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2 years ago. March 10, 2021 at 10:40 PM

I was in a dialog with a gentleman who mentioned some issues beginning with a quoted statement on how a slave “will always act and respond in such a way as to make the Master’s orders look ‘right.’”

That brought up conflicting views in my mind.  I will start with an example.

As I enjoy using a single tail, I often attend single tail demos.  At one convention demo I was quite impressed with the lecturer until he told me that a Master should never admit to a mistake.  This was very conflicting for me and he lost my respect.

In my opinion/view/experience humans tend to like to be right, but often aren't.  So, do we admit to the mistake, learn, improve and show respect to those who showed us a differing way, or do we refuse to admit the mistake, work to convince ourselves of the rightness of our actions, or gaslight the other into thinking it was their understanding that was incorrect?  I think if you observe the people of authority around us, both religious, legal and political, you will quickly come to the conclusion that the latter is the more common.  But I do not feel it is the more advantageous for either the observed or the observer.

Now, I will be the first to admit that the example I gave does not exactly match the question asked.  But it applies.  Do I want a close and valued partner to encourage a possibly human tendency to feel I am right no matter what, or would I wish them to respectfully express a contrary viewpoint.  What I would wish is that they respectfully ask if this moment would be the appropriate moment to ask a question and if it was, to be sure they were clear in understanding the answer I express, and then, and only then, to express their viewpoint as to a possibly better way to accomplish that goal.

Obviously, all of this is context sensitive.  If necessary, I would rather they fuck all of that BS and pull me out of the way of the damn bus.

Please understand, I make mistakes.  I believe being a MASTER means I know who and what I am, and know my limitations.  I cannot tell you the number of fuck ups I have accomplished by being RIGHT.  I would rather be better.

I believe firmly that I gain more respect and admiration by working to be better and  respecting the viewpoint of my partner than I would by continuing the sham of playing "right" no matter what.

As for being right in my communication, I continually encourage the most outstanding question, "My Master, what did you mean by that?"

The gentleman with whom I was conversing replied at length and then said, “I am focusing on situations where she is needlessly snide, sarcastic and caustic.”  This was important to me and I wrote back.

I asked him to keep in mind that I did not know the particulars of their relationship, neither the constructed protocols they both had created together nor the more "humanesque" immediate responses he had experienced.  (Though I did say that what he described seemed to fall more into the latter.)  But all I could speak on were my own particularly heart felt desires.

"Respect is to be greatly valued.  I try to continually express my respect of my partner by valuing her opinion and seeking her views on all subjects.  As I repeatedly tell her, I want her opinion on all things so I can make the most informed choice.  But the choice is mine.  She is the supporter, I am the leader.

But in her expression, I remind her that respect is due from her as well....Does she want to be in a relationship with someone she admires and respects?  Then treat me that way.  If she feels I am acting disrespectfully, then respectfully express that opinion.  Returning disrespect only creates a disrespectful relationship.  She absolutely has the right to call me out when I treat her disrespectfully. (Unless it is in a negotiated aspect of our relationship or scene, but that's a whole different kettle.)"

I am reminded of a lecture from Master Obsidian and Namaste.  They describe a serf approaching Royalty and saying, "Hey, you really messed up here."  To which the appropriate response is that of the Queen of Hearts.  However, if the serf has a legitimate complaint, and informs their Master with increased respect and deference, they are, in fact, reminding their Master of his responsibility for the maintenance and well being of the relationship.  A point I have remembered for many years.

"Another thing I mention to her is Mindfullness.  That is a common term in Buddhist practice and other forms involving meditation.  It speaks to how immediate responses are usually not our most affirming and respectful ones.  (Just look at the most public tweets we see today.)  This goes to both of you.  Think about what you do and the intent of it.  Is it to promote a more joyous and mutually affirming and respectful relationship, or is it to spew out your immediate grumbleness?

I catch myself here with a smile because there is little I might enjoy more than "disrespectful banter" between my partner and I.  But there is always a clear consciousness of the love and respect behind it.  (If not, I do have a large paddle.  She, unfortunately has no such resource.)

Now, I tend to be an immediately confrontational person.  If my partner expresses herself disrespectfully, as she can do after a stressful day at work or if I hit a historical stress button inadvertently, my first questions might be, firmly "Why are you here?"  "Why are you in this relationship?"  You see, the thing I most enjoy about the D/s or M/s relationship is that We think about it.  All parties are required to work to bring that relationship to what we define as best for us.  Why else are we here?  If that is so, then respect is necessary."

OK, enough pontification for this day.  But I can not leave without a comment on his last substantive paragraph.  He had told me, “We've only been together for about 7 months now. While she considers herself to be well versed in being a slave after having been in such relationships for the past decade or so (albeit they have all been unhealthy and abusive), I am relatively new to the role of being a master.”

Time does not equate to valuable experience, unless it is learning from your own unproductive choices.  But it can confuse one into thinking they have authority.  Informing, talking about previous situations can be good, and I would definitely ask what aspects of her previous relationship were valuable and affirming to her and what were not, but remember, she informs, you decide.  Do not give her authority just because she has a longer time for experience.  The relationship you create and maintain is the one between you and her, no one else.

