I am a die-hard Christian woman first and foremost. But I also love kink. My question is, is it fair of me to be looking for a Dom who wants full control if I want the Lord to lead me first? Any other Christian kinksters out there with this same dilemma? I know I need a leader in my life. One who will keep order, as I know I am inadequate for that. Or should I be looking for a vanilla Christian who just happens to like kink also? I just don't want to be unfair to anyone. If someone claims me and I find myself with this same battle it was not fair of me to give him control and then take it away. No matter how much I trust him, if I find myself uncomfortable with what I am doing I will ask for that control back. I am one who shies away when nervous or unsure of myself. That is the little girl in me. She will never go away as she is part of who I am. But she can gain confidence and have reassurance with the right man. I am just still figuring out what kind of man that is. I know that I refuse to live without kink again though. I didn't feel whole without it. I felt like my sex life was missing something. And it was, the bondage and the play. But at the same time, can I have a Dom and God. Is there any Dom that would put Christ before himself and then is his needs. A Dom not asking a sub to worship any part of him and help guide her and himself closer to God first and then the kink comes second. I am not sure if that exists or not. A few Doms have said they are Christians but don't go to church or have the same beliefs as I do. Am I looking for the impossible? Or am I looking in the wrong place? I know what I need, just trying to find it and in the mean time keep learning.
4 years ago. February 27, 2020 at 2:24 PM