Musings of my journey in Bdsm

I finally have come to a conclusion I have been fighting for far too long. I just didn’t want to accept my truth. I actually became very angry with daddy for pushing and asking about said truth. I wasn’t ready to let myself admit what I knew was there (sorry daddy). I have been married for 11 years and have spent half my life with a man I thought I loved. I now understand we never loved each other the way we should have. Do I regret my marriage? No. Do I think we fucked up by marrying. Yes. This has caused so much unnecessary pain on both sides. We have sat down and talked about how neither one of us are having our needs met and that we’ve both been lying to ourselves for far too long. Divorce is what we both agree is best. Guess what that’s ok. We tried and we failed but we learned from each other. I will leave this marriage with a beautiful child that came out of it. This is also a factor in us choosing the divorce. We both want what’s best for our child and that is us getting out of a miserable marriage before it’s starts becoming a problem for our child. Our child deserves to have happy parents to be raised by. I love my husband because he’s my best friend and the father of my child but it extends no further than that. I had someone ask if I was going to move in with my dom. No, I am not. I am discovering who I am. I’m not ready for another committed relationship like that. I enjoy my dom but that’s not what I want right now. I want to be alone to explore my new found sexuality and discover what it is I truly want. I want to see what makes me tick. I want to fall in love with myself before I fall in love with someone else. I just want to truly find out who I am and what I’ve been keeping suppressed for so long. Wish me luck on this adventure 🥰