Just me

I sit at the desk totally consummed with work. Texts have been going back and forth all day but the last hour or so my answers have been minimal. I know I may face punishment later but he knows how work can get. I give one final click to my excel put my face in my hands and shake my head. I hear the key to the conference room opening the door and think please god no more shit. I slowly raise my head and turn to see him standing there. My heart stops. I instantly drop to my knees and bow my head. He slips into my office close enough to touch him and closes the door. The look in his eyes, pure lust. I know my lack of responding has made the beast in him hungry. He growls low and I know what I am to do. My hands reach for his belt I slowly undue it knowing this makes him crazy. His pants are next and I'm rewarded with the sight of what I plan to worship.

I quickly move closer and up on my knees so I can take him in. I lick my lips and glance at him. I flick my tongue on the tip of his cock and the trace around. I love the taste of Sir. I slowly slide my lips down him taking I'm all the way in relaxing so my throat will welcome him. All the way down him and I hold. Enjoying the fullness I feel with him in my mouth. I moan letting him know how much I like it. I slowly start to move back and forth as my tongue glides over his cock. I am made to please my Sir.
I feel his hands wrap in my hair gripping tighter. I whimper a little and he holds me still. He fucks my mouth the way he wants and I let my tongue dance on him. Lost in his power I am his. I feel his cock twitch and I know he wants more.

He pulls me up by my hair kisses my lips. A moan escapes. He spins me around while pulling my scrubs down and then smacks my ass. He swipes everything off my desk and leans me over it. Placing his hand between my shoulder blades to keep me against the desk. He spanks the other side. I part my legs for him and feel the need for him growing. His other hand runs my body and the wraps around my neck. I barely have time to notice his cock touching me. He thrusts himself in as he squeezes just a little. God I am lost undone by his amazing touch.

Hes pounding me hard hands slide to my hips so he can take me how he wants. His hands caress my body. Sending me to the edge. I beg to cum he denies me. I'm trying so hard to be his good girl but I can feel the ache and need for release. I beg again he slams into me and says to cum.

My body arches off the desk and cleches around him. Oh sweet bliss the orgasm rips through me and it wont stop. He pulls out and I am quickly left feeling empty. He spins me around and pushes me back on the desk.

I can see the beast has been satisfied and my loving Sir is back. He glides his hands over my body loving every inch if me. He leans and kisses me. This touch sets off a new set of feelings. I'm quickly brought back to the edge by the way he cares for me. Slow and sensual. I arch off the desk wrap my arms around him my nails dig in and this is his undoing. He stills before he tells me to hold on. Long hard strokes and he tells me to cum with him. I feel the tension, him swelling and he stills. He let's go and I cum with him. Our bodies become one in the moment. He wraps me up in his arms my legs around his waist. Still inside me he whispers "mine"

I lay here looking at a blank screen wondering what to write. I know I need to get it all out but my fears of hurting people keep me from being open. I have traveled many roads here and left people in my wake. Normally not by my own doing but because of something done to me. I've reached a peak and turn to look back at all the lessons I've learned. All making me who I am.
I turn and see the path laid before me. Its quiet peaceful path beauty all around. I take a step and feel warmth and comfort. I walk further and feel it wrap around me. My thoughts have found a calm they have become fine tuned. I walk further on the path learning more and feel the peace flow into me. I take a deep breath and nothing else exists just me and this calm. Somehow the calm has my total trust. Makes me feel safe to be me. I turn to look back and realize my past is just that the past.
I want to continue this journey no matter where it goes. I'm willing to risk parts of me to learn more. I have never felt this before and hope it doesnt change. To be supported without restrictions, to learn to focus on one. Right now all I want to know is what do you see on your current path? Does it bring you the comfort mine is bringing me

So the past 2 months I have been going nonstop. 

Survey... DHS, DOJ, FEDS... all for inspection

Then we went into a major hiring and my job is all about training everyone so 30 some odd employees later all done with I-9s and paperwork are finally on the floor. Mind you each person takes 8-16 hours to train with me depending on their license. 

