Just me

She woke up hours later. The sleep she had was so deep nothing like she had had in months. There were no dreams no nightmares just sleep. She stretched out and looked at the time. To late to start out on the road again. She grinned as she thought well maybe her dream man wasnt a dream and she can find him today.
She jumped out of bed dug through her clothes to find her Jean's and comfy t shirt. She quickly went to the bathroom for dressed fixed her hair and make up and ran out the door. She was determined to find him.
She got in her car and drove to the heart if town. If he was a local hed be working somewhere here. If he was a tourist hed be somewhere maybe eating.
She walked the streets looking in all the stores hoping to catch a glimpse of him. She walked past the adult toy store and hesitated she could almost feel him close. She was to embarrassed to go in and see if she could see him. She kept moving along in and out of shops. The people were so friendly and genuine. She felt at home here. After hours of searching she felt defeat. Realizing she hadn't eaten all day she need to find something. She looked across the street to the sushi house scrunched her nose and decided to head back toward the car. Food didn't sound good all she wanted was one more encounter with him.
She made her way back to her room opened the door and saw items on her bed. She stepped back out in the hall to look around, right room right floor but she was still the only one there. She slowly walked I to the room anxiety high, looked in the bathroom but no one was there. She quickly glanced to the chair but it was empty. She closed the door and locked the security lock.
She walked to the corner and found the plug. She looked at it in its packaging read the label and gasped. When she read his note she let her mouth fall open. She put it back on the bed and moved to the other things.
She touched the clothes they were perfect just her size. How she wondered. She saw the hand bag and the other items looked at the hand towel and tossed it aside. When she read the note she looked at her phone "shit" she said it was 515. She had been out all day.
She quickly changed into the items found a cute lace bra and put it on, she couldnt go without a bra there was no way. She looked for shoes but there were none. She had ones that would look good with the outfit then she remembered her little splurge back in Alabama. Yes they were perfect. She slipped on a pair of slippers shoved the towel, wallet and bullet into the clutch,well he didnt say to insert this she grinned, and ran out the door to her car. She opened the trunk grabbed the shoe box and threw it in the front seat.
She pulled up to the theater with only minutes to spare. She opened the shoe box and took off her slippers. She slipped her foot into the velvet baby doll, fastened the clasp around her ankle then went to work on the other. The 4 inch heels fit her like gloves. She stood and fixed herself. She walked to the theater bought a ticket to the 6pm showing of the only movie they were playing at that time.
She walked into the theater looked around and no one was in it. Hmm if he didnt show could she handle a scary movie all alone? She felt a twinge of guilt for not following his directions so she slipped her bra off just as some people came walking in she blushed. Almost caught. More people came in as she arranged the towel and sat. She kept thinking about the bullet. How was he planning to use that with people around. She had to figure it out. She felt her self become more aroused as she thought about it and wanted to clean up. She couldnt walk to the bathroom without her bra on and a white shirt. To many people would notice she wasnt a small chested girl.
She slid down the seat looked around to see who was looking. She didnt think anyone could see so she quickly fingered herself when she heard a man moan. She looked and saw the older man watching her. Her cheeks flushed as she realized he just watched the whole thing. She closed her eyes lifted to fix the towel looked and the old man and sucked her fingers. May as well give him something to dream about. She grinned as the theater went dark
She was tingling with excitement hoping he would be near soon. A flash of fear came over her what if he didnt come, what if he wasnt the one in her room. What the hell was she doing... she stiffened and started to get up when she felt him and knew he was there without even seeing him.

