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3 years ago. May 25, 2020 at 3:23 PM

Sometimes it’s a bitter pill to swallow when you realize that not everyone is on the same level or sees things the same way as you. That something which to you is blatantly clear and shooting off bright neon warning signs, or the proverbial red flag, to others is merely a blip or a shadow. You never know when to give warning or hold your tongue, speak up or bide your time and hope you were in error. You wish with all your might that what seems like patterns are just pretty designs and clever coincidence. Until you realize they are indeed not, and you were right once again.

 

To have an empaths spirit, a giving open heart and a healers soul means you deeply feel the urge and need to reach out and shelter, protect, defend, and ultimately be a provider for those around you, the warrior, the mother, the nurse, the guide, the teacher, the scholar, the friend…anything that helps them in their time of need.

You also need to learn that you do not control much of anything, and even though you ache and pain and yearn to take away all that ails them, you know that it is their struggle and path and that even though they want help, they may not want or need YOUR help, no matter how much they profess otherwise.

I am well aware that we cannot travel on another’s journey for them, and that each have their own lessons and tasks in their life, but to know the difference between a cry for help as a necessity or desire, and be able to determine if it is a lifeline VS doing them a disservice…this is a thin sharp line with a very steep drop on either side, one of the hardest tightropes to ever walk.

 

I long ago learnt that not every cry for help is genuine, and not everyone wants from you the things they say, or the things they “think” they need. I learnt to tell the difference by hearing the words they say (and the ones that are left unsaid) and how these words align with actions, behavior and intentions. This has yet to fail me, although truth be told I often do not like the results.

It is through many a heartache, trauma and shattering of my self on this journey that I come to see the patterns and the cycles now repeat, bringing in full circle some of the hardest and most difficult times I’ve seen thus far. And it shows me that although I may be able to soldier through from these things and forge ahead to the other side, not everyone is able, willing or capable of doing those things. Whether it is by choice or an inability for whatever reason does not matter. The result is still the same, it means that with a heaviness of heart it’s time to let go and let this cycle complete itself so I can move on and stop being held back on my journey.

 

I an a loner, this has always been true, not by choice but default on my journeys and adventures. I have those I hunt with and join when there is opportunity, but I will ever and always be my own. Alpha, ready to do what I must I order to survive and flourish. I do not bow to those around me because to me we are all in our own ways equal, balanced and in our unique and special ways compliment one another in a glorious and amazing way.

And I will always be the watcher, the seeker, the hunter searching for my home and my personal truth. I go where the wind blows me, along mountains, through rivers, across oceans and distant shores, learning, growing, and exploring as I follow my spirits call.

I love, honor and respect all those I meet on my travels and even though there is heartache and pain, there is also so much love and joy.

So with awe, gratitude and amazement in my heart right now I pray for love, happiness and joy for those I have been blessed to come across.

Jack in the box -



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3 years ago
Little moon​(sub female){Not lookin} - *holds out a marshmallow and jelly bean bouquet then runs off to go dance in the rain
3 years ago
Jack in the box -
Sweet soul ☺
3 years ago
Little moon​(sub female){Not lookin} - Awww dats just the sugar rush talking ;)
3 years ago
slaveMikayla​(sub female){MstrJ } - So very much love (and understanding). Blessed be.
3 years ago
Little moon​(sub female){Not lookin} - <3 thank you and I hope you're having a beautiful day, blessed be
3 years ago
SeekingOne​(dom male){Taken} - Beautiful words ❤️
3 years ago
Little moon​(sub female){Not lookin} - Thank you, and I hope you have some wonderful things to smile about today :) <3
3 years ago
Sir Don​(dom male){Creidsinn } - Well this is beautiful coming from a beautiful soul. I hope you are having the best day possible. We are blessed to be a part of your journey
3 years ago
Little moon​(sub female){Not lookin} - It has been most productive and wonderful yes thank you :) Sometimes letting go of things can be so calming and relaxing <3
3 years ago
Grey Eyes​(sub female){Owned} - As we love, honor and respect you, Missy. We are blessed to have had you touch our lives.
3 years ago
Little moon​(sub female){Not lookin} - Again ;) <3 Ever and always mama :*
3 years ago
SSG{ENM-TLP} - Love you sis
3 years ago
Little moon​(sub female){Not lookin} - And we wuvs you, you glorious beautiful amazing thing <3 SO much joy to have you on my journey too!!
3 years ago
FearlessBrat​(sub female){H.PL.} - 💗💗💗
According to Soul Contract theory we encounter beings whether they are people or our beloved pets that they are ment to teach us or we to teach them. If it's the second in most cases we can only advice and be supportive. Some stay with us for the rest of our lives and some just pass through.
We will never know the impact we have on the others....we will only know what we have learn through our jorney.
My first ever blog on The Cage was a Maori Inside to Life:
"We are only visitors to this time, this place. We are just passing through. Our purpose here is to observe, to learn, to grow, to love and then we return home."
3 years ago
Little moon​(sub female){Not lookin} - I believe something along the same lines yes :) But that doesn't make the hurting any easier at the time and it also doesn't stop the pain. But for all that is a fountain of beauty and magical moments, touches, memories and things to hold close and keep us safe and sane <3 Beautiful saying thank you dear
3 years ago
Cherry2000​(sub female) - Lovely and touching. 💖
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Little moon​(sub female){Not lookin} - Thank you and always happy when my writing speaks to others :)
3 years ago
Cherry2000​(sub female) - I love being able to find the positive in any learning situation and to share with others. You never know who may be going through the same thing and needs to hear what you have to say.
3 years ago
Little moon​(sub female){Not lookin} - So true and a beautiful reminder thank you love :) I too love to do so, every occasion is an opportunity to grow and learn for me :)
3 years ago
LilAmethyst​(sub female){DaddyDrago} - Awwwwww wittle one this is so insightful and absolutely beautiful. 💗

I understand so well what you so beautifully expressed from you heart here. Learning to have boundaries for our own heart’s is key. I am so proud of you! And deeply grateful to be a witness on your journey. Wuvs you HUGE! 💕🌹💕🌹💕🌹💕🌹💕
3 years ago
Little moon​(sub female){Not lookin} - As always you get me spot on <3 Thank you dearheart, you are a huge part of my progress and growth, and such a welcome blessing and delight on my journey and adventures. Your light is beautiful and helps beyond measure :) We wuvs you HUGE-RER!!
3 years ago
Morley​(sub female){Max Sterne} - I resonate with this sooooooo much! You are a beautiful soul and it has been my honour to get to know you and witness your journey. Much love and peace to you! 🌼❤️🌼

p.s. I just stopped for groceries and saw a Smores Kit... I thought of you and would have taken a picture, but phone was in car charging. ❤️
3 years ago
Little moon​(sub female){Not lookin} - Super happy to hear that and I am so happy to have you on my adventures as well <3 It takes a beautiful soul to see another one :*
*p.s SQUUEEEEE <3 ...not sure I've ever HAD a smore but it sounds like epic fun and thank you for the thought <3
3 years ago

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