Things are finally slowing down. So I sit here at my desk today after some amazing conversations and realize holy hell I have down time. 

Im lost! It feels good to be down to my last 4 new hires but at the same time I've been running on borrowed time and now I have nothing but time. 

My days have gone fairly quick the past 2 days as I said before amazing conversations but right now I am missing that. I dont know how to shut it off and relax 

Guess i will work on my reading.....

Or an idea that's brewing..... 

Incubus

Dark

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Enjoy your evening cagers this girl is off to figure out what yo do with herself 

She reads the words and is filled with warmth

Her heart beats in the moment

Closing her eyes she dreams of the reality 

Lost in the dream 

She floats and drifts

Free flying

Feeling the warmth around her

The colors of the dream are so bright

Vivid, beautiful, inviting

The aroma in the dream

Brings cimfort.

All these things with just words 

Shadows play on the ground

There is one lurking 

Darker than the rest 

Instilling fear

Slowly it grows 

Taking warmth

Dulling the colors

Making the air hard to breathe

The shadow grows

Consuming everything 

She becomes lost in the dark

Everything black

Looking around now 

Hanging in limbo 

She sees a small glint of light

She reaches

The light grows

Making her feel joy

She denies the light

Thinking it will fade

This light is strong

It will fight 

Save her from the darkness

He is her light

Sometimes we think we have found the perfect person. They build us up and then we crash their underlying darkness eats away at us. The thing is we cant ever give up. One of these days the light meant for us will shine bright. It won't dull, fade and consume it will make us brighter stronger. To those of you who have lost the light keep looking yours is there. For every chapter in our book there is a lesson to learn. We grow from the bumps we become better for each. Embrace every person whos been in your life for making you the person you are today dont stop searching ever.

So tonight I was irritated with something and the little Inside me decided to remind of something.  I have a love of Disney and damn frozen got me tonight so here we go

Then there was kelly another song thats gotten me through some major crap in my life 

So for those of you that don't know me music is my safety. When I get my emotions mixed up a song always changes that 

And just incase you didnt know I'm not ready to make nice I'm not ready to back down

Music good for the soul

She laid in bed and felt him tuck her in. Completely spent and totally satisfied. She drifted off to sleep. He was in every inch of her dreams. Every corner and dark place. Pleasing her over and over .
She woke up body relaxed and when she stretched ahead felt every muscle. The pain was satisfying when she thought about what brought it on. She moaned softly as she thought about it.
As she started to wake more she remembered what he said he would be back in LA in 5 days. She grabbed her phone to look up flights from VA to CA. Guess her trip to New York would have to wait. He was so much more exciting! She found one that left tomorrow. She called the rental company said she would be dropping the car off there instead of returning it and shed need a ride to the airport. She cuddled back up and then began her search as she thought what the hell are drunken noodles...
She called her friend back home to arrange for a ride from the airport and told her all about her trip and her Shadow. She told her of the task she had to do and enlisted her help as soon as she got back. She knew the next few daya were going to be long waiting to feel him again.
Getting up she decided to take a long hit bath. She let the water run hot and got in sinking her wonderfully aching body into the tub. The hear on her skin reminded her of his touch and the sting on her ass. She closed her eyes and got lost in the memories. She wanted so much more of this amazing man.

She started to fantasize about him coming back to her room. Her so lost in her thoughts she could almost feel it....
He comes into the bathroom naked. Slips into the tub behind her. Moving her body easily. His legs wrap around her his arms touching her arms and shoulders. He whispers in her ear " I want you to play with yourself as I hold you, do not cum until I tell you" her hands start to touch her sensitive nipples and she moans the drift down her stomach and find her lips. Then her clit. The moment she touches it her body jolts and ignites in fire. A moan escapes her lips. She can feel his arousal on her back. It doesnt take much to bring her right to the edge and she asks "Sir may I cum" he growls a no and she has to pull back. She bites her lip and trys to focus on anything but needing the release. Her body tenses again as she continues and this time she begs him. She needs to cum like she needs to feel his cock in her. He let's her and just as she starts to feel the release shes snapped back into reality. She groans eyes closed knowing she cant do it without him really saying she can. She needs that part now just as much as she needs him. Frustrated she sinks beneath the water letting the heat surround all of her. When she comes up she laughs and says allowed "you have hijacked all of me even my fantasies" she opens her eyes and sees him.

