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   When I first started to train as a Dom these are the words Sir James started with. He explained to me that this is the rule I must start to live by if I say it I must do it how else is my potential sub going to respect my word if I don't keep it. There is nothing worse then starting something and not finishing it. It screams of some one who only pays lip service to his sub and as long as she only pays lip service it will be alright after all if I don't finish why should they. 

   But sir what if I start something and find I can't complete it? He simply smiled and said if you can't finish then get someone who can but it is your responsibility to do what you said you would no one else. You see John don't make a law you can't live with. Tomorrow I will talk listen learn and instate.     

NOTE: please excuse me if I stray into or use a word that you have to look up.

   Over the years that B.D.S.M. has grown and changed some principals of the lifestyle have changed and some of value have been lost for good or bad this is just the way of it. Example: online no one thought of this back then. Back then there was a rule governing just about everything, now things have become more free flowing and made to fit a more laxed life. However back then there were temporary and permanent collars temporary were used for play partners and trainees. For the chosen few there are life collars. These are collars that are given to those who are life partners and were given in a ceremony similar to wedding vows but not the same because you can always divorce a partner not so with life partners you could set them aside but you must and are responsible for them till they die. 

    As you can see Life collars for a Dom are a very major decision and for the sub as well why, simple if he calls you must come or risk expulsion from the community. And even exposure is not worse because even if exposed you would still have the community to care and cherish you. But along with this decision comes the inevitable "no one lives forever" So back then a rule that became a custom and then lost was the rule that you as their Dom provide a guide for your sub one who would help you over the ruff spots that life throws your way. In the vanilla world this would fall to the oldest child in the family in OUR world it falls to a selected Dom to care for your sub he acted as guide and would remind the sub to do your daily devotions and rituals. This does not mean sex and love of that kind but it has been known to happen. In this life every one Dom or sub needs a mentor some one more experienced in the life to help them get through this and come back to wanting to live again. 

Example: Sir James being much older then his young ladies this Job fell to Sir John who acted as guide and me as mentor to his ladies as time wore on sir John has stopped guiding for four of sir James ladies but still acts as Guide for two of them and of course I still act as mentor to all of them. As you can see and compare the modern Guide can and is called a protector on line. and for  the fortunate, a guide if they can be there for them in real life. 

Any questions will be answered as fast as I can bare in mind that I may ask questions my self to help me answer you to your needs.              

   There are two titles that could start this blog either once upon a time or I was set up. Both could describe who I am now thanks to a domineering father and a soft mother I think that might be why I turned to women for comfort in my life or I was just generically driven either way I am who I am. I love women and now one man a strong domineering man with a hart filled with love and kindness. Just like my father and my first sir all had hands of steel harts of gold they all have helped me learn to be a woman, mother and lover. My father gave me the strength to accept who I am my first sir gave me the opportunity to grow into who I am and my second sir keeps me standing tall and strong on the path I have chosen. Don't get me wrong my partner sue may be the reason and our babies are the reason I strive for success. But my sir has always been the the reason that I can risk new things because like sir James I know he will pick me up dry my tears brush me off and tell me to try it again with feeling LOL he's big on feeling. 

   How did he do it? He let me seduce myself I'm very good at doing that. All he had to do was be him a quiet gentleman talking when he had to and always listening and watching me. Like sir James he never made to show himself off he let his quiet and tranquil personality do all his work. But looking back the last few months it makes sense he trains horses for a living. And like me they are very high strung and wild and must be treated with a gentile hand till they trust you and when they do they will do everything they can to please you, with a gentile hand you can tame any wild beast and that is me wild to the core but now he has domesticated me. But he is very different too. you see sir James trained me so sir Tim has merely needed to keep me in line and he has very large firm and callused hands when he wraps his hand around my neck and pulls firmly but gently in to kiss me when he forces my lips apart for that kiss I feel myself surrender to his demands. When his hands touch and spread my ass and feel his fingers enter both of his holes at the same time and slowly stretch to open me I feel my mind open as well. When he  sometimes askes who owns you Viking girl I melt and whimper and he will make me whimper till I say you sir. He has shown me I need the calm before the storm even more then the storm and the calm after and shown me he can calm me rain slap's on my ass tits and thigh with speed and force I need then care and soothe the pain after till I can bring myself to let him go and care for the others. this is the gift of sir Tim and the love of his ladies is the gift we give in return.                     

