So I might be following a few people on YouTube that make amazing playlists and I recently found an interesting one. “A playlist for dilfs” and who doesn’t like dilfs? I know I love dilfs. So here’s that amazing playlist
don’t mind me as I go sing and dance 💃🏻
Don’t mind me as I dance to this song 🎵 💃🏻
I’ve never been known for my patience
but with you I don’t mind
every day I wait for your response
i spend most of my day looking for a reply
i can’t remember the last time I was like this
so fixated on someone and not knowing why
I want to pick your brain
get to know you better
wanting to see how long this fixation lasts
wanting to know where these conversations will go
Will it be friendship or something more?
that I do not know
so I keep waiting
waiting for your replies
Walking down the hallway, I hear a sound. Puzzled by it I follow it and leads me to the nicest scene I’ve seen for a while. A blonde man on his knees giving head to a dark haired man. The blonde’s head are bobbing on that very impressive dick. The dark haired man has his head tilted back and his eyes closed. He’s holding on to the blonde’s head as he fucks his mouth harder and faster. Blondie is moaning and I can tell he loves being used as a fuck toy. With a groan, the dark haired man cums into blondie’s mouth who proceeds to sallow every drop. The dark haired man pulls blondie to his feet and kisses him deeply. I can’t tell what is hotter, the kiss or that blowjob. The dark haired man reaches into the blonde’s pant and strokes his dick, once, twice and the blonde moans. Blondie bends down and I hear a sound of something opening. The dark haired man inserts one well lubed finger into the blonde’s ass who rocks into it. Smack, I hear as the dark haired man spanks one cheek then the other and I see a bit of pre cum dropping from the blonde’s dick. Another finger goes in and the blonde moans, rocking back faster. “Please fuck me” I hear the blonde say. Chucking the dark haired man leans over him, kissing him softly “Patience. I want to see you taking another finger”. Having said that the dark haired man inserts a third finger. The blonde moans louder. “Shhh. Don’t want someone to hear” says the dark haired man covering the blonde’s mouth. The dark haired man keeps fucking the blonde with his fingers until the blonde is a moaning mess. Suddenly he removes his fingers and starts inserting his dick. Once fully inside both still, savoring the moment. The dark haired man leans over the blonde grabbing his dick while thrusting. Slow at first but getting faster. He shoves two fingers inside the blonde’s mouth who stars sucking the same way he did the dark haired man’s dick. Both men are panting and the pace is increasing. They both seem to be coming soon. Right that moment the dark haired man makes eye contact with me, grinning “like what you see?” to which I nod. The blonde man doesn’t even look, too out of it. With one final thrust both men cum and lay there panting. I back out of the room, thinking I need new panties. ;)
There’s two different dishes I’m extremely proud of. One is filet mignon and the other is salmon. I personally think both dishes end up tasting better than even the ones in restaurants.
For the filet mignon, i leave it outside for about 30 mins until it’s at room temperature and season it with salt and pepper. You gotta tap both into the meat. I start preparing some butter with rosemary to give it some taste and I put as much as I feel is good. I use either so coconut or avocado oil to cook and at times butter instead. The frying pan needed to cook the meat needs to go into the oven and can’t be non stick as the point is for the meat to get stuck a bit. Meat has to be left to cook on both sides for about 2-3 mins depending on how you like your meat cooked. You only touch the meat to switch sides and to put the butter with rosemary. After it gets cooked a bit from both sides you put the frying pan into the oven at 375 for about 5-10 minutes depending on which term you want the meat cooked. I’ve found that the more butter you put, the softer and juicer it will taste. If you like your meat well done I’d recommend cutting the meat right down the middle of it’s too thick
For the salmon I like to cook it in a frying pan with butter and leave it there until it’s nice and fried. I swear it tastes just like chicken.
The sides for both dishes will go based on what the other person prefers. For me it would be mashed potatoes and broccoli.
Id then make some chocolate lava cakes with vanilla ice cream or if the other person is on a diet I’d make keto cookies.
here’s both recipes
https://food-network.app.link/5gG9YwRLyhb
I love animals a lot and honestly if I didn’t live in an apartment I’d have a lot more animals. As it is, I basically have a domesticated zoo. A cat, a dog, a hamster and now two bunnies instead of one.
So meet Manchi(spot in English) the newest member! 
Manchi was found by my mom abandoned in a park my mom frequents to feed a bunch of cats, raccoons and ducks. 
Manchi was found with another bunny which we were able to find a home for. Manchi will be staying with us since we couldn’t find him a home.
So for the ones out there that don’t know much about Greek mythology I’ll get you started pretty easily. Eros is Cupid. He isn’t a baby with a diaper, wings and a bow with arrows. He’s portrayed as a young man in Greek mythology but he does still have wings and a bow with arrows, just not a diaper because that would be weird... anyways the story I’m talking about today is how Eros, the God of Love, met his wife, Psyche.
