taxi's ladies

           The next morning, we woke to rain. This happens in the mountains you often fall asleep under the stars and wake under clouds. So, I was preparing for a long day in the rain on horseback when he said let's just saddle up and get going, we only have about a 4-hour trip today before we stop for a couple days. Having come with him this way before I said we are going to stop at a different place he smiled and said yes young lady we are some places you can really relax and enjoy some of what these mountains have to show you. Two hours later we stopped and got off the horses to lead them down a narrow path to a waterfall and small pool. He set up a tent that was new and roomie made for 4 people and the whole bottom inflated to be an air mattress. he told me to go in get undressed he would get some hot water to wash up when I looked out there was a bucket of water under a tent flap I got out and stood nude washing myself when I looked for him, he was standing in the rain washing himself in rainwater very cold rainwater. This was the first time I had seen him nude I realized several things at once he was scared all over, he was chiseled who has a six pack at 60 and even his pubs are gray, he was built for fitting between a woman's legs perfectly when he saw me looking, he looked me in the eye I felt hot and flushed and turned so red I felt like this was the first time I had seen a nude man. When the water had washed the soap off, he slowly walked towards me, and I thought yes now. Instead, he waked into the tent and put dry clothes on. I finished and put clean clothes on while he made dinner for us.

           The next morning was a wonder the rain stopped, and the sun just made the world shine or was it sleeping next to him for the first time. Odd we women see things so different than males, but it makes us fit together or now looking back was it the birth of submission for him that made me feel so safe when he is near. When I woke and he was not there I felt panic and sprang to the tent flap and fell flat on my face wolf was laying across it, guarding while I slept, I was not hurt, and James helped me up I was nude, and he had a pair of shorts on he helped me to the fire, and I sat on a big fluffy towel, and I eat breakfast. When we finished, he put the plates in the fire, and I went to the little soaking pool to wash the silver. 

            He then picked up the towels we sat on looked at me and said come, he led me down a path well-traveled to another clearing with horses tied up we went to a ledge, and he called out safe when he got no answer, we started down there was a cave at the end, and we went in the inside was large well-kept and, in the middle, was a large pool of hot water a natural hot spring known only to the locals. It felt so good to just lay in and soak. I asked him why this placed was not on the map. He smiled and said " the man who owns this land never told anyone, so the locals are the only ones that know about it. and thay keep it clean (It was not till after his passing I learned he owned it and by his wishes it has been kept a secret of the locals).

           For the next three weeks he showed me many quiet and hard to reach places like that places you could just relax without the worry of someone coming Apon you unseen.       

Jill        

          Everything about that night felt like a very well-done seduction and to tell the truth it worked I was ready as I had never been before, so when he just brought me back to my room and kissed me on the top of my head and said good night I was in shock. When I was alone in my room and took my dress off I looked at myself in the mirror and thought what's wrong with me I'm young hot and made myself clear that I was available and yes willing so what did I do wrong? Then I thought was he too old and said no that's not it when he taught me to dance that night, I knew he was capable no one who has ever danced the lambada knows they have the stamina to do the deed. I had never been so disappointed and so ready in my life, so I got in bed and took care of myself 2 hours later after I took care of the itch. I laid on my bed and started thinking again, I think I finally fell asleep around 2 so when I woke at 4 to get ready for the trip, I had to do myself again and cold shower and dress. Needless to say, I was tired cranky and horny all at the same time. I know now how to handle myself better but at that time I was best described as bitchy and that's being kind to myself. 

         It was my mistake; this is when I first really saw my future master in all his anger. When I got too the trail head, he was already there with wolf and another man and two pack horses. Too this day I do not know why I chose that word, as I said I was feeling bitchy and said morning sir in a derogatory way. He turned and said in a low and angry voice "do not ever call me sir until I give you permission that is a right reserved for people who have earned that right you may call me James or Jim or even asshole but if you call me sir again without my permission, I will take you over my knee and make you regret it for a week do you understand me". if you had seen the anger in his eyes when he delivered that I literally felt scared of this man in a way I had never felt before. I hung my head down turned red and said I'm sorry and yes, I understand what you said completely, and it will not happen again.

