It's so hard to wake up in the morning knowing that I won't have a good morning waiting for me. It's so hard to go to sleep knowing that I don't have a good night and sweet dreams waiting for me. I know that the pain and hurt will lessen over time but with the wound still fresh it hurts so much because I was left to clean up and explain why. Over the last couple of years I have been hurt and made to feel like I was good for only one thing and when I met him, he was helping me heal from that and then he leaves me and I feel like I am not worthy to have anyone. I try not to let it show that I have been hurt especially at where I work but it is so very hard. Right now just about everything reminds me of him and it hurts so much. I just want to crawl into a hole and never come out. He tore my heart into pieces and I don't know if it will ever be able to be put back together. The only people who knew about us are those who know us here on the Cage. What makes this worse is besides losing Daddy, I lost my actual father back in January and I am so very fragile at this moment. I want to thank all those who are supporting me during this time. It means the world to me.
5 years ago. March 15, 2019 at 4:41 PM
