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   Crawl she said okay i said so I got on my hand and knees and crawled around the floor. She laughed and said no dear like this she got down and crawled like a cat looking me in the eye back arched slowly like a cat her moves slow and sensual with long strides of her legs and arms her ass swaying instead of stopping to face me she turned ass in the air looking over her shoulder. It was sexy as hell. it was the start of learning how to move like a woman with grace. She also gave me a book to read and learn on etiquette. Over the next two months I practiced it all she tested me and if I got it wrong she would smack my ass and make me do it again and again till I did it right. It has been an experience I was moved to sir's house to a spare room every morning Amanda and I would run and she taught me to mediate on staying true to myself first as a woman and an independent person as well as turning my life over to a Dom to his care this was made easy by sir treating me like he did before at work. He asked me for advise on work projects and growth of his companies he spent less and less time in the office allowing me to handle more and more of the daily work. But I must be done by 5 pm every Friday as I was told this would be date night we would go to dinner and talk about what i wish to come from what I was learning and how I thought it would help me latter. At the end of that month I lost 20 lb.'s and my hips lost two sizes I was now a prefect 36c- 26- 36. and feeling very good. my reward for all this work was 1 CT diamond ear rings. But what I really wanted is to have sex with him. But I was informed that would not happen till I asked to be his sub and not before.  He was a very frustrating but disciplined man. 

   Every Friday and Saturday Amanda taught classes it the local club on the Lifestyle. We would attend the club on Saturday nights this only served to make me horny and my going home to fuck myself silly when we got back. Sundays were spent on normal date stuff and sweet memories made we had fun and excitement doing the normal stuff that every couple does when learning about each other I find this making me trust this man more and more. 

   In time I asked Amanda what is the difference between regular and lifestyle she smiled and said that's easy "respect" it is the key because without it do you think you could really do all the nasty and decadent things you want to do together if you thought you would not be respected after or that you could respect the Dom who could do theses things to you. My dear you are going to learn what freedom really feels like you are going to learn not only freedom of the mind and soul but real freedom of using and having your body used by your master for the sheer release of everything that you must keep pent-up during the week so that at the end you can come to complete relaxation so that life can truly be enjoyed.

   She stopped dating her entries and just wrote them as she came to realize the changes in herself and what she felt where the causes of these changes.                                                                      ??Mari??                  

   As I wandered around I found a room labeled "SUB SPACE" so I looked in and found a kind of class going on being led by an older woman she looked up smiled and waved me in. She introduced herself as Amanda she told me I was welcome there are no Dom's here this is just for sub's to talk between ourselves and lessons on etiquette for those who wish to make this a life and not just for kink in there sex life. I Stayed in there and asked questions on the life for 4 hours until I realized I was the last one there with Amanda she waved my apology aside stating that was her role now to teach any that ask. On a thought I asked her if she ever mentored novice subs that I would be willing to pay? She stated that it was how she made her living now so yes but first she asked me who I was in consideration to when I told her she smiled and said for you there will be no charge as she owed my sir a debt she could not pay. She gave me her card and told me to call on Monday afternoon.   

   When I came out sir was leaning by the wall talking to a man and his Dommer a very hot looking woman when he saw me he smiled in a knowing way that said such a smart girl such a prefect girl you will make me very proud. He then excused himself with a little bow and came to me he took my hand and kissed it and said ready to leave the car is waiting and you can sleep an the way "home". With that he put a pillow on his lap I laid my head down and woke some where else.