        The next two days I learned just how well trained these three where something I had missed on our first trip. Wolf again led us and at times we would see her either sitting or standing once even laying in the path it was then I started to see warhorse and James posture change if wolf was standing warhorse would pick-up his head and James would tense. If she was sitting warhorse would raise his head and sniff the air and return to an alert but normal posture and James would simply sit his saddle but undue his gun. and the one-time wolf was lying on the path neither of them would react. That night in camp I asked him about it he smiled and said I was wondering when you would pick that up, he went on to explain if wolf is standing it means there are a group of armed men ahead if she is sitting it means the group ahead are armed but mixed men and women if she is laying down it means she sees what could be to her a family in front meaning a man woman and child or more in front. You see it is a part of the bond we share war and wolf had a devil of a time teaching me, but I finally understood you see Jill never make the mistake of thinking these are just dumb animals, animals yes dumb no wolf and war started out with something in common. Thay are both pack or heard animals meaning they prefer groups wolf being alone was adopted into the heard, so she considers war and me and mine as her pack and have learned to talk to each other in their own language. You will see it better when we overnight at my ranch and see how the other horses and my ladies respond to each other. woe wait a minute ladies. Just what kind of man was he? No, I did not ask I thought I'll wait and see what's going on. Is he a Mormon there are still quite a few of them who practice the old way out here in the west.    

Jill                

       Sad to say I was more or less asexual at this time not for lack of want more like I was still too wild settle down enjoyed my freedom to much. Not really a bad thing but somewhere inside I missed the companionship sometimes.

       That spring when a group of us were exercising our horses in the corral all of a sudden, the other horses stopped in their tracks except for my love that is what I named her, she walked over to the rale and waited there was a separating of the people and it was like a black mass came walking over he was there warhorse, in his pure black glory on his back James sat like a ghost come from the past black clothes head to toe an old style 44 low slung like you see in the movies two rifles on either side and a desert eagle on his left. Jill how is she working for you well, I hope. Her name is love and she is perfect he smiled for the first time I had ever seen and said good we leave in the morning meet me for dinner tonight and I'll go over the route with you. I smiled and said you do know I don't work for you right. He looked up and said if you check with your boss, you will find you do till I release you without saying anything else he turned and took warhorse to the stable. 

       Later that evening one of the othe women in the barracks I was housed in came up and told me there was a man downstairs asking for me I was lying in bed and asked her how he was dressed she said he was in a dinner jacket and tie I got up and told her to tell him I would be down in a few minutes, and I put on the little red mini for dinner and changed my eye shadow. When I got down there where three other women all older than me talking to him, he was smiling and entertaining them with stories about the back country up north. when he saw me, he stopped and took his hat off and held his hand to me at the same time talking to the women and saying his goodbyes. other than telling me that I looked good in red that was all that was said on the way to the restaurant.

        We pulled up to a building in the city that looked dark and eval we were let in, and he spoke to the man behind the stand he escorted us to a room with a very fancy set table and James ordered wine he sat me down and put the chair under me very formally and sat down the waiter gave us menus, I had never been in a restaurant like this before I asked him in all innocence why there were no prices. He smiled and said in this world ladies are not expected to care what it cost to be fed. Thay are simply meant to enjoy the wine and food the man worries about what it cost. But then again if the man cares about the cost he has no business bringing a ladey here to begin with he then said if there is anything on the menu you don't know what it is just ask me and I'll tell you. The wine was just unbelievable the taste and smell just made my mouth water the crystal was cut in just a fantastic design and was somehow erotic without seeming to be, the same with the setting. The whole table just seemed to awaken something in the woman in me the meal was perfect just the right amount and temperature. After dinner and desert, he ordered me a brandy and he had a bourbon and coffee before he brought up the reason we were there.

       He told me that my boss asked him to escort me again but this time he asked him to show you all the things on the trip that would make it enjoyable all the sights and beauty of the trail. He then told me I could of course refuse, and he would not be mad, but he thought I would benefit from the experience and joys of the trip. I told him that he did not have to bring me to a place like this to influence me. He sat back and smiled before saying that's not why he brought me here he brought me to help me learn what living life and enjoying the life can be like.     Jill                

         About Oct,15.2016 or around then you will meet a man at this LAT: AND LOG: you will follow him and protect him if needed he is not a lawman of any sort, but you will do what he says to do because he will teach you how to stay alive out there. With these words from my boss, I was sent out on my first solo trip to the mountains. 

