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Tales of what helped create me, out of order, and no animals were hurt in the creating of this blog!
Most Tales are based on my real life with Fantasy and/or Fiction included to protect identities as well as enjoyment for
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1 year ago. Saturday, February 17, 2024 at 3:17 AM

a couple days ago, I spoke of taming Elephants.  I'd asked for what it said to you as an individual, if it had any similarities that you noticed in your own life.  I also stated that I'd reveal the purpose today.

Unfortunately I tend to start writing and things take a life of their own and what was meant to be simplistic with a few nuggets of insight, became a five page write up in explicit details that would probably be more graphically terrorfying than most could handle.  So to keep it from being likely yanked off the blog board.  Here we are at the fourth attempt.

Keep in mind that what is being said does not apply to everyone.  Everyone has different levels in their journey and I am only speaking from my experience and knowledge.

 

Much like the taming of elephants, society does the same damn thing, passing on the banner from generation to generation.   From the moment we being to understand how to create movement we are in a taming process with "No" and "oh you so good" becoming our training.  Is it a bad thing?  Nah.  People need structure and general consensual understandings in order to have any hope of society.  As is evident in the current collapse of what we are seeing today. People desiring to redefine words to fit their own agenda instead of facing reality and moving forward with life... The reason we see such bullshit is our tolerance of stupidity, which has come about by removal of parents from teaching their children on critical thinking.  When critical thinking is removed, the flow of questions and curiosity cease and that is the shackle holding us in place.

The majority of children are in a system, taught by strangers who are forced to teach what is told to them by a government beuricrate, whether they believe in it or not.  If the child ask a question that could be counterproductive to the lesson, they are silenced.  Politely or rudely doesn't matter in anything but how you are left "feeling", so long as ya shut up, sit down and fall in line.  This isn't limited.  It's the pier pressure, which is the sheep trying to force you to think how they do, speak like they do and follow blindly just like they do.  The mom or dad that can't answer a question so instead of researching with the child so that all may grow, it turns to verbal abuse and "because I said so".  I myself have done it with all of my four imps at some point. I'm tired from work, I don't feel good, I'm irritable and "because I said so" is the easy solution.

And this is the heart of it ... We have become a lazy people.  It's the simple way to place an iron shackle on the ankle of an infant elephant and walk away.  It'll figure it out in time.

At what cost?

It was ripped from its family that it witnessed being butchered.  Forced to stand in place for hours or given a small enclosure to roam. Elephants are intelligent beings with a memory surpassing a human, so at what point do we think they stopped thinking?

At what point did we?

Removing the ability to question, leads to the inability to communicate, because silence learns nothing but self degradation.

"No question is a stupid question"... I call bullshit! There is no such thing as a stupid question that comes from a critical thinker, agreed.  The younger the asker of questions, the less stupid they are because they come from a lack of experience and knowledge.  But Critical thinkers consider multiple angles, logically determining that if the possible is removed from the equation then one must turn to what is seen as impossible and consider who what when where, why and how it's impossible.  Then reverse engineer the situation.  However critical thinking is a learned skill best taught to children.  Instead we continue to do the same damn thing, regurgitating the same lines of bullshit and expect a result that is mind-blowing and life changing.

For some, when the ability to ask questions has been so far removed and they are left alone in silence for what is too long for them, outwardly they appear more docile and compliant but in some cases what is happening is they are learning the lesson of the unspoken language... A child not talking is still thinking but it's thinking things it's afraid to ask because of past treatment to previous questions.  

When this happens the intentions no longer matter.  The words, no matter how genuine, now have double meaning and someone is now the author and creator of psychological masochistic.  The simple "I love you." Becomes cringe.  If you love me, then why am I silenced? The twisting of the knife is when one is set up to fail... Asked to do a task unbefitting of their skill level and then turned into a verbal punching bag for failing.  They go from asking too many questions to being "stupid, idiot", and any other degradation and humiliation that can be tossed on top.

