Master and the Sub

Had an eye exam yesterday, while I stood in front of the receptionist wearing a bandana looking like an old cowboy robbing a bank I explained how I was immune deficient and how my beautiful wife didn't want me out anymore than necessary. In between exams I sat in the waiting area talking with another gentleman about how things had changed, stores with no food, empty isles where toilet paper, paper towels, cleaning supplies among other things used to sit waiting for a customer to buy them. He said it makes you think hard about and I finished his sentence with how delicate life is, he agreed. Just 4 short months ago we all were living life as usual, going to work, shopping, out for entertainment, getting our kink on with never a thought that the entire world would change to this extent. My local city was already under a stay at home rule but as of midnight the entire state is on lockdown, no unnecessary trips out only to buy essentials. I grew up in a time when stores closed by 5pm and nothing was open on Sunday except hospitals and maybe gas stations then the blue law passed and now you can get just about anything you want 24 hours a day 7 days a week. But over the last few weeks it's eerily similar to those times, stores here close at 8pm sharp, restaurants haven't been open in weeks except for drive thru or carry out and they close early, streets are almost deserted, only essential people out or someone making a food run. Watching the news, you get a sense of fear, panic, and sadness as life becomes more intense as the days go by seeing the number of infected rise along with the death toll, seems like watching a futuristic movie where people are used for some gruesome entertainment while someone places a bet, giving them limited supplies, and control to see if they can survive. One thing in particular I find interesting is, remember when they invented the game where everyone sitting at a table in a restaurant eating dinner trying to be sociable and the first person to grab their phone had to pay the bill. Makes you think God or some devine intervention, maybe nature is forcing us to slow down a bit, stay at home, quit running full speed ahead, enjoy life, enjoy family and friends be more sociable in our lives, see all these numbers as human's that we didn't take the time to get to know because we're wrapped up in being anti social or on the phone. Something so small it has to be seen with a microscope is taking down something as big as the world as we know it. Life is delicate, so cherish everyday with the same wonderment a child has discovering something new. To all please be safe, prayers and best wishes in these uncertain times. Lion and Hazel eyes. ??

Another day Americans are home quarantined, seriously which one of you little shits broke mom's favorite toy? Now we're all fucking grounded. It's kinda funny if you think about how we all bitch about working to much, not having time to do things or get things done, but the biggest complaint I heard is I'm bored or I feel trapped. I'm old enough to remember the Corona beer commercial which showed a man and woman sitting in lounge chairs on the beach when his pager goes off and he skips it across the ocean. They promoted unplug from the world for awhile. I totally understand the pressure from all this, financially some will be hit harded than others, fear of contracting this virus,  fatal for me and a lot of people. Watching as the world looks bleak at the moment, my father said he's never seen anything like this before and he was right in the middle of the cold war in the military. That whole scenario hinged on one thing, so since we have the power to do our part in all of this just by staying home I will gladly sit on my ass until the all clear comes from powers above my pay grade. To everyone stay safe, healthy, informed, but most of all laugh your ass off, tell jokes, play pranks on someone, enjoy your grounding the best you can. Oh and whoever broke mom's favorite toy were all not happy with you.? Big giant Air Hug to all.  Oh and if you think you have it rough I'm confined with a full blooded Greek woman with an attitude and she knows how to play pranks. ?

Well they call it social distancing in the news nowadays but it's been around for quite some time. Some people because of economics suffer it because they can't afford to be say more social cost money to attend events or go to dinner, movie, shopping, ect. Then there are the mentally isolated, think fear of going out or fear of crowds, anxiety attacks keep them isolated from people. Then we have people like my mother she would never leave home if possible she just doesn't like to go out. Then you have me, I don't enjoy going out but once out I don't want to go home two side fighting between themselves. Over the past 10 years since I left work I just don't go out much, some reasons are little money to spend on outside entertainment, lack of friends that have time to go out with, health issues. Now since I met my beautiful lioness I have been out more than the past years and it's been great but I had to realize the other day I'm playing Russian roulette with every trip out into society. Let me explain, with my gunshot I lost my spleen, I knew from the doctor that I had a lower immune system than others. I was told that I would need a booster shot of some kind every 5 years, when I ask about it many years ago I was informed it was just a pneumonia shot so I didn't get one. Ever since covid 19 hit I didn't think much about it, Hazel was concerned but hell it was the flu. Now last night I did a little research on living without a spleen and how many things I was susceptible to, pneumonia, meningitis, influenza, you get the idea, well let's just say that going out to run errands took on a whole new level of being a little more cautious about social distancing because any of those things would almost certainly kill me. I am not afraid of dying but the thought of leaving my lioness behind, would hurt her worse than the things she has been through. I found my soulmate and don't want to lose her due to my thinking I'm invincible because I hardly get sick. So in times like these please know that you not alone, if you have a significant other, if you have parents, kids, friends, work friends, pen pals, hobby friends, strangers that you can talk with, hell talk to yourself I do and it makes Hazel laugh at my conversations. Be sociable with all this technology that us old folks didn't have, most will have no idea what it's like to write a letter, mail it and wait for a week or two for a reply. Be cautious for yourself but also for those at a higher risk, practice what they taught you when you were young wash your hands, most of all take time to value your life, because so many have already lost theirs and more are going to. From both of us to all of you Big Air Hug. ??

