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5 years ago. August 14, 2018 at 1:47 AM

    I did not wait long. But it was not master who came to the bathroom for me. It was the same "make-up girl" that I met weeks before. She said "stand up and follow me". I did as told and followed her into the living room where she had set up shop. This time was a little different as she started by having me lay on a portable table so she could remove all of my hair. Now in my mind I thought "ok chick good luck with that" as I am an exceptionally hairy person. I was stunned to realize that she was going to use hot wax on me and rip the hair our by the roots!! This was a very painful process but I was more than up to it as the pain was no where near the pain of masters tortures. After the makeup application she handed me a pair of white thongs, a very small black mini dress complete with garter belt and black fishnet stockings! Then she handed me the 6" black heels. I had grown more adapt at walking in the heels and being as slutty and feminine as master wanted. No easy task believe me but pain has a way of bringing out the best (and worst) in me. She had me kneel next to masters big easy chair and there I waited for the "fun" to begin with a completely out of place hard on! After a while Master came in and had me stand up for his inspection! I twirled around slowly keeping my eyes on the ground. When I was facing master again I curtsied and knelt before my lord. He said "not bad sissy boy, but that hard on won't do. He tossed the cruel cock cage before me and said. "Put this on boy". Now if you have ever put on a male erection preventing metal cage, it's not so easy even without an erection. Slipping the tiny metel ring over my sore nuts and cock hurt very bad! But try as hard as I did I could not get my dick inside the small metal part that locks to the ring!! My hard on was to hard and to big! I was still trying when master came back to check on me. He grabbed my hair roughly and pulled my head back so he could look me in the eye. "Get it on slave or I will! Try to use the small chain on your cock head to pull it into the cage!!". I did as told and I was sure that I was going to pull my cock head off I had to pull so hard! But in it went!" Now to connect the ring to the cage with a small padlock master provided! I had to force them together and the connection pins pinched my foreskin but I dare not stop!! Once the two parts were together I locked it on with the padlock. "Very well done sissy boy. Now stand and let me see you." I again twirled and curtsied and knelt before master. He said nothing but bent slightly to connect the huge tow chain around my neck with the padlock again but connected the other end to the foot of his chair. The chain was at least 25' long and , as I would soon see, it allowed me to service anyone sitting on the two sofas and couple of chairs arranged in a semi circle around a beautiful Persian rug. In the middle of the circle of seats was a 3' by 3' table. He commanded me to kneel on the table with a simple hand gesture and the words "mount up slave"! as he pointed to the small sterdy table!. Of course I did an ordered and knelt in the "hup" position , on my knees ,hands behind my head, knees wide apart and ass up off my legs. There I waited for who and what was to come. Images of a red hot branding iron made me start shaking as I knew that I was going to be "marked" with masters brand tonight, in front of masters "friends" no less!! The old panic and fear returned to grip my mind and heart, but believe me I did not move a muscle. I submissivly waited for his mark!!

 

5 years ago. August 13, 2018 at 8:06 PM

  Of course I know that begging for his mercy was  not going to help me. But master enjoys my pitiful slave begging! Just another thing I'm made to do so he can get sadistically sexually charged! I was so deep into masters control that I was losing the ability to do anything BUT satisfy masters desires! I was a lost soul. Funny thing how hard my cock gets just hearing master return home at night or even the sight of his feet as he aproches me to do with me as he pleases. Even during the most brutal torture i stay rock hard! Of course I have never been allowed to cum, and probably never will be allowed as long as I serve my (this) master!! I don't know if you ever heard of blue balls but not cumming for so long makes my balls swell up and become very sore to just a touch!! Walking is very painful now as my balls hit my thick thighs with every step!! Anyway master walked me on all fours and lead me to the downstairs bathroom which had a stout lock on the outside of the door. He  removed my padlock and tow chain from my neck that only comes off when I am allowed to shower, about every 3 days. I was finally allowed to releave my self from holding my water all day. As soon as I was done, I dropped to my knees before my lord. "Ok sissy boy, get cleaned up. Tonight is a special night for us. Know that if you preform well tonight and service my friends properly, I may leave you unbound in your closet till tomorrow." Master said.

   "Oh master I'm not worthy of such kindness."

  As he was turning to lock me in the bathroom for my shower he paused and said  "oh and make sure that you are clean inside and out slave. Do not disappoint me tonight boy, you may not live to service me another day!" With that he slid his right foot with a spotless leather lofer on, under my bowed head. I bent my arms so I could kiss his shoe. I said "thank you my lord" as he left and I heard the deadbolt lock engage to lock me inside the windowless bathroom. I took a few breaths and got to my bath. Omg the small pleasures of a cum slave!! The water felt so awesome as it washed away the sweat from hanging for hours in the unventalated closet. After I was done with the washing and drying of masters property (me) I caught a glimpse of myself in the small mirror. Omg I was shocked!! I had lost weight and the wounds of the frontal whipping we're so obvious! My eyes looked haunted and I immediately dropped my eyes as even looking into my own eyes was very difficult for a well punished slave. I flossed and brushed my teeth then I filled the enima bag with warm water and cleaned my "inside." Finishing this I knelt on the tiled floor in the hup position and awaited what was to come. And come it did!!