The learning child goes into their teens and sometimes beyond, hearing the words and understands that this... Must be the truth.  The reason they are silenced from questions is because they are too stupid and therefore the questions must be stupid.  They must be the only one who even thinks so stupidly... And down the rabbit hole they go until something clicks inside the mind and the pain of neglect, abuse and abandonment becomes their life to which they clinge and find comfort in.    To such a one, your pity is food for self degradation... If they was stronger, better, smarter, you wouldn't have pity for them, so they repeat the same words and do the same task because in reality they find safety and comfort in the treatment while at the same time they are trying to talk in an unspoken language crying out for help but what is given is the same shit they heard from those with the responsibility to teach them.  If your words and actions are something you was taught as a child... Ask yourself, are these people fucking adults now?  Think about what you're about to say.  Are you talking to a child? Are you degrading them publicly, in their stupidity for not knowing what you see is obvious logic?  Think critically.  Break away from the shackles of society normal and do the unthinkable.  Go into the mire where they are and talk their unspoken language... I understand what it looks like.  To the outside world it's vulgar, abusive, and sometimes horrifying but THAT is where they live!

*Sighs and takes a moment.*

When Pity is food to fuel the reoccurring self degradation.  Empathy is a motivator to repeat the cycle... All that kind, oshy goshy bullshit is a trauma bomb wrapped up in a pretty little box with a cute little bow...

Am I saying, Don't be you, in all your sensi talk?  Fuck no.  You do you because you never know who your words might land on in the right moment or the positive change that it may cause.  So please do not stop being the empathetic voice calling from the light into the darkness.  Do not stop with your sickening oshy goshy bullshit... Today may be the day that a hand appears from the darkness in an effort to hope again.

Who knows where I'd been without the empathy of Tygress or the sacrifice of the heart and body of Trembling Rabbit who's romantic fantasy was an endless barrage of oshy goshy bullshit.

What I ask is that you critically think before you speak.  A psychological masochistic looks like any other down on their luck, bubble head who should know better.

I use to be one.  I still struggle from time to time, but I evolved into a sadomasochist and was then pushed to hard by life and became a monster.  I walk in the darkness, listening for those who speak the unspoken tongue, while honoring the few promises I have made to ghost.  I have walked in darkness too long to endure the light, I acknowledge this but others do not have to be shackled as I once was... So every now and then, when I hear a voice calling out in the darkness, and a sprout of Fuck burst forth from the barren soil of my blackened borrowed soul... I go to where they can hear me and I extend a hand.  I know it's ugly, it hurts your eyes to see but it is up to them, to take it.  I appear scary to some, an asshole to others but am I?  Or do we but speak in different languages while seeking similar goals of safely freeing just one elephant.

(Psst the answer is yes, I am an asshole... But not all the time.  Sometimes I'm the cock looking for a little anal. ?)

And to lighten the mood

 

Feel free to respond in the comments, bond or messages.   I've stomped that little fucking sprout back down, pissed on it and lit the bastard on fire, but I do enjoy a good conversation all the same.

 

Max

1 year ago. Wednesday, February 14, 2024 at 11:38 PM

Back in the day, elephants were tamed in a rather cruel methods so they could be used for a multitude of reasons.  War, labor, entertainment, or just some fluff n puff king showing off his wealth and power.  Part of this training was to drive a long metal stake or wooden log, deep into the ground.  Fasten a metal shackle around a hind ankle and connect the stake to the shackle with a heavy chain.  Everytime the Elephant would try to take a step forward the chain would go taunt, the shackle would bite into its flesh and in time it would form a pretty bad wound.  The keepers would cleans it and apply herbs to help keep out infection and encourage healing but at no point did they remove the shackle.  Not until the behemoth stopped harming himself and was tame to being touched and ridden.  Afterwards a regular 1 inch thick twine rope was used as the shackle to a stake not even two feet in the ground.  At any point it could pull that stake up or snap the rope with no more effort than taking the actual step.  Why didn't it do so?  It was broken.  The slightest pressure around that ankle would trigger the memory of the iron shackle... It'd remember the pain and just stop moving.

However humans have a special brand of over inflated expectations coupled in double standards...  If something happens to spook the elephant and it takes off in fear, it doesn't immediately realize that it is free, nor how simple it was to be free.  Instead it tramples on, head long with fear, smashing and trampling anything in its way... Including any unfortunate human in the path of the fear induced flight.