Due to some recent events I am not going to be able to wrote the next part of the story tonight with LL.

     He has had a very busy time recently and in light of events that happend to close to home I am going home to hold my. babies very close and pray for the families affected today by the shooting in my community.

2 very young people lost their lives today in a very senseless way. 

Love warm thoughts and many prayers to the families and children in Saugus....

His cock in her mouth was heaven. She savored the taste of him. He had her so turned on she was determined not to disappoint him. She let her tongue slide and flick as she moved her head up and down. Feeling him hit the back of her throat she relaxed and took him all the way. She was proud of herself for being able to take all of him this time without gagging.
He would tap the plug and make her moan everytime he was in her throat. She pulled back sucking till her lips popped off. She took the tip of her tounge and licked around the head of his shaft. Then blew lightly before her lips covered him.
She kept this up and felt him harden then she tasted him. Precum on her tounge she moaned and sucked with more desire than she ever had. She wanted to feel him let go like he had made her. She wanted to know she was pleasing him.
He sat on the bed making it easier to get a better angle. Her hands could hold back no longer. She kept sucking but started to rub him at the same time. As her lips pulled away her hands covered him. When her lips came down her hands rubbed lower. Caressing him. She pulled her mouth away and let her hands take over while she kissed and licked down him. She got to his sack and kissed and licked more then sucking. She heard him groan and felt his body tense. She switched to the other side bringing the same response. She felt his cock twitch in her hands begging for her lips again.
She moved back and sucked hard and fast. She could tell he was close the way his muscles all tensed, his hips lifted and moved in rhythm with her. She felt him swell and braced for what was coming. With a deep growl he let go, lost control and came. She tried to swallow it all but to much to fast and some dribbled out of her mouth.
The days of teasing eachother had built him up to an explosive release. He fell back on the bed panting and looked at her as she pulled her mouth off of him and wiped her lips. She licked her fingers smiled and crawled up him. Kissing all the way. Her lips met his she kissed lightly and said " thank you Sir"
She stood up walked to the chair and grabbed his jacket wrapped up in it and seductively walked to the door. She turned to him gave a smile bit her lip as she unlocked it and said "catch me if you can." She opened the door and walked out.
She made it to the elevator stepped in and the doors closed she put her hands in the pocket of his coat and felt a wallet. She pulled it out and had look, after all he knew her name. She saw his ID pulled it out and grinned. Her shadow had a name, she gasped when she saw the address only a few streets away from her in LA.
The doors opened on her floor, she wrapped the coat around her and stepped off. She heard the stairwell door close. Her body tensed as she felt him. She looked up and saw the look in his eyes and knew the chase was on and she was the prey. She took a step back but the elevator doors were closed. She turned to run to her room and almost made it before she felt arms wrap around her snatching her up off the ground. She yelped as he carried her off.
She smiled and thought I am his and he will claim all of me, she whispered "hello Sir having a good day?" She giggled as he growled and kept walking... she had no idea of the things he was going to do to her but she wanted him to do them all...