5 years ago. August 11, 2018 at 8:40 AM

   My time with master (lower case"m") dragged on for much longer than the weekend I was sold for. I had lost track of the days but I knew that I was many days passed the 2 days and 3 nights of  possession my lease was contracted for. I prayed that my true Master and Madam were now looking for my return. I prayed that they were looking for me. I prayed that they, or anyone, would ride up on a white horse in shining armor to save my useless slave skin!

  In truth I had already given up. I had no hope. I knew that I was worthless and unwanted. I could not think of a single reason anyone would want to save me. In my dispare I completely gave my body, mind and soul to my cruel new master! The torment continued. Physical ,  psychological and worst of all emotional torment! I remember that I had made a plan to escape but my mind, body and soul was so broken, I was unable to act. I started to believe that I deserved the brutal treatment. At some point I started to want the brutal treatment. I even begged for it. My days and nights had kind of rhythm to it. In the morning I was unchained from inside the small closet and forced to sexually satisfy master (usually orally) then to wash (shower) and dry master. He even made me kneel beside him and hold his cock as he pissed! Worst of all i was made to take him in my mouth and lick and suck the last drips of his piss from his master cock! Then I  served master his breakfast and coffee only to be put into the tiny closet till master returned from where ever master went during the day time. This was the worst time for me!! Although I was not always forced into harsh stress bondage, sometimes so brutal that it left me unable to use my arms or legs without massive amounts of pain. It was the isolation of my body, mind and soul that hurt so much!! Left to think of the physical torture I was sure master would inflict on me! But worse than the anticipation of phyical torture was the emotional torture of lonelyness and never being able to hear a kind word spoken to me! The only words I was to hear was cruel and humiliating commands.       This day like so many before it, was no different. I was in the tiny closet struggling to stand on my tippy toes to realeave some of the pain of the cuffs on  my wrists! The cuffs were connected to a chain anchored high above me in the ceiling!! Standing high on my tip toes releaved some of the pain in my wrists but as you know my calf muscle could only hold me up on tip toes for so long before I had toî relax and hang painfully from my wrists!!! After many hours all I could do was hang and endure the pain!! After many hours of this I finally heard master come into the kitchen via the same garage door I had entered so long ago. I heard his keys hit the counter. At this moment I always had mixed feelings of jubilation and fear!! I knew that master was finally going to release me from his torturous bondage only to put me to hard labor with the inevitable discipline I would receive from such a cruel taskmaster!! The closet door opened and I felt the same crazy fear and jubilance I felt each evening when master came to use and abuse my flesh!! As he kicked a small stool under my feet, I quickly stood on it to get some slack in the chain above my head so he could unhook my handcuffs and release me from my bondage torment!! Being so exhausted from the all day bondage I collapsed to the floor in the kneeling position before my lord! I felt so honored to finally kneel before my God! I needed to do his biding and worship every inch of masters flesh!! He address me with "very good sissy boy. I have something special for you to do tonight." 

   "Yes master, please do with your slaves flesh as you please!!"

     "Oh my cum boy, I will. But first know that your God is having some friends over tonight! You will serve my friends in any way they desire! You need to know that they are God's as far as your lowly ass is concerned! Your flesh is theirs to do with as they please!!" 

   "Yes master yes, I understand. My flesh is only for their pleasure"! "And yours master"!

     "Exactly my lil  sissy boy"! "But tonight is a very important night....for you slave"...,,"tonight is the night that you are marked!...." "Tonight is your branding slave!!" Hearing that word...branding...sent a shock wave of fear down my spine!! The images of  cows being branded flooded my mind and fear flooded my heart and every pore.! I lowered my head respectfully and said, "oh master please, I'm not ready for that kind of pain, please master know that im begging you to pity me, please. I beg you to have mercy on me!!" "Master I'll do anything that master wants, anything, but please I'm terrified of the red hot brand" I said as big tears started flowing down my cheeks, and deep sobs of fear rocked my body!!

