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   Spoiled? Yes but not rotten and pay back is sometimes a bitch. It was pointed out to me this last conclave just how spoiled I am. In both facets of my life do I deserve it I don't know but I do try to earn it. 

 Example my luck during my tour of service in the name of modesty I walked off the cleared path to pee, This resulted in me flying in the air with my pants down and peeing in front of my peers, my sergeant risking his life to come and get me and many months in the hospital. But in this I was lucky it was a pebble mine designed to cause damage but not kill all in the name of modesty. This was followed by a couple of years of abuse at the hands of my boss until the day they walked into the office and my life was transformed.

   I and the others have blogged about that day so I'm not going go over that again. But that was the day I started to be spoiled. The following days being used to the way of the world I started looking for the bad side to the fairytale I found myself living in. Waiting for the other shoe to drop so to speak. And do you know what I found that there are just some people who just try to make your life better, oh I was told when I fucked up and shown why and how and the lessons ranged from mild to what could be considered harsh but I learned. And I finally received my reward I became bonded to the most incredible group of people I ever found. All are eager to teach me what I need to know about my life and steering those who depend on me and us. I say steer not control because that is what sir taught me about people the secret is that people will resent an order but they gladly take help, as long as they accept that it's for there own benefit they will take it with a smile. 

                                                             THE OFFER AND THE ACCEPTANCE

   I was nude not even my foot was on me standing in front of his closed door. My dear friend, lover and mother standing in front of me looking me in the eye and asking me if this is what I truly want. And I tell her what else can I do I love him and I can not go without feeling him in my arms and feeling him in my body. I have come to need it like the air I need yes he is old but that means if I don't act now I may never know what you have or feel he must own me or I must leave because I can't take it any longer. We kiss chastely and I knock and wait he is on the phone when he hangs up he says enter. I close my eyes and offer a prayer and open the door hop in and close the door behind me get on my knees and crawl to the front of his desk to lay prostate in front of his desk. he waits then says what do you want of me Mari. I swallow and ask him in a voice to quiet to hear and so shaken that he raises his voice and says what is it little girl speak up so I repeat louder but with just as much fear in it. Sir I need you to take me to own me to love me as a women not as your employee. There is silence that felt like forever to me then I hear him speak to the intercom, jane come prepared to serve. And much faster then I expected she was there sitting next to me nude knees slightly apart to shoulder with hands folded in her lap palms up she must have taken her cloths off as soon as I came into his den. He said tell me what you know slut I saw her shiver at his words and then I smelt her arousal mix with my stench of fear and then I felt my arousal start. Sir this is what I know. She needs you and we need her we need her youth and her drive for the future of the house. This is what you want Jane for me to show her and teach her all about the business and being in submission to a house they way we are? Yes sir I do she is young enough to learn and mature enough to adapt to the needs. Mari sit and listen to me. Do you understand what Jane is asking you will for all intense giving your life to the growth and security of this house you are young and beautiful and soon wealthy and could do any thing do you really want to be tied to this chair until you find some one to pass it on to?                                

   First and simplest the reason for our absence is simple every year Dec into Jan all the members of the house of Jane meet to go over and vote on possible changes to our rules. Both Dom's and sub's meet separately and then put to the group as a whole to vote over these changes.

   In regards to the last blog I had been in consternation over the amount of sub's that have been taken in buy cheater's and abuser's that this lifestyle attracts. When I brought this up to sir Tim. He smiled and said that is because you have only known one type of Dom since being chosen by jane and trained by Jane and Sir James. So you have never been exposed  to what's out there in the dark it is the main reason they started this house. You have taken for granted the massive investigation the Dom's are subjected to before they are allowed in for training all the things that sir Tim explained are what every Dom of the house go through just to be accepted for training. Then over the course of the training it was all up to sir James, to then weed out those that do not make the cut. same as you do with the sub's sir James did something similar with the Dom's there is an entire check- list of training that we go through. And you my young lady have only met the ones that have passed the first screening. After that we are taught to be gentlemen first then we are shown how to exercise control over ourselves before even given us training in the ways of handling a sub and finally how to bring the best out of the sub. These are only the basics.

I now have 4 children and wolf pups to train and care for so my blogging may slow down a bit.         

    How do you do, I am addressed as sir Tim I am a member of the house of Jane. this may be the only time I feel the need to blog or be in contact in any way. But I felt this is needed for the potential sub's on here. and I will be brief. This I hope will help to stop some hart felt pain I have run across and a constant stream of blog's on this subject. Many of the sub's have problems in vetting a possible Dom for themselves so here is the basic secret to establishing trust for each other from the beginning. 

1) your potential Dom should be willing to give you his full name. with photo. You then take this and get on the net to one of the background sites and spend the money for a complete check This will establish him/her as a cheater or not, if he is able to afford the keeping of a sub or slave. does he have a criminal past. these are the main things. it can and does delve further but it will be up to you if you want to look or not.

  Dear sub's

    This is not romantic but you will quickly find this will save you pain in the future if you do this.  and after all you are looking for a partner in crime for the rest of your life, trust starts from the beginning if you start right you will have a better chance of it ending right.