   This was the body of a mail I received here. to be honest I was going to treat it like some clumsy come on but then I read it again and then I looked at the source and then back to the message again. And decided it was a valid question. What are we now we are no longer the little girls that first came here under the wings of Jane our sub mentor to fall ungracefully under sir sir James feet but we are not all grown up either. Looking back at the Mari who first came under the shadow of this house and into the lifestyle that we practice and the woman I have become and mother and business woman as well as ranchers toy and love that I am now. God what a difference 6 short years can make in growth of a sub and woman.

   Now having reached the ripe old age of 26 I now have come to realize the most important lesson Jane and sir taught me is the lesson's never end. I will continue to learn about myself and others for the rest of my life. And this I believe is the secret to life when we stop learning we start dyeing. I am not the ill equipped girl I was before but I am far from being grown either. Thankfully both Jane and Dena left behind cheat sheets for me in the form of journals to read and learn from. And sir James as well these books are more to teach me how to run the massive business empire he left me to run till someone more qualified then me to run later but there are lessons for me to understand in the lifestyle we live as well to help me understand my Dom better as a man if not as a Dom because let's be honest all Dom's are different in their likes and dislikes but they do help me understand him. 

   So on to the question of what we are Now. Now we are a group of women who operate and run different companies who chose to keep this house in order and this family happy and on course to becoming the best lovers and mothers and women that we can be and all of of us under the firm hand of one Dom who listens to us when we need to talk about our troubles and solves those he can and helps us find away to solve the ones he can't or won't. He also is very good at giving us what we need to calm and re-center us. Before helping us back on our feet turning us or leading back to the path or sometimes carrying us back to the path. 

 Thank you to the Dom who asked the question who made me think what we are now.                        

   It has been six months of learning how to stand sit and kneel on this day as is the custom of the club. When a new sub is deemed ready she is auctioned to the highest bidder  for  life to the highest bidder. It was a frenzied day and a glorious night at least for me. Let me try to remember it, first I was covered in scented oil and we were judged by a panel of five Dom's and Five subs in the afternoon and not told our scores. We came onto the stage one at  a time put on a small platform and given orders stand, sit, kneel and speak. we were asked questions and gave answers. the judges walked around us and looked at us from different angels one girl could not handle it and started to cry she was taken away and given back to her trainer for further training at first I was a little offended but then I found myself filling with pride I will show these people what a well trained sub looks like I will not embarrass Amanda or sir. 

   At first I was disappointed to learn I was to be last on the block I thought I had failed Amanda and my sir while listening to the other girls on the block I realized that I must have been the best of the night but i was not expecting what I got. The auctioneer introduced me (Dena had two masters one in economics and the other in business administration) when he gave my score I was shocked to learn I received 10's in stands, sitting, poise, and kneeling and a 100 in the question and answer. I was standing proud as my sir's and Amanda's student, when the bidding started it came fast and climbed quickly then out of nowhere I heard his voice cut threw with an unbelievable bid everyone got quiet even the auctioneer stopped to ask if he heard it right and my sir repeated it the auction was over the auctioneer simply hit the gavel and announced there you have it ladies and gentlemen the highest bid for the highest scored sub to ever come up for auction. He stood came up to me took my hand and said low and hard you are mine for the rest of your life he then turned and simply said follow and I did he pointed to a pillow to his left and said sit and I did that too. Amanda just looked at me and smiled. sir just looked around as if he was daring anyone to argue his rights. the next month he formalized it with the ceremony of bonding.              

    B.D.S.M. and Poly are really two different lifestyles that complement each other nicely. But are very different in how they start. First let us look at Poly life and how it starts. When two people come to love each other they can come to a point where they feel something is missing and they decide together to add another in the mix. In my own case I have been with women on many occasions as well as men being bisexual and coming to understand myself it was only natural for me to seek out someone of each sex on a permanent arrangement my partner Jill and I fell for each other quickly and closely and are very happy but we both recognized that we need a more Dominant partner to really complete us and luckily Sir Tim was there when we needed him Jill had known him and he was a Dom of the house so I went to him and sure enough he was the perfect fit for us. Being bi means that all sides are met but it does not exclude three straights from coming together for a good fit either we know of two sisters who love the same man and all live together and they make it work as well. The real concern is the third person and finding how they fit to complete the triad. This takes more conversations between the three to make it work and more work as well but don't let this stop you from making it work. My first sir had a saying work divided is work  accomplished faster. Also being bi has made life easier for all five of us. It becomes very defined rolls and yet very loose rolls as well.

