So, I had been in a pretty depressive state after my Master went back on the road in September. I had really been struggling with it and couldn't figure a way out. Facebook then suprised me with a suggested video. Kpop band Super M's music video for their song "One(monster & Infinity)". It was here I found a new passion that helped so much during those dark times when he wasn't able to be home.
From there I found a beautiful soul, Taemin. I ligit have never felt so much from listening to music in my life. I've always said music is life, cause for me it always have been. With Taemin came his group SHINEE, and they have become quite the shining light in my life(other than my Master and my boys of course).
My Master says I'm obsessed lol. I have tried to show him that basically all kpop fans are lol. In general, this isn't a bad thing. So many people see obsessed as a bad thing, but it can't be bad if it makes them happy and find inspiration. That's exactly what my favs have done for me.
Because I'm empath and have always had music as a big part of my life, finding music that moves me like favs do, it's like a God send. I don't even have to know what the words mean to feel the emotion behind the music. Their voices carry so much emotion and the matching lyrics make it unlike any music I've ever felt connected to.
Probe the biggest difference between kpop and like every other type of music I've usually listened to is the way the idols(artists) react with their fans. They truly show as much of a devotion to their fans as their fans do for them. IG lives, Twitter, and the specific apps that the kpop world has come up with(we verse, vlive, bubble, lypsn, ect): they interact with their fans sharing their everyday lives, thoughts/feelings, and just general appreciation for those who support them.
My ultimate fav is Taemin and his group SHINee is my fav group. They have been around for 13 years. Taemin, himself, has been non-stop making music, having conserts, acting, modeling, and being on "reality" shows this whole time. He only recently(May 31) had to take leave for military service. His other 3 members of SHINee he'd been in their military service from end of 2018 till the end of last year.
Yes, I geek out over them lol. I got lucky enough to see Taemin in his last consert before leave(online of course). I even was able to get the hoodie that went along with the consert. As much as I do miss the man, I am still able to surround myself with the music of kpop while he's gone.
So, through this music I have been able to break out of (mostly) my depression to the point that I'm working towards a healthier me. I've needed to loose weight for a while and I'm finally getting to do so with the inspiration from kpop. It helped me kinda re-discover my love of dancing again. My docs are happy that I've been dropping some of the weight that I actually did need to loose(down 13lbs!).
There's just something in the way kpop music makes me feel that I just want to dance with it. Be that "sexy" dancing or ballet type or just a mix of both. I've even been entertaining the thought of recording myself and putting it on YouTube lol. Just for fun and hoping other kpop lovers enjoy it too. I have found something that has helped me drawn myself out of the dark that is depression(anxiety is a whole other animal).
I know this is lengthy, but hey, I can do what I want right? Lol. I do talk about it alot though lol. Honestly cause I just wanna share such amazing music with others. I do know that my fav group, SHINee, really is a cut above the rest. Their music, style, personalities, lyrics are truly on a different level. They are quite literally trend setters in kpop. And my ultimate fav, Taemin? He is literally called idol of idols... Those who came before him adore and admire him and those that came after look up to him and use him as inspiration to be better.
And just like that, he inspires his fans in the same way. Most kpop idols inspire their fans so much. These idols generally speak like a minimum of 3 languages: korean, Japanese, and english(some better than others). Some idols know far more than that. Idols generally are so talented as to be able to rap, sing, and dance so well. The way the interact with their fans also helps with the loyalty we kpop fans have for them.
My fav, Taemin also has this amazing ability to pull off being soooo pretty(and I do mean pretty) AND hansome/sexy. He can pull off wearing cloths that are feminine and masculine at the same time(it's hard but he does it). He can pull of long hair too lol. His music and music videos are really pure artistic talent and his dancing? Phenomenal! His singing? He can pull of rocker vibes, angel vibes, sexy vibes, and his ballads are just amazing🥰
I know I'm going a bit nuts with all this explanation lol... Ultimately though, kpop has honestly helped with my quality of life and it's just getting better. It's helped me relax when I'm having anxiety issues, helped lift me up when I'm feeling depressive, helped me feel like I'm not alone cause the lyrics fit how I might be feeling, helped motivate me and stay motivated, and even given me new songs to share with my Master about how I feel about him and our relationship 🥰
Okay, I'm done for now lol