She quickly grabs the sheet as her body flushes. Shes shaking as she claws pulling at the sheet. He tells her dont. His voice so commanding that her breath catches. She let's the sheet fall from her hands feeling the goose bumps rise. He tells her shes been following him and to stand. Her mouth doesnt respond to what her heads thinking. What the hell I followed you your in my room. That's when the rest of his words sink in he wants her to stand. No no way I will not do what he wants I need out have to run. Then she feels it again that desire deep inside to please him to do as he says.
She slowly let's the sheet fall gets on her knees and crawls to the edge of the bed away from him. One last chance to run. She stands with her back to him shivering barely breathing. She feels him staring and straightens herself throws her hair over her shoulder takes a deep breath and turns slowly towards him. She knows in this moment she is sealing her fate. She walks to him hands at her side trying to keep her shyness at bay she stops in front of him and the way hes looking at her breaks her fake courage and she covers herslef.
He says something but all she hears is the pounding of her heart in her ears. She drops her hands shaking to her side again. Hes standing infront of her and she takes him in. Hes taller than her. His broad shoulders. Arms strong behind the shirt. She lowers her eyes down counting the buttons on his shirt. Looking at the sleves rolled to his forearms. Her eyes keep going and she see just how turned on he is unable to hide it behind his pants. She stares a little to long and sucks in a breath.
He let's his hand brush against her skin she feels the heat from his touch. She stifles a moan. When he pinches her nipple her toes dig into the ground and she stops breathing. He body reacts to his every touch. He continues to explore her body she feels shes doing good at hiding how bad she wants him until his hand slides over her ass and close to her mound. She knows shes dripping for him and hot. She closes her eyes and prays he wont feel it. His hand is ever so close and shes begging inside but refuses to show any sign.
He spins her around and pushes her towards the bed she bends over for him hands on the edge of the bed and spreads her legs. The instinct to show him all of her, not understanding the need to please him or how she knows what he desires. His fingers explore her drifting over her ass down her until hes at that forbidden spot. His finger lingers and her body try's to push against him. No one has ever touched her there. No one has ever made her feel the desire to be touched there but by god she wants it now. She hears him tell her no and she grips the sheets and tenses. Keeping the disappointed sigh inside. He tells her it's his and she whispers yes it is. Not understanding the power he has over her.
While shes in thought about what she wants his fingers slip in and she moans unable to control it. Hes learning her from the inside and playing her like a damn violin. Her legs tense toes curl and she feels the heat rising. That deep gut feeling right before shes about to cum. Her body is moving and he pulls his fingers out after telling her she was bad for cumming with out his permission, whattttt?!?!
He puts his fingers on her lips and commands her to clean them she flicks her tongue on them then parts her lips. Slowly working down them and sucking as she goes. Moaning so he feels the vibration. Oh how she wants this to be his cock. She .makes sure to give him a good showing so he will want her.
She feels him move away as he grabs her neck. He gives her simple instructions none of which make sense to her her brain is to lost in him to pay attention. He lifts her chin and his lips. Oh soft sweet heavenly lips kiss her and then claim her mouth. Shes in a daze as she realizes hes walking out the door. She glances down to see the bulge and smirks. He nods his head and the door closes.
She stands staring for a few seconds before her knees give out and shes kneeling on the floor. She braces herself with her hands looks back at the door and waits hoping beyond all hope he will come back in and put out the fire he started. She drops her head and chest to the floor and trys to catch her breath. She feels his hands on her, still feels his lips on hers. What had this man done to her? He has ruined her for anyone else and she fears hes not done. No she prays and begs that hes not done.
She finally finds the strength to get off the floor and into bed. She looks to where he was sitting and sees an unfamiliar jacket. She crawls over to the edge of the bed reaches over and grabs it. Puts it to her nose and smells.. she whispers "its his" she crawls back over to the pillows wraps up in it and thinks about him. Wrapped up in his scent she drifts off to sleep.
She startles awake looking around the room theres no one there. She looks for the jacket but it's not there. It couldnt have been only a dream shes sure it wasnt. She did have a few drinks but she wasnt drunk. Everything from the night before.... no it has to be here it was all to real to be a dream. She keeps looking but finds nothing. Flopping back on the bed she says "well it was one hell of a dream" she lays there spread out thinking of her dream shadow man.. she thinks she will find him as she drifts back off to sleep with a smirk on her face

Yes you read that right a mix of dreams and demons.