I am totally fascinated with humans, they never disappoint me, some are quite entertaining, some are quite intriguing, most are normal, but there are the one's who are predictable that are fun to observe you learn a lot about them. All through history people have been studied, analyzed, researched, and quite frankly programmed to respond or act in a particular way due to a situation or influence. Let me now explain,  there have been focus groups for years trying to figure out what politician you will vote for and why, there are studies done to analyze how people respond to a crisis, war, economic fluxes in the stock market, national security, immigration, many more. Then there is the advertising industry, designed solely to analyze, study, conduct psychological research on how to get people to buy their products and continue to buy their products. They even have people who clean up bad press about their products incase they offend you the consumer. Now I will give you a project, while you are at the grocery store, Walmart, target, or wherever you shop make notes on which products are missing from the shelves. Yes I know about the obvious, toilet paper, disinfectant wipes, purell, paper towels, cleaning products, note here: that if you don't already have cleaning products in your home how often are you cleaning you home, something to think about next time you borrow the bathroom at someone's home. I'm talking more about food items trip to Walmart the other night revealed quite a lot about humans, this is a list of things I noticed missing from the shelves, bread, frozen pizza, french fries, (hot pockets, this company hasn't sold this many in years,) corn dogs, white castles burgers, pre made meals think TV dinners, pf chang meals, most any frozen throw in a microwave or oven, pre made spaghetti sauce, sugar, flour, cereal,  lunch meat, potato chips, popcorn, cookies, crackers, bottled water, canned soups, ramen, canned tuna, are you getting an idea of what kinds of foods people are eating. Now let me tell you what there was plenty of, meat, chicken, beef, pork, turkey, seafood,  fruits and vegetables, rice that requires cooking the old fashioned way. If it involved cooking it or seemed to be healthy for you there was plenty, good thing I love to cook from scratch, humans left me plenty to work with. In a time in this country when a large portion of the population is obese, overweight, has diabetes, has heart issues you would think that all the things good for you would be flying off the shelves but the items I saw gone looked more like food I ate as a teenager or what college kids live on. They say quarantine yourself for 2 weeks, since your going to be home with not much to do wouldn't this be the time to make good food choices rather than eating like you work 60 hours a week with no time to cook. Seeing what things were missing gave me information about what people were eating and how people shop all this is being analyzed as I write this by companies looking over their sales invoices so that incase of a next event now how much product to ship to stores and what price they can increase their products to. Seems like we as humans have been trained quite well over the years on how to react, what to buy and when to buy it. Powers that be have made us submissive so they can call themselves master. Just my opinion after an observation. Big hug to all, stay healthy. 

