tallslenderguy(other male)
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3 months ago •
Jan 6, 2024
3 months ago •
Jan 6, 2024
i'm a total bottom gay guy. Simply put (it's more complex for me), being "total bottom" means receiving a Mans penetration, but i never penetrate.
That said, as a bottom, i do not perceive myself as having a "cock." Not that i don't have a penis, i do, but i do not perceive it as a "cock." i see a "cock" as much more than a penis or physical organ betwixt the legs. To me, "cock" is also all that goes into motivating it for that particular Man, the energy, desire, need, driving forces, etc., connected to it.
"Worship" is sort of a loaded word for me. i grew up religiously conditioned, and it took me half my life to see through and process out of all that. i cannot honestly say that i "worship" anything or anyone? On the other hand, i learned how to connect with a Man orally with a Dom Who opened me while i was sucking His Cock. One of the resulting emotions i had was adoration.
What i learned is, i love to give pleasure to a Man through HIs cock and i need to know that that is happening. The above mentioned Dom both coached and acknowledged me the entire time i was sucking Him. He let me know what He wanted/needed in a direct but non forceful way that opened me deeply, then when i would give Him what He wanted/needed, He would literally gush "good boy!!! I am so proud of you" (which also had the effect of regressing me). His opening and feeding me got me in a zone where i wanted to keep pleasing Him, even though i was also feeling sort of embarrassed from the regression, awkward in the physical position i was in. i was gagging from the effort (He had a big and thick cock), my eyes were tearing, my nose was running and my face was covered in my own saliva. i thought i must look a mess, but He was obviously so pleased, i never got tired of making the effort. The whole time i was filled with this energy and desire to continue pleasuring Him.
Since then, i've learned that i have an energy all my own of wanting to please and pleasure a Top Man, and i start with that energy and desire... if not, i don't try to fake it. i don't want to just go through the motions. i want to connect to and pleasure His "Cock" and all that that means,, not just perform some physical, mechanical act. i find that many Men sense that energy and it ellcits Their "Cock" even more, or that is already there in them as well. Depending on the chemistry we have, the best connections become symbiotic.
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