       Ah youth and inexperience I arrived the day before I was to meet this man, I made camp and waited. The horse I had was not one I expected the damn thing was like a Clydesdale big ferry feet two and a half foot wide and big for little woman the saddle that went with it was odd too, it had rings on it for hanging stuff that I did not have anything to hang from them. The next morning, I kept looking around I felt like I was being watched it was like an itch between my shoulders it was there, but I did not see or hear anything. I was bent over the fire tending it when I looked up there stood a horse bigger the mine a short man and the biggest white wolf, I had ever seen I fell off the log I was sitting on trying to pull my gun when I felt its paws pinning my arms down and looking me in the eye when it opened its mouth and gently licked my mouth I heard what was either a grunt or snort and he said you must be Jill you may call me James I will be your instructor for this last phase of your survival training. When I pulled myself together, I said where the hell did you come from all he said was I've been here since before light. That will be one of the things I will teach you.

        That afternoon he introduced me to the horse and showed me why she was so big and the tricks that animal could do, and most of all how to bond with it so that she learned to trust and love me. He said in this way people and horses are a lot alike first come trust then come the love. Example. most horses will rear and bolt at the smell of blood or the sound of gunfire not these horses they stand still at the sound and just raise their head at the smell it will not run if you fall off it will stand over you, it will even lay down on command to let you mount if you are hurt and that was just that afternoon, he showed me over the rest of our first eight weeks of the journey he showed me so many things, things I never knew I needed to learn. He saved my life at least 3 times. It was the first time he did I learned that he was not a nice man he was or could be a very bad man he gunned down three men who got the drop on me. they were what I suspected they were drug runners. He then carefully explained what I did wrong and explained what to do in the future if I wanted to take them alive next time. He showed no regret for taking their lives he simply explained this is what happens to people who try to hurt someone under his protection. He did not even burry them just gave the location of where the drugs were to be picked up. The funny thing was the sheriff did not even question him about it. I said to him aren't you worried about the bodies he just said no if there is anything left of them by the time the sheriff came by it will just look like an animal got them from nature to nature all is returned.

      I did ask him once why he was teaching me. Two reasons first because my boss asked him to. When I asked for the other reason, he looked at me and said later you're not ready for that yet. He left me that winter in New Mexico for the winter. When I asked my boss about him, he just said he just showed up on the trail a few years ago doing what he does suppling the guys out there and got them to help us with the drug problem, so we got to be friends. They help us and we ignore them and pretend they are not breaking the law about staying on federal land. Or try to get them "help" they don't want.                                                                     

Jill        

It starts with the sauna scented with jasmine and lavender to calm me 

Skin scraped and washed with blessed water.

Oils of vanilla, liquorice and musk applied.

Carried to my bed of pine boughs and silk.

Two women at my head to hold my hands tightly.

Two at my feet to prepare he who enters me. 

Finally, as the first star is seen the first lash is felt.

As full dark descends the first seed is placed.

And the sacrifice of solstice winter starts.

             Jill   

for this one night only

Give me your pain upon this body.

leave the scars o men of the clan

women of the clan tend me

clean the wounds for this body must live 

men take the pleasure I give in exchange

leave me Thye seed for the rebirth come spring 

I gladly give you your spring mother for my winter sacrifice tonight.

                                           jill    

        Hi, for you new readers to our blog my name is Deb's not my real name but close enough for Blogging. It was suggested i.e., ordered to wright something about agape and its relationship to me. This will not be about Sir James and me I have already done a blog on that. this is about my current Sir. Tim and how I fell in love with him. 

         As many know I started my adult life as a card-carrying Dyke I met my life partner Sue in the military she was everything I lacked beautiful, outgoing, and emotionally verry strong she was also very bi, and she made it plain she was not going to give up men completely. Yes, it took me time to kill the green-eyed monster that dwelled in me, but she made it easy for me by always including me in her conquests and making sure the male knew I was off limits to his touch. Because of this I saw the joy she got when a man entered her. And she always said it was better for her when I was there, as I said we were young and really did not know what we had was agape and what she got from him was sex. 

