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   I am a hand full no one can say I am an easy sub to love, this can not be denied. My needs are many and varied but the most important of these is my need for limits, and this is what my sir provides. Left to my own I would most likely wind up hurt and alone. Like a car I need a limiter or I would speed and crash an burn. Sir Tim knows this after all I am young egocentric and I have the money to burn, not good if I did not have the restraints put on me I could do something stupid. I think sir James knew this so he put restraints on me while maintaining my sense of freedom that all subs need. How did he did this first he gave me all the money I would ever need then he told me that I must use it for others not just myself and he gave me the tool's to do it. Next he gave me children and as any mother can tell you this one thing ties you down because they become the reason to keep living even when you lose that rock that we call our Dom. But did he stop there oh no not him. I can see now because of Jane and her strange abilities she found and trained the man who would love me as well as sir James did (if not better) time will tell.

   Enter sir Tim young handsome viral and yet grounded to the land as only a Dom can be he holds the leash gently and walks me down the road and know just when to take of the leash and let me run free and strong enough to compel me to come when called. He will then fix the damage I may have done punish me while pointing and explaining why once the punishment is done he will then forgive and take me in his arms and take the pain away while insuring I have learned my lesson and most important of all he forgives and forgets.          

   I just asked him what I thought was a simple question. He said the answer you seek is in the blogs you read some need more then others. The question why can some Dom's handle more then one sub and others can't. 

   Now that I really looked I can see what he meant. Some really have more then one question to answer many come to look at this lifestyle thinking that it will be the answer they seek. and it is for many, but not all. Many do not take into account their needs they just want an easy fix or help in getting their life on track and some looking for what amounts to a sugar daddy or mommy. I am not going to address the last one no judgement they have their place. 

   The sub has the more complicated path then the Dom/Domma they already have have it together for the most part. But we subs must find a path that works for us many at least for females there is a history of abuse either mental, physicals, or sexual some times all three and we must come to terms with this ourselves before we really look for a Dom or Domma to care for us sound easy yes BUT it is the hardest thing we have ever dealt with in our lives. And sometimes no matter how hard we try we never get over some traumas but we can and must calm it down and try to not let it get to you or your partner on life's road this is what we must learn the TRIGGERS and this is something at least in the beginning the dominate partner must be told about. Don't be ashamed of them instead rejoice in them it means we are more normal then many who don't recognize that they have them it means that we have looked into the abyss and have turned away and said no you will not take me today.  I am still I, but don't expect your dominate to solve these they are not theirs to deal with but they will help you down the road to you dealing with them. Their job once in a formal bond is to help you and stand beside and at times protect you. Sir James helped us with many of our triggers but sadly we four still have many and sir Tim is there to help us overcome them when the demon raises its head it sees not just us but him standing there facing it down.  And many times with his magic sward of love goes after it? as in my previous blog.

   Jane had many and sir James loved her enough to take them on even the ones that she did not know she had over the 20 something years they had together he helped her deal with them to the point that she could decide if she was going to react to the pull of that trigger or not. And I will leave you with an Example of what how sir James helped me deal with one of my triggers.

   I am a gangbang quean and now happy to be. when I was 14 I was involved with what was mu first orgy I enjoyed it a lot but after I was ashamed of myself but could not seem to stop and every time after I felt the shame after, Sir James helped me to accept that for me they where just part of my sexual turn-ons' and to not view them as something to be ashamed of but to be proud of I had for me fulfilled my myself and many others both male and female so that now I can say I am an ethical slut and lets be honest most ladies somewhere in the back of there minds. There is the fantasy of more then one I have found that while it is real good one on two or four now is so much better but the urge is still with me and probably always will be. Sir Tim tells me its alright with him.

   Now back to the original point of this blog. In our case we four have complementary and some demons fight each other so Sir Tim says having the four of us is easier then having just one (did I mention how good he is) and the time he spends on each of us well it amazes me any way.              

