Firecracker Diaries - A combination of stories, random thoughts and an appreciation log of life with Daddy

Getting ready...

Today is the day! The concert tickets that Daddy got for us is tonight!!

I have been preparing for us to go for the last couple of weeks. New outfits and new boots for ya both! Now just to decide on which outfit to wear!

Going to get the house clean and then prep for the concert. I’m going to make sure everything is perfect! Hopefully be sexier than he ever imagined...and give him a great reward after the concert is over!

I can’t wait to tell you all about it later tonight!!

Until later....

New toys...

Daddy has been looking for us a new toy...and I think we found it tonight! Keeping my fingers crossed to have ourselves a new BMW by the end of tomorrow!!

I’ve been so flattered that Daddy has been concerned with my safety...and wanted a vehicle that would be better in weather conditions. Sometimes I’m not sure how to take someone being concerned with all things about me...I absolutely love it! And how he wants the best of things for us.

I’m humbled by how he cares for me. It’s something I’m definitely not use to....but slowly coming accustom too.

I love you Daddy. Thank you for everything you do for me and for us. You take my breath away.

Until tomorrow....

Kitty cat wins!

Daddy came home to me last night! A long day at work and then an hour drive home. We had dinner and watched at little TV. He asked if I was ready to go upstairs and finish watching TV in our bed....well of coarse I would!!! I will never say NO to cuddle time!! Because him watching TV in bed = cuddle time for me.

It wasn’t too long until we rolled over and wrapped ourselves up in each other and Daddy is fast asleep. I’m almost asleep as well when the kitty decides he wanted to play...with Daddy! It just took a couple of good hand attacks and Daddy was awake...and so was I.

I was trying to relax Daddy back to sleep. Running my hands up and down his skin....slow and steady. Just for relaxation purposes...never mind that my hand would sneak a caress of his manhood and slip even further down feeling the soft skin of his jewels. I could help but to notice that it took notice of my touch and was responding...and flexing and begging me to stroke it.

I feel like these movements were involuntary and our bodies were just taking on a mind of their own. So I was surprised when Daddy told me to get on top.

I straddled him...and as he entered me...my body took over. Riding him slow and steady and deep. Letting our kissing build up more of my orgasm until I couldn’t help but to beg for him to let me cum. He kept me a This steady pace...thrusting deeper inside of me while pulling me  into him with his hands in my hair....pushing me to orgasm again and pushing me over the top with another orgasm by placing a hand around my throat and the other digging nails in my ass...and taking his orgasm with me... SENSATIONAL.

Thanks Kitty Cat....I believe this amazing session was all due to you.

He received extra treats tonight...

Until tomorrow....

Sub Thoughts Tuesday...

Daddy is home for the evening! I’m so thankful that he’s here...I just don’t sleep the same without him.

I’ve been trying to be a good submissive lately and ask permission for everything during my day. Sometimes I forget...but for the most part I’m good about asking permission before I do anything or go anywhere. I’ve been on a really good streak of sending my photos everyday and doing my other tasks that are required daily. I’ve even gone to the gym the last 2 nights!

I haven’t had a punishment in a while...I’m hoping that some of the punishments that have been due will be forgiven and I won’t have to have any spankings. It hasn’t been mentioned in a while...so maybe all has been forgiven.

Some punishments a really enjoy (lol)....even though they require prep and aftercare....it’s very enjoyable. Some are not my favorite...but Daddy decides...not me. And all punishments are deserved...so u accept what he administers.

Daddy will be off soon...and we will see if anything is administered while he is off. I’m really trying to be a better sub for my Dom. Maybe we will be able to have some time soon for him to give me some feedback.

I’m ready to take in more of what he wants from me...

Until tomorrow...

Daydreaming Monday...

I had a hard time concentrating during my workday. First of all it’s Monday and who wants to be back at work??? Second of all Daddy and I had one hell of a night last night!!

We hadn’t really had “play” time in a couple of days (3 to be exact)...which don’t get me wrong 3 days before we had a wonderful hot night that was raw and left me sore!!! But last night we got some play time that was sensual and passionate and had some sideways oral ecstasy that look my breath away!

It amazes me how we still have a hunger for each other that is sweet and carnal. We make love, we have sex, we fuck...and every single time...no matter what version we have...it’s awesome. And it has me replaying it in my head the next day.

So this Monday...the way I got through the hectic day was daydreaming about last night. Smiling all day...no matter what was going on. Thinking about my Daddy and the look in his eyes when he takes me...it’s my favorite look. 5 more days and he’s all mine for his time off...

Until tomorrow...

Submissive service...

I was analyzing myself earlier today ...just thinking about how I am with Master. I love to serve him...just the everyday type things...put together his lunch, turn on his water for a shower, bath him, layout his food, etc. I would do more, but he’s a busy body and does something’s before I can get to it first.