I have found over time that many people have this quality about them and then there's the percentage of people who lack the most basic of common sense. As we were taught from a young age the stove is hot, look both ways before crossing the street, looks like rain take an umbrella, you get the idea. So in the evolutionary scale shouldn't those who lack the common sense thing be dead? I see it on the news, read it on social media,  encounter it in person ask myself what were or are you thinking, oh sorry they weren't. So as with past deadly viruses,  sars, bird, influenza, just to name a few why are so many missing the most important thing, hell there putting it on the news wash your fucking hands folks. Have seen so many people buying hand sanitizer and disinfecting wipes like it's a limited edition barbie that will be worth millions. Oh let's not forget the mad rush to buy toilet paper, I don't think I read anywhere that this particular flu was making you shit yourself like a drunken man after eating taco bell, can we say explosive diarrhea. Biggest problem with this flu is pneumonia like effect on the body which can be fatal,  I know because I had both pneumonia and sepsis while in the hospital from my gunshot, 8 ivs filled with antibiotics. So what in the fuck is having enough toilet paper to wipe everyone's ass in your neighborhood for a month going to do? I say again wash your hands, I find it most funny that people are freaking out about this on a major scale but ask how many of them have had sex with a stranger via no condom and it's quite a high number. So you're willing to get a really nasty disease that you could avoid by using a condom but you need to disinfect your entire house for fear of the flu. Seems common sense went right out the window, friends it's pretty simple, wash your hands after contact with anything your not willing to put in your mouth, drink plenty of juice with vitamin c, get plenty of rest, relax don't get stressed it lowers your immune system, avoid people who show signs of being sick, stay home if you are sick so as to not infect others. Fear causes chaos and that leads to people buying all the toilet paper and like you I don't want to wipe my ass with newspaper,  oh shit I forgot this is the digital age there are no newspapers. Damn there goes another perfectly good pair of underwear.  Big hug to all from both of us and yes she made sure we had plenty of toilet paper. ??

This has been the plot line of many a good books, plenty of movies but what about life? What is good, well we might think about our health, the food we're eating, a book we read, movie we saw, a smell, a thought of something or someone, many things could be classified as good. Evil what comes to mind, murder, abuse, smoking, drinking, drugs, atheists, lawyers, politicians, BDSM, LGBT. Lots of things people have labeled good or evil, to one person something is good to another it's evil. Here on this site looms both good and evil, people come to this site looking for what most would classify as something or someone good but in some instances find the evil. No it's not the evil of Satan or a demon going to rip your soul out feasting on it for pleasure but more of the evil ways and thoughts people have. Reading blogs here you get the sense of it just takes that one apple to spoil the whole bunch or in this case the asshole who thinks being a dominant is asking for naked pictures, demanding a submissive on a first contact to obey them like there a jedi with mind control. I'm old so it's ghosting nowadays in my time we called it an inconsiderate prick blowing you off. This site like many others in this day and age needs a vetting process just like in my time we ask a young lady out on a date if she was interested she said yes, no ment just that, she didn't find you attractive or interesting enough to waste her time.  Not to sound one sided plenty of dominants have been subjected to this behavior as well and it seems age is not a factor young or old ghosting is just another way to fuck with you digitally. I can't stress this enough ask fucking questions, asking questions gives you information and power to make an informed decision about whether you want to invest your time, feeings, and emotions into someone who might just waste your time. My beautiful lioness is all I could ever ask for, but let me say lots and I mean lots of questions were ask, some were asked more than once because we both had been hurt before by others we wasted our time on. Doesn't matter if you're a dominant or a submissive ask questions, talk to other doms or subs hell ask the opposite side questions they can help you in how things should be in this lifestyle but remember to protect yourself, evil can come in all forms. Hope everyone is doing well,  big hug from the lion den.

Perception a way one perceives how someone or something is looked at. Glass half full, half empty, color of your skin, which sex you are may be factors of how you are perceived by someone else. Many factors can affect why one sees things the way they do, way you were raised, social influence, economic influence,  religious beliefs, lifes bitter experience may open or close your eyes to how you perceive people or things. Judgment comes from our perception of people and things. Acceptance, ones ability to understand, be educated about something and come to terms with it. This may not be something that you believe in or participate in but you have accepted it as part of life or the way things are. Tolerance, ones ability to put up with, live with, someone or something that may irritate or rub us the wrong way we may do this out of love, respect, or just not to cause more problems. This lifestyle is perceived by others as wrong, some are accepting, some are tolerant but for the most part no physical harm comes from society,  people don't physically abuse you at a bar, nightclub,  or just walking down the street because of your choice to live this life.  LGBT people are perceived as not normal, their rights are taken away, they are physically abused,  discriminated against, left feeling alone, commit suicide. The year is 2020 when do we as human beings start to act like caring, compassionate, accepting, tolerant people instead of perceiving things we don't understand or are uneducated about and passing Judgment? I write this standing in the middle between my older parents set in their ways, misconceptions, and perceptions and my 2 transgender children who have to live in this world full of racism, hate, the perception that they are not normal. I only see how loving, caring, helpful, friendly, outgoing, funny they are why can't others. As with this life style perception can give it a oh that's not normal, but education can bring acceptance or at least tolerance.  I implore all who have been passed Judgement on to educate those who perceive people who are different as wrong or not normal. For my children I will always protect them, stand by their choices and be accepting and tolerant because I lovek them. My only wish is to one day see a world where we are all seen as humans with no labeling. Peace be with you all.

