There is a term that I am unfortunately very familiar with. That term is geographically separated. With my first husband it happened a lot. He was active duty military. We were geographically separated for basic, AIT, and three tours of Iraq (the tours added up to 3 1/2 years). Now on my second marriage I am finding myself separated in this way again. I was in a toxic environment and so were my kids. We left and went to stay with family. My husband and Master stayed behind to take care of some things. Well its been nine weeks now and this separation is harder than all the others i have faced. We should be reunited in two weeks but that seems like eons. I am struggling with the inability to serve him. I didn’t think this would be so hard for me. I guess I truly am his sub. I miss every aspect of our relationship. The physical closeness, the intimacy, the talks, heck even just going to the grocery store together. Cooking him dinner, washing his clothes, cleaning our house. I miss it all. I am blessed to be with my loving family but if he asked me to come back to where he is I would go in a heartbeat. I am also blessed that I have found my Dom. The one person whom a love above all others. The one I fell fulfilled with. The one who has freed me by accepting my submission to him. The one who loves me, cherishes me and shows me so often that I never doubt it. There are 100+ Dons out there. I am just lucky enough to find the one that fits me best. He knows when to be gentle and when not to be. He has enriched my life. This is my ode to him. I can’t express how integral my happiness have become intangled in him. I’m not saying my happiness is dependent on him just I am happy with him than with out. So to my husband, Master and Dom thank you. You have made me very happy and I just hope that others find that match that makes them feel completed.