    Oh not again why does he come when I feel so good. I wake and he is sitting in front of me he has my foot in his hands he smiles with his red and yellow teeth and says thank you, he then bites off one   toe    at   a   time   chewing bone and all when he is done and reaches for me I scream and wake the pillow is wet with my tears the bed and sheets are soaked with my sweat through the fog of my mind I finally hear his voice and feel his arms around me and his lips kissing the tears away. I crawl on top of him as always he is ready and I thrust myself on him not slow or gentile it is both pain and pleasure god it hurts so good. She slowly kisses me and give me the gentleness I need to balance me while I become the beast that devourers the soul and shaft of my sir, my lord, my man when at last I feel it coming as I start to scream in pain and pleasure she then kisses my lips and squeeze's my tit's harder and harder until I give that last scream and convulse and everything in me goes my pain my hurt my desperation. laying there with my sisters around me and my lords arms holding me I feel the Pease again the demon is gone again I feel the love that surrounds me.

    This is but one reason I need a Dom in my life but not the most important one, no that come later when I come down to the office  and find him sitting on the couch and he pats the seat beside him wraps his arm around me and says tell me when I explain the dream and that it always happens when I start to feel whole and happy he looks at me and says well love there seem to be two choses one stop making you feel so safe. Or two make you feel safe every day until we have destroyed this demon or chased it away. And I am not going to make you feel less then happy and content and neither are your sisters so that just means I will have to have a sore cock every morning until we win and I will learn to like the taste of your tears. And that is the real reason we have a Dom they do not give up what the own for any reason.       

   Like everyone this has not been a good year between covid, riots. political unrest all have suffered to one degree or another. But our house stands, we have lost our Sir but have gained a new Sir we have lost a lady but have stood tall and she is happy and still protected by the house and it's Dom. the grannies have left but we have two new grandpas under the house and they are happy. Almost lost our home but thankfully by sirs planning it was saved. Thanks to Sir James planning even though we have had a major loss in money all of the small businesses are intact and ready to get back to work and the employee's are still able to work when they reopen. Due to covid we lost some under the protection of the house but we also gained some new people. The make-up of the ranch has changed some but thanks' to Sir Tim the five of us are  still together. 

   We kept the stable girls and boys and I hear there may be a stork or two coming their way.?

After a minor battle with the government we have managed to keep our two ladies maids here.?

We have three silvers in training to be Dom's please don't be confused a silver is someone who is a permanent ranch hand but not necessarily a Dom. And they can be sub's as well. Most of the male silvers and female are not on this ranch they are spread over the 4 ranches and 1 farm that we own. currently we have here the three Dom's in training and three kitchen help and maids with Stacy acting as housekeeper and V as cook till they open the restaurant at that time we will add a cook and housekeeper. As you may know Sir John and Rita, cook and maid have retired and are currently in their ranch and are setting up with their children. Jo-Beth has gone back to the enclave that was set up for some of the men and women with ptsd she is working with those who were injured during the last couple wars we have had. And I believe she has found her place again. At home we have me Jill under bond to sir Tim ceremony some time in august and Sue and Deb's in consideration for Sir Tim. We hope to make it a 4 bond ceremony with all current members of the house to witness. 

   Now the personal stuff. I can not tell you what it means to me to have Deb's and Sue back home, I have not felt this complete since sir James was alive having most of the children back under the roof is unbelievable adding our foster son Joe and our special one Stacy's daughter little one and the way Joe and her have taken to each other he is just so protective of her. I think I am now understanding how Jane felt to have us all here. My cup truly is overflowing.      

   The body parts may be the same but. Some can be thrown down and taken others need a soft voice and sometime tears we are all different. And understanding the deference is what make the Dom. I am a lucky lady that two of the men I have tried took the time that I needed to make me theirs. 

 But this is how Sir Tim took the news that I wanted him to be my Dom and has proceeded to claim what is his by rights but chose instead to to take my hart first. He has an office attached to the barn as that is his job to care and train the horses for the family. He looked at me and asked why I felt the need to for him to be more then just the Dom of the house ( he has the right and responsibility to meet my needs sexually) the height of my kink is to be taken by a man to be used as a toy for his pleasure. So I told him I wat you to love me like I love you. So my little Debbie wants my love she wants to feel my care my concern my love like you got from sir James. YES that is what i want thank you, but Debs I have loved you for many years you and Sue may have started as my closest friends and I am sorry that you have not felt it from me for so long and there is no rush for you to feel it now but when you do feel it again let me tell you I will take you in bond for the rest of your life and bring you both to  my bed in the mean time tell me your desires and your needs. And when you feel my love again I will allow you to have my body and take yours in return. 

