Firecracker Diaries - A combination of stories, random thoughts and an appreciation log of life with Daddy

Last Night...

Double penetration punishment is what Daddy dealt me last night!!! I should say “funishment” because it is extremely pleasurable. It’s stimulation overload...Once the blindfold is on and that sense is removed it’s like the feeling sense goes into overdrive!

I was reminiscing about it again today and realized that I remembered how his hands felt around my hips. How they felt and the pressure he used to control the movement. How his fingers felt inside my hair....If you would have asked me that last night I could not have told you those feelings immediately. All I could think about was the amazing orgasms he dealt me and how the double penetration evokes a moan that is loud and carnal...taking me to a different plane. But today my memory lead me to his hands and the sound of his breath. Even now writing about it tweeks my pussy and wants more!

Until tomorrow...

People watching...

I sit here getting my mani/pedi watching all the women coming in and out getting their beauty enhanced for the holidays. I often wonder what their bedroom life looks like....its boring, kinky, multiple partners, polyamorous, non existent, dominant, submissive....there are so many ways it could be. I wonder if I categorize people in my mind according to the way they look? I mean...can you really tell by looking at someone? I don’t think so...I mean I don’t see myself as someone that I would imagine in the lifestyle. What I pictured before I was in it was not someone that looked like me...ordinary. But it sure does give me more of a confidence knowing that I belong to my Master.

I’ve never met someone else that’s in the lifestyle...you know it’s not something that comes up around the copy machine at work! I even wear a collar every single day and never have I been asked about it. I get compliments...but never have I been asked what is it for or why handcuffs? I wonder is some people notice it and just never say anything. I think if I saw someone else with the same type of collar on...I would definitely ask!!!

We went to a BDSM club once and I don’t know if it was just not up our alley or not...but I didn’t even feel the want to meet anyone there. I would have loved to sit and ask questions to some...but I didn’t feel the need to ask anyone over for dinner!

These are the things that go through my mind when I’m just sitting people watching....lol

Until tomorrow...

New Adventures...

I’m super excited that I will be jumping into a whole new adventure starting this next week! A whole new world to expand my skills and start in a whole new business. This new opportunity is something I have been dreaming about for a long time. It combines my skills into a business that will tap into my creative side and love of crafts.

Daddy has been super supportive and building me up to be able to take this new opportunity. I feel so empowered and nervous at the same time!

We have a special date night planned for tomorrow to celebrate. With that we are also planning a special session for tomorrow night as well!

I will have to keep everyone posted since I haven’t given you all a saucy story in a while...stayed tuned.

Until tomorrow...

Honesty...

Today I had to have a conversation that had to have some brutal honesty. I delivered it in a very professional and direct manner...but it still made me feel really sorry for the person I delivered it to.

I had been dreading this conversation for the last 48 hours. When I went to deliver it, it actually went a whole lot smoother than I had imagined in my head. The person was very receptive and actually appreciated my honesty. It still was a tough conversation...but I felt better for doing what needed to be done after.

I think even when you don’t necessarily like what you might be hearing...everyone for the most part appreciates honesty and the truth over either not getting the whole truth, side stepping the truth or lies.

I got a call later in the day thanking me for my honesty...which I really appreciated.

Until tomorrow...

Candles

I have always loved candles. I love the way they smell, the ambiance they create and sometimes the craftsmanship put into them. Mostly it’s the smell...my mood can be driven by a smell!! My memories thrive on smells.

I made a change in my life path today and it was all because of candles. Who would have thought? Lol

I think it’s fate taking me down this path and my sense of smell is directing me. I’m super excited and ready to go!

Until tomorrow...

Make Out Sessions...

Have you ever just wanted to have a make out session with your love? You know the kind...like when you were a teenager...just kissing, necking and hands all over the place. That’s pretty much the extent of it...but it lasts for a really long time! It may move on to more...but you really just want to enjoy the make out for as long as you can. So long that your lips are swollen and you jus might have a hicky or 2! Lol

Last night I woke from a nightmare. I laid in the dark getting me mind back where it needed to be listening to Master breathe....I cuddled him closer petting him and enjoying his skin and listening to his heart beat as I soothe myself....it took me a while to go back to sleep....so as I lay there all I could think about was how much I love how physical we are. How we never stop touching during the nighttime...how we are pretty much entwined all night...this thought process carried over to the day time....so by the time I got home all I wanted to do was make out and kiss him all over. Act like teenagers in the back of a car...

Here’s to savoring the smell of your upper lip and smelling your lover all night long after that session!!!

