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Way back when, I was a young man - brains clotted with hormones - there was this cowgirl I knew - drove a 1967 red, busted down old ford truck, bales of hay in the back. I swear, if you cut that girl she'd bleed horseshoes and hand grenades.
Brenda
Unintentionally form fitting tight jeans and of course, always had her "shit kickers" on.
Full, thick hair that just always seemed to compliment her tempered face - her un-conventionally pretty face.
She never wore make up - wouldnt fit her.
Its funny how I still remember her so vividly. she was maybe 8, 9 years older than me - alot at that age, right?
She didnt have a man - didnt need a man - But there was this certain something when you looked into her eyes - cant explain it.
She had a rough grace about her - no one fucked with Brenda. She held a silent threat about her.
But the soft girl, if you looked closely - the longing girl - Brenda was suffering the love she could never seem to find.
I dont know what ever became of you Brenda, but I hope you eventually found what you were searching for - you forever left a mark on my heart 😔🙏🌹
Please know, im not being funny or sarcastic, and certainly not trying to offend anyone. And this subject may have been very well defined by others in the past, but well, memory . . . ya know?
I have had several, we'll call them relationships - people ive gotten to know very well, who ended up saying "I dont think im a submissive after all"
and more recently, confusion over what being a submissive means, or entails, or "how to act".
Suppose I am brand new to the planet, I know nothing of human behavior -
So, whats this "submissive" I keep hearing about?
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adjective
adjective: submissive
ready to conform to the authority or will of others; meekly obedient or passive.
"a submissive, almost sheeplike people"
noun
noun: submissive; plural noun: submissives
a person who takes the submissive role in BDSM sexual activities.
"she's a submissive who likes to push the limits of the dominant partner's rules"
Jack enjoyed his Sunday mornings - slow coffee and a light browse through the worldy goings-on.
He could hear princess rustling and a soft stretch, still in bed. She almost always got up a good bit later than him. "Sleepy head" , he smiled and turned the page.
A second coffee - another channel flip, the morning progressed.
"baby, come on . . . time to get up pumpkin", Jack broke the morning silence with his low voice toward the bedroom . . . No response.
"baby girl?, come on . . ." He said a little louder a few minutes later . . . No response.
He had things he wanted to do, he shut off the tv and quietly made his way toward the bedroom, he would just have to gently wake her back up. He was always gentle with her in her "sleepy head" state.
Right before he rounded the corner he heard her . . .
her breath . . . .
He paused and listened . . .
"what do you think you're doing young lady!" Jack snapped as he pulled back the covers, just in time to catch her hand coming out from under her pajama pants. "I had an itch" she replied sheepishly.
"uh huh" he retorted, pulling her pajama pants down
"an itch!"
"you have 30 minutes young lady! I want you showered and dressed!" He commanded as he walked out of the room. . .
"an itch!!"
. . . . .
"young lady, its been 45 minutes, get out here"
"no!" Came a soft reply
"excuse me?? - get your ass out here!"
"NO, I HATE YOU!"
Princess, arms folded in a defiant way, was sitting up, but indeed still in bed. "you never let me do anything!" She accused in a much less defiant tone with daddy standing over her.
"young lady . . . . Im going to give you . . .five . . . more . . . . . minutes . . ."
His tone, "that" tone, princess knew well.
Jack stormed out and slammed the door behind him.
A muffled "I HATE YOU!!" Followed by a crashing came from behind the closed door.
I posted this a couple years ago and got fantastic response, but since there are alot of new faces here, felt I could post it again. In case there are women out there masturbating to my pictures but too shy to say hi 😏
El oh el
Obviously, no need to re-comment if you were there, and no need to re-comment if you're now one of the ones that hates me, lol
Heres the original if you'd like to view the comment thread ;
It is my belief that women know who they will give a chance, and who they wont. I put my self out there the best I can - and wait. I no longer wish to chase, just for the sake of chasing. Also, many profiles say "not looking", I respect that. And many profiles do not show at least a resemblence of who she is. So I just put in my profile, contact me if you like what you see. It has been said I could be missing out - I suppose that is true - but I have also been on sites like this for well over 10 years.
Ive had my share of "no response"s - rude responses, and even threatened on one occasion (2? 🤔). The stage, as it is set - man chases woman - gets tiring sometimes.
New world standards - old world modality.
It is curious to see the difference between when she responds to me vs when she reaches out to me.
35 to 40 messages on any given day - rude comments and dick picks. I do not wish to stand in that line.
I have made some amazing friends - People who have reached out to me, and yes, some that I have reached out to.
I believe (hope) my love will find me - and she will say "that is the man I want".
I have been contemplating this alot lately -
Am I missing out?
*Addendum - it would be sorely remiss of me to not mention the dear sweet angels that have reached out to me - thank you 🌹
I have a subject weighing heavily on my mind and have wanted to "write it out" for a long time.
That title just popped in my head and so . . . .
Here we are.
Btw, I asked Bob and Sharon if they minded
"plagiarize our NYT best seller for the sake of your blog on a kink site? Sure, go ahead"
(not really)
As im sure many of you are aware, the book is about financial smarts - thinking the right way about money.
Full circle back to what this blog is about -
where is the line between "you're not even Domming your own life, how could you expect to Dom mine?"
And
"Its ok, I know you are trying, i'll love you anyway" ?
(I have to tip-toe around this subject because I could easily piss people off, and that is never my intention)
Money - lets face it, it sweetens the pot, right?
all the fun things you can do, and places you can go and etc, etc, etc
Well, I dont have any . . . .
I cant talk about how I got this way
(no, seriously - legally cant)
but as the saying goes "The higher you are, the further you fall"
I had it all not all that long ago - king shit!
And yeah . . . .
Not so much now.
Sooooo, after the dust settled, because it always does -
I said "screw this shit!" And turned everything I had left into numbers on a banking app. And I mean eeeeeverything! For the first time in my life I didnt own keys - it was scary and liberating at the same time.
With a backpack and a suitcase - I bought a one way ticket to another country, and peaced out!
Lies
Disputes
Deceit
Jealousy
Fear
And tarantulas . . .
A few months later I returned to the states. 😔
Let me tell ya, the climb back up from nothing can be brutal!!
Back to my question, I suppose its rhetorical
Im a fighter, ive always been a fighter - I ended up homeless and now, by god! Own my own home just five years later - free and clear, its mine!
Butt ☝️
Yeah . . .
Webster had to call a seperate meeting to see if it fit under the definition, and mine just squeaked by 😏
Can you be knocked down so far, you're just out of the game?
Like always, thinking out loud.
You guys are my 'dear diary'
kinda creepy, right? A diary that leaves comments
Btw - Can I borrow a cup of sugar? I accidently bought 'unsweetened' cereal 😔
Oh, and some milk? 😁
Well anyway, trying to learn all I can about camping in other countries 'cuz ya just never know' . . .