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5 years ago. August 11, 2018 at 3:30 AM

5 years ago. August 9, 2018 at 11:21 AM

  At first I was able to lift my body up a bit, even though it streched my nuts painfully, to relieve the pain a little in my shoulders. But it was not long before I was having cramps in my legs from the effort. Soon my leg muscles were worn out and spasming from the effort. I just hung limply from my arms cuffed at the wrist and behind my back and chained above my head!! My shoulders we're on fire and probably dislocated!! The pain was mind blowing!! I hung in the small closet like that for what seemed like an eternity!! The only thing that existed in the whole universe was the white hot pain in my shoulders!! I felt myself losing footing in reality. I actually felt my mind break!! It was way too much pain to bare!! I remember crying like a baby, screeming like a lunatic, and begging no one for mercy. In the end all I could do was beg God to let me die!! I hung there in the dark closet for an eternity. I do not remember being taken out of the closet. The next thing in my memory is being on my knees raped orally by master!! He was so deep in my throat that I could not breath. I remember trying to use my arms to push him away so I could get a breath but my arms just hung limply at my side, useless. I remember the feeling of his throbbing cock deep in my throat and the feeling of his cum splashing the back of my throat as he moaned and shoved deeper. That's it. The next memory is waking up laying on the floor next to masters bed. It was dark and I could hear masters light snoring as he slept. The pain in my shoulders had woke me up, and I still had no use of my arms. I lifted my head and imeadiatly knew that I was chained by the collar to his bed frame again. I was completely naked and shivering from laying on the cold floor. I desperately wanted to wrap my arms around me for warmth but my arms hung limp, useless. My broken mind screamed for me to run, to get out!! After a while I told myself to just breath...in...out...in...out.....calm down....think!!!!! But all that did was bring the panic and fear that gripped my heart like a vise!! I had to calm myself down, I had to think!!!! But the clearer my mind got the more I realized that I was in an inpossible spot, with no hope! This line of thinking sent me spiraling back into the abyss of insanity!! I struggled with my sanity till the sun started to brighten the masters room. A fresh new panic seized my heart and mind as I knew that he would be awake soon to hurt me more. I tried to get to my knees to crawl away but my arms would not participate in the escape attempt. I just ended up waking up the monster that prayed on my body and soul. The s.o.b. just looked at his pitiful slave and laughed. "Your not going anywhere boy, your mine now. You should learn to embrace the pain and submission." I stopped moving, laying on my side and said "yes master, thank you master".

  "Well slave it seems that you are ready for your final test, a test that will endear your mind ,flesh and blood to me, only me."

 Again my broken mind could only answer "yes master". 

"Get on your knees and kneel before your God slave". As I tried to get to my knees with out the help of my arms I saw him open his nightstand drawer and pull out a huge revolver. Biggest gun I have ever seen! He laid the gun in his lap and patiently waited for me to gather myself and knee walk to kneel before him. "Well done slave. I'll ask you again slave, will you die for master?"

  Without any hesitation I said "yes master." Even with my eyes down cast I saw him open the cylinder of the revolver and remove the shells. Then he put one cartridge in the cylinder and with a quick snap of his wrist, closed the revolvers cylinder with a metalic click!! He then spun the cylinder so as to make it a random 1 in 6 chance it would fire. The sick bastard then started to carressed my face with the barrel of the huge gun. Then with the barrel under my chin he lifted my face so he could look into my eyes. As my eyes came up from the floor to his eyes, I saw that his cock was rock hard erect. My eyes came up to look into his eyes and he said "mmmmm slave, so pretty, such beautiful eyes! Will you die for master now? Hummm slave? I want you to make love to the gun, to suck the barrel of my gun like you want to make it cum, like you want to suck the slug out of the cylinder into your brain!!" As he said this he carressed my lips with the barrel tip. "Open your mouth slave, take my gun like a cock , suck it like you love my gun".

  In my broken state I parted my lips and let my tongue snake out and lick the barrel. 

"Mmmmm, you are mine slave, tell me I'm your God slave. Tell me you will die for your God slave". 

 "Yes master you are my God, let me die for you my God! Please master let me die for you"! I heard myself say this, but I was praying for sweet release from the pain, I prayed for death. I opened my lips and took the gun inside my mouth, flicking my tounge along the cold steel like it could feel my kiss!! 

  "Take the gun in your hand slave, and pull the trigger to prove yourself to master. To your God!!" 

  I mumbled around the barrel "yes my Lord" as I painfully forced my arm to reach up and take the gun in my hand. Even though all the pain of using my arm I took the gun in my hand, lipps wrapped around the barrel in my mouth, with my tongue making love to the cold steel! With my eyes looking deeply into masters cold steal blue eyes, I pulled the trigger!!.......CLICK.... nothing, no sweet release, no quick death. A smile spread across masters face as he took the gun from my shaking hands. 

And like it was just another morning, nothing unusual here, he ordered me to cook his breakfast, "...eggs over easy with bacon slave, and this time don't forget the butter for your God's toast, my slave."

5 years ago. August 9, 2018 at 6:12 AM

    After a short time master woke and noticed me kneeling in the "hup position" that I was taught by my real Master. My Master that sold me to this evil person. Or more accurately, rented me for the weekend. I have already endured unbelievable torment after only one night of being in my temporay masters possession. I knew that I needed to get out of this situation cause I might not live through it. So I had a plan. I needed to convince him that I wanted to stay with him as I loved the brutal treatment he inflicted on me. I hoped to make him lower his guard so I could get away. When he woke with me kneeling on the cold floor next to his huge bed he said "well slave I see that you are no worse for wear". He sat up and opened the nightstand drawer, pulling out a master key. He leaned over me and unlocked the chain around my neck and said "Now boy, go down stairs and get me my breakfast ready, eggs over easy with bacon." As I slowly climbed to my feet he barked "now slave, move!!"

