Indigo Blue

Hello Indigo Fam,

   Today I want to talk about being old and the BDSM dynamic. As we age our body's are not ad giving as they used to be. In my own relationship I have a bad knee so I can't kneel properly for Beast. I instead came up with an alternative. I sit at his feet or put a few pillows down that will allow me to suck his cock while he stands up. Another position we do is I lay on my back with my head hanging over the bed. It gives him a good angle to fuck my mouth and grab my tits. Beast loves playing with my nipples!! Doggie style can be a little difficult sometimes too because of my trick knee. I shift to take the pressure off....but then that can affect my stripper hip as Beast calls it(never stripped just a joke). Just because we have a few aches doesn't me we will stop our activities. So fam what are some old folk issues you have and how do you over come the obstacles Comment below. 

Peace 

Indigo

Hello Indigo Fam,

  Today I want to talk about being sassy. I can be a sassy pants sometimes, but I know my limits. The whole brat thing has been so controversial in all the groups I belong to. I think a small amount of sassy or brattiness is ok. Like a cat that catches a mouse. He likes the chase and excitement of it trying to get away. Letting it thinks it has the upper hand only to pounce again. I love predator/pray play with Beast. I have seen too much sass in some groups to where it down right disrespects the Dom. That I don't agree with. I blame 50 Shades of gray for this crop. The way Ana disrespected Christian is ridiculous. From the whole contact negotiation to the obey part in their wedding vows. Give me a break, subs please stop imitating this movie. Not really life behavior of a D/s relationship. This is just one subs view. Tell me what you all think about sassy subs or bratty sub which ever you want to call them.

Hello Indigo Fam,

 Ok so Beast and I had a deep conversation about my anxiety and depression. The solution was a support animal. I welcome Athena to our family. She is a 3 month old calico kitten. I had to let my premium subscription go due to priority so I can't post a picture. Oh and I have a book coming tomorrow from Amazon to assist in my violin training. To hell with what ANYONE thinks. It may sound funny in the beginning, but it will be beautiful in the end. Thank you to my community for the support. Once I get back on track my content will get back to normal as well. I know you all miss the poetry and steamy stories. Speaking of stories I do have a book recommendation. The Mister by E.L. James. It's very good.

Peace

Indigo

Not my normal self fam

Feeling down and depressed ?. Beast gets mad at me when I talk bad about myself. I feel lost and useless. Beast got me a beautiful violin for Christmas. I have always wanted to play and he said I need a hobby. Now I am teased by my children and don't want to do it anymore. I have no hobbies and because I only work 4-5 hours a day doing Amazon Flex I have alot of free time. My mind wonders to all the terrible things that happen last year. Not going to rehash just read back through my blogs if you need to catch up. I always look to my community for support. You all have been in my corner more that anyone in the vanilla world...even my own family. I just want to dissappear from this world. ? it's not the same anymore. My dynamic is even suffering. Beast is great and will crawl over broken glass for me....I just feel like I am in my own private hell. ????

Indigo

"Somtimes life has to take you through a thorn bush so you can appreciate the beauty of the rose"

~unknown~

  Have you ever wondered "why me"

  Why do I always fall for the wrong ones? It's a life lesson my sweethearts. Not every road is going to be clear or every water way smooth sailing. Unfortunately sometimes we do get hurt along the way, but it's about how we bounce back and what did we learn that make us better. Helps us make better choices. As it relates to the lifestyle, I always say proper vetting is important. Taking your time to really get to know a person. When the right one comes along you will know it. Take strength from those bumps and lumps we have received to know who is "The One". Only then will you "Love the love they give". I am fortunate that I have found that love in my Dom. It's out there for everyone!!! If you are not sure or need help this community it a mighty one. Inbox and ask a experienced Dom or Domme. There are plenty that would be willing to answer questions. Also experienced sub will help guide you as well. I hope everyone finds that "ONE" and Love the love they give.

Peace

Indigo

Hello Indigo Fam,

   Two years ago I got a message here on The Cage. It was from a Dom named Latinobrusier. He was nice even though when I checked his profile the picture looked like he was mean. We chatted day and night for 3 weeks. That lead to phone calls and eventually a meet in person. Beast has been more than just a Dom, he has been my whole world. He has been by my side sickness and health(Physical and mental breakdowns). We have traveled some and camped alot. He has seen me through surgery  the death of my daughter and grandson. He discovered my little side and is my Daddy Dom as well. In the vanilla world he has been a great father figure to my girls.  I couldn't ask for a better man in my life. I love you Beast with all that I am.