   Patience and kindness  are but two of the essentials of the Dom. A dedicated Dom will exercise both for his Sub he will wait till the end of time if that is what is needed. Kindness in the the way he speaks to you or refers to you is even more important because he knows this may not be any thing you have control over but he has to meet your need and then care for you after that need is met. Weather it  be emotional or physical that need is even more important then the act he just performed with you. This is dominance this is kindness in it's pure form he dries the tears treats the wounds bathes the soul and forgives the act without judgment they will reach down pick you up and place you back on the pedestal he has put you on. It took me several days to recognize what was there the whole time ( I  can be dense at times and when it comes to love I am even more so then others). It took my partner Sue to help me see that even though we were apart in time and distance and even love he never stopped loving us the presents and cards at Christmas and our birthdays. Every time we called he answered any thing we asked he would answer. And now that I looked back over all the things I realized it was not what was owed the ladies of the house it was because he cared. Debs she  said I love you more then you can know but you are a very dense girl and blind when it comes to how men love. And she is right it is something I feel but have trouble seeing. When it is happening I have difficulty seeing it for what it is an expression of love. I had the same problem when it was sir James doing it too but thankfully I have Sue to guide me in this and Now Mari and Jill helping me like everyone there is something broken in me recognizing agape from a man is one of the worst failings I have it has become a bit of a joke between the girls and I that I should come with a leash so I can be led to the points of love I miss.  ya know that may not be a bad idea ?.

  Now back on topic after really thinking about it and being snowed in today 4 ' and still coming I came down this morning in nothing but a smile. And in front of the staff and my ladies I knelt in front of my Dom I did not ask just simply took him out and put him in my mouth and did another first for me took him down all the way and when he gave me what he had in him and i finished cleaning him up I just looked at him with tears in my eye's and said i love you Sir it was time for me to claim my share thank you for loving me and I'm sorry I was blind to it all this time. I then handed him a belt and said please sir show me how much you care in a way that this stupid bitch understands.❤❤❤❤❤❤❤❤❤❤❤❤❤❤❤. I am now accepted for training.

   Jane I love you. It wasn't looked for because I did not think it was something I wanted or needed. I was content with my lover and partner I let her have her man that she had a need for from time to time after all they had something I didn't the warmth in it that she needed that no strap on can duplicate. I now know what she meant but for the longest time I avoided it. It took a country boy to lube the lock and a gentleman to turn the key in  that lock and let  my demon free and tame it. Now I can hopefully express what I am and what changed me to a complete woman. Thank you sir James for turning the key.

   When I was young I never felt the connection that others felt. I was not interested in either sex till I was twenty and it was with another woman. So I figured it was because I was gay I accepted it and moved on with my life. I think there were 6 maybe 7 girls before I met Sue and it did not happen right away but it did happen and I found it was easy for me to accept her being bisexual and in some respect liked it when she would come home horny and we made love to be honest I found the taste to my liking so most times I was happy when she got the itch for a man. Then we met sir James when he hired us to keep watch over Jane over time I felt some thing protective about this man. It felt like my father was back. At Janes insistence we started spending time with a young man at the ranch it was the only place that we could let our guard down she was surrounded by people who would protect her. And this man Tim from day one treated us with respect the three of us went out and it was the first time that Sue and I could be a little outrageous in public because Tim was there and other men would think we were with him and we were playing at being gay to excite him we would take turns dancing the slow ones with him and sometimes all three of us would dance. let me tell you music and dance are the key to this mercenaries hart it just gets into my soul and smacks it into high gear. Some times we would just hang out park someplace and drink beer and talk all night long. The last time we were all together he was going to one of the other ranches Sir and Jane owned Sue and Tim always kissed hard at the end of the night and he would always kiss me on the cheek this last night I screwed up my courage and kissed him hard and I felt it in my belly. That night I was consumed with passion when sue and I made love when we were spent and Sue was curled in my arms all she said was I told you baby and fell fast asleep not me I spent the night thinking. 