I said submissivly" Yes master" So I pushed through the pain in my back , thighs and ass and jumped up and out his bedroom. Still in the high heels and my face made up like a whore, I pulled the mini dress down as far as it would go and went down stairs to cook for master. Before I was done with the cooking he came down and sat at the head of the huge table. He kept his head in his phone as I finished up his breakfast and presented it to him on my knees. I held the plate and glass of juice out for him with my eyes on his feet. I knelt there as he started to eat when he said "no butter slave? Go get my butter for my toast slave!!" As I jumped up to obey he told me that I would pay dearly for this mistake. My heart sank as I fetched him his butter and buttered his toast. After he was done eating he left me kneeling there for awhile as he went about his morning routine. As soon as he turned the corner of the dining room I was up and moving to find a door out of his house. But the door was deadbolted closed!! The panic and fear gripped my heart as I guickly knelt back in the same spot. I felt like a caged animal with no where to run. When he returned to the dining room fully dressed in a very nice suit and asked me "well slave how do I look?". Still kneeling I raised my eyes to look him over and said "master you look great, very handsome". 

"Well slave boy you flatter me. Now I must leave for the day so get up and follow me". I did as ordered and he led me to a small closet in the laundry room. He opened the door and made me kneel inside the small closet with my back to him. As I did as told he used a pair of handcuffs to cuff my hands behind my back. He then pulled my arms up behind me higher than my shoulders and tied them to something I never saw. Omg my shoulders we're screaming in pain as they were wrenched out of socket behind my back. I started to stand up to relieve the pain but he quickly grabbed my balls inside of the cock cage and forced me back to my knees!! He tied my balls to an eye hook the the floor behind me and between my legs! Oh God the pain in my shoulders was enough to make me nauseous as I begged him to not leave me like this "please master have mercy on your slave, please don't leave me hanging here like this master, it hurts so bad plea..." he just slapped me in the back of my head and said "shut the fuck up slave, don't you know that I love to hurt you! Now thank master for allowing you to suffer for my pleasure!" 

 I whimpered "master please" as he grabbed a handful of my hair and yanked my head back and bent to whisper in my ear "now slave enjoy your day and thank master for the pain, I may let you eat tonight if you don't piss in my closet. If you do piss I'll make sure you clean it up with your mouth, then you will be whipped to an inch of your life, got it slave!" As I responded "yes master, thank you master" he bit me just behind the ear, grinding he's teeth in my flesh for a long painful moment! All I could do was say "AHHHHHH, thank you master" as he closed the closet door to leave me in darkness with my pain!! Needless to say that it was not to long before I prayed for death, I begged God to take me! To please release me from this suffering. Of course he didn't. At least I kept passing out from the pain. Problem is that I kept waking up to the suffering. Waking up to beg God to take me before I passed out again and again!! It felt like time had stopped and I had suffered for many lifetimes in that closet. I lost my will to live, lost my will to escape. I truly became his to do with as he wished! I lost my sanity. I lost who and what I was. I was broken. I cried. I screemed. I begged no one for mercy. In the end all I could do was suffer. And suffer I did!!

 

5 years ago. August 5, 2018 at 11:13 PM

   I was ripped from a pleasant dream by the pain! It took me a second for me understand why I had so much pain in my back, ass and thighs. The memories from last night came flooding back. The panic and fear gripped my heart again, took away my breath! I was still laying on the floor next to masters bed, and I still had on the painful cock cage. I was shivering from being on the cold floor almost completely naked. I could hear masters guiet snoring so I dare not wake him. I tried to pull down the tiny mini dress from around my chest but just moving my arms and arching my back caused the whipped open blisters to send a lightning bolt of pain up my spine!! I caught a moan in my throat and maintained silence by the thinnest of margins. I could feel that the open blisters were again, crying there red tears. I braced my self for the pain to come and pulled the mini dress down as far as it could go, and that was not far. But in doing so the heavy chain padlocked around my neck shifted with a noise far to loud in the guiet dark room. I held my breath and listened for any change in masters snoring. "Good he's still asleep" I thought. "I've got to be more careful". I stopped shivering , as the dress covered at least most of me, and tried to calm down. I needed to think of a way to get out of this bad spot, but I quickly realized that as for this moment I had no way out. All I could do was try to stay alive!! What ever it takes I had to stay alive and wait for my chance. I slowly and quietly pulled some slack in the chain and rolled onto my back. A brilliant white hot flash of pain passed through me as I laid on the weeping blisters but I was braced for it. Not a sound did I make as I screamed in my mind!! I hoped that the pressure on my wounds would stop the leaking. I ran many ideas through my mind trying to think of a solution to this situation. By the time the sun started to push the darkness from this side of the planet and started to brigehten up the room, the plan I came up with was not a good one. But it might be my only chance. I needed to make him believe that I loved the treatment he gave me, maybe even convince him that I LOVED him if I could. Endure, and wait for him to lower his guard. So I quietly, or as quietly as possible, I got to my knees in the "hup" position my true master taught me. Facing his sleeping form on the bed I knelt there with my hands behind my head, fingers laced together and ass not touching my legs! Most importantly I keept my eyes downcast on the floor. That's how I stayed till he woke. I kept thinking "endure, just endure!"