   In B.D.S.M. you have the sub and you have the Dom and as the sub you have built the trust between the both of you and have discussed those points of his control that you have agreed to he is the boss in certain things and you have your own tasks to carry out and so does he/she but you always defer to them in all things. and they take the responsibilities for success or failure on their shoulders on a daily bases make no mistake this can be a heavy weight for them to carry. Now this may sound like some kind of tribute to my sir but it is not meant to be it is just a statement of facts. We ladies get up at 4 am sir is up earlier because coffee and some thing sweet is wheeled into the room by him he then goes down to the office to work and check progress of the 4 ranches and two farms we own and he runs hopefully there are no problems but he still does not finish going over things till breakfast at 8 luckily we have others to do the morning chores. After breakfast he then works with the horses training and caring for each horse while the hands help with the running they need caring for the bulls we keep the pigs the sheep the elk and a lot of the little but needed things answering questions and directing both here and on the other properties vie phone stopping every time one of us come to him with something he does this till dinner. After dinner he goes back to the office and does the books hopefully the other ranches and farms have reported in he finally comes to bed around eight to find out how our day went. 

   Now add in 4 type A ladies who need to be soothed and kissed and coddled before they can get rid of the days affairs he gets to sleep between 9:30 and 10 only to raise at 3:30 to get ready for the next day. You can see he has very little time to himself if we where all to go to him with our individual issues you will wind up with either a walkaway Dom or one who has just had a be committed for a long rest. Do you see the problem now the only way for a poly and D/s relationship to work is for the subs to settle the majority of the daily things that come up.   The saying we use a lot here between us subs is his job is to care for us our job is to care for us and him.                   

   Something about what she said did not line up with the man I came to call sir. so I decided to do something about it was I nervous oh hell yes more accurately scared shitless. But my gut told me I was right. Amanda and I cleaned the condo from top to bottom inside and we even drained the hot tub and cleaned it and refilled it. sir called and said he was on his way home and did we need anything so I asked please sir could you get flowers he laughed and said he already had. I had convinced her to dress like me in bra panties and high heels we both kneeled by the front door to wait for him. He came in the door and found us like that he took in the site and I saw the bulge develop without saying any thing I reached up and pulled his zipper down reached in and kook him out then I changed the plans on Amanda I reached over and put her mouth in him of course he did what come naturally to all sub's I stood and relived sir of the flowers he came home with that's when I realized he brought two bouquet's of flowers and realized I was right about this man this Dom MY DOM is a gentleman born to the life. I got back just as he started to orgasm and helped Amanda clean him off then turned to kiss her. He helped us to our feet and that's when I saw the tears in his eyes. he did not say a word he just kissed us both very deeply. We took him by the arms and led him to the bedroom to change Amanda started to leave to make dinner before going to the club that night and I stopped her and said take care of him I'll make dinner tonight. It was not long before I heard her scream thank you sir and I knew I was right He only stopped her that first time because he did not think she had come to care enough for him and being the gentleman he is he waited for her to make the move later. Dear god how did I get this lucky. We never made it to the club that night. Instead I found out what Dom flavored pussy was like HAHA and i found how a woman's lips differed from a man's. The next day we spent all together that night before bed sir James handed me the box he brought home and said this is you a training collar it was the same as the one Amanda had only mine was pink gold and hers was regular gold.  We started to sleep all together go out to dinner on Friday nights and the club. Amanda stayed home to care for the house while sir and I went to work 6 days a week for him. Saturdays Amanda would work and train me on not only how we worked at home but also how we looked when we went out or as she called it high protocol and low protocol. And of course how much fun there is to have a second sub around.

NOTE: this particular entry was both hard to read you could tell she was afraid and worried and was done in two different pan's so there may have been a day or two in this entry. also it just brought back my own memories of Jane and I. But I felt it was important to put it all down as she did.  

   Amanda came in while I was gingerly sitting at the kitchen table, she looked  at me smiled pulled me up pushed me over the table pulled my tap pants down just under my ass stepped back. I was so shocked I just stood there she looked at my ass and said "oh that looks so good" she stepped to me put  her left hand on my back and rubbed my ass it hurt so good I felt myself getting wet and when I felt my ass wiggle of its own movement she put two fingers in and made me come. This was the first time with a woman and it was good.

   While I calmed down she went to a hidden refrigerator pulled out a cold jell mat put it on my chair helped me to sit got a coffee and topped mine before she said any thing else. Now lets talk little girl you are in a state right now called sub frenzy you want to try it all and all at the same time. Well you can't it sounds and look's great but you are not really ready for it yet. The very hard part for you now is going to be trusting sir. James he will know when you are ready. But. No don't interrupt me while I teach, this is the reason there is time set aside for training by your Dom. I will help you but you must learn trust in sex like you learned trust in him in the real world out side these doors. I'm sure you have talked about all the things you have seen at the club things that turned you on and things that didn't but that is only the start at each step you may find that things that did not turn you on will, later as you become more and more devoted to the life and him. Remember you are young you both are and it's now his job to decide what you may or may not  have. You just found out you enjoy the touch of a woman as well as a man this happens quite often in the life. it is not that it is preferred it is just that the pain excites you and all you want is to orgasms  you don't care how or who. This is also how i know you are in a state of frenzy as normally you would have expressed your concern over who was doing it to you. Go ahead now you may ask and yes I like girls to as well as what a man offers. Now tell me what happened last night.

