The journey began with a simple relationship, and one night while resting her head upon my chest before we went to sleep, I was stroking her hair gently to calm the migrane which had overtaken her, and she gently whispered "sometime, I'd like you to spank me". The request seemed an odd thing, but I filed it away and we fell to sleep. The next day I opened the subject with her, and she began telling me dark secrets of kitten play, light bondage, spanking and other secret desires.
We began exploring these things, and I began some serious research on exactly what this thing was she wanted me to be a part of. In my history, these things were done only by deranged and abusive people, I had the movie goers (pre 50 shades) view of this world. As I read and researched, I learned what it meant to be involved in such a thing, how the bonds were pure at heart, and the trust in such a relationship unquestionable. The particular relationship that got me involved sadly failed over time, but I was left with an entire new world to explore and learn about.
I learned alot about myself in this exploration, of who I was and wanted to be. I learned that for a woman to offer you her submission was akin to finding the lost treasure of Xanadu. A treasure that cannot be owned or possessed, merely held in the hands it was given to, placed there by trust and understanding once you have earned the right to hold it, Simply put.. the greatest gift one person may give another if it is true.
So for my first blog entry, I offer the lyrics to a song that I've always loved, but never truly understood its true meaning until I got to know myself better ....
~~ To Be a Man~~
by Boston
What does it take to be a man?
What does it take to see
It's all heart and soul
A gentle hand
So easy to want and so hard to give
How can you be a man
'Til you see beyond the life you live?
Oh, what does it take to be a man?
We can be blind, but a man tries to see
It takes tenderness
For a man to be what he can be
And what does it mean
If you're weak or strong?
A gentle feelin'
can make it right or make it wrong
What does it take to be a man?
The will to give and not receive
The strength to say what you believe
The heart to feel what others feel inside
To see what they can see
A man is somethin' that's real
It's not what you are
It's what you can feel
It can't be too late
To look through the hate and see
I know that's what a man can be