Last night was the first night I have been home alone in ages. Normally my littles are with me or my roommate is home, but from 330 pm I was completely alone.  I guess this caused the fear and panick to set in without me knowing it and what was a pretty good day has turned into this

Feeling captured held back 

I struggle thrash about 

The more I move the more I become entangled 

I cant breathe

Suffocating fear

Visions flash 

Horror movie antics 

I scream for help but no one moves 

I see her face 

I jump up from my pillow

Entangled in the sheet

I cant get out as my heart races.

As I untangle myself I search 

My blanket has fallen to the floor

I grab it cuddle up

Think about what I have been told

Close my eyes and try to sleep 

I drift back right into the same spot

The terror the pain and fear

Why does it grip me tonight

Why do I have such a fear. 

I wake far to early and give up

Sleep isnt my friend 

Today will be about self care

I will be all about me

The dreamon wont capture me tonight 

His ugly claws will be cut 

I will stand strong 

I will be demon free in my dreams

Sometimes they scare the hell out of me. Most times I can just push past them last night was definitely not one of those nights.  The dreamon (combination of a dream/demon) took every stressor I had the past month maybe 2 and threw it all at me. Guess my subconscious needed a cleaning  

She makes it into her room finally closes the door and falls against it. She takes a deep breath and walks into the room pulls the covers back on the bed and turns towards the bathroom. She flips on the light and looks over her shoulder, what am I doing it's only me here. She laughs and turns on the water and shuts the door. When she looks in the mirror she sees where his hand was, there are no mark's but she can still see his hand on her neck. She feels her body temp rise and quickly strips off her clothes. They are to tight almost suffocating her and keeping the heat to close to her.
She steps in the shower and adjusts the water a little cooler trying to calm and cool herself off. The cool water on her hot skin causes goose bumps. She let's it run down her body and all she can feel is the trails of heat his hands left on her. She closes her eyes and thinks of what his hands felt like.
Her fingers start slowly at her collar bone, she traces where his hands had been. She let's out a soft moan as she thinks of her hands as his. Slowly working over her body. She rubs her breasts but needs more so she pinches and pulls. She can feel the desire in her core.
She remembers the feeling of him behind her his heat warming her. She hears his command in her head and moans. Her hand drifts down finding just the right spot rubbing her lips as one finger finds her clit. She begins to rub slow circles adding more pressure wanting it to be his hand. Moaning as she turns herself on more. She slips a finger inside and her body tensed. God she needs this its been so long. Her fingers play and get faster as she builds herself up unable to control herself for long she begins to moan. Finding that spot that will send her over the edge she rubs and pinches her nipples. That's all she needs she tenses around her fingers and let's out a long moan as she finds release.
She stands in the water a little longer turns it hotter to wash herself off. The steam builds in the bathroom and she relishes in her shadow man and her fantasy of him.
She gets out of the shower drys herself opens the bathroom door and the steam rolls out. She shuts the light off walks to the bed and crawls in naked. Sleep sweet sleep is what she needs but her body is craving him. As she lays there she realizes he knows her name, he had her wallet. He knows everything he needs to find her. Fear makes her heart beat a little faster and she thinks she hears something she sits straight up throwing her blankets off and reaches for the light she turns it on and sees someone in the chair but cant quite make him out as her eyes adjust.

She sits at the bar thinking back on the time shes spent away. 2 weeks on the road going across the country. She left her home 2 weeks ago and just drove, not knowing where she would land. So many places but still something was missing...
She plays with the rim of her glass fingertips lightly touching it. She drifts away again thinking of him. The stranger she saw on the road. At first he was just some random man she thought was handsom and felt a pull to, that was when she first filled up the car back in California. Many miles later she stopped in her first town somewhere in Nevada. She needed sleep, the next day she got up and started out again. She stopped to grab a quick bite and she swore she saw him again. It couldn't be him there was no way, but this time she felt a connection to him. She stared longer memorized his features, when he glanced at her and smiled everything inside her ignited.
Many other times along her adventure she thought she had seen him again but brushed it off as thinking about him being the reason she kept seeing him. She felt the electric charge a few times during her trip and would look to see if he was there but she never saw him.
The bartender tapped her hand and startled her, she looked up at him and apologized. They shared a few words and laughed about her day dreaming in a bar where there was so much noise. She turned around hopped off the stool and headed to the bathroom. As she was walking she felt it again. Her whole body tingling, she looked around for him but there were to many people.
She felt a light brush on her back and turned to see him walking away. No freaking way she thought. She followed him out the door but he moved to fast she lost him somewhere. She looked up the street and down but no one was there. She started to shiver as the cold eastern air blew against her. She let out a sigh, turned and started to walk back inside before she reached the door she felt arms wrap around her. One across her body covering her mouth the other around her arms and waist to hold her close. The fear and panic melded with the tingling sensation she was feeling. She tried to break free to scream but who ever had her was to strong. She could only think how stupid she was to follow a shadow out the door all alone, for God sake she grew up in LA you dont ever go anywhere alone or at least you have your pepper spray. She heard a low growl in her ear and her whole body froze....

