slightly disturbing... well maybe not disturbing but it bothered me.
I dreamt that this Dom insisted that I put on a yellow collar. It was leather and studded. I panicked. I panicked because it was yellow... I feel this symbolizes more than just the color.
I think I’m terrified of submitting at the moment. At least in a total sense. I long for it... but it makes the Muse shake in her boots.
