Regarding yesterdays little rant: I am calmER today. Yesterday I just could not seem to calm down, all evening and most of the night. Somehow I slept but I just felt so angry (I am like that sometimes).
I am grateful that I found this site because otherwise I would have thought that BDSM natural went hand in hand with rude, verbally aggressive, unpleasant people. I think I would have genuinely thought that if you wanted one you had to have the other.
Also I have been thinking that toxic environments kind of suck me in (I prefer to talk specifically about my self). You would think that it would be easy to get away from them but it really isn't, and also I feel very empty and purposeless.
I have set my self a goal of only looking on FL twice a week from know on, and I probably will give it up soon, but then I feel I am, more or less giving up on ever meeting. . . anyone.
Sorry this is a bit garbled.
