What do you do when the pain hits
The rain hurts
Your are unheard and unfelt
Your eyes sting from the Neverending River of tears.
The midnight moon as the sun dies
Your heart is glass
See through and fragile
Love isn't enough to tame the pain
Dom/Master.....Daddy....help me!
Silence
Fear takes your soul and shakes it in its mouth
You grasp for air
Your fight is gone.
Fin.
Hello Indigo Fam,
I come to you with sadness in my heart. My oldest daughter was pregnant with my first grand baby, a boy she was naming after her father who died 3 years ago. We she wasn't due till 7/12, but for the last couple of weeks kept going into labor. She went to the hospital Tuesday night in pain. Shortly after arriving they discovered he had passed away. I was by her side when they induced labor so she could deliver him naturally. I held my grandson for a couple of hours yesterday morning. No sound, just peacefully rocking him. Praying there was a mistake and he would open his eyes and breathe.
You are my community ♥. My strength lies where I am truly loved. My Dom has been taking good care of me, but I felt I needed to reach out to my family....my community. Any words of encouragement is greatly appreciated. Grieving is hard physically and mentally.
Peace and love
Indigo
Hello Indigo Fam,
We went to our first munch last night. Beast and I had so much fun together ❤. The atmosphere was very clickish and no one wanted to talk to us. In fact we had some harsh stares. It left a bad taste with me. Not sure if we will attend another one. I have posted this in several groups I am in on FB. Most are saying it's like vetting a Dom. There are alot of people pretending to be part of the lifestyle so unless you have already established a relationship most will be standoffish. Either way it goes Beast and I made the best of the situation and enjoyed each other's company. If anyone has any tips on navigating a munch for a newbie, it would be awesome. I am in Michigan so if anyone has any leads on a good friendly munch to attend pass the information please
Peace
Indigo
Hello Indigo Fam,
I have been on a hiatus getting my life together, but I am back! In my absence I have lost my mind and lost my job. My love for my Dom has grown and we have explored my little-middle side more. All in all one of the things that has motivated me is my community. I love this lifestyle and community so much. You lift me and hold me tight. Thank you all that check on me now and then. Look for more stories and deep commentary to come.
Peace
Indigo
He unsheathed his mighty cock rubbing it across my bottom lip. I opened taking him inside suckling him like a lamb to the tit. His thrust were slow and steady. "I miss fucking your mouth" he said probing deeper into my throat. A slight gag and he was turned on even more. "On your back, NOW" he shouted. I barely hit the bed when he grabbed me by my legs and pulled me to him. First with a devilish grin, he slipped his fingers inside me rubbing and kneading my g-spot until I was wet and dripping. "You know the rules" he said as he worked me harder. " No cuming without permission Sir" I said. He increased speed and intensity as I moaned and cried his name. "Oh sweet Beast, may I cum Sir?" NO he replied slipping his pinky in my ass. " Ask again he said" A euphoric high swept me as I cried " May I please cum Sir" " Cum for me Thumper, cum for me NOW!" A wave of warm fluid swept his fingers. With a growl of approval he explained " ahhh that's it, that what I have been waiting for. Good girl Thumper, good girl.
Part 3 coming soon
Rolling hills of green as far as the eyes can see. The wind whispers softly through the Wisteria hanging from the trees. Waiting with batted breath for my Beast to return. It has been but a fortnight that I last laid eyes on his face. Sunset is fading fast now when over the horizon I see a silhouette. Could this be my Master returning from his conquest? I race down the stairs at top speed to find my truth. As I grabbed for the door handle he burst in with a smile. He grabbed me by the waist and pulled me close. His tounge exploring my mouth like a big game hunter. His hand cupping my tits pulling them out of bondage. Both index finger and thumb circling and pinching my nipples. With a small gasp of air he whispered "I missed you" and I replied "take me now my Beast". He hoisted me over his shoulder and carried me to our bedroom. Throwing me on the bed like a rage doll he commanded me to remove my clothing. I could see his rock hard member through is trousers. "On your knees Slut" he ordered. I grabbed my pillow he had monogrammed with "Thumper" and placed it on the floor in front of him. Eyes down and hands on my lap I awaited his next command.
Keep an eye out for part 2
Peace
Indigo
Hello Indigo Fam,
Lately I have been feeling lost. Being in this lifestyle can be lonely sometimes. I have talked before about subs bonding. I had a great sub/brat sister. She started dating a vanilla and well.....I have slowly been losing her. There is no one else I can talk to about the lifestyle. Beast and I are 24/7 365. I just with I was able to have a full conversation about lifestyle related issues. I have joined several groups on FB trying to find some normalcy. I am even Mod for one group. It still isn't the same as having that close bond with a true sub sister. I feel sad everyday, truthfully I haven't even told Beast my full feelings. I guess he will know now after this blog. Sorry I am not my positive self fam. Love you all
Peace
Indigo
Hello Indigo Fam,
So it's my Beasty's 50th birthday this weekend. I want to do something special in session. Any suggestions are welcomed. Also anal is his favorite, but I have a hard time. And relaxation techniques or lube to use would help. Thank fam love you all.
Peace
Indigo
In this very moment a bird sings
A melody soft and sweet
Please don't cry, dry your eyes. Let me sing you
A lullaby.
In this very moment my heart swooned
Feeling free like the breeze this melody
Fills me with joy, peace, and love
In this very moment I am safe
Knowing that the creatures that stalk me in the
dark have no chance at my soul.
In this very moment the bird covers me with those large wings and rocks me to sleep.
In this very moment I submit, I give my trust to my rescuer.
Hello Indigo Fam,
I come to you today with an open mind and a open heart. I hope you can follow my thought process, it's going to be a ride.
Everyone is an Alice, a dreamer. Curiosity claims us so we follow the rabbit down that dark hole. We search for something new and exciting, it's nourishing to our soul. Often we find a world that even in our wildest dreams leave us spellbound. Rose gold roads and snapdragon fields, Every color imaginable. Someone in our lives will fit one of the people I will mention. The " Field keeper" this is the person that has a heart of gold. They scurrying around trying to take care of everything and everyone, but looses themselves in the process. It appears as if they are absent of a brain. The "forged from fire" this person is hard as metal. Similar to the Field keeper they too care about people, but with a more stern approach. They mean well, but it comes across like they have no heart. Finally the "Anxious feline" always ready for the fight. Headstrong and appears to be in charge of everything. They behave as expected, but never have the courage to be who they really are. This rag tag group find each other and form a community. They feel they need guidance so they search for a leader. Someone who will give them structure and a charter. What they find not only confuses them, but makes them question there very existence in this world. Little did they know they had everything they needed all along. Your differences make you whole. Your lifestyle is not odd or indecent. It's natural, nurturing, and no up for debate. It's an explanation to unanswered questions because you Finally find peace in your tiny community. Embrace it, love it, live it.
Peace
Indigo