I'm honest, I'm kind, I'm considerate, I'm fair.
Or I should say I like to think that the above is true.
Believe me when I say I'll always tell the truth just remember you may not like the answer.
I'm here to find what I seek same as all.
So why so far all the fakes?
Their are some golden people here that I swear I'll always have time for but why am I to be strung along with pointless hope.
Their are some delightful sub's on this site that would love to be mine as they say but their in other countries some of which I can never enter as I have a criminal record.
Idiotic youth too much pride ego and so many other unhealthy attributes.
My fault I own my past I don't let it define me its made me who I am today so well fuck.
I'm not perfect I don't claim to be so why is it expected of me, no movie star looks no big bank account I need money but shit so does everyone I'm no asking for that I'm asking to be completed.
I'm driven, loyal, challenging.
I believe so anyway even when life is going well for me I'm starting to fell down.
No pick me ups not getting into that again I've already fucked up with that.
Their out their waiting I know its I've waited too long myself.
As I say things in my life haven't been stable but I'm now in charge again no one else dictating my movements my when's and why's its all me.
I'm not new to this and you may guess that my early activity was brought on at an age that's well I'll say this I should have remained innocent.
But hey I've dealt with the demon it just put me on the path.
The result is me a dominant male who won't be subjected to anyone oh I'll smile and say things that contradict my persona but trust in the fact the outside world is shown what I want it to see.
Yes its manipulation yes I'm intelligent enough to give of the passive vibe but will I'll tell you I'm doing it of course.
I read others blogs and its so true that love is involved in these relationship's and I think the connection is deeper more raw untamed if you will and that's because the relationship is honest if a Dom's had a shit day a Sub knows no questions no signals no nothing they know how to make it right again.
A so called normal relationship well it can turn into a fucking horror movie in minutes they just don't get it.
Its the same the other way around a Dom just has to show a little love a make their Sub feel safe and back on track or its antidepressants and alcohol chasers to balance out.
Oh fuck that dependency!
So my pondering goes on what are my choices I tried to figure it out but I seem to have added questions to a list I've realized made.
Anyway lovely people play safe.
J