  Dear Dom's/Domma's 

    the above will be worth it to yourself as well.   

 thank you Sir Tim

   Most know the house is well off but there is just so much we can do. So that being said here is the challenge.

   There has been an increase of 40 t0 60% in food bank need these are from people like you and I and unfortunately children. the house normally gives 5000lb's of meat to food bank's but once we received a request like this we increased our contribution. so for those who can please give to your local food bank if you can next time you go shopping buy a couple of extra cans of soup and put it in the stores little box that is given to the local food bank make it overflow to most this will not break us but if you have ever been hungry as a child remember that feeling If you have ever had to cut back on what you gave your child remember that feeling. your reward is a feeling that will last the rest of the day. thank you so much I know i said my blogs would always be upbeat so if you do this I guaranty you will make this upbeat for yourself. Mari    

   She had the eyes of an angel looking into them all you felt was the warmth of kindness and love it made no difference what you thought you looked like to her all she could see was beauty. He could look in you and pull the bad to himself and smile, roll in it let it wash over him like a mountain stream the rocks cleaning out the impurities making you clean and new. and I need both to be what I became I started with all the ugliness I had taken on myself all that I had seen all that I had done all the ugliness of the war that I felt compelled to wear like a cloak around my slender shoulders. between the love she gave and the anger he took from me and the order they gave to my destructive life I had been subjecting myself to. I felt it all going from the ugly duckling to become the graceful swan that I am now. But the job they started in not yet complete for now I must become the angel she wanted me to be I will get there in time because he gave me the strength to complete the life he gave me and the courage she gave me to continue.    my movie          

   Communication between partners every one makes a big deal of this like it is some kind of magic Bullitt to the lifestyle well guess what it not for just the lifestyle it is for any type of relationship. and time must be set aside to talk. sir's story "talk is cheep so do it".     

   The three main fine's 1) the kind you want to hear most means all my systems are working well and there is nothing wrong. 2) this fine means everything is working but I am have trouble with something and the dreaded fine 3) this one means you have F.U. big time and I will get you when you least expect it regardless of the punishment. Now let us look at this from the dynamic view the first one is the one you want to hear all the time, the second one means it's time to talk the dynamic is suspended because it needs work it is time to ask questions to help them get out what they need to say and this means listening not judging not trying to solve a problem before you understand it completely nothing may have to change or something does but maybe it is not you maybe it's helping her to come to a answer or sometime changing the dynamic to make it better for you both. But the key is to listen and comprehend what they are saying. If you do this and keep doing this until there is a new understanding you will likely avoid the third fine 9 out of ten times as well as improve you dynamic every time because she will feel validated and she has every right to feel that way because she is after all the most important thing in your life. I had missed this in my early relationship and it cost me the love of a very good woman. But by the time I met Jane and had gotten into the habit of listening and comprehending what is said I became a good Dom later as Jane and Dena had time to work on me I really did become a master. So to make it short and sweet learn to listen and comprehend what is said is the most important part of communication. And always make the time to do that. There is an old saying that my father shared with me "never go to sleep angry". 

Jill note: we cant think of any thing to add to this other then say sir would always go without sleep if one of us needed to talk.         

   Communication between partners every one makes a big deal of this like it is some kind of magic Bullitt to the lifestyle well guess what it not for just the lifestyle it is for any type of relationship. and time must be set aside to talk. sir's story "talk is cheep so do it".     

   The three main fine's 1) the kind you want to hear most means all my systems are working well and there is nothing wrong. 2) this fine means everything is working but I am have trouble with something and the dreaded fine 3) this one means you have F.U. big time and I will get you when you least expect it regardless of the punishment. Now let us look at this from the dynamic view the first one is the one you want to hear all the time, the second one means it's time to talk the dynamic is suspended because it needs work it is time to ask questions to help them get out what they need to say and this means listening not judging not trying to solve a problem before you understand it completely nothing may have to change or something does but maybe it is not you maybe it's helping her to come to a answer or sometime changing the dynamic to make it better for you both. But the key is to listen and comprehend what they are saying. If you do this and keep doing this until there is a new understanding you will likely avoid the third fine 9 out of ten times as well as improve you dynamic every time because she will feel validated and she has every right to feel that way because she is after all the most important thing in your life. I had missed this in my early relationship and it cost me the love of a very good woman. But by the time I met Jane and had gotten into the habit of listening and comprehending what is said I became a good Dom later as Jane and Dena had time to work on me I really did become a master. So to make it short and sweet learn to listen and comprehend what is said is the most important part of communication. And always make the time to do that. There is an old saying that my father shared with me "never go to sleep angry". 

Jill note: we cant think of any thing to add to this other then say sir would always go without sleep if one of us needed to talk.         

  Sir called this "A place of her own" Sir James claimed this was a necessity for any sub but just like any it depends on the sub how important it is, some will claim it is not needed these are the ones that never had one.

