What you see when you look at me is polar opposite from what I see in the mirror
You say things I find hard to believe.
I see age: a woman who's been through a lot but keeps a smile despite it all, but the lines that the smile has made makes the face look old
Hair: unmanageable dry, gray and color fading. Not the beautiful healthy hair of herself 20 years ago
A body who had many battle scars, none of which I'd change because they are from life being brought into the world. The damage has been done and all I think is why would anyone want to see this. This is the hardest one for me because even when I was thin I still saw every imperfection.
You see someone with a huge heart, I see someone easily taken advantage of, a shy soul who cant ever tell anyone no. Afraid to hurt others with words or actions even when they have hurt me so bad.
You see creativity I see pain.
You see hope I see darkness.
One day I pray to see myself through the eyes of another. To believe I am what others say I am.
Every woman finds faults in herself that others can't see. We are the hardest on ourselves but have we ever stopped to ask why?
Why is it so easy to believe one negative comment and impossible to believe a million positives.
Why cant I be what others see and know I am
Why do I care what others think when they are negative
Most important why do I let it dictate who I am now?
I am beauty in my own way, I will believe this one day and live by it
This was just a thought I had today as I listened to people compliment others and they had a hard time accepting what was said. It's in no way a cry for help or sympathy or explanations. It's just my thought and me putting myself in the same situation.