I want to say thank you for accepting the challenge and giving ideas out. I love the idea of rituals but for me that is an intimate discussion for mine and I to have. Rituals are custom to each D/s and for me I'd need the intimate connection to write about them. Now trust me I have my ideas about what I want lol.

I'd so love to hear my Sirs car pull up and know I need to be kneeling by the door waiting for him but again it will be discussed when I have a Sir.

There were 2 that stood out to me and had me overflowing with ideas. I started my part and sent it to one we agreed to post as we go so I will.put mine up this am and after I send my my response to him I'll then post his response. 

Thank you again everyone for the ideas. 

J

So bank was hacked and had no money for 2 weeks finaly got it back and everything changed over to new cards....

Can I just say WELCOME BACK KINDLE! oh my books are back and the reading begins again 

Challenge:
I have been suffering from writers block emotion block idk but I need to express myself.
So I was thinking, everytime I get like this I've had a Dom challenge me with a subject to write on. The most fun I had was writing with someone.
Anyway heres my challenge Doms post a topic youd like to write with someone about in my comments if I choose it Ill write from the subs view email it to you and then you write from the Doms POV. If we agree we will post it
I just need a challenge to get my brain unstuck.
Thanks and by friday I will pick which topic and send my part to the chosen topic author that night. Happy blogging

Please dont accept the challenge if your not willing to write too. 

He stays in the background where no one sees him
He let's me venture on my own
He knows I will only do what I feel meets his approval
He watches and waits
People push and pull
I stand and push back
He waits
Life trips me and I get back up
Wipe my hands and keep walking
Always thinking walk with pride
Be the woman he wants you to be
I stumble again
He waits
The people keep pushing
Lifes bumps become to big
I fall
I lay on the ground
Humbled
Tears running down my cheeks
Knowing to look up and ask him
Knowing he will reach for me
But only when I ask
Head hanging low pride getting in the way
Fighting my war in my head
He waits..
I slowly raise my head eyes still down
I try to get up again and cant
I raise my eyes to see him
We make eye contact
Hes done waiting
He comes to me
Scoops me up and saves me
Wrapped in his arms
My safety surrounding me
Feeling the calm wrap around me
Knowing he will always wait
Letting me be free
But always close by to protect me
Guide me and remind me
In his arms my pride will have to wait
Because in his arms his pride in me is all that matters

Laying in the dark and cold alone
Waiting to hear from him
A message
A voice
The fear creeps in
The anxiety rises
I pull the blankets closer to my face
Wrap a little tighter
Tears prick the corners of my eyes
As sleep starts to grab hold
Sleep comes with the demons right behind
Many nightmares sleep isnt a safe place
I wake before everyone else in the house
I listen to the even breathing of my littles
I feel their peace and joy
Their sound calms my rapid heartbeat
I am their safety
When they are close to me they sleep without a fear
They dream of delightful things while I take all the bad away.
How can I be the strength for them
How can I be their rock
When mentally I am scared to be anything
Physically I am exhausted
And emotionally I am drained
Its what makes me the fighter I am
Makes me put up the facade
I have to be the powerful one for them
When all I really want
Laying in the darkness and cold alone
Is to feel his arms around me and to whisper in my ear, your safe with me and I've got you...