         We first met our current Sir when he was a 16-year-old man and yes, I mean MAN to see what I mean see our blog (chapter 3 responsibility it contains part of his early life, and you will understand). he was not yet a gentleman still ruff around the edge but well on his way, both of us were impressed with him and could tell with time he would be a force in his own right. In a way we should have known he would be ours's in time since both Jane and Sir James always looked ahead and planed ahead. Over time a deep friendship developed between the three of us. when Mari and Jill claimed him as their Dom and brought him back to the main ranch, we were happy to see him again. when Mari gave the nod of O.K. Sue leapt like a starving wolf not that I blamed her, having learned that I to need a Dom to make Shure I kept on track in my life, I kept myself open gave him a chance, but I was to be earned and it had been 7 years since we had seen each other.

          God, he started slowly with us both too slow for Sue but just right for me. It started with reestablishing the deep friendship we one had this took a few months until sue could not stand it and she asked him for sex came to me and said to me "Deb's sue just asked me to make love with her and you know our lifestyle means for me to take her as my sub it can be no other way. But she is your partner, and I will come between you or even appear that way." His respect for me made that little bell all women have inside them went off with a single chime and halfway there to earning me as more than a friend. And it stayed there until the day he came into our office and just took me I wrote about that previously a while ago and it was the trigger for me this time it left me needing more of this new man in my life and I got it. He had earned my respect and then my love because of it.  Debs had found a new owner of her hart and along with that my bodies use. the way a true Dom should with respect and care for its use.

  shit that was hard to wright but also a great relief also   love Deb's                 

      I am a slut and enjoy being one this is a fact. The truth is from the time I entered this property I was willing to f88k that old man's ass off to keep it and he just shook his head and laughed. Then looked at me and said Mari my child there may come a time when I take you BUT, two things will happen one you will desire it with every fiber of your body and two when it is over you will be in a very different place in your mind.

     It is true I am not the little girl I was when we met, (thank God) that girl had no clue the changes in mind and body I went through to become the lady I am now. He and Jane transformed me from a little girl into a woman who can handle the life I live now, strong independent and wealthy but woman enough to handle the responsibility that comes with it. It started with Jane.

     Jane showed me how to be a lady in public and a complete submissive slut for he who holds my leash. There is an old saying behind every successful man is a strong woman well I am here to tell you behind every strong woman is a stronger man. She showed me what a working dynamic looks like and even more important what if feels like. "Though he be a thousand miles away I still feel him by my side" these were her words and over time I learned what she meant and how it feels. When I told Jane what I had done she smiled and said that's a good sign it means he see's something in you worth keeping. For the next three months I worked with him helping to handle his business every morning till lunch and every afternoon learning to be a lady every night when I went to bed my brain hurt. 

      Over time I began to look at things differently I now know it was how he made me fall in love with them both of them really, they never made me feel stupid even though I was I was used to using my body to get things done now I was using my brain for everything and using my body just for relief and pleasure with Jane. I know he must have felt the sexual tension I was feeling towards him, and it was also disturbing to me after all he was 40 years older than me yet the lines in his face changed him from old man to experienced man and on the rare times, he laughed it was a young men add to the fact he still moved with the grace of a panther, and I felt the change in my mind.

      Jane gave me the key and the warning as well on how to tell what he was feeling "it's in his eyes in them he does reveal his sole, but know while you read him, he will see more of you then you may choose to show" it happened so suddenly it took me by Suprise it was just Jane and I in his office when it happened, I looked in his eyes and there was a click in my mind then before I could even register it there it moved to the rest of my body it was on fire I was in a fever he stood came around the desk looking in my eyes and said well I see the time has come, I could not stop myself I remove my clothing one piece at a time till i stood in front of him never once did he take his eyes off mine when he reached out and cupped my face in his hand it felt like I stuck my finger in a wall socket but the shock went from his fingers directly to my nipples then to my pussy and I was wet in that instant I was ready. He could have thrown me down and had me instead he slowly kissed gently first my forehead then both my eyes closed, and he kissed them and lightly stocked my neck. when he finally kissed my lips, I was gone I have no idea where he went from there all I Rember is coming back to myself, and Jane was to my left and he to my right. he was saying to Jane move her to our room.    😍 Mari 😍         

This is why agape is so important to your dynamic.              

                                     Agape= is more than an emotion. It is a sentiment expressed by actions. 

    Agape is both easy and hard to see when expressed by a Dom easy in the way he just sets his actions free but are hard sometimes for his sub to see but over time they will find the consistency in them. And this is key they must always be seen as to the benefit of the sub or even more difficult to his sub's. This takes time to study how his decisions affect all and sometimes these decisions are to his loss that is the true mark of a great Dom he puts the need of his subs first.       

