I wake up today refreshed and excited. Some news I've been waiting on has finally come to me and it signifies the end of a chapter in my life.
I have a date that I'll be moving now and I simply cannot wait to start fresh. Just me and my cat and whatever thoughts I want to have.
I'm going to have bathroom dance parties and only wash the dishes that I use. The only snores I hear will be from my kittens cute little face. THE THERMOSTAT IS MINE.
I'm excited to regain my independence, my own identity. I'm enthralled, actually. I can explore my thoughts and feelings in my own space. I can play creatively, and "play" "creatively." (Wink,wink. Nudge, nudge.)
This signifies so much more than my independence, it puts me that much closer to realizing my yearnings and cravings. In my strength is where I'll find the ability to submit, honestly, purely and without reservation.
Since I began to acknowledge my desires I've only been staring at the steep incline ahead of me, afraid to start alone and afraid to ask for help. Coming here has been a step in the right direction, a place that is giving me the tools to make the climb and friendly advice as I prepare for my journey. I still feel like I'm ill equipped to make it alone, but that's why I seek the companionship I do. I want to stare down from the apex and sigh with contentment as I see all that is left beneath me. I want to stand next to the man that took the journey with me and led me when I couldn't make the next step on my own.
Cheers to fresh starts. Cheers to goals. Cheers to the little distractions that get us through the trickier times.