Good early morning Cage friends,
It is a tremendous day. I wanted to share a few updates (speaking of updates I need to revisit My profile and do some manhandling) about life and where I'm at, as well as extrapolate on the concept of My most recent blog.
Today in just a few hours I begin My weekend/vacation. It will be less than 3 hours by the time I'm done writing this and actually manage to post My blog. I am going home to spend some well deserved time with My slave and work on taking care of a few things around My home. I still can't acknowledge My slave left at the beginning of September and as such I have struggled with washing My dishes. But as time turns and now I am approaching the halfway point to when Mikayla returns home (end of January for 13 days) I need to get My head out of My ass and start caring well for My property on My own.
I also intend to have a very small fire now that the snow has melted for a short time, in which I will be burning the figurative chains of debt that I have managed to pay off. My parents created a chain link out of paper with each link representing 100 dollars and as I pay off My debt to them I dismantle the chain making it shorter and shorter. I will then make a fire and perform a ritual of releasing the debt from ever burdening Me again in My life. I am quite excited to achieve the financial freedom I once had in My youth and truly begin to prepare My household and life I choose to live with travel, golf and other fun ways I will be able to spend My money.
Cap off the night with some Thursday night football (and watch My fantasy team get CRUSHED for another week.... Currently 11/12 with a record of 3-6) and perhaps a small sip of My new favourite rum that Mikayla and I found.
Friday I have plans with some friends to go golfing and the evening could open up with a couple of different opportunities. The taboo sex show is coming to town which can be quite fun and informative although I won't know what I will actually do Friday night until it's here. Chances are I may just squirrel away back home although that would be a waste of fuel as Saturday I am taking a road trip with My mom to visit My sister. So I would need to come right back into town.
After the weekend visiting with My sister I get to be productive inside My home by setting up some cabinets with My dad in the garage. Right now I have to squeeze past My vehicle/cabinets everytime I come home, so organizing and sorting the garage space will be very useful. It will become much more usable which is nice and I won't have to pretend to be an acrobat just to walk in the door after work.
Then sometime during that week I have My interview at work for the relief foreman position that I applied for. Not sure what day that is happening but I am excited for the opportunity. There is a lot going on and it will be a busy few days but well worth the effort and I am excited for each moment.
Also, here are some valuable numbers without context:
9740. 02/04. 771. 12. 192.
Now I wanted to take a moment to speak a little about the concept of seasons change. I would ask that Y/you listen to the intention of My words and not the exact written word. I acknowledge that I may not explain everything as adequately as I want.
Mikayla and I have finally been able to purchase her ticket home at the end of January (the best part of that was W/we were able to pay cash for her flight home - I will give her the opportunity to speak on this in more depth if she wishes to but suffice to say God has opened the doors when there was no other way and all things conspired to make life "out" for her more difficult) and W/we will get 13 days together. Another serendipitous moment is that her coming home will result in U/us being able to celebrate O/our 3rd year anniversary together at the beginning of February.
The insane part is that W/we have been talking for almost 4 years and are coming up on O/our 3rd anniversary of being in a committed dynamic together.
As time moves the season's and stages of O/our dynamic has shifted alongside it. Where W/we started is radically different from where W/we are right now. You can see the evidence of this in the ways that W/we have each individually healed and worked out struggles and past trauma from previous relationships. One example of this is the fact Mikayla can sleep. In previous dynamics she was "always on call" and time was an essential need for her. So when her Doms would come calling if she didn't respond then she missed the essential time together. But when you add a time difference of *end of day* is the middle of her night that meant she needed to remain half awake so that her phone buzzing would wake her up.
I have worked damn hard to give her time. It is a need for both of U/us and it is essential when developing a dynamic together. Getting time, making time and following through on My promise to "see her everyday" meant that over time I began to heal the deep wounds on her soul. At the beginning of time together I would need to give her permission to sleep. I created a ritual phrase for putting her to bed which released her from "being on call". I gave her space to let her know I would watch over her on a video call but I was handling My own life and I would give her a clear time of *wake up at this time*. I gave her structure and form. Then I showed up every single day consistently. After a while she was able to let go of being on duty and no longer needed the ritual phrase to be put to sleep. It took a lot of patience and understanding but it just naturally occured that her heart learned to trust in Me and she found her ability to sleep knowing if I needed her time I would give her explicit guidelines and structure for what that looked like.
Now fast forward a few years. I want to share Mikayla's latest return back to My satellite campus in September. She left home and as she made her way back to *life* she had plenty of tasks to get ready for work and school. O/our daughter also was starting grade 3 this year which has meant a lot more homework and has required more time for Mom to oversee helping with said homework.
I was also reveling in the final moments of green grass and the dwindling time I had left to continue golfing. As Mikayla left O/our home I began to take My time on the weekends to get out and enjoy My time on different courses around My home. I was playing golf 4 or 5 times a week, getting out as much as I could with the few remaining weeks left.
All of this stacked up to the point where W/we did not have much time together. Plenty of days W/we would pop into a video call and wave at each other and then have to scamper off to accomplish the tasks W/we needed and wanted to do. The thing was though just because O/our time was filled with managing life, handling work responsibility, handling parenting, handling house and time with friends on both sides of the world W/we had never had less time together. But there was no negativity inside of being apart. W/we were both focused on the right priorities.
W/we have established a stable and strong foundation for O/our dynamic. Now as time moves forward W/we are able to recognize the strength of O/our bond. There is a subtle shifting in the essence of O/our dynamic and it is turning from the honeymoon stage into life long committed dynamic. Now I want to share a definition that both Mikayla and I strongly believe. "Excitement" is the anticipation of change. When something is new and shiny there is a lot of thrilling exploration, there is fervor and lust. During the honeymoon phase of a relationship emotions can run high, and there is so much to learn and so much to explore. It is exciting. As Y/you shift from one stage to another though the excitement turns into contentment.
Now this is where I want Y/you to hear the intention behind My words.
Just because the excitement of something new fades over time does not mean it has depreciated or become any less. It shifts and becomes something else. It is a different feeling and a different experience. This doesnt mean that W/we lose passion, that O/our conversations become dry and "old". I'm still exploring and learning Mikayla. I'm still growing and developing My Dominance and Mastery. It just is taking on a new form and a new shape. It is an evolution of the dynamic and this change is what will propel U/us further and deeper into O/our future dynamic. The trust that W/we have built now becomes the foundation W/we stand on and continue to grow from. It is a beautiful thing. To recognize the contentment and joy of what W/we have found and just how special the bond W/we share is.
With this newfound trust built I can step into more of My authentic self and explore My deeper and darker fantasies. I can explore Mikayla and take U/us deeper into the lifestyle W/we both need. But it takes time. It takes effort. It takes diligence and patience. I also get to look forward to the future and plan where I want to take U/us.
Seasons change, but I implore Y/you to embrace change and learn to appreciate where Y/you are. Learn the hard lessons that trials and tribulations teach Y/you, take a moment to breathe in the joy of where Y/you are and learn how to grow the future Y/you need from where Y/you are currently. All people start somewhere, it just depends how hard Y/you are willing to work to overcome the situation and build the life Y/you desire for Y/yourself.
I want to thank all of those that take the time to read My words this morning, and I pray they will be the encouragement Y/you need to move forward and experience some healing on Y/your journey.
Mstr J