(Quote, we are the knight's little girls dream about but alas we are also men or women and are subject to mistakes) Sir Tim

(Quote, any future Dom's out there remember you must be ready to avenge an insult to your chosen and this means paying the price for the punishment the law may decide to give you) Sir John 

(Quote, the one phrase that has always pissed me off was " you have won her trust" God damn it I did not win it I fking earned it) Sir James

    Agape expression is easier for the Dom to see but is so much harder for an alfa sub to express for we are hard to see and even harder to admit the truth of what we are. We cannot be won with words alone and we judge hard the actions we are shown. But the true Dom those that lead with love are patient men/women. They will wait for you to admit they dominate us and are worthy of all we offer. They even in most cases have earned the right to say I told you so, but they will never say it so secure in themselves and their choices. But then again, we are not children. we may be littles or brats or masochists or yes even sluts like me, but we all crave one thing a leader. One that truly knows our value and values us more then we value ourselves.

    We youngsters are fortunate for the great umbrella that we enjoy now thanks to those who came before B.D.S.M. has come to be the catchphrase for every kink the human mind can come up with. But it must be remembered that it is all about the sex we like to indulge in. And while great it is not the core that is agape and that has nothing to do with sex. 

 Remember before that catchphrase we were just a bunch of mentions under abnormal behaviors in a textbook somewhere. 

Mari

     I was born into a life of structure and a house of rules. I was a good girl and followed the rules, until I met him, he was young handsome and had money and a house he also turned out to be a narcissist that lasted 3 years. Next was a wild boy completely untrustworthy but I did get a beautiful baby girl.  Four years later I met him not my usual kind of man he was short but not to short but what an incredible ass he had it held all the promise a single working girl wanted for night of pleasure I was looking for. When he approached me and asked to talk to me, I said yes and talked we did we talked for the next 6 hours but what got me was his eyes. Thay both scared and captured me with one look here was a man who new pain and lived with it even enjoyed it. I found myself telling him everything I knew about myself and everything I wanted for myself, and my daughter and he not only listened but acknowledged my wishes but respected them and later he helped me achieve them beyond my dreams. And all he ever asked of me was my body and complete obedience he did not want to marry me just chain me to his sole. So, I made a deal with this devil, and he showed me what an angel he was. 

      He introduced me to his assistant angel and together they opened doors that I locked away tightly, and I thought forever but they opened with ridicules ease to this man. He showed me the pleasure of building an empire and the pleasure of being owned by someone who truly cared for my wellbeing and showed me how to handle this newfound freedom. I learned that through my submission I learned what true freedom was. True freedom only can happen when you feel safe, and you can only feel safe when you give yourself to something or someone else. for me that something was God, and that someone was him. He did not rush his ownership he gave me the time I needed to get comfortable with being owned. Two years later I found myself with a growing business a house that even my father was impressed with and a boyfriend as he called him that measured up to his little girl my little girl was getting the best education and she loved it she was a sponge soaking up water she cared deeply for my master and girlfriend. 

      The day came as he knew it would I came to his business and asked his assistant and my girlfriend if he was free, she said he is just finishing up his morning meeting and would be free for a few hours after. So, I sat and waited she asked me if I was there for business or pleasure, and I said I'm not sure. She looked at me hard and said I see. After the men left the office, she went in and announced me when I entered, she was right behind me and locked the door I proceeded to undress completely she did as well I kneeled as I was taught and looked up at him, he just looked at me with indifference and said speak your mind. I then let the words out with fear Sir it has been two years and you have not asked me to bond with you, so I have come to ask you to take me in bond as your second. Dena put her hand on my shoulder and said I accept her if you wish it. He looked at me and said the reason I have not asked is because for you if I asked you would feel trapped after all I do have controlling interest in your company and i felt in would not be proper and you would feel forced to say yes so I waited for you to make the decision on your own and my answer is yes you have become a part of me and are worthy to be my sub and she I know loves you as much as she care for herself the bonding will happen in one month Dena will help you with the ceremony.

     One month later I became complete the third part of the whole together we are one.  MY NAME IS JANE AND I AM OWNED BY SIR JAMES AND LOVED BY DENA FOREVER.