Peace 

Indigo(Thumper)

Hello Indigo Fam,

 Sorry I am a week late, but Happy New Year  to my community!! I am excited to share what happened New Years day. 

Beast(Sir) has a cousin in the lifestyle and we went to visit him and his sub(wife) on New Years day. He showed us their play room and the WIDE array of floggers and crops they use. They did some demos for us then we tried some out ourselves. Ok so before I get blasted Beast only used the the floggers that could be sanitized on me. I was shackled to a cross(my first time) and it was soooo much fun. Then we did mousse fire. Again first time and I LOVED IT!! I am always cols due to my health issues. The warm fire racing around my back was pure pleasure! Then we did glow in the dark wax. His cousin did the wax on his sub over her genital area. I am terrible at shaving so Beast did my back. Super sensual and warm. It was a great start to the new year. I highly recommend trying the mousse. You tube it if you are not familiar with the practice. 

Peace

Indigo

Hello Indigo Fam,

     Last few months your girl has been doing some reflection. A lot has happened since May in my life. Not going to recap....if you are a true part of my Fandom you have read or will go back over my blogs and read to catch up. I have been doing several types of therapy to deal with my grief.  Lately I have returned to mentoring sub and I have a new little sis. It's not quite poly, but my Daddy is a surrogate/protector for her while she is out looking for her own. It's long distance as we are in Michigan and she Illinois, but it's been a fantastic experience. She gives Daddy a run for his money sometimes lol. It's a great distraction from the depression I was living in. This brings me to today's blog...healing time.

   No one should EVER tell you how long to grieve. Your time line is set by your heart and situation. How you go about healing is your own as well. I choose my lifestyle and community, my dynamic to assist in my healing. I love sharing Daddy he has a big heart and is a great teacher for my little sis. He has maintained a perfect balance between time for both of us. He is such a wonderful Daddy Dom. 

Guidance is very important for New subs. Most are not sure what direction they want to go in. Hats off to the genuine D/DD/M out there with the patient to help us along...even if you are just a surrogate/protector/temporary owner. I was contacted by one of my little friends two weeks ago. I hadn't heard from her in a while. She said she knew I was going through my own issues and she didn't want to bother me, but she really needed to talk to me. She proceeded to tell me about her escape of an abusive Daddy that made her life hell. Mental, physical, financia the whole gambit. She is safe now back with her parents. I am so glad she survived to tell her story. There are soooo many predators out there. Please be careful, please vet thoroughly, and remember it's never too late to call it off. Your safety is first. Most important don't be afraid to ask for help. Sometimes it's not about the advice, but when you talk/type it out you kinda answer you own questions and doubts. 

Sorry this ran long. Love you all and remember I love comments below or inbox.

Peace

Indigo 

Hello Indigo Fam,

   For those of you that have been following my journey you know this year has been a real roller-coaster for me. Feeling down and GRAY has me clinging to my Dom hard. I am a reader and researcher. I found a few articles and videos on YouTube about grief/traumatic experiences and BDSM. I found that play time can actually help with stress. I also talked with an experienced sub and she gave me something to try. Fam...let me tell you it worked. I was told to put my headphones on in the hight volume setting I could stand drowning out all outside noise. Something soothing on play. I chose Enigma  and Art of noise. Blind fold tight to keep out all light,Then start scene. It was incredible. I was able to relax and totally enjoy every thing Beast was doing. You all know I share everything with you all. Let me tell you it was so intense, eat your heart out 50 shades of GRAY lol. I came super hard several times. If anyone else has tips I would greatly appreciate it. 

Peace

Indigo 

Hello Indigo Fam,

      So I know it's been a while....long while. I have been dealing with personal tragedy. Over the last few weeks I have been slowly and quietly reentering the community. I even have a sub sister we are vetting. So this brings me to the topic of discussion. Someone sent a unnecessary message to this new sub attacking the fact she has a cat for her profile picture. Saying no self respective Dom wants a cat lady as a sub. That was so unnecessary. I see so many people on here that have animals as profile pics. Hell I have 2 cats at home is that a cat lady starter kit? Just asking. Not going to reveal more about her because I don't want her to get spooked. Please leave good comments and advice I can pass along to her. 

Peace

Indigo