5 years ago. August 3, 2018 at 8:39 AM

   I was laying across the big bed with the cruel cock cage on my junk chained to the bed frame between my legs. I could not pull away or move unless I risked my ball sack getting ripped off my body!! I did not dare to reach my hands back to block the paddle blows as ii knew master would just hit my hands with the paddle probably breaking every bone in my hands!! So I laced my fingers together behind my head to help me resist the urge to reach back and stop the paddle blows. I thought the pain I was suffering would drive me insane!! My ass and upper thighs were on fire and blistered up from the huge wooden paddle!! He stood over me rubbing the paddle gently on my ass and legs. He said "ok sissy boy, I'll let you catch your breath. But from now on you will thank me for every time my paddle kisses your ass. And just for fun slave, after each time I hit you,  you will ask master for another. Got it bitch?"

   I was sobbing so heavy and trying to gulp in as much air as I could but I managed to answer master "yes master, thank you master." 

   He tossed the paddle on the bed next to my head and pick up the 4' bull whip. I moaned and begged him for mercy again but I knew I would not get any mercy. He started to gently rub my blistered legs and ass as I lay there crying. "Please sir let me pleasure you, please, I'll do it so good, I promise I'll be the hottest peice of ass and mouth you ever had sir, please... please fuck me sir...I need your hot cock inside me....please...." As I begged him I heard the bull whip crack above my head and I jumped and yelped like a kicked puppy! "No master please..." 

  "Go ahead and beg slave, it just makes me want to hurt you more. I like it boy." 

   I twisted my head around to look at master and tried to reason with him. Tried to tell him he was killing me, tell him I would do anything he wanted if he would just have mercy!! He just laughed and asked me "do you know what the whip is for slave?"

   I wimpered and said "yes master". 

   "I asked you a question slave, what is the whip for?"

  "Oh master please no..." The whip cracked again above my back as I again jumped and yelped! "Answer me slave"!

  "Master please, I don't want to answer, I'm scared master, as soon as I answer you you are going to use it on me.... Please let me service you, I'll get you off so good master, I'll do it so good I promise."

   Another chuckle from him and then he snapped his arm and the bull whip lashes across my back and a white hot flash of pain ripped through me. Omg it was so much worse than the paddle!! The pain kept building long seconds after the lash! Blinding pain washed over me in a wicked crescendo!! I arched my back and screamed out a sound that I could not believe came from my mouth. A sound of an animal being ripped apart!! I collapsed on the bed and tried to catch my breath between sobs and unintelligible words!! I thought well i had finally lost my mind!! He waited till I was still then he reached down and traced his fingers along the mark the whip had no doubt made!! "Hummm, now slave what do you say?" 

   "Please...thank you master, my I have another please master?"

    "Well if you insist boy, yes you may!" The whip came down again!! He patiently waited for me to collapse again and my screams to stop! Only two whip lashes and I felt like I was going to die!! I felt the blood running down my back from the blisters that the whip had popped!! Again he traced his fingers down the mark from the whip. "Well slave, two lashes and two popped blisters, we have many more to go. Are you enjoying yourself slave? I know I am."

  "Yes master ,thank you master, may I have another?"

   "Sure slave, since you asked..."

    I passed out at that point. But he was very patient as he made sure I was awake for every blister popping lash!! In the end I had no more voice and was so exhausted that all I could do was breath!! I could not even move a muscle even as the whip bit through my blistered flesh!! I passed out , but he just waited for me to be alert again before continuing to destroy my flesh!! I knew that I was going to die right there on his bed. I wished that I would die soon. At some point the whipping stopped and that's when he took me. Of course I barely noticed him forcing himself inside me. As he thrust deep inside me his mouth was next to me ear. He hot breath on my skin. He wispered in my ear "will you die for master slave?? " 

  I wispered back to him "oh yes master, please let me die for you." And in that moment I felt the hard throbbing of his master cock as he thrust deep inside me. He moaned loudly in my ear as I felt him cum inside my man pussy. He bit my neck ,hard enough to bleed, right behind my ear!! I did not even flinch at the bite. He collapsed on top of me to catch his breath. As he raised himself off my battered body I felt him slip out of my ass, I felt his master cum run down the inside of my thigh. He lay on the bed next to me for a long time before he sat up and un clipped my nuts from the bed frame. "Off my bed you peice of shit, you sleep on the floor!! "

   I slid off masters bed on to the floor in a heap. On my side in the fetal position. It's only then that I realized that I still had the white mini dress on, up around my shoulders and chest. I tried to pull the dress down so I would not be cold be it was just to much so I lay there on my side, a white mini dress around my chest, a heavy chain around my neck and 6" high heels on my feet! The worst thing other than my bloody ass and legs was the cock cage he put on my balls and cock was hurting, so I looked down only to be surprised that I was rock hard inside the cage!! My last thought as I passed out the last time that night was "I'm going to die here". "And no one will know what happened to me". A shudder passed down my spine as I fell into the sleep of the dead.