[3/10/21 - The above was an edited post from possibly a year ago.  But I had occasion to talk this morning with my much loved wife, with whom I am separated.  We talked for a long time about entitlement and the current restructuring of male-female relationships in the US.  My views have a lot to do with being a mature gentleman (read-Old Fuck) as well as being White, well spoken, tall, and raised in an affluent suburb of Chicago in the 50s and 60s.  I was entitled to use my body and words to touch, in a way now accepted as inappropriate (though not abusive) a woman in whom I had interest.  The reason I was entitled was that No One Told Me Different.  It was the way things were done.  I mention this because it is one of the reasons I enjoy this lifestyle.  I want to be told.  I want to learn.  I want to be able to act differently.  But I want, also, to have the ability to find a partner with whom I can negotiate a relationship affirming to the Horny Old Fuck that is Me.]

K y i v - I refer this as Truth to power.... Only the strongest slave is capable 100% of the time.
2 years ago
Bunnie - What if there is a third option? What if it was ok not stating verbally to being wrong, but simply going about learning to further one’s knowledge so that in the future they’re more informed? Sometimes I think we take the concept of transparency too far, with a belief that “flopping everything out” is transparency. When does it become detrimental to what we’re hoping to achieve?

Growth doesn’t come from *saying* you’ll do different... it comes from *doing* different. Do we need to announce it? I’m not so sure. The times we seem to live in now are very focused around hollow words. Everyone has an opinion, and feels it’s so important for that to be shared. Use your voice has become the new mantra. Silence or quiet contemplation or quietly going about our way through life is very much a thing of the past. After all we are an online world... everything needs to be announced. But, does it really?

Reading this I couldn’t help but ask myself, do I need Master to announce or “admit” to making mistakes? We have come to a point where it is much easier for me to trust that He is capable of thinking and determining for Himself if He can find value in other’s thoughts and opinions, to carry forward. His growth is His choice... not my expectation. I don’t think I much need Him to admit mistakes anymore. In earlier days I did more so... when I still didn’t yet “know” His values. But now it seems not so much. We both know we’re the type of people who are dedicated to our growth, both as individuals and towards what we’re building together. I’m sure He has a million things He believes are mistakes He has made throughout our journey, as do I. We discuss things if they come up, definitely. But I would hope that He never felt that it was necessary for Him to have to “answer to me” in regards to if He has made mistakes.
2 years ago
SweetSirRendering​(sub female){under cons} - excellent questions. i am sure your answers will be found if this is what works between you and your Master <3
2 years ago
OraclePollon​(sub female){NotYours} - The hollowest of words! I never need acknowledged words or mistakes, just an observable difference. In my dynamic we are learning the difference between defensiveness and statements. I do not need the why when an error happens, it is irrelevant, it did. Just the statement of it has been corrected, no further explanation needed.
2 years ago
SweetSirRendering​(sub female){under cons} - to some, words are important and are considered actions. for those, this is most powerful when paired with additional action. a contribution with nothing to defend is a statement. it is also good to embrace how different we all are. it is truly good to hear the communication in your dynamic is so well aligned with one another. something we should all work to develop and strengthen as we grow. wonderful.
2 years ago
Arach - My first reaction is to say I agree. I do not feel there is a need to answer to you, and it is very possible I may inform my partner exactly why I do not feel it was a mistake. But I would want to avoid situations where something has happened that sticks uncomfortably in my partner's mind. I would hope that being informed of that would not be thought as “flopping everything out”.
2 years ago
AdamDragon​(dom male) - This is a well written conversation. I believe in My opinion, admitting to making Mistakes, as a Master, is perhaps situational and relative to certain happenings, and only in the presence of ones slave or submissive. Thats not for all the world to see, hear or know. In todays society, we as a Master would be defined as weak or "limp" for the lack of the term. Not that that really matters, as I always say, I don't give a rats ass what anyone else thinks. But admitting fault between the two individuals within the dynamic, (or others in a poly dynamic) actually shows a strength and understanding that We don't always know everything, and that We too are just as fallible as the next human being. Agree that taking that mistake and moving forward with the knowledge and foresight to prevent it from reoccurrence, is perhaps respectful and a show of strength in the eyes of our submissive(s). It shows We are paying attention.
2 years ago
SweetSirRendering​(sub female){under cons} - respectfully, having personally received and in respect of a public apology i accepted today, it was a appropriate and brave response to a public mistake and it was well received and appreciated. it in no way made my partner look limp; the contrary actually. sometimes gallantry is chosen because it is the way to strengthen or repair the bond. whatever the left side of the slash chooses for His/Her/Their right hand, is their choice for what works for their dynamic.
2 years ago
SweetSirRendering​(sub female){under cons} - Comment deleted by poster.
2 years ago
SweetSirRendering​(sub female){under cons} - i should clarify,

the act did not appear weak to the people involved, but rather the opposite.

public or private, i agree that accountability and having a voice in some form is vital for healthy relationships
2 years ago
SweetSirRendering​(sub female){under cons} - thank you for sharing your valuable experience
2 years ago
OraclePollon​(sub female){NotYours} - The true Master knows, he knows nothing at all. There are many paths to "Right", we choose to follow the path my Master takes.
2 years ago

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