                                                                                      Sunday July 6 1980 

   I woke and looked around at the unfamiliar bedroom there was a dressing gown at the foot of the bed when I looked over I could tell no one else was there I slept alone I splashed some water on my face and removed the make up I had worn put the robe on and went in serch of some clothing and food. I found the food first and along with the food was what was to be my new life. My sir and Amanda where sitting at the table talking he saw me and got up to get my breakfast. When I sat to eat he told me he had some things to look into and he would be back later mom will take care of you till I get back. MOM are you kidding me I thought when he left and I woke up enough to talk she was smiling at me and said that's just what he calls me let me explain. I lost my Dom and husband of twenty years three years ago and James was a close friend of my sir's to say I was lost would be an understatement. He arranged the funeral and payed for it because I was next to catatonic he brought me here hired a woman to nurse me back to normal and since we had no children just looked after me and started calling me mom and acted as my Dom and guided me through the pain and loss he was the one who convinced me to start teaching and made the arrangements at the club so you see I can not accept money from you to train you to be the best submissive for him now can I. 

 And so her lessons started with this Amanda. She was taught how to stand in both public and in private how to guard his back at all times protect him so he can make my and others lives better. She taught her how to kneel how to exercise to keep herself physically fit and loose in the right places and tight in the right places how to keep her mind at its peek through meditation. And most important of all how to stay herself while being his to own                                                                                                         ?? Mari ??    

   Well yesterday I found my courage and after work asked Jim to dinner. When we were at dinner I told him I wanted more from him that i wanted to date him in fact. He got very quiet then looked me in the eye and said I would like that as well but you must understand that I am very different at home then I am at work. If I told you I was what is called a Dom do you know what that means and that I only date sub's? When I answered that I wasn't sure, when he started to explain it to me that at home what he said was what he expected to be done unlike at work, you can not argue with me and if you do you will be punished for doing so these punishment's would be discussed ahead of time so you will know what to expect. There are also things that are done for fun or fourplay these are also talked about ahead of time. You will be expected to act a certain way when we are not at work after all this do you still want to try and walk down that road with me, do not answer now think on it. Tomorrow night I will take you someplace that caters to my lifestyle if you want. To this I answered yes. fine he said I will send you the clothing you will have to were so you don't feel out of the crowd give me your measurements and I will handle it. For now lets just go see a movie and I take you home. after he walked me to my door like always but this time he made me melt by taking me in his arms and saying Dena yo have made me very happy since meeting you regardless of how things turn out I need you to know you will always be some one special to me when he kissed me this time it was not on the cheek when his lips touched mine they had a mix of chaste and passion in them that i never felt before from any one else when it ended all I wanted was for it to continue. 

   When I woke today I was nude I could not help myself last night my toy was still in me batteries quit dead sheets soaked, and all I wanted to do was put my fingers back to work. I had called up dominance and submission up on my computer and the only reference to it was either dry articles of deviance behavior or porn the articles scared me the porn was much the opposite it made me so horney so fast I was surprised. The computer was still on so I looked up clothing for what i now knew was called bdsm. mostly leather. so later when the promised clothing arrived I was very surprised to find every thing was silk and lace all in pink the only thing that was leather was a collar with a pink gold clasp when I dressed I found it made me look sexy as hell like a very hi class call girl when i put my hair up and put the collar on looked at myself in the mirror I wanted to rape me.  the dress was a mini that just barely cover the top of my stocking and realized there were no panties and I was already moist. 

   When he came to the door at 7pm he looked so good in a tux all he said to me was how do you feel I told him nervous and horney he smiled and said good he then put a flower in my hair over my left ear and told me it is to show that you are under consideration and the collar is to show you are owned and in training so this will let you ask all the questions from others and they are expected to answer completely. Also you should know many will look at you and ask questions of you because you are the first person I have ever taken to the club just answer honestly and you'll be fine have you eaten lets go to dinner first. He took me to a place that had private booths and intercom ordering the food was passed in from a little trap door so as not to disturb or privacy. After dinner we went to for all intense looked like a private home from the outside lots of land around it when the door was opened the blond woman who answered looked at me and said well Sir James i see you have finally brought a guest and if I may she is rather exquisite. I blushed at this and all sir said was you did not think I would bring just any sub here did you madam only the best of the best. She escorted us to a table with only one chair and a very comfy cushion for me. 