  

 

  

 

  

 

5 years ago. August 2, 2018 at 2:22 AM

   I followed master into his house struggling to not fall off the 6" high heels but the wine made me a little tipsy so I focused on putting one foot in front of the other in the most feminine and slutty walk I could muster. Walking through the kitchen I caught a glimpse of myself in the glass oven/range. Damn I thought, now that's hot, looking, walking and being the way master demanded, making me be something I am not! So hot walking with a hard on inside of the spiked cock cage , it hurt...bad! But as you know by now that just turned me on so much more!!! I followed master through the house and up to the second floor for the first time. I could feel the precum dripping down my thigh as I was so hot. Keep in mind I have not been allowed to cum for a long time, weeks at least. That was an eternity for such a young person to be sure. I followed master into the master (pun intended lol) bedroom and he paused and turned to me and pointed to a spot at the foot of the huge Paul Bunyan wooden four-poster bed. "Kneel slave" as he continued on to the large bath room. Of course I did as told, as hot as I was I knew that I would do anything master asked and beg for more!! Kneeling there with my eyes on the ground, hands in my lap, I waited for what would come. I even WANTED what would come, what ever it is he needed!!💓 Only a few minutes later he came back and stood in front of his willing slave in an open silk robe and comfortable shorts. The bulg was so obvious and I couldn't look away. "Now sissy boy you are going to earn every penny of the cost I payed for you...and some!"

   His tone was a bit different from earlier but I paid it no mind as all I could think of was submitting to his every sexual whim then eating his hot man cum!! He bent over and reached under the bed to pull out a heavy tow chain that seemed to be chained to the foot of the bed post right next to my knees. He wrapped the heavy tow chain around my neck and clicked the huge padlock through two of the chain links securing the heavy chain tight around my neck! He then walked into a huge walk in closet and when he returned he held a scary, large paddle and a bull whip which he put on the bed. The paddle seemed to be made out of a 2" by 6" with many holes in the shaved and sanded down business end of the wicked paddle!! It was huge and the old fear returned. The kind of fear that only a homeless runaway knows. The kind of fear that comes from living on the streets and having to do anything to survive, anything just to eat a few crumbs. And be thankful for the few crumbs after doing whatever sick and evil thing I had to do!! His eyes had that distant and empty look again as I peeked up at him from my kneeling submissive position. A fear that comes from knowing the evil that man can do to each other. He hefted the paddle in his hand as he looked down at me. "Ok sissy boy, lay accross the bed, pull up your dress. No, higher, all the way. The more flesh to play wirh boy!!." It was like a completely different person from earlier. I did as told as he moved to the side and got the best  range for using the paddle on me! "Please sir, have mercy!! Please I'll do anything just be merciful." I said as I lay across the bed looking back at him, dress pulled as high as the tight fabric would allow. 

  He caressed my upper thighs and ass with the wicked paddle and said "there will be no mercy for a peice of street trash like you! No one cares about you, no one will miss you." 

   Through the fog of the fear I missed the significance of the last bit of that comment but on some level i knew that I was in trouble here. Call it street smarts or whatever but my spidy sence was going crazy. A sudden feeling of the fight or flight response went down my spine and the flight part was not an option at this point!! He caressed my ass with the huge paddle, teasing me and not in a good way, when he said "slave do you know why my paddle has big sharp edged holes in it?? Hummm?" 

   I wimpered a bit but finally said "No master".

   "Well when the paddle is used properly and with enough force on the more fatty areas of your flesh, like your gorgeous ass,  it will raise big blisters on your flesh!!" 

    Moaning i said "oh master please, I'll do anything you want please have mercy."

    "Slave do you know why I have the bull whip?"

   "No master" I said tears flowing down my face.

    "Mmmmm, the whip is used on your ass to pop the blisters the paddle left. And that might take some time. Paddling till blistered and popping every blister with the bull whip is the first part of your transformation into the mindless submissive slave I want. A slave willing to die for it's master. And you will prove this willingness to die for me tonight, or you will die in your failure to submit to me. The ultimate submission!! Submitting your miserable useless life to me and dieing when and how I tell you to!!"