Once upon a time in a faraway land(Ancient Greece to be exact) there lived a king with three daughters(more or less, can’t remember the exact amount). We will not mention the name of the two eldest as they don’t matter in this story and they have already been married off to other countries. We care about the youngest daughter, Psyche, the heroine of the story. You see, Psyche was very beautiful and her father the king kept rejecting marriage proposals because he felt his daughter was only worthy of marrying a god based on how completely beautiful she was. She was also seen as the most beautiful woman in the world at that time but they made a grave mistake when describing her beauty. They bragged she was more beautiful than Aphrodite, The Goddess of Beauty, who also happens to be Eros’ mother and extremely vain and petty. Aphrodite became enraged once she found out the mortals were saying there was a woman more beautiful than her! She immediately went to Eros and told him to go to the mortal world and make Psyche fall in love with a monster. Eros sneaks into her room at night while she’s sleeping. As he approaches her bed he’s mesmerized by how beautiful she is. At this pint Psyche wakes up and seems to be staring at Eros. Eros completely startled since no juman should be able to see him when he’s invisible accidentally pricks himself with the arrow he had ready for Psyche and falls in love with her. He immediately leaves and goes to Apollo and asks him to make a prophecy that Psyche will marry a monster and where she needs to be sent. Psyche is completely devastated by it while her sisters gloat behind her back as they had always been jealous of her, their beautiful and perfect younger sister. Psyche is then taken to the palace where her monster husband is waiting for her. The palace is beautiful, with invisible servants that play music for Psyche music the whole day and feed her anything she could possibly want. Her room is full of luxurious materials she’s never even seen before. When she questions the servants as to when she will see her husband, they inform her he will only come at night when all is dark and they warn her to never turn any lights on. Psyche patiently waits at night for her husband to come and they consummate their wedding. She slowly becomes used to her new life, servants in the morning to cater to her every whim and an attentive husband at night. She starts falling in love with her husband little by little based on the story one they spend together and their nightly conversations but she’s becoming a bit homesick so one night she asks if her sisters can come visit and her husband agrees. The next day her sisters are brought to the palace where Psyche admits to being pregnant and in love with her husband. The sisters jealous over how beautiful and luxurious the palace is tell Psyche her husband is a horrific monster that will eat her child as soon as she gives birth and convince her to kill her husband that same night. Psyche scared for the life of her newborn child waits for her husband to fall asleep and approaches the bed with a lot candle and a dagger in her hand. When she gets to the bed she realized her husband isn’t a monster but the god Eros! She’s mesmerized by his beauty and accidentally drops wax on him causing Eros to wake up and upon seeing the candle in her hand flies away screaming “without trust there can be no love”.
Now this is the part I call bs on. Sure, psyche didn’t trust him and that’s why she used a candle to see who he was but she had a good reason. Eros,on the other hand, didn’t have a good enough reason for not telling her who he was and letting her believe she married a monster. I did recently start a podcast that says gods couldn’t show themselves to humans but I don’t think it’s true since I’ve heard stories of the gods showing themselves to humans in their godly form and Psyche even saw Persephone in person. Anyways, they were both in the wrong and didn’t trust each other at all. And now to the story once again.
Psyche is devastated after Eros leaves and she gets kicked from the palace. She wanders around until she comes to one of Aphrodite’s temples and begs the goddesses to tell her son to come back. Aphrodite shows herself to Psyche and tells her that as long as she can complete three trials she will be able to see Eros again. Psyche agrees and starts her first trial which is to separate all the grains in Aphrodite’s temple by morning. Psyche starts working on it knowing she won’t be able to complete it until a group of ants comes and offers to help her. When Aphrodite comes in the morning she sees all the grains separated and decides to set an even more difficult task. The next task is to collect wool from human eating sheep. When Psyche arrives there, the voice of a god tells her to wait for the sheep to leave the area they are currently in and pick up the wool from the bushes. Psyche does exactly that and finishes her task very fast. Aphrodite enraged over this decides to make the last task impossible to complete without dying. Psyche is to go to the Underworld and ask Persephone for a bit of her beauty for Aphrodite. Once again, Psyche hears the voice of a god as she’s about to jump off a cliff to her death, how to get into the Underworld without dying. Psyche then makes her way to the Underworld and asks Persephone for the box prepared for Aphrodite. Once she receives the box she decides to open it as her skin has gotten dry and she isn’t looking her best and wants to look beautiful when she sees Eros again. As soon as she opens the box she falls into an eternal sleep. Eros rushes to her, having seen her going through all the trials and helping her finish every single one of them and takes her to Zeus asking for her to be turned into a goddess. Psyche turns into a goddess and is able to marry Eros and give birth to a few kids who’s names I don’t even remember 🤷♀️ Aphrodite still probably hates her but they don’t truly mention it.
