Today after no sleep the past 24 hours I got a phone call from Turkey. Just as I was feeling I had nothing left in me this call gave me a renewed energy. I was at my job for literally 21 hours yesterday, yes 3 and a half were on a break but still there.
As 4 am rolled around I was feeling myself crashing. I missed telling my littles goodnight and giving them kisses, I didnt get to have that moment to myself like I have been the past few nights and it was really taking a tole on me.
All of my chat groups were quiet, my kik, hangouts and bond were all silent as my friends slept peaceful (I hope). So as the coffee was wearing off and I was starting to crash I heard this weird sound from my phone. A very unfamiliar ring.
With some hesitancy I looked and realized I had a call on Facebook. What the heck I thought, I'm barely ever on there. There it was his sweet name...Seth. i was so excited i declined the call instead of answering. Several attempts by both of us and finally after months o got to hear his voice.
For 3 years hes been stationed in Turkey. It's been probably 4 since I got to hug him. As soon as I heard "Hey momma" my heart started to pound. We caught up on so much. I went into protective mom mode, wanting to shield him from all the hurt and pain, the huge battle hes going through and the disappointment of a failed relationship. We laughed and amazingly enough I didnt cry.
As we were getting ready to hang up he said "Mother" I said "Son" and then i heard him say "I miss you and will be home in May if my orders go like they think"
That simple sentence gave me relief, comfort, security and peace. We hung up the phone and knowing my boy was okay and surviving a very difficult time was everything I needed.
I love my kids to death and letting them go to make their own choices and mistakes is the hardest thing any one will ever have to do. The amazing joy that comes when you know they are still breathing is priceless.
If you've got them hug them, any form, kids, nieces nephews, cousins, friends kids, god kids..any show them how much they mean to you, and treasure every precious moment.
💜phe💜