   With that I felt the paddle leave my ass and I braced for the impact!! Omg....I heard the load "crack" a split second before I felt the pain!!!  The pain was horrible, to say the least. it traveled through my nervous system from my ass to my brain in a nanosecond but to me it took forever as it kept building in intensity for what seemed like long seconds!! The pain took my breath away.  After a moment I gullped big breaths of air, then I heard a sound come from deep inside me. A sound like I've never made or heard before! A deep sound that I can only described as wailing!! I rolled on to my side and put both hands on my red hot ass. I could feel the first of many to come , 1/2" diameter blisters just starting to whelp up on my tortured flesh!! It was the most painful thing I had ever felt in my young life, and I was use to abuse, some of which turned me on!! But not this, this was brutal pain!! Pain that had hot tears flowing down my cheeks!! And sobs of begging for mercy from my lips!! The moment I could move again you better believe I was all asshole and elbows scrambling up onto and across to the other side of the huge bed!!! I was halfway out the bedroom door when the chain around my neck snapped tight and snached me back into hell!!! He just stood there watching my futile attempt at escape. "Now slave, assume the position again. And don't forget to thank master for your pain!!". I was on the floor on the other side of the big bed whimpering and crying. I looked at him over the bed and shook my head and said one word "PLEASE!". 

   "Come on sissy boy, come on this side of the bed and play with me." He said patting the bed on the side he was on. Again I begged him between deep sobs. He just waited and then yanked on the huge heavy chain "cum slave!!!" 

  Crazy thing is I did come, I crawled back across the bed to assume the position laying across the bed, ass open for him to do with as he wanted. "Now boy , you have no need to be scared, I won't hurt you like that again. But for your safety stay still a moment". And with that he grabbed the part of the cock cage connected to my nuts in his hand and squeezed and twisted them hard. My body came up off the bed to try to relive the pain but before i knew it he had a chain clipped to the steel ring around my balls!! He pulled the chain around my balls so tight and hard and upward I was on my toes trying to stop the pain that any man will tell you starts deep inside the lower belly, like someone is pulling out your guts through your ripped ball sack!! Ball pain is indescribable! It is pain felt deep inside the belly not just the pain in the balls themselves!!! Pain so bad you get nauseous, pain so bad it saps every ounce of your strength and will!! 

  Before I knew what he was doing, and still riding the wave of pain only a man can know, he had clipped the other end of the chain to the bed frame! So tight that I could not move an inch without fear of ripping my cum full balls from my body!!!!! ""Aaauhhhhh noooo please, please master"!! I knew that I had to stay as still as a stone as he did whatever he wanted to me, or my balls might get permanent damage!!!!?¡ As I thought this , pain exploded in my upper thighs as the wicked paddle came down on my flesh again!!!! Now knowing that you should stay still so that your chained balls don't cause you so much more pain, is easier said than done for sure!!! With that last paddle lash I still jumped which of course had my tied balls just about ripped off my body and make me a unic!!! I screamed and cried and begged and everything else only to be hit again and again with the paddle!!!! After a few more lashes of this little man's torture devices I learned to be as still as possible so as to not hurt myself even more by my chained balls!!!! 

  "Ah, well done boy. You have learned some controll. Do not move a muscle , no matter what I do to you!!"

I said between sobs and gasps for air "thank you master" as i rubbed my ruined flesh.   

"Now boy I'll give you one more chance to move your hands above your head. Next time you put them back there I'll break every bone in them with the paddle!" I immediately did as told and said "thank you master." 

 I passed out at some point only to wake up to more paddling and unbearable pain!!!!! I must have blacked out again as the next thing I remember is waking up to the pain in my lower body and my tormenter laying next to me looking into my eyes and carressing my face!! 

   "Ah slave, so beautiful. Well, I see you are awake now. No fun hurting you when you are asleep now is it boy?" I tried to speak as the pain came back to me and all I could do was sob heavy sobs, tears flowing down my face!!  He stood up over me, over his tortured slaves flesh, which I knew that he was not done with!! In my experience as a runaway I knew that the pain only stopped after master gets off!!! I knew that I had to find a way to turn him on so much he could not resist my mouth or man pussy!!! If I could just get him to put his cock inside of me I was sure I could make the hurting stop, I was sure I could make him cum!!!! I knew that getting his cock to squirt his man cum in my man pussy or in my face and in my mouth , might just save my life on this insane night!!!!?!?

