My time with Daddy is almost up and just like every time we are together, it was amazing! The immense joy and self fulfillment I get out of caring for him fills me up with this beam of light. Poor Daddy was so jet lagged from his recent trip overseas so when he napped I did what kitty does best, I cooked for him! Lots of cooking.4 different meals that I am hoping will be enough to last him until I come back in a few weeks. Did some cleaning, not as much as I would have liked but there is always next time. He took me to go see Meredith Greys house from Greys Anatomy and inside I was completely giddy, on the outside I kept it cool. Daddy doesn't need to see that side of me,lol.
As a slave and sub doing what I do to serve him even if not in a sexual way is a very fulling opportunity in my life. Sure, sexual servitude is always fun and lord knows I enjoy it with him 100%. However, cooking, cleaning, massages even just listening to his day, his great moments and stresses... That brings a feeling that I can't even explain. Just knowing in some way, I get to help ease his life. When I am in Seattle with him I know I am leaving him completely set up and cared for when I return home.
Sure, these kinds of relationships should go both ways and for once I am able to say that it does. I do all these for him and in return I also have someone who cares about how I feel, sets me up to be the very best I can be. Holds me when I am sad, and even when I am happy. Explores more of this lifestyle with me, pushes my limits.
I know when some people hear Master/ slave what comes to mind can be intimidating and either you watched the beginning of 50 Shades or you have read some kinky books (don't worry, I have read them to) but those don't show the entire dynamic. It's not all "Yes, Master." and being there for HIS needs only. He is also there for yours, and boy is my Master always here for mine.
He mentioned something the other day that I am trying to not think too much on. First he said he will only have me as his sub for the foreseeable future but then he said again, he is thinking of being monogamous with me. Anyone who has ever read my blogs know what those words did to me.. but he is poly and he needs it. So i am telling myself that whatever Daddy decides I will try and accept it. Because as his kitty and slave, I only want his happiness and I know with whatever choice he makes he will always consider my needs and well being.
That is what this life is all about.