Until tomorrow...

Communication...

I was privileged to start a new gig and part of this consists of evaluating communication and productivity of this set group. I have always been in the type of field where I evaluate and give feedback...but now I am extremely aware of communication breakdowns and am able to identify them immediately...this is mainly due to the work that Daddy has put into me over the last year.

A year ago what I thought was communication in a relationship was far from it. My version of communicating my needs and my emotions was on the opposite end of where they truly needed to be. I had learned how to keep my true feelings and emotions good or bad hidden from those that meant the most to me...and I didn’t even realize I did it. Daddy had to work hard to get me to learn what communication between two people really was.

He thought me things like not assuming that he knew exactly what was going on it my head would teach him more about me. That opening up about every single detail of my day to day thoughts was imperative for us to be connected. That becoming his sub and submitting myself to him meant EVERYTHING...not just the body. I had to open up all of my thoughts and feelings to him...this was the only way that he could truly own me.

This took time and patience for him. From my part it was hard to truly understand how to do this...when for so long everything I kept to myself without even realizing I did it...my mind was my safe place and my nightmare. Letting the good out is easy...the bad or ugly is not so easy. We all don’t want to be judged...much less by the one we love.

Through this process I’m extremely aware of poor communication because I was extremely poor at it for so long. I see how damaging it is to not only personal relationships but in the business world too. People have to learn to communicate with each other if you want something to change. I see so meaning meetings about communication and need for change...but all it is is people talking in circles and not saying a thing. I know...I did the same thing.

I don’t want that anymore. The communication that Daddy has taught me has opened me up to this magnificent relationship that I never could have dreamed existed. I know the result may not always be the result you want but do you really think living in a world of circles and merry go rounds is good too? You have to get off and be true to yourself...then you will see the right path.

I’m so glad Daddy showed me ours...

Until tomorrow...

New meanings...

This time of year has always been my favorite time of year. The weather gets cooler, fireplaces get lit, cinnamon and pine smell is everywhere, food is super good and fattening and love and giving is in the air. My birthday is also this time of year...so there is that too! But this year it takes on a whole new meaning for me.

Master loves the holidays too. He loves to decorate, go through the traditions, sing the music, enjoy the sites, get all nostalgic with me and all. This makes it even more special to me...to have someone to truly share it with is everything. Someone that feels the same about us together is amazing.

Several years ago I scrapped most of my decorations and stuff that I had collected over years. Most of it didn’t mean anything to me and was shared with someone I didn’t want to remember...so it was gone. Over the past couple of years I had minimal decor and kept it simple since I had no one to share it with. With this being our first Christmas in our first home together...we are going all out...well as much as we can in our tiny abode. But this is ours...and we are building this together. We are starting our collection of things that mean something to us....

I looked for a Dom/Sub ornament today...but no luck....I guess I will just have to get creative! Lol

One day we will be an episode on the Hallmark channel I just know it. Until then we will keep building our memories....

Until tomorrow...

Precious time...

Every single second I spend with Daddy is precious to me. Even when I’m able to spend a lot of time with him, it’s never enough.

I know it’s strange. I know I have a dependency to him.  But is it so wrong if I truly feel more alive when I’m with him?

Until I met Daddy I would dismiss or judge others that had a “strange” connection to their mate. You know those people that never want to be without them and when they are they are always texting or calling each other. I’m now that person. I am that person that being with him is exactly where I want to be at all times...and when I’m not..I just think about and count down the moments until we are back together.

I literally can’t sleep without him. I don’t function well when we aren’t together. There is nothing that I want to do alone. He is my air and the reason my heart beats.

I know it’s sappy and there are people that roll their eyes at this...but I truly wish everyone could experience this kind of love and bond between two people. I have truly surrendered myself to his dominance...and in return his ownership gives me love and protection like I never knew existed...and now would never ever want to give up.

Thank you Daddy....I would have waited forever for this.

Until tomorrow

Afternoon Delight...

I was given a wonderful treat today. I was given a lunch date that tore up the sheets!

Right about 12:00 a little bit of a tickle session turned unto something oh so much more. It started with him teasing me by showing me his manhood...and then me responding by taking him in my mouth. Then before I knew it my pants were being pulled down and Daddy was pleasuring me and then taking me.

He took me hard and deep. Sending multiple orgasms through my body. Taking me deep from behind all while holding my hair with one hand and marking me with the other. Pure pleasure and ecstasy that just made the afternoon wonderful.

What a wonderful afternoon...until tomorrow.