Yep I'm back at it. This one is a lot of chaos as I cant seem to reign in my thoughts. I am in no way talking about any particular person or gender it's just what I've noticed going on lately.
You play your games with people
You hide behind the lies
You think people wont see
You pull her in with your promises
Keep her hanging on every word
Promise her safety and security
All while isolating her and spinning your web
They say females are black widows
That we strike to kill
You dont seem to understand
You are the ones who made us this way
You make sure were wrapped up in you
Devoted to you then you drop off
You cant handle it, you ghost or say it's the right thing to do
We feel guilty and want to protect you
As time passes small pieces of us die
We may grow stronger in standing on our own
But our hearts are growing cold.
Seeing them move on to the next is hard,
Not knowing if they will come back is hard but standing up and saying enough is the hardest.
I am so irritated. I've been sitting back again watching what's going on. God the things I've seen. People ghosting blaming their real life or the virus, others flirting with people, others actions impacting people who were tied to them.
Look heres the thing even Casper asked "Can I keep you" the thing of it is he is a damn ghost. He didnt vanish out of her life, he didnt look for someone else. He didnt make her feel bad for trying to be human and stand alone.
In this crazy time we need to support and love eachother. Be strong and come together. Not make excuses. Think of our actions and how it may affect those we cared for. Make sure we build eachother up. I am not saying by any means that there aren't people doing that. As a sub I know I need the reassurance, I need the support. I get lost in who I am and forget that I am a kick ass female who gives herself freely to a kick ass man. Sometimes I forget that I am strong, that I stood alone long before I had a Sir or a Master. That even now being alone I am strong. If I can do this so can you!
So to all my friends reading this nonsense know this, you dont need someone to make you strong you need you! You gave yourself to someone and when life got crazy were they strong enough to "Keep you" I know i have yet to meet the one strong enough to keep me but damn me if I give up!
Guess I need to tie this to my other Syndromes..... put your fucking shoes on those pretty new legs, let the lost boys go, grab your spaghetti to eat on the run, turn around take a bow say your welcome and have that Casper moment with yourself realizing only you can keep you.
