WillowJ

My Very Own Jeremiad

Random thoughts...pieces of me that pertain to nothing and anything. Yoda I am not, but yes I wish.

Everything is Fine, just fine.

5 years ago. December 18, 2018 at 6:47 AM

Maybe it’s the fact that I woke up to a crazy windiness and now can’t go back to sleep. Yes, the one thing I’m deadly afraid of is wind, so I’m up listening to it howl outside debating if I should drive my car down to the garage. Trying to think of which direction the majority of the trees will fall…really need to distract myself so how do I feel? Really honestly full heartedly feel?

I’m feeling unanchored, untethered like I could easily be swept away. Tossed about in a tornado and I all I can think is please don’t let me wake up in Oz! The yellow brick road is not for me…need/want a path less traveled. Struggling to accept the sentimental, weepy, sad, lost, lonely feelings that have over taken me lately, means I just need to harden my shell, my armor. Intrinsically I’ve got this, I know I’m strong enough, I can power through, but at this exact moment I don’t want to. I just want to give in and cry for a bit and say I can’t and yet I won’t.

Everything is fine, always fine, and in the light of day the chaos will distract me and everything will honestly be okay. So, I’m off to distract myself more…listening to the wind blow…trying not to break.

Belladonna Dreams(sub female){Phage'Hada} - I 100% feel ya. Not on the wind part, i like listening to the wind, but on the rest.
Speaking of the yellow brick road, do you ever wonder where the red road lead?

5 years ago

Sensual City Girl{ForeverHIS} - There is a red road?? Now I have to watch the movie.

5 years ago

Sensual City Girl{ForeverHIS} - The wind has been howling all night up here also. Makes for a thinking Night. You’re not alone. I was like this the other evening. But as you noted, the light of day was a good distraction and everything was ok. Hugs!!!

5 years ago

Satindragon - The next time the wind has you anxious think of this. Even the mighty oak bends to the wind. Put on some relaxing music and listen as the wind whispers in. Think of a soft cool breeze kissing summer skin. Think about the power exchange of the wind and the surrounding. Respect the wind and embrace the power. Occasionally when I am depressed I welcome a storm to chase the demons away.

5 years ago

CK45(sub female) - That’s beautiful Sd...I do that as well. Very energizing when you look at it differently.
~Hugs Willow~ the trees are going to fall where they fall. We have no power over that. No control. It’s hard and It’s ok when that isn’t fine...
Feel the feels and work through it...
Good luck
❤️

5 years ago

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