5 years ago. August 1, 2018 at 6:12 AM

    I felt like it could be worse at this point. I was sold or at least rented out to the highest bidder by my Master and now it seemed like my fears were unfounded. The little old fellow who bought me seemed only interested in my learning how to be his twink even though I was somewhat hairy and thick. He had me dressed up in a white mini dress that was so small and tight that I had to keep pulling down the hem line with a wiggle of my hips to keep my somewhat large round young ass covered. The shoes were so small my feet hurt as soon as I was able to struggle into them. I was made to walk and move like a whore but just not falling off the high heels was about all I could manage. Even though I could see the bluge in his pants as he sat in the dining room and gave me commands on how to walk, move and even my facial expressions to mimic a lady, I still felt silly. After a while of this I heard a chime melody play somewhere in the house. He put me on my knees and told me not to move. I knelt in front of the chair as he got up to answer the door. He returned with a hot looking middle aged lady carrying a large case of some sort. "Now sissy boy you will learn how to really be the bitch I want. Do as she says and you may get a surprise later tonight". Well let me say that I did not learn much about how to apply makeup but crazy thing was when she was done making me up I thought "damn Im not a bad looking chick with a dick made up like this." I had very dark and thick eye liner on with eye shadow a call girl would be jellous of in , 3 different colors. A little blush and blood red finger nails matched the glossed red lips. I said to the nice make up artist "wow, I'd do me". 

  She laughed and said "well let me help you try to walk like a lady .....or a slut in those shoes". After about an hour and a half I was strutting around like a whore! Of course in those shoes i had no choice to but through my ass and hips like a street walker. And my calf muscles started to burn but I was strangly turned on and the instructor noticed. "Oh...ok we need to strap that thing down or I fear you will be punished severely if he even sees your manhood. Remember that to him you are female." 

  "Ok, how do we do that?"

   She reached into her bag of tricks and pulled out a wicked looking stainless steel contraption with leather straps and a master lock on it. "Male chastity belt, or aka a cock cage. In this he will not see your uh...manhood as it goes in here". She indicated the small metal cock shaped part and ring of the cruel device. 

  "My cock goes in that?" I asked.

   "Cock and balls" she said with a devious smile. "Put one foot on the chair, spread your legs and pull up the dress". I did as told as she tied a short string to my cock head and passed this through the Chasity device. She used the string to pull my semi hard cock deep into the cock cage. It was to small and it hurt and i inoticed that it had small metel spikes inside digging into my dick so I asked "there is not enough room in it for my cock when it gets hard."

 "Then don't get hard" she said with a smile. Next she put the small metal hinged ring around my cock and balls and closed it with much trouble as it seemed way to small. She hooked the part on my cock to a shaft in the metal ring and clicked it together with the master lock. The straps went between my legs and around my waist. With  the chasity device completely on I saw that it would not come off without removing the lock. It was very tight and wirh my balls already swollen with pent up cum, the pain was intense! "Ok my friend we are done so kneel down and wait for Edw...uh..your master." With that she winked at me, collected her stuff and walked out. I thought "well still not to bad" as I knelt down, eyes on the floor and waited for master. 

   It was not long when he returned. "Stand slave and do a turn". He stood back and looked me up and down. "Well now my cunt, you are stunning!" 

  "Thank you master".

   "Ok, ok now let me see you move, walk away from me and back. On the way back look at me and convince me that you want me like you want no other man"! I did as told and walked away from him in the most sluty sashay I could manage. Oh my God it turned me on and I got rock hard with much pain as the cock cage spikes dug into my cock deeper! I heard him say "mumm humm" as I made my turn. I lowered my head just a touch letting my longish hair fall on my face and looked right in his baby blue eyes and opened my mouth just a little to let my tongue sensually snake out to lick my upper lip! I stopped a few steps in front of him with my hips cocked and legs apart. Again he ate me with his eyes and asked me "ok, are you hungry?" A little stunned i just looked at him for a second before answering "ah, yes master."

  "Great then my lady, we shall go eat but drop the master thing in public. Just call me sir."

    He even asked me what I wanted to eat. Wow, this was a happy surprise as I just answered "Steak...sir". 

   I have never been wined and dined before but I could grow to like it with this man. We ate steak and sea food at a fine restaurant. The staring and wispering did not spoil the dinner and the humiliation of me obviously being a guy in a dress did keep me hot , hard and in pain. That just got me hotter and harder! Kinda a painful but exciting cycle that had me going out of my mind sexually charged!! On the drive back to his huge house he had me go down on him as he gently stroked my hair. He just unzipped and unbuttoned as i moaned and said "oh yes master, thank you master." I leaned over and pulled his hard cock and balls out from his shorts and butterfly kissed his cock head up and down the shaft to his balls! Kissing and licking them for only as long as I could before my lips were drawn back to his now rock hard cock. Moaning, i licked slowly back up the cock to the gourgess purple head and took it in my lips and sucked , flicking my tounge  on it till I tasted his precum. He pulled my mini dress up over my pantiles ass and gave me a hard smack!! As he did this I quickly rotated my hips and was kneeling on the car seat legs wide inviting him in. He did not disappoint me as he shoved two or three fingers deep!!! I said "thank you master" as best as i could with his cock in my mouth! He did not cum but believe it or not I almost did even though i   could not even touch myself with the cage. But the pain it caused, the hard cock in my mouth and the wine had me so close!! As we pulled into the garage that first night I was on top of the world and not even thinking about my Master and Madam that owned me!! But before that night was over the fear and   trepidation returned along with the desire to get away as fast and far as possible!!!