   When I make myself comfortable I find myself with my arm on Jim's thigh head leaning on him it just felt right but not something I would do normally. as I sit very quietly he says to me good girl and I feel it excite me but I can't explain this either the stage lights come up for a demonstration he leans down and tells me that what I am going to see is called Shibari Japanese rope tying. A woman takes the stage in just a pair of panties then a smaller Asian man come on and studies the woman from different angels when he is done he claps his hands and another small Asian woman comes on stage with a table with different ropes and in different colors he looks them over and picks a blue rope to start. He barks up and the woman raises her arm's up he then carefully prepares the rope  and starts in a very short time he has tied this rope off. steps back and says turn. When she turns you could see a very intricate pattern on he back he the walks over to the table and picks a red one again he carefully measures and starts again this time when she the turns there is another pattern on her front in both red and blue. next he picks a very long black rope he then orders the woman to put her arms behind her back he has his assistant work with this rope so it does not knot up while he works he walks behind her and starts when he is done this rope is wrapped around her arm and legs and finished around her neck she is kneeling. he calls for the suspension rope to be lowered when he is done she is suspended off the floor.   As I came back to myself I felt the wetness on me and Jim was looking into my eyes very deeply before saying when you have yourself sorted out go and mingle with the other sub's and ask all the questions you want.    CONTINUED                   

      It has been two years since he came to own the company. In the beginning I had no idea that he would change the company so much the first day he came in he fired our bookkeeper of ten years no explanation just let her go later I found out from my father who sold him the company that she was embezzling not a great deal but still he then instructed me to lay off two of the sub contractors and use two others instead this is not uncommon in the field but still unexpected. Last year he hired a secretary to take my place and promoted me to his personal assistant I was now helping him run two companies loosely related to each other but matching up nicely as he was now able to use the sub contractors almost year round. Then he had me insure all of the employees under one company. He then restructured the payment prosses that cut his income but with the increases of business he made more money then before he bought me a new truck to have me go to job sites to keep track of materials used and make sure that they  matched what was ordered. we got along better then I expected. for a man so outwardly cold he showed me that he had a very loving care for the men and women who helped the companies grow.

   So why have I started this journal, I'm not sure but something has changed with me not him he is still the same demanding person I met two years ago but now I am feeling something deferent for him. We have gone to dinner many times and he has always kept it strictly business but I have noticed a softness developing in me to him a need to care for this man I find I want him to tell me to do sexual things to him, not make love the way I was told how love develops you know the whole falling in love with him seducing me and me letting him. No just the opposite I have begone having fantasies of being for lack of a better word his toy and want to please him in ways that are far from gentile or even romantic. I just want to serve him and have him take care of my needs to keep me to put me on a pedestal and take me down when he wants to use me.  And this scares and excites me at the same time.

   From the first time I met him he has treated me with deference he opened doors always took his hat off he even kissed my hand the first time I met him this irritated me at first to the point of me saying so. He smiled at this and said well since I'm the boss that give's you two choses either accept it or get another job because I will not change. When I asked him to explain he sat me down and did so what he told me started me to question some things I had been taught to believe as a feminist. He said he was raised to be a gentleman his manors are simple what any man owes any woman you have the gift of life and you have the burden of carrying that new life and the pain of brining it into this world these are the things any man owes any woman weather he is lucky  enough to be chosen by a particular woman or not because they are the future of mankind it has nothing to do with laying clam to a woman. To me all women belong on that pedestal if they wish to step down and help a man in the dirt and mire that is this world only means that they should be given more respect not less. Now two years later he still opens doors takes his hat off stands when a women enters a room every time and most important of all never has he tried to come on to me. But now I want him to.

   I have always looked him in the eye when we talked he has the softest brown eyes I have ever seen but when you look deeply as I have on occasion you can see the pain he holds and the danger to there is violence even deeper. 

