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5 years ago. November 30, 2018 at 12:09 AM

I've been doing some light reflection on things. I said in one of my earlier posts that I need to do some self-care/love before anything else in regards to submission. So I've been on pinterest a lot lately. Looking up routines, self-care/love things, affirmations. It is cathartic almost. 

I see some things about it that interest me; sleeping 6-8 hrs, meditate, eat well, work out, journal, do things for you, etc. 

I read all of these things and I just think... damn... I just need to take care of myself! I don't think I have ever done that in my 27 years of life. I focus on the ones around me. But no body has focused on me. Then the emotions attached to that comes through (lonliness, bitterness, etc). I need to let those feelings go, because in all honesty that shit has made me strong. I can be alone. I can handle my shit on my own. Though it would be nice knowing someone out there cared enough to focus on me for once. Kind of why I have such terrible self-worth. 

But... with self-love I need to let go of that. Because I need to love myself without any one else's approval or love. I am who I am and I need to stop telling myself I am a waste of breath and totally worthless. Sometimes those demons get loud though. All of those things I listed above though, should shut those demons up. Right? 

Anyways, I had seen some things on here because I read others' blog posts (it's all so interesting!) and I had some questions. Well, only two at the moment because I had a list going in my head and I lost that list. hah! 

  • What is subspace exactly? 
  • How can a sub/dom relationship exist without love? Does that even happen?

I asked that last question in my last blog post but didn't get much answers. I also wonder, because I am shy... I read but I don't comment on others blogs. Should I start coming out of my shell? Maybe that will help with my un-ending lonliness. Well, I suppose that's it for this. 

Forever daydreaming of my future dom. 

-just me

SchrodingersDinosaur​(switch female){N/a} - Hi Hun, just wanted to weigh in on a couple of things you said. First, as to blog responses, it's an odd phenomenon (and if any of you all out there have anything more granular to add please jump in!) but some periods are just more interactive than others. Don't know why it is exactly, but it just seems like sometimes everybody is chattering and other times, even with approximately the same number of folks around everybody is just quieter. Don't overthink a blog that hasn't gotten a lot of response, there can be a myriad of reasons it hasn't been commented on. Not to mention some of us (guilty here for sure!) get behind on blogs and then binge read and comment at a later time so you may still have responses coming in. Second, in regards to you reading and not commenting in my opinion you are doing great to be blogging so early. Many people (me included again) just read and didn't interact for quite awhile before being comfortable enough to put what they have to say out there. Don't feel pressure to, but don't be scared of sharing either. You might have something to say that is exactly what someone else needs to hear! Finally, for your two questions, subspace is unique to each person that experiences it but in a nutshell it's just a feeling or state where everything else outside of what you are experiencing just kind of fades away. There is a biochemical component to it but I think a lot is emotional too. Definitely worth reading up on. And the 'love' question...it is definitely possible to have D/s relationships that don't include romantic love. Everybody has their own take on it, but from my perspective the most critical piece is trust, there are people that trust one another totally but don't feel 'love' for each other. Just as there are couples that love each other but don't trust their partner any further than they could throw them. It can be a complicated situation to do D/s with the intention of keeping it platonic because it's easy to either mistake the connection you have for love or actually transition to loving the other person kind of unwittingly. Hope that helps a bit.
5 years ago
CK45​(sub female) - Hi Special 😊.
Phanes sent you a great link for the sub space question. You can also find lots online about it.
For the answer to your second question, I think you would be surprised at how many different answers you will get.
You will need to read and read to understand why there are so many different points of view....you may even change your own mind after experiencing things for yourself.
Find the right way for you ❤️
Good luck Special. 🤗🤗 keep blogging, it’s awesome!
5 years ago

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