A sub without a Dom is a confusing creature, we are unsure of who we are yet confident in who we should be. We need reassurance but wont take it from just anyone. We find ourselves lost and alone without guidance and yet strong and courageous because we need to be.
I have felt this way as I have submitted before. Given my all to one and to be alone and not have that leaves me lost.
I know who I am as a woman and sub is part of me. I cant ever go back to being vanilla me because my soul and heart crave to serve. I now live to please someone and until that time comes I will strive to be the sub I think would make my one proud.
My brain is wired to make people happy and even without a Dom I will in every action I do think will this make him proud to call me his. I may walk alone right now keeping people at arms length but only because I am needing him to be the strong one who sweeps me away without me even seeing it was coming.
So to all those of us subs who feel lost always think am I making my future proud of me in my actions now. In doing that you will be the best you! We are never truly alone