   Over time I fell hard for Sir James and Tim receded to the Back of my mind. Till the day he came back to the ranch and he became lord of the family. And he was different he was a man when he came back it took me back but I found him still my friend someone I could talk to and joke with and very much in love with Mari and Jill. And I was both happy and sad for what might have been. Mari must have been more like Jane then I thought she felt it. The next day we were all together in sirs office she just looked at me and said Jill and I talked it over and you have interviewed every Dom in the family until last night I have never seen you like you were with Sir James. You and sue are in love with Sir Tim aren't you we are to much in love with each other for you to hide your feelings from us even if you try to hide it from yourself. Sue and I looked at each other before saying to Mari do you want us to leave she looked shocked and said that will never happen this is your home and Tim is head of house Dom's and it is only right for you two as one of his ladies to ask him to take you if that is what you want she and Jill looked at each other and Jill said his hart may be bigger then sir James's  if that is possible ask him and we will help anyway we can. 

   This is what sisters do love each other and share what is ours's. The Dom is the strength and protection of the house we are the hart and soul of the house together we build that house to be safe and strong. ❤ one hart one mind held up by the sub's the foundation.            

   Being the house Dom is easy that is just making sure that for the most part you must deal with the sexual end of a subs needs. But what do you do when two ladies ask you to be their Dom when they are older then you smarter then you and can break you in two with their bare hands. What I am about to say is the reason I had 10 years to think about it and work my way to it thanks to lady Jane. 

   She taught me and explained. When I turned 20 I asked Lady Jane how she could have so much energy she was sixty something at the time and still doing yoga and running and swimming like a fish as well as working. Well I was expecting this question I could answer this with one word but that would leave you with more questions then answers. Tim you must know by now that sir James and I lead a rather unconventional life and that I am very different here then when I am at work. Sir James stopped me from growing older in a way. Have you ever herd the terms submission and dominance. When I answered yes she said good, when I Was 42 I met a handsome young 35 year old that man was to become my savior I was 42 feeling like I was 60 two bad marriages and child to protect and the prospects of anything other then a string of lovers not likely. Then he came into my life and a woman that I wish you could have met Dena in shorter time then I thought possible I found myself in thrall to this man and in love with this woman and I mean thrall he took my hart my soul and my entire life over. Dena showed me how to love my body again to keep it as young as I can. How to stop growing old to a great deal and sir took all the worries that most people have. From that point I only had two things to worry about caring for my daughter and caring for my Dom. He took all the weight of life on his shoulders that allowed me to build my company the way I saw fit. It's hard to explain, he some how took all the hate and pain of my marriages away day to day when I left work he was there to take the weight off me and carry it himself fixing what he could and telling me how I mite fix the other myself. Do not ask me how that is something only another Dom and yourself can answer but they do it. When we are together I feel free to be me, I can be  silly little kid, a wild hussy or the lady of the manor he tells me what he see's that day in me and damn if he isn't right most of the time and that tells me how to act. Have you ever seen him chastise me in public he does you know. I admitted that I never saw or herd him. You know how is always calling me buy pet names, well all of those names mean something even my name when he says it in a different tone when he says my name some times it says I proud of you sometimes it means I want you and sometimes it means I'm in trouble and done something wrong. Kind of how you are with the horses the horse knows from the tone of your voice how its doing and from your touch when you gently touch it face or rub its shoulder or you tap it on the rear to tell it that its time to play or run. Oh that reminds me can you take Sue and Deb's dancing tonight its hard for them to relaxes when they are out on there own all the guys combing around and if they are with you  they can dance and just be playful without being bothered. ( did anyone see what she just did) well I  didn't until much later from those dancing dates and later there teasing and deep friendship that developed it was them who helped me develop my dominate side with women. And Sue helped me with the finer points of sex and practice with rope and other things that sir showed me.

   Out of this they became my two best friends we are privy to each others secrets and I know their dreams and how I can help them to whip their asses into shape when they need it. When they came to me later after asking Mari and Jill for permission to bond to me the decision was not hard for me to make as a mater or fact you would have to be a damn fool not to accept so here I am not two but four of the most beautiful ladies this side of heaven.  ????.            