Well next weekend will be 2 months my lioness has had a migraine. Over these last 8 weeks we have been in the emergency room 4 times, countless trips to the doctors office,  meds out the ass with only minimal relief. Worst part is dealing with the incompetence from the doctor's office. Primary doctor sent us to a neurologist but he won't be available until March so we got to see a nurse practitioner who prescribed a injectable but didn't pay attention to the fact my lioness is allergic to latex which if she would have used it would have been a trip in an ambulance. Called to get something different and for 2 weeks she was on vacation, so we asked for a referral to another neurologist still can't get them to send it. On top of it they just got the referral for the MRI which was supposed to be done 2 weeks ago.  All the while my beautiful lioness has missed work and if this shit keeps up she might lose her job. I have been chewing ass trying to get some answers will no results so I got her an appointment with a new doctor now we get to start at ground zero. My lioness feels like she's being a burden on me, but that couldn't be farther from the truth, I just want the happy beautiful lioness I met last June. I will admit this shit has caused me stress but it's not her fault it's dealing with people who just don't seem to care one way or another if she feels better. Starting February 3rd we have an MRi on the 4th we see a new doctor with hope that they can find out what's causing her migraines. If you want a true test of your love for someone and to see if your dynamics can stand strong be there for them at their worst so at their best it will seem effortless.  To all of our family here we wish you the best in all aspects of life, stay strong because life sometimes can make you feel weak. Big hug from Lion and Hazel eyes. 

Life is what you make of it, I've heard this along with many of you but this is all dependent on if you have the right tools life gives you.  For some people life gives them the tools, good health, good family, good education, the opportunities that come their way that help them proceed through life with what they need and want. For others life doesn't provide these things so what do you do, you make life with what you have, make the best out of a bad situation what I was told and still believe. As bad as life has been there's always a positive side for me, having a conversation with Hazel eyes I realize that if certain things would have been better for me I wouldn't ever been on this site and I wouldn't have met her. Sometimes bad things bring great things into life, a forest burned down by lightning is most beautiful after time passes. Love is unconditional, I have heard this and must say I don't believe this is the right statement love is different for everyone, someone's lack of affection as a child then getting it by someone could constitute love for them. Being shown caring and compassion when you never had it could be someone's thought of love, so what is love? My belief is it's many different things to all of us, a feeling of something missing when the one you love is not near, a happy feeling knowing that you are cared for by someone other than yourself ( now realize I honestly think you must love yourself before others will because negativity atracts more negatively). We must find our own definition of what love is to us and find that person who fills our reason for love to give and receive. Control is power over someone or something that affects life, love and how we can make the best out of the life we are given. For most of us we believe we are in control of our own lives but when you look at the big picture we only have some control, jobs, family, relationships, health, many of karma's little bites in the ass have shown us who's in control at times. So what do we do? We take control of the things we can at the moment not worrying about what's going to happen down the road we will deal with that bridge when we get there. So here's the update on life, love, and control with these lions, 6 weeks now Hazel eyes has been sick, my youngest child has become transgender,  my parents are mad at us because we didn't tell them before they did, with Hazel not working money has gotten thin, I'm trying to sell my truck but all we get is ghosted by inconsiderate people wasting our time. The stress from all this is affecting both of us, she is ready to just give up on doctors because nobody seems to care another way others have control over your life. Now the things I have learned from my life, it will get better may take more time but someday soon. As I always told my children if you think you have it bad turn around someone behind you has it worse. I'm thankful for all we have, a loving home, food, love for each other.  Oh and a positive thing happened a roofing company stopped and wanted to inspect my roof, please understand I haven't had the money to get it done, never filed a claim ever with insurance after living here 27 years. Getting a new roof, work starts this morning all covered by insurance for storm damage I didn't know about. A positive to shine light on the negative things lately. My summary life, love, control how and who you give these to depends only on you, make sure what you give you can afford to lose without it costing you everything.  From the lions den we wish everyone the best our love to you all. Happy new year and may you make the best out of whatever comes along in life. Big hug to all. ?

Update, doctors appointment done, got an x ray done new meds that hopefully won't make her so tired. Will keep all informed when we find out something new. Big hug to all.