I want to know what it feels like to have loving arms wrapped around me
I want to know what it feels like to be dressed or have my hair brushed
I want to know what it feels like to wear something that symbolizes his ownership of me for all to see
I want to know what it feels like to have my fingers idly played with as a way to soothe himself
I want to know what it feels like to hear the deep baritone of an "I love you" and be made to believe it
I want to know what it feels like to be relieved of the obligation to speak when out in public
I want to know what it feels like to be told what to do, knowing that I will obey
I want to know what it feels like to be protected, safe, secure, and content
I want to know what it feels like to be petted while receiving nourishment from his hand alone
I want to know what it feels like to be looked at with love and pride and hunger
I want to know what it feels like to be handled confidently with patience and care
I want to know what it feels like to be held at night or laid down for a nap
I want to know what it feels like to have a protective and possessive gaze locked on me with a constant awareness
I want to know what it feels like to be taught how to please him
I want to know what it feels like to have my hair wrapped around his hand when I don't
I want to know what it feels like to be watched with eyes full of gleeful, predatory anticipation when I purposefully disobey
I want to know what it feels like to have teeth sunken into my shoulder while I'm held immobile from behind
I want to know what it feels like to have a low growl rumble against my back
I want to know what it feels like to hear the low timbre of a praise
I want to know what it feels like to hear the promises hidden within a dark, animalistic laugh
I want to know what it feels like to be pushed up against the wall with a hand wrapped around my throat
I want to know what it feels like to have the deep impact of a palm strike me down to the muscle
I want to know what it feels like to be held and comforted while being punished at the same time
I want to know what it feels like to admire the canvas of bruises in the mirror and thank him for such beautiful art
I want to know what it feels like to have a hand on the back of my head, guiding my movements
I want to know what it feels like to keep him warm while we watch a movie
I want to know what it feels like to be at the mercy of his strength, held in place without hope of getting free
I want to know what it feels like to be conquered and claimed
I want to know what it feels like to be marked in all ways possible
I want to know what it feels like to be filled and dripping
I want to know what it feels like to be stalked and hunted by his predator
I want to know what it feels like to be taken whenever I am needed
I want to know what it feels like to have my legs spread while I'm asleep
I want to know what it feels like to experience exhilarating fear and unwavering trust in equal measure
I want to know what it feels like to sit at his feet and look up with unadulterated adoration
I want to know what it feels like to serve and worship him
I want to know what it feels like to be able to provide and take care of all of his needs
I want to know what it feels like to give him everything
I want to know what it feels like to be owned, completely and irrevocably
I just wish I knew