But I love to do these things for him...and have him tell me thing he wants for me!!! I’ve never been like this before...at all!! I was the one that expected that from others...not that I liked it or wanted it...it’s what I expected. And I can’t imagine myself wanting to do for anyone else like I do for Master...and I just want to do more to show my service to him.

In my real life...I’m not submissive in anyway...in fact I’m very dominant. I’m aggressive and blunt. I have the ability to be an ice queen out in the world of work...but with Master I am completely his. Whatever he asks of me...I will do.

How does that work?? How I’m I able to be what I would call normal with Daddy and be this other person  in the workplace?? It baffles my brain...and I’m the one that does it! I can go to work and be this person that everyone is waiting to hear directions from...and then when I come home all I want to do is service him and have him love and protect me.

I love my world....but it does baffle my brain! Lol

Until tomorrow...

Saturday night...

As I sit here enjoying my evening writing my blog...watching my Daddy play his game...listening to him talk to his buddies....I have to just appreciate the little things.

I slept in late and woke to sweet messages from Daddy...I got snuggles from him all night long and sweet goodbye kisses as he left for work. He sends me messages while he’s a work patiently waiting for me to wake up to tell me something.

I got ready and took a drive and my view is probably one of the most beautiful states....I watched a child be a child all afternoon. We had the most amazing dinner that we prepared together...and then I got to enjoy a relaxing shower.

Every now and again you really just need to stop and appreciate the little things that happen during the day that we take for granted. The smell of the coffee in the morning...the putter of little kitten feet on the floor...a child’s laugh...the touch of the man you love...the way clean sheets and a fresh shave feels naked.

Just take a minute and enjoy it...

Until tomorrow...

Keeping up with the lifestyle...

Sometimes keeping up with the lifestyle is hard. I get into the groove of RL and find myself not making sure I’m adhering to my contract with my Master.

One of my contracted obligations is to go to the gym at least 2x per week.  This is not vanity driven...it’s for health purposes and stamina. And it seems like lately that it is so hard to get to the gym!! Between my work hours, being a caregiver, focused of trying to spend off time with Daddy...the gym has gone by the wayside.

I actually miss the gym...I’m not a person that you would say LOVES to workout...I mean I definitely wish it would just happen and I didn’t have to do anything...but I love the way the gym makes me feel! The after effects are well worth it!

I have to figure out how to make the schedule work for gym time...my body craves it and I don’t want to be in punishment because of not completing my tasks as I’m supposed to. It was so much easier when I didn’t have set work hours!! I also don’t want to miss any time I could be with Daddy!  I need like an hour I can freeze time and let me do my hour of gym time and then let everyone unfreeze and go back to having the clock tick!

I wish I had the early morning workout going on...but I like the bed too much!

Any suggestions would be appreciated!  I have to get this figured out quick!! I need the gym but I like my extra time with Daddy!!

Until tomorrow...

Alone time...

Sometimes it’s good to give each other some alone time. Time to do what you want to do...read a book, play a game, watch the TV show that no one else watches. Whatever your little heart desires.

I know it’s good to have time for yourself...they say it makes the heart grow fonder. So why does my heart long for him when we are apart?

I’m not dying, I’m not crying...I’m not even upset! But I do miss him...

I know that he needs some space from me too...and I have no issues giving him that time. It still has my brain swimming with missing him. I try not to text or call...just let him have some down time with out me interfering...but I think about it...I wonder what he is doing...I wonder if he misses me too...

I think it’s the curse of being a female...we just can help it! Or is it the submissive mind...waiting for his direction? Who knows!  Either way it doesn’t change the fact that I’m constantly thinking about him.

Maybe I’m crazy, maybe I’m obsessed...maybe this is what love is supposed to be...lol...I’m back with him tomorrow...so I will tuck the blankets and pillows all around me and try to get some sleep...

Until tomorrow...

Submissive pride...

I read an article today about the struggles of being a strong woman in RL, a submissive in private life and how to act in public with your Master.

The article talked about the persons change in perception about how she acted in public to still ensure her BdSM lifestyle was a secret, but still wanted to please her Master. Little things like making his coffee for him at the table after it had been served by the server...and wondering if anyone noticed. And how over time it just became her normal, and never even really thought about how other people might see her and the gestures she made toward her Master.

Most of this article was her realizing that with time and the building of emotions towards her Master...it didn’t matter if anyone noticed. It was also realizing that her true happens  being submissive to him. That he soul was content when she was serving him...and rewarded her with pampering, gifts and love.

This is how I see myself. I’m the most happy and content when I’m serving him. When I get to just be his and do as he commands. My reward of him holding me, kissing me, spoiling me is a bonus to how it all makes me feel. How serving him gives me more of me...the me I want to be.

I’m grateful for his dominance and for the gift of ownership he has claimed over me. I am forever his...

Until tomorrow...