This was the start of Dena's first journal, we unfortunately do not have any but what was written here to know what made the change to make her wish to submit to him. I am sure there are incidents that started her to change her thoughts but you will see what happened to her to bring on the total change to allow herself to be owned by one man and I mean owned she never expressed an interest in marriage that I can find. She is the one who wanted to enter a  poly lifestyle and this will be explained later in her journey I hope you enjoy her short life.  Mari ?                           

     In the time I have studied and then enjoyed the lifestyle there is one thing I can say about it all sub's come to it differently. All are born to it it is something in our genetic coding that make us call to it and luckily there are Dom's who will answer to that call. What is to follow is Dena's answer to the call answered buy Sir James. Dena's calling was much like many of her time she was raised to be a feminist so when it called to her she had trouble answering that call because from the outside it was a complete violation of how she was taught to be. It was not till her Dom showed her that it was possible and it was needed by some to complete them. It was part of how she was made to make her happy and not just content with her life. And most important of all it was not a matter of what her sex was it was not a mater male or female it was a part of every one and made us human and therefor unique and wanted and needed by others to complete them.

   Like many Dena was gifted with a high I.Q. around 150 as a consequence of this she had problems in turning her mind off. She needed something to turn it off or like many would lose her mind. When she completed collage with a masters she came to work with her father's company and stayed when her father sold it to a much younger man her story and journey starts when she meets her boss for the first time and not recognizing and confusing the call fights it tooth and nail all the way to surrender and rebirth as  a complete person.             thank you Doc.              

   Please sir we need you. This request given by two naked ladies on their knees heads bowed to the floor hand out on the floor clasped together. Yes, it's going to be a long day. Very well now that you have requested tell my why I should give you what you want. As they explain what they need from me one at a time I carefully start to arrange things. preparing the fire getting the ice and cold steal pokers one set in the fire the other set in the ice. While they kneel I place the blind folds on each bring their hands behind their backs and cuffing them I then place the vaginal plugs in  them and turn them on very low just enough to start them on their road but not enough to finish. All this is in accordance to the scene they are telling me they wish to experience together. I call Mari and Jill to witness their fun they love being shown off and in Deb's case enjoys being humiliated buy other women and this is her sub space trigger while I work on sue in front of Deb Mari and Jill sit and talk and get her going driving her to a frenzy when I have finished and Sue is feeling completely used Mari and Jill help her as she relaxes and comes back to normal I get to work on debs and all three verbally humiliates her by the time she feels me enter her she is yelling thank you sir. 

   This is how each of my ladies like it done. But this is only the sexual side of the love we share but it really is not the dynamic we share that is much more complicated and takes hours and hours of talk and seduction of each which takes more time and commitment. This also leave out the formal aspects that are needed to cement each relationship between Dom and sub.  thank you hope you enjoyed. Sir Tim            

   The door to the  tac room closes I hear her boots stop in the middle a few minuets later the door to my nice worm office opens and closes, I wait and so does she. When I finish what I was writing and put the pen down close the book and look at her she stands there long red hair hanging down shackles in her hand green eyes fierce proud and filled with the need she cant yet fully understand but knowing it cant be denied and she knows or hopes i will consent to meet that need. She walks on cat feet to her spot she bends straight legged and put the shackles on her ankle's stands straight backed and puts the other shackles on her wrists and waits her back to me her bruised buttocks' clenching to keep her balance. I just look till I see her start to shake. Only then do i stand and move behind her she is shaking as i put my arms around her and put my fingers around her nipples and roll them till she moans and pushes her ass back and rotates and grinds it on my pants till I pull back and smack her ass she squeals and spreads her legs and pleads please sir your bitch needs you I come to stand in front of her lift her chin to look me in the eye as I slowly remove my shirt and pants. She fights it but she sinks to her knees reaches up and pulls my under wear down and takes me holding her shackled wrists up I hook the chain to the pully and pull till she is on her toes. She looks in my eyes again and pleads with tears in her eyes more sir please so i pull her completely off her feet  to hang like a side of beef from the hook I start to twist her around and around till she is dizzy timing my strikes just right till her ass glows before sinking into her in one stroke her scream of pleasure fill the room and in a few seconds her legs wet she hangs limp I then raise her head gently and lick the tears away and kiss her salty lips before I lower her and carry her to the couch cover her with a horse hair blankets I sit and make her eat and drink before she goes to sleep. the wild cat has been tamed again for now this is my pet Jill. Fierce proud independent but needful of strength in her mate.                   