And that’s the end of the story or at least the version I know by memory. This happens to be my favorite story of the gods so I hope that maybe someone else will like this story after reading it. ☺️🤗
For all of you to become fat with me or at least feel like you are becoming fat. So here’s a flan cupcake recipe I found that tastes AMAZING
https://www.google.com/amp/s/www.foodnetwork.com/recipes/flan-cupcakes-recipe-2041680.amp
I would suggest you buy the flan already made unless you know how to caramelize sugar or already know how to make bomb flan. I’ve never in my life made flan or caramelized sugar so my flan was horrible and had to ask my mom to make me a flan... otherwise this recipe is simply amazing 🤤🤤
I think that everyone probably goes through a time in their life they feel they don’t fit in at all. I have always been one of those people. I never wanted to do what everyone else was doing. While other kids were out playing hide and seek I was home watching cartoons and soap operas. When all the other kids were having sleepovers, I was sleeping in my own bed like the dead. When others were experiencing their first love, I was being “one of the guys” just as loud and crazy as my male friends. When girls were putting makeup on and painting their nails, I was screaming “this is Sparta” with my friends on teamspeak. When all the other people my age were out partying and drinking I was in my room looking at Chinese/Korean dramas and watching anime.
I’ve never fit in with people my age and for many years it bothered me but it reached a point I didn’t care. I’m not like everyone else and I never will. I won’t be a sheep following what everyone else does. I’ll follow my own path in life and do the things I love and not what’s expected of me.
When people look at me puzzled over why I spent a whole weekend home instead of being out and about it doesn’t bother me anymore. When I see other my age at clubs and bars with their friends, I don’t wish I was them because frankly I find clubbing and drinking boring.
It’s ok to not fit in. We are all unique and amazing the way we are. There’s no shame in being home all the time because that’s your happy place. There’s no same in being like an old person. There’s no shame in being YOU.
I love challenges so thank you for the challenge Morley 🤗
I believe I have mentioned in other blogs about my depression. There isn’t a specific reason as to why I’m depressed as I think I’ve been blessed with a decent life but I have noticed that depression can impact even people with lives that we think are perfect. I have struggled for years with suicidal thoughts, insecurity and just feeling like I’m not worth anything. There’s times that it gets really bad and that negative voice comes back to say “you are worth nothing” “ no one would miss you if you were gone” “no one cares about you”. For many years this voice plagued me but I decided to seek the help I needed. I got myself a psychologist and for about 2 years I worked on myself and my mental state and even too medication to help me. I have gotten a lot better than I was in the past. I don’t dwell anymore on that day where I was going to end it all, when my reasons as to why suicide is bad weren’t helping me. I don’t dwell on how close I got to ending it all and I sure as hell don’t dwell on how free I felt when I thought of it. I’m only grateful that part of me still wanted help and I reached out my best friend who walked me back from the edge and remained with me throughout that time. Through therapy I started getting better at dealing with my depression and frankly it doesn’t affect my life too much anymore. I try every day to get rid of my procrastination and slowly concentrating on doing better at school. Depression can cause procrastination and since I didn’t have much of a desire to be alive I never did too well in school. I have been in college for my associate since fall of 2014 because of all the classes I failed since I do not care. I now deal with the consequences of my actions and I’m slowly working on finishing my degree without overwhelming myself with too much work and school. I do not know how long it will take me to finish school since I take very few classes every semester fit gear of spiraling into a deep depression. I do not dwell anymore on the thoughts of “you are a failure for taking so damn long finishing a degree that only takes two years”. I only keep moving forward taking my time and working at my own pace. I don’t let my negativity affect me anymore or let anyone’s opinion affect me. I’m also working on not thinking too far into the future and taking life one day at a time.
I won’t say my depression is fully gone as I don’t think depression is something you ever get rid of. You just learn to live with it. You learn to smile brighter than anyone else. You learn to laugh harder than everyone else. You learn to be the sun shinning brightly like there’s no tomorrow. You learn to cope with it and take life one step at a time. And what is what I do, take life one step at a time. Go through my coping mechanisms and when it gets too bad I know to reach out and seek help.
I gotta say that I haven’t had suicidal thoughts for a long time now. I don’t think life is so damn meaningless anymore. I’ve found a meaning for it and I realize not everyone has the same meaning to life. My meaning is doing my hobbies, reading, gaming, napping. Spending hour on YouTube watching funny videos or videos of people creating beautiful things. Streaming the games I play and interacting with my viewers. Playing rough with my cat and watching her as she sleeps. That is my meaning. A meaning that took me so damn long to find but has made all the difference in the world when it comes to my depression.
I’m slowly walking new miles. Miles that are bringing me peace, joy and calm. And every day I learn something new about myself and the world around me. I don’t think I’ll ever reach an end goal as I will never let myself have an end goal. I’ll always make a new goal when one is reached and I’ll keep walking and walking until the day my life is naturally over and not taken by my own hand.