   I never would have thought that reading and putting what you learned from that book in to action could make such a change in someone. The book lady Jane gave me was titled "how to be a Gentleman" it gave me all the clues I needed to transform myself in to a man people want to be around as well as acting in front of other people. I am not going to go into great detail of what the book teaches instead I am going to tell you how it changed me. It gave me the way to control myself and there by control those around me and by control I do not mean controlling some one else's actions but control who I want around me. I do not shout and do not brag and do not let loud people around me this is something most cowboys learn early like cattle loud noises put people on edge to, so it is best to modulate both tone and volume around both. The only time a gentleman shouts is in warning of danger to someone who might  not be aware, at all other times let your words get your meaning across not your volume. A gentleman discusses he dose not argue to get a point across if you have to yell you either have lost the point you are trying to get across or the other person just can not accept  the point you are trying to make either way just drop it.

   It also taught me how to treat people who are more fortunate and less fortunate then my self defer to those more so and with respect and kindness to those less. Now to some this may sound condescending but it was just the opposite I learned more from the supposed less then I have from the more fortunate. Once I learned how to act sir James took me along on one of his trips. There I met some of the most interesting and in some ways the mot educated people in my life. They where for the most part easy to talk to willing to teach and most giving of what they had. It was easy to understand why he wanted to help as he could. Each and every one of them had pride in themselves and would not take charity. They would trade with sir for what he carried living out there all the time allowed them to find some pretty expensive things gold silver gems of all kinds sir would take this in trade he also had a book that he carried with him that told them just how much money they had.(before you jump to the wrong conclusion sir never took a dime from what they gave him he only said he did). This allowed some or most to get a place in town as they called it and live comfortably but to tell the truth they did not want to and they had the places they had fixed up very nicely in two cases they had enough to be very comfy if they chose to.

   There is a trick if you chose to follow the the rules to being a gentleman THINK the rules are important to follow but the road to becoming a Dom is to look into the rule and find the reason for it and how it fits you and why once you find that you will find it easier to control yourself. And this will give you the starting point to being able to help and understand your sub. To help them achieve and even surpass themselves and their self perceived limitations, transforming them into alfa people in vanilla society and the best sub they can be.              

first let me give credit where it is due a recent blog by HAY LITTLE ONE and MAMA T thank you ladies 

   As I was reminded by something the anniversary of the loss of my first sir and a conversation told to me by Sir John he just had. The sheepdog is really what every sub needs, ..... Now the the laughter has died down you are ready to think on it the sheepdog was breed to be exactly what it says it protects the sheep from the predator's of the world they live in. Sheep are always on the menu for them just like we subs are on the menu for those who pray on the young that not having met only kindness and love do not see it coming and are susceptible to this type of attack. This is the main reason why we sub's need Dom/Dommas with the added benefit of love thrown in and something this house recognizes a Dom/ Domma can protect more then one sub. And can love more then one sub not always but often they can and they can sometimes make each sub feel loved equally as well as feeling safe and secure. On this site it is called being under protection this has little or nothing to do with sex most of the time but they can and do the same part we call them mentors and they act as sheepdogs for the young. There are more then one here I have noticed. So take hart and find a sheepdog willing to help you on your journey through this walk in the woods.          

   Ladies

If you are reading this and if this program has worked the way it was supposed to it has been a little over a year since I have left you alone on this plain,  but I want to assure you that if things work the way I hope they do I am not really gone Just somewhere else with Dena Jane and old friends and keeping an eye on you. 

   First: I wish to say sorry for leaving with out warning but my body had it's reasons. second: thank you for allowing me to help you in your journey and hope that I left you in a good place. third: I hope that we have spent enough time with each of you to know in your harts that you have all you will need to be a success in the future both in love first and life second. Sir John Rita doc and Jen will be there for you if needed as well as the silver men and women they are yours to care for and to care for you they have made this promise to me and John will make sure they carry it out. Thank you for giving me such intelligent children, and please do not make their lives too easy remember like you they need challenge to bring out the best in them. 

The rest of the message can not be told it is dealing with arrangements sir made for the protection of the the family and retainers and there families all I will say on it is that it explains where several million's of dollars went along with the taxes paid. As well as personal messages to every one that held a place in his hart. This popped up in my mail this morning now if you will excuse me I am going to hug my children and go to bed I expect the other ladies will join me for a good cry.

                                                                                                  Mari and the family