   Lets be honest without my ladies I'm just a man they each bring something to this mix we call the family. But chief among them is the co-leader the

prime sub, she seems to have a knack of knowing when the doubts start to creep in to my mind. Last night I had trouble sleeping I went to the office and 

sat in the chair in front of the fireplace sipping a drink and looking at the portrait of all the ladies with sir James for some reason I found myself looking at

jane and her collar she was sitting in his lap her head was held high her hand on his brow in a soothing way and a smile that said everything and yet

nothing at all. I had many things on my mind about the ranch the ladies me and how I was handling it all. I now know why he would sit here at the wee

hours of the morning and just sit to collect his thoughts about it all and he had all the other business on his mind. Just then lost in thought I did not hear

her come in she was just suddenly there her tiny body in my lap head on my shoulder hand on my face smoothing the lines taking the worry from me

talking softly she said you are not him you are you and we are learning your ways and your ways are making us whole again then she sat quietly and just

stayed quiet while nuzzling my neck. This is Mari the bringer of peace to the family she has her way with all of us.     

   It can be hard to organize but we have found the one rule that works we call it the knock and wait rule. Now that we have two in the house that are at the age of running around and are curious we have taken to this rule add in the door lock and we have so far avoided any problems. The adult playroom is locked and Sir Tim has the only key in addition the bedroom and office as well as the playroom are sound proof and you have a workable solution. for those who can not sound proof their room we have found that the only explanations to the odd noise can only be explained as mom and dad play and the follow up question is simply it is a game for adults only and is icky play this will normally stop any further questions. I hope this helps those who may need a little help that way. 

   Now for the harder one poly and the family. Luckily most people now know not to put there noises in and respect the privacy of others family as far as the children are concerned since they will have grown up in this environment the question will only pop-up when they start school and by then they will pity the poor child who only has one mom to run to or ask questions of or even play with. They know they have brothers and sisters who will always be there to stick up for them or protect them. We plan on teaching the boys to protect the girls and to have each others back from bully's and I'm sorry if this does not fit your definition of social behavior they will know how to fight.. We mothers believe that bullies only learn the hard way to mind there manors. And one more thing they will be watched to make sure they are not the bully and the punishment will be hard on them.  thank you I hope this helps those thinking of going into a poly relationship. love Mari     

   Like anything run by consensus there will on occasion come an impasse. This weekend we as a family came to one we ladies found ourselves dead locked with each of us having different options to a problem. So like we have done in the past we brought it to our sir. In the past we would put the problem to sir James and he would quickly make a chose of what direction to take it. Sir Tim is different he called each of us in one at a time to listen to our side. After thinking it over he called us all together. instead of just making a chose he explained what we where missing from each and then told us what was best for each of our explanations on solving the issue this put us on a track to quickly solve the issue to all of us. When later I took a look at the different ways of each sir I realized that he did was the same as sir James did but the way he explained it to us was the correct way for us to accept it. You see he took into account the age difference. What we would accept as gospel from a man of 60 something would have left questions when it came from a 30 something man. And this has made me come to a conclusion even though I am smarter and older then my new sir I have a long way to travel on the path to wisdom.

   It is a mystery the way of a Dom. But there is no longer any question in my mind that this man was well trained to handle us.