Isn't is interesting how we can mean so much to someone at one point in time than nothing at all? How they can be on out minds 24/7 and how it would be amazing but now if they even cross it sometimes it can kill a good mood. It's also interesting how they can swear they care and all these other things just to turn around and hurt you.
I had someone the other day call me the "c" word. It's one word I will not tolerate to be called. He called me it because this past few weeks I have been a bit of a "brat" in his eyes. To me it was just me expressing my concern about certain things. I didn't know that saying something is bothering me or asking questions was being "bratty"... since When? I was respectful the entire time I was asking. Never once showed disrespect. I just don't understand how I could be a "disrespectful c-word". I was called this because he said "you are a good sub but one day when you get your feelings under control you'll be a great sub." Now if you have been following my blogs you'll know I am insecure and suffer with depression... my reply was simple... "sometimes I disagree Sir." I never expected it to take the turn it did. I didn't expect him to call me the one word I told him no too. His response when I said he went to far? "Well what do you want me to call you when you've been a c-word these past couple of weeks."
It totally shocked me. I stopped replying and refused to again today. Am I wrong in thinking I didn't deserve that? So what if I said something was going to far? I was never disrespectful during it. Maybe Im just crazy. I just don't know anymore. He knows that word brings up past traumas for me and yet he stilled called me it. I just don't get it.