Does he see her when he closes his eyes
Is she the comfort he needs when hes in pain
Can she bring him joy on dark days
All things she worries about
Things that add to her fear
She lays quietly gripped by the fear
Her heart racing
Her mind forever creating demons
The fear brings anxiety
The anxiety wraps like a blanket
Suffocating
Hot
Making breathing unbearable
Panic comes
She she thrashes about
Trying to eacape
Its grip to tight
Darkness closes in
She starts to fade
Her body relaxing
And she hears him call to her
His hand reaches and pulls her to safety
He wraps himself around her
They ride the storm together
He quiets her fear
She gives him comfort
He makes her feel safe
She is his joy
Together they are the calm in the storm
Untouchable

After he stood and walked away the older gentleman leaned over and said "thank you for making this movie worth it. Now young lady I wouldn't let that young man get away."
She blushed and felt a surge of energy an idea quickly forming in her head. She turned slightly to see him walking out of the theater. She stood and quickly grabbed her things smiling and she shoved the towel in her clutch. She ran to the doors and opened them slowly, he was walking down the hall to the exit. She followed behind him keeping enough distance so he wouldnt sense her. She watched him get into his car and as soon as she saw him start to leave she ran to hers. She followed behind again far enough away. He pulled into the same hotel as her. Damn it the hotel was big. She tried to figure out how to follow him and instead of going in to the lobby he took the stairs outside. He must need to burn off some of his energy she thought. She watched him disappear into to the door on the floor above hers.
She ran into the lobby pushed the elevator button which thank god came fast. She got in hit the floor he was on the doors opened making a loud sound. " crap" she said peeking out hoping he wouldnt notice if he was still in the hall.
She peeked her head out and saw him turning away from the elevator. She let out a sigh peeked again and watched him go into a door. She quickly calculated in her head that his room was directly above hers. Looking at the numbers on the room she now knew his room number exactly 100 more than hers. She pushed the button to head back to the lobby.
The girl behind the counter was someone she had not seen before there. God this was getting better every second. She walked up to her and said "I am so sorry but my husband and i seem to have lost our room key. Do you think i could get another?" The girl looked at her smiked and said "Room number please"
She was bursting inside as she stared at the plastic card in her hand. She went back to her car grabbed her stuff and walked into the hotel. Making it to her room she was excited and exhausted. She laid on her bed gripping the key card in her hand smiling she fell asleep.
When she woke it was morning. She laughed as she realized she was still dressed. She quickly moved to the window and scanned the parking lot. She saw his car there. She got in the shower let the hot water fall on her body as she remembered the movie.
His touch sent electric tingles through her. Made her skin rise with goose bumps. Her heart raced with the thought of him and she started to get lost. Quickly she snapped out of it remembering her plan. She shaved herself, washed her body and hair and got out. She went about making herself perfect. She walked out to the room hair and make up done. Went into her bags and found the sexiest things she had.
She put on the black lace bra with the little red ribbons and matching thong. She slipped on the thigh highs making sure the seam was perfect up the back of her legs. She then walked over to the window to look for his car, it was still there. She sat in the same chair he was in and waited. He finally came out and she stood in the window watching closely. She saw him turn around and look up she raised her eyes to not look at him but could see that he saw her. She turned slowly flinging her long brown hair over her shoulder and then bent slightly over to fix the thigh high. She smirked knowing he would enjoy seeing her ass. She stood back up and walked away from the window giggling.
Oh my gosh the courage this man gave her. She went and slipped on a dress and her black heels. She walked back to the window saw him still standing there and closed the curtain. She knew this would set off his beast inside. She left a note on her bed saying, two can play these games catch me if you can. She quickly left her room and headed up to his.
She opened the door and smelled him. Her whole body hummed with excitement. She looked around the room and everything was put away and in its place. Even the bed was made. House keeping must have been here. Her curiosity got the better of her and she peeked in the closet. Everything was hung perfectly. She grinned and slipped off her dress and hung it in the closet. She ran her fingers over his clothes and then went to his bed to wait.
She heard the key slide into the lock and she quickly kneeled at the foot of his bed. He called her pet several times and she knew he would enjoy this. She knew deep in her that this would be something he'd never see coming. She made sure her knees were parted just so her body proper but relaxed and her gaze turned down.
The door opened and he walked in. She could hear the low growl from deep in his chest and she softly grinned. She said "forgive me Sir for not following your orders, I am here for your pleasure" her head raised slightly as she bite her lip waiting to see what he would do