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Random thoughts, some insight into my crazy thoughts, how I see life that kind of shit. I am that girl that everyone tells "your so great" who wants to stay friends with but doesn't actually want to put the effort in for. Story of my life.
3 years ago. December 7, 2020 at 12:27 AM

Today was a good day, spent some time with my daughter.  I got my daughter a year in a half ago, her parents signed her over to me the mom sight unseen or even talked to me.  I am filing to adopt her even though she is 18.  To me, she is my daughter, who I am very protective of.  This child was given drugs by her mother at 12, she had a hard damn life, never could depend on anyone her dad having to much pride to admit he let this beautiful child down.  I dated her dad for a few months, I choose her when the time came to leave she has been my daughter since.

 

She sent me a text at like 6 am just to tell me her jeans aren't fitting bc of her weight gain from birth control.  Just to vent, I got up and got dressed while I called her told her to get ready I was coming to get her to buy some pants.  She cried, she still isn't used to having someone be there for her and take care of her.  It pisses me off so much that something so small means so much to her bc that is our jobs as parents.  I had to fight her to let me do it, she knows I am struggling with losing my job, car, and house.  She didn't want me to spend my money, she does that every time she needs something.  If she just mentions it I will go do what I can, that is what you do for your kids period. 

 

This little girl works two jobs, she was out of work for a week when she fell and hurt her back.  I brought her to the hospital then back to my house and put her in my bed with me.  I kept her there until she was okay to go home.  She lost pay from both jobs, she's struggling but will not ask me for anything.  When I noticed she didn't have food I got it for her.  These things are something she doesn't expect nor does she ask for.  She will go without it before she asks for help, but lately, we have been making progress on that front.  She let me buy her some clothes today, gave her money to get her ID, brought her to eat.  She will accept things somewhat without a fight but won't ask, at least she's telling me she is having issues now. 

 

 

See I am the mom to the unwanted kids, while I have helped a lot of them I have taken in two as my own. I wanted a house full but that decision was taken from me, this was my way of filling that emptyness.  So I spent the day with my daughter, talked to my son and it was a very happy day for me!


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