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HeyLittleOne​(sub female) - Ms. salutexlovely encompassed most of my thoughts, as well. I've never had anyone to run to, but I have felt the longing and need to countless times.
Anxiety is a big one for me. I have pretty bad social anxiety, and while I've learned to deal with it alone and talk myself out of attacks, that is a time where I've always wished I had someone just to be there with me - to distract, to comfort, to protect and guard from whatever the perceived threat is.
Sorrow is another one. I have the (horrible) tendency to bottle up my emotions, and there just comes a point where everything becomes too much, be it one particular thing that broke the dam, or that I couldn't hold everything in anymore. In those times, I've wished that I had someone there just to listen, to comfort, to be the safety that I need in order to let those emotions out. I've wished that I had someone who I felt safe letting those emotions out with right when I feel them, so that I wouldn't get to that point. I don't get angry, vindictive, spiteful, or mean - I just get sad and hurt, and those emotions are the hardest for me to deal with, especially alone.
I wouldn't say that I run away from things, rather that I wish I had someone to run TO, if that makes sense. I don't want to hide and run away - rather, I want someone to be my comfort, safety, rock, and protector, to be there with me to confront those things together.
I keep drawing back to comfort and safety. That is probably how I can best explain it. Just having someone who makes it so that we can comfort each other. Someone that, no matter the situation or environment, I know I can rely on to protect me. It would also bring the greatest joy and fulfillment to me if I could be all of that for my partner, as well; to be their comfort and safety, where they can always be themselves and rely on me to be there no matter what.
My safe space isn't a space, but I do believe that it will be a person - my person, that I would be devoted to mind, body, heart, and soul.
My home. When you feel like running away, you run home.

HeyLittleOne​(sub female) - Sorry... didn't mean to turn that into a book 😕

slaveMikayla​(sub female){MstrJ } - oh holy crud you did NOT just talk about turning things into books after what I've done on YOUR questions blog. *hahahahaa cant breathe laughing so hard*

HeyLittleOne​(sub female) - Okayokayokay, how about "novella"? 😋

Jack in the box -
Aaawww. 🤗
Thank you so much. ⚘
Truly

Jack in the box - Beautiful ladies - your words, thought, feelings - are never "too much". ⚘

HeyLittleOne​(sub female) - 🤗💜

Jack in the box -
(That wasnt a typo - you're only allowed one thought. 😏)

HeyLittleOne​(sub female) - Wow!! A whole thought!?! I need to up my game then 😃

Woohoo!!

Jack in the box - Heehee. ☺

slaveMikayla​(sub female){MstrJ } - "Beautiful ladies - your words, thought, feelings - are never "too much". ⚘ " <<<<< this is why you are a fantastic man, Mr. Jack. I believe you are sincere in this.

Jack in the box -
I am.
Thank you Ms Faith. ⚘

SirsBabyDoll​(sub female){Pizza+☕} - In one word, "herself".

HeyLittleOne​(sub female) - 👆👆

Jack in the box -
Thank you Ms SBD. ⚘

HGB​(sub female){Scottish M} - My biggest fear is failure. Not being perfect. One of the things I look for most is reassurance.

Jack in the box -
Thank you Ms GoodBunny. ⚘

slaveMikayla​(sub female){MstrJ } - If I may please reframe this?
I do not run FROM... I run TO. Ok, on a few occasions I've run FROM. I've only ever run FROM bullies and situations bigger than I could handle. Ones in which I was unable to affect change, and those situations could rock and send my world spinning off course. Those are the ones I run FROM to Momma.
I've run FROM a bully and FROM anger that was leveled at me in ways that frightened me to E.
Most times, however, it is running TO them. When my little runs she runs in a flying tackle hug. My little is not rooted (mostly) in hurt and fear and all of that... so it isnt an "I'm spinning out the world is too scary please make it stop" type feeling (most days) it is the allowing myself to express my purest most open hearted JOY and exuberance. Love that doesnt need to worry if the other will understand it, see it, accept it... love that just *is*.

As adults we over think and over complicate expressions of love. Will they be welcome? Will they be understood? Is it wanted and ok?
When we were innocent we just *hugged* a billion different kinds of hugs.
https://i.pinimg.com/originals/d9/0b/34/d90b34982f61c33403555285ce1e5756.png When I originally sent that one to Mr. Richard I told him the artist needed to add one more.... a flying tackle hug. https://pics.me.me/ididnt-tackle-him-gave-hima-flying-hug-ghuc-sometimes-love-26441089.png

All of the things posted above are valid and real. These are reasons I seek out **subspace**. They just arent why I run TO my Person.

Jack in the box -
Thank you Ms Faith ⚘

slaveMikayla​(sub female){MstrJ } - Always, Mr. Jack. I love your questions <3

Jack in the box -
A plethora of insight - cant thank you angels enough, putting yourselves out there like that.
⚘

ellefire​(sub female) - Great question Mr. Jack! I agree with SBD - if I'm running FROM anything it is my overthinking self. And I am most definitely running TO a sense of peace that comes with belonging to one who understands I want to be ravaged AND cherished. Who can truly appreciate my muchness. 🤩

Jack in the box - "Sense of peace"
Thank you Ms Ellefire ☺ ⚘

TakenLower - It isn’t about running from, it’s about going to. Going to him for validation, going to him for encouragement, going to him for enlightenment, going to him when you just don’t know what to do and so on. It’s having that sentinel to turn to that matters to me.

Jack in the box -
That makes perfect sense Ms,
Thank you so much. ⚘

OraclePollon​(sub female){NotYours} - I run from:

Obligation
People
What the world expects from me and what it will take without asking.
Business clothes
Holding my head high against the bullies

I run to:

Consent
To not having to be made to pass/fail
To always be enough
To feel beautiful in my oddity
Baggy sweaters and tight spandex pants
Being brought coffee
Not giving a shit about the world or the people in it who are not looking out for my best interest or committing to it in any substantial way

Running away is not a bad thing. Always run from toxicity. Running is the first rule of defense, of being a badass lethal weapon, is knowing when to run and what situations are bad for your well being. Always choose self, even if it means looking like a coward in the eyes of society. They do not know you, never will.

Jack in the box -
Very well said and explained Ms Oracle - thank you so much.
⚘

Jack in the box -
To all you beautiful angels -
Thank you!
⚘
Truly

Bunnie - Herself

Jack in the box -
Thank you Ms Bunnie. ⚘

GingerSpiced​(sub female){MJimT} - Gosh, I always feel so odd , off snd weird ... But I'm more likely to try and fight it on my own. Ive always had to,fight all my battles by myself no matter the fear. I would probably end up in trouble for NOT going to him,for help #% :/ I'm a stubborn fucking wild one sigh... And I don't know how not to,be

Jack in the box -
Thank you for sharing Ms Ginger ⚘
The other side. ☺