   After telling her what happened but also how I felt while he did it. She smiled at me she said well you have to admit you deserved that spanking I thought those bruises looked more like punishment then fun. O.K. now you are going to find out the other reason for the morning rituals we have been practicing the last couple of months. First let's get dressed and do our morning run we only ran about two miles but when we got back I felt more relaxed we stripped and meditated on patience and the need for it. after we showered I found that I was calmer and more in control of my lust. Amanda and I sat for a full breakfast and talked. She expressed her surprise at the control our Dom demonstrated with me she had a far away look in her eyes. I asked her you have been with him for five years and you have never even tried to make love to him. She look down an said yes about six months after moving in with him she said that he just took her in his arms and called her mom too soon and I never tried again oh I still get fucked at the club and share other sub's Dom's when they have asked me as I have sir's permission but I have never tried with him again so I envy you some. That was when I knew and I planed it it out.  CONT:         

    How do they do it is it something they develop or born with. 

   How does a hand so ruff and callused.

   Hit so hard and cold on an ass.

   Yet be so hot and tender on that same ass.

   How can it feel like a band of leather around my neck.

   With just a touch on that neck incite such passion.

   how when combined with with his arms can he make us feel so safe.

   Or resting gently on my small shoulder make me feel like the world is at my feet.

   Or make me feel I can do whatever I want.

   Is this the trick of the man or the Dom. Is it a gift or does he work to develop it over time. This is the question Jill and I ponder together and debate.

   In the end we have decided that regardless we four are very lucky women. to be able to give such strength in what we do and accept the recharge that this man offers.   

    Amanda asked me if this is what I wanted because I am young and this will be a forever choice as far as he is concerned and if it was not for her it will really hurt him. And I can not allow that you see she says to me I am not only his stand in mom I am also his sub. What does that mean? Dena my dear child this is the other part of the life. She went on to explain that when she was growing up things were different women never had to pay bill's never bought or sold a house never took the car for an oil change never changed a tire almost none of the things a "modern" woman deals with today. When my husband and owner passed he made sure to have someone to care for me as we did not have children to care for me he asked sir James if he would take ownership of me. This is the non sexual side of the love a Dom offers or at least an old style Dom my owner did not leave me broke but he did leave me unprepared for caring for myself financially. Yes I love him like my son and he does handle everything through power of attorney that he holds yes I do get spanked if I spend more then he sees fit and in return I care for him and his home this I will be giving over to you if you really want to make him yours.  You must ask him to own you he will have nothing short of that it is his way and our way. Don't get me wrong I will be here to help you any way I can to help ease your way into this life but it will be all or nothing I think the modern term you kids are starting to use is 24/7 is that right we old folks just call it our right's as a sub. When I asked her what if he get's tired of me she simple smiled and said even if he does he will make sure you have everything you need from that point forward. But I don't think he would ever do that it is more likely you would get tired of him and ask to leave and even then he would make sure you have everything you need. Dena that is the difference between marriage and bonding one really is forever security.

   That Friday I had made up my mind to have him as my sir. And I got my first lesson of his dominance over me. I locked the front door of the office and took my dress off and panties walked into his office kneeled in front of him and proceeded to do the best blow job I could, and it did not work I felt humiliated a half hour and he just sat there not even getting hard. By this time in frustration and crying I asked him why. Think Dena have you forgotten something, something very important to me? Then Amanda's words came back to me "If you really want him you must surrender all to him". I looked up into his eyes and they were pleading with me please give me what I need? So I asked him please sir will you make me yours's? And just like that he was hard as a rock and he said yes, he said YES this time my lips barely touched him when he filled me with the sweet taste of freedom. After we cleaned up I fixed my make-up and we went to dinner. He took me to our new home. Amanda had left roses and Champaign. And then he bent me over the table and said now for your punishment for making me withstand a half hour of the most incredible blow job I have ever received in my life he then spanked me hard have you ever cried and hickuped and laughed at the same time. It was the best orgasm I have ever felt. I came back to my senses in his tub the hot water and bubbles Champaign chocolate covered strawberries and kisses lots and lots of kisses.   

                                                              isn't love grand  ❤❤❤ Mari ???