   Inside every woman beats the hart of a little girl. Remember you are not just a man you are a Dom in the old days they had different names the ladies sitting room or parlor or even the sawing room. It makes no difference what it is called it is a room that is hers and just hers, if you are smart you give her one and the important thing to remember is unless asked stay out of it. It becomes the place she will keep her secrets in, her place to dream or just her place of safety to think her thoughts out.

  This is a very important for her mental health and forming her ideas of change she wants to bring to you or changes in herself she wishes to make. As her standing in whatever job she does the more she will need a place to just unwind so she can be the sub she wants to be for you. it is her meditation room her exercise room or just the place she keeps her diary or scrap book. 

  This need not be a large room but it should be comfortable quiet and worm and cozy. if you have a city apartment and you have a storage place clean it out move what you want to keep to an extra unit outside the building fix it up the way she wants and then give her the key and forget about it. I my case I was fortunate to have a large yard and built the two small heated units in the yard  one for each later after Dena passed her place became our daughters aside from her bed room. When we moved to Colorado I had Janes unit moved to here and Mary's put in storage for her in case she wanted it.  

Mari's NOTE: when Jane died I received a letter telling me what to save from there mostly her journals and some art she bought I moved them to my unit for safe keeping and its good thing I did. Because sir James ordered it burnt without looking at it. He was in a great deal of pain and was not thinking straight for several months after.       

   When they came up with the rules they also gave a story to help us understand an example so to speak. sir called this buying a fixer upper.

   when I met Jane she had just filed for bankruptcy now I do not blame her for this as a cancer survivor and newly divorced she had no medical insurance add to this the birth of her daughter 2 years before well for her it was a mountain of debit but for the plans I had for her this just will not do so I paid it off. Now many will say isn't that nice of him not so you see if I were to buy the co. I was looking at and gave it to her the creditors would have climbed out of every sewer in town and if she managed to pay them off she would not be able to expand like she would need to and in the long run it would have cost me more. This way with a clean credit record and my backing she was able to run and expand the company without always worrying about money she could hire the best and be sure they would be paid and this in turn made contractors come to her and lower cost while maintaining the quality that she demanded this was then passed to her customer and made her reputation grow in this way she kept both her high end one of a kind customer as well as later making her lower end mass production customer coming back. and this in the end made a company bought for 500K be sold for 5 billion and if you add the profit from 21 years to that you are looking at about 10 billion for an investment of 500K not bad at all. for a little girl with an A.S degree from a back water all girl collage. and that is the lesson of debt and how to make it work for you. 

   You see the amount of debt yearly went to defer the taxes owed.

excerpt from Jane: Of course what he does not tell you of are the nights he was up all night paying the bills and his worry of coming up with the cash to pay for my company. just allowing me to make my vision come true. He did the business and i did the creating he made sure I was always working from a firm solid foundation and neither did I till later and that was why I sold the company so we would finally have time for us.

Mari here Jane lived 9 years in retirement with sir James but if you asked him he would tell you it was worth every second of worry just to be able to sit back and watch her frolic and play. And of course she made sure he would never be alone  she knew she would go first. And would not let him go alone.         

   This is taken from sir James journal 's it is about the importance of rule one. many years ago sir would train sub's for others this is the story of one of them. sir called it Graces journey home and it will also explain why sir built such a house.

   One day I was approached by a young married couple with a request to train a transsexual man who was bisexual after talking to him I sent him to Doc for evaluation. She said he is ready to do this so I called in the lawyers to make up a contract to fit them. Now I'm not stupid and I know that things and feelings can change so I made sure as I have done for any sub who is not married to their Dom to cover financial obligations. she became the perfect executive assistant as well as the perfect sub for both, Jane spent a lot of time teaching her how to look dress and speak like a women as well as being the perfect hostess for there parties. Let us advance 20 years in the future.

I received a call from the hospital informing me that Grace was admitted and her medical coverage was denied so I gave them my credit card and told them to bill it to that and to do whatever is needed for her to recover. I then called the lawyer and told them to go to the hospital and handle what ever comes up then called the security company and told them I wanted the best investigator we had to meet me at the hospital and find the lawyers. When I finally got there with Jane I was told the damage, they had mutilated her they managed to save her penis but not her testicles they reattached her breast and her skull was broken and will require a plate some one did not want her to live. Fine I now knew what had to be done I turned to the investigator and told him to find out the who was behind this and to report it to me and lose whatever paperwork after. He was hesitant until I told him in no uncertainty that his job was riding on this I then gave him the name and phone number of someone that can find the info or at least point him in the right direction. I then told the lawyers to get to work on getting what's owed her by her Dom but I wanted to be present when they went to get it.

   By the time I received conformation on who hired the men responsible for inflicting the damage and turning over the men to the police they tried to plea Bargen but it seems the one they say hired them had disappeared somewhere in the mountains and has not been found as of this writing.

When grace was recovered enough she was brought home to the ranch she now lives in a little home with Jane's sister and they seem to be very happy. But there are others who are trained by Jane and sir and should any thing happen to there happy ever after they will have a different happy ever after looking at the mountains and cattle and horses and of course a cowboy or three to occupy the golden years if they want.  This is the promise given to all trained by us they will have a happy ever after.