Secret confessions

ulfhednar - There will always be beauty in chaos and ugliness in beauty 🙏

NyxWolf​(switch female) - Unfortunately people generally despise chaos but always pursue beauty, even the ugly one

ulfhednar - Thats probly because generally most people want to live fair tales and havent truely lived bare your scars with pride for a man with no scars has not felt the hardships of life. Life is not all sugar sprinkled gummy rain drops and cotton candy grass fields its harsh cold and cruel but it can and is beautiful if one can see the beauty in the chaos amd carnage a woman or man can be absolutly drop dead porn grade swim suit model gorgeous on the outside but absolutly hideous on the inside

NyxWolf​(switch female) - I couldn't agree more
It's hard to find non-shallow people nowadays
And I'm not only talking about that ridiculous notion of "physical beauty"
Most humans are as shallow as it gets about every single aspect
And no I don't blame Disney for this one, just human stupidity
If you can't be a queen don't expect to find yourself a king and vice versa

Southern Mother​(dom female){Learning} - I totally feel this post. Just literally broke down in tears with my partner because of self doubt. I think more people especially Doms need to be able to be vulnerable with their partners. Making room for their partners to feel it is safe to open up as well. It seems there is too much emphasis on societal perfection set with high unrealistic expectations and labeling. It feels like we have forgotten that first we are human.
I just know you will find that person and they will appreciate you for all that you are not what they think you should be. Great Poem.

NyxWolf​(switch female) - Thank you
And I'm really sorry about what happened to you, self doubting is like a poison and no one deserves that.
It doesn't matter if you're a dominant person, you don't have to bottle up your feelings.
You deserve to be happy
Everyone deserves happiness and unconditional love

ulfhednar - I agree we are supose to be the most evolved spieces bahaha amd yet our basic primitive ways of thinking have lead us to believe she has to be skinny with a perfect figure 8 and he had to be muscular with a perfect ehem inorder for the whatever the hell you wanna call it to work personally i blame the whole labeling of alphas and betas were as about as evolved as a frigging community of mutated snails in our ways of thinking oooofff no such thing as perfect anyone who seeks perfection in a partner is delusional no one has a perfect figure 8 or a perfect suculpted bod with a ehem and whats even worse is people still believe perfection exist ok ill have what their smoking bahaha beauty in chaos be it around us or ourselfs it is still beautiful from what we can see down to the smallest microbe

NyxWolf​(switch female) - Personally I can't stand a person who has 800 perfect muscles around their body but a tiny idiotic brain. C'mon...priorities people!
Yes being healthy and in shape is a good thing, but what about the sweet old knowledge?
I can't spend hours talking about gym or beautiful bodies
I wanna talk about History, poetry, the freaking cosmos!
I wanna share dark jokes or arguing about politics
Guess I'm asking for too much?

ulfhednar - 😍😍😍😍 omfg i knooooow as korn put it dont wanna talk about politics bahaha i agree healthy is important what the hell is the point all it does in the end is stress you out which defeats the purpose and tada you wake up and your like omg where did my flat firm butt go haha its just so much easier to just look out the window or go for a walk and look up and breathe and take it all in even better around a warm camp fire omg i need to go camping this year and do camp fire cooked food 😍😍😍 and its so frigging rare to find people who sync on the same level tell a dark joke and all of a sudden its like bruh you have issues thanks cpt obvious for telling me something i knew before we met please enlighten me on something else about myself haha ack some people are such paved asphault

NyxWolf​(switch female) - My faith in Humanity is just...puft gone!
I mean... Ughhh... I never liked shallows, always preferred the deep waters anyway
Unfortunately it's easier to have a flat six pack or a creepy doll body than reading books
Honestly I love the nature, but camping around here is always a "group" activity, and with group I mean all the unknown people around the camping area -.-"
The good thing about being self conscious is that you Already know all your freaking problems. So when someone tells you "bruh you have an issue..." it's like "yeah and the sky is blue so what?"

ulfhednar - 😂😂😂 the grass is green amd turtles hide in their shell when their affraid bahaha thats the only good thing about where i live camping doesnt have to be a group thing but omfg i miss group stuff cause bejng in a group so much more fun stuff happens and by fun im refering to memorable stupid stuff sure i enjoy the intellectual side of life but eventually the brain just over loads and error 404 messeges leaving a note fuck you im out 😂😂😂

NyxWolf​(switch female) - I'm just a hermit crab wandering around, or a potato I don't know anymore
To be honest I have no idea how group stuff works since I never had a group, or more than 3 friends 😅
But it seems an interesting concept!

ulfhednar - 😂😂😂 i havent done group stuff in 8 years since the people i use to hang with all hit spurs to the wind and left now im starting over from scratch so i know how it feels to have a little circle you trust mine just happens to make up only one other person so theres two of us 😂😂😂😂 and both hermit crabs and patatos are great

NyxWolf​(switch female) - Honestly I consider myself like a socially awkward person, alright maybe I'm just generally awkward but anyway!
I'm trying my best to leave my shell, it's kinda stressing to say the least but baby steps

Southern Mother​(dom female){Learning} - I totally feel all the things you ladies are talking about. To me true beauty is vulnerability and openness. And just being yourself. I was such an introvert but am coming out of my bubble and getting out IRL. I've realize life is too short and I don't want to be afraid of anything anymore. My life 2 months ago was so different. I came out of a relationship with someone who a narcissistic, sociopathic gas lighter. so there is the insecurity. But I am slowly gaining my life back and getting fit as well. And learning to dance and laugh and say fuck it again! lol. Im lucky I have a younger but wiser partner. She's helped me help myself in so many ways.

NyxWolf​(switch female) - You deserve to be happy, to have fun, to know unconditional sweet love! And knowing that you're managing to find your own path makes me dream and have hope, maybe I'll be able to get over this and find my own way
I sincerely wish you and your partner the best!
And thank you for sharing your story and positivity

ulfhednar - You do realize im a dude right lez XD just making sure anyways everyone deserves happiness and peace of mind as well as to just live laugh and love

Southern Mother​(dom female){Learning} - Ooops lol. My bad. Sorry poofeh one.

Southern Mother​(dom female){Learning} - NyxWolf Yeeees! I do and you will baby step by baby step. Then moments become moments and then it comes naturally. Thank you and absolutely. We gotta support each other. Nice chatting with you both.

ulfhednar - Its all good its all good i quite get along rather well with the oppisite gender rather then the same concidering my primary influance in life was mainly female i personally find the person i was becoming hanging around with the general male populus was rather indisinguishably annoying and arogant not the person i ever wanted to be embracing a more feminine side just felt more natural while retaining some form of masculinity felt to me a perfect balance buuuut thats just me and who i seek to get back in touch with 😄