In some cultures, if the elephant only destroyed property (including other animals), the owner of the elephant would be given a fine to pay and the beast of burden would be sent for retraining... Including the metal shackle.  Elephants are smart creatures and it would figure out that the rope was nothing so they had to re-break the creature in order to keep the ideal of freedom from taking hold.  If they couldn't re-break it, they'd kill the behemoth because once an elephant learns it can be free again, it won't forget.

Same situation but a human was killed... A fine was placed on the elephants owner and the elephant was killed.  No discussion, no remorse.  If an elephant knows it can overwhelm its captures, all humans become targets and THAT is unacceptable.

You may be curious as to when the training started because if it was already free and knew about freedom, wouldn't it fight to get out of captivity?  Damn Skippy it would.  Hunters would find a herd with several infants in it... Slaughter the heard, take the tusk and the infants and thus began its training... At the age of infancy.

As you reflect on the story, does something ring about in your mind that is relative to you?  Do you see any similarities in today's world relative to how we function and operate in society?

Feel free to use the comment section for a novel if ya like but remember this is about how it relates to you personally.  If you find you wish to blog the answer instead, feel free to use the title with "Challenge accepted."

Friday Feb 16th, I'll post my purpose for this blog and it's about learning along with personal growth possibilities. If for some reason you find something offensive that another person places in the comments... Keep it to yourself, everybody has the right to tell their tale in a way of which they connect.  I do ask, however that you try not to use "fuck", ever other fucking word.  ?

2 years ago. Monday, October 16, 2023 at 7:04 PM

It's been 24hr so here's the results:

For those with a short attention span

#3 is the Lie.  I'm a slight germaphobe and can't have sex, protected or not, without seeing a Dr Report or knowing the person long enough to actually trust their word, and from a germaphobe standpoint, that's a long fuck'n time lol.  However, if I knew 4 other furries, that shit would be on like donkey kong!


#1) I was somewhere between 16 - 18 and her parents didn't trust me to drive her to the movies and back without um... having car troubles.  Little did they know that their lil girl was an exhibitionist and thrill chaser.  The movie was the latest one we get and they were correct in assuming that we wouldn't have made it back home in time.  We made it about 1/2 way through the movie when her hand fished my cock out and we started masturbating each other knowing that we had a couple two rows away from us.  The theatre wasn't overly populated but at the time, just knowing we could get caught at any minute made my heart pound like a jackhammer.  She had worn a skirt on purpose and ended up sitting on my lap for the slowest fuck I think I have ever had and much to her amusement... cuz she found it quite amusing to feel my whole body stiffened when she decided to do something that could get us fuck'n caught.. she slid off my cock covered in her juices and adjusted before slow bouncing her very tight, little ass down my cock.  I must have made some noise because it wasn't but a few minutes later that bastard with the flashlight came in.  The fastest pullout, tuck EVER! and gave us a warning, declaring that patrons were to sit in their individual seats.  The movie finishes and we are still doing a lot of touch and feel, edging one another, while she's begging me not to cum... not yet.... she's just sooo thirsty.  I'll hand it to her, she knew how to get what she wanted, and when we exited the theater her mom was waiting, a thunderstorm had started and they lived nearly thirty minutes away.  We'd already done a lot of crazy shit with her family around, blissfully unaware of us doing some form of sexual act to one another but this was definitely the first time it was so close that I just knew her dad was going to shoot me when he found out!  She was seated on the passenger side as we were in the back seat and she started out laying her head on my shoulder (Seat belts weren't required back then.) declaring she was exhausted and started to seemingly fall asleep, while her mom kept an eye on us through the rearview mirror.  If she had just one time turned around and looked, she'd seen her daughter had fished my cock out once again and was slow stroking me, and to be honest, I thought that was all she was going to do..  just another edging to make me dance and sweat in trying NOT to cum.  I'd given her an Oscar for the way she faked sleeping and slowly slid down my chest to lay her head in my lap.  It was then, I was torn between wigging the fuck out and being forced to act like NOTHING WAS HAPPENING!... O M G!  The girl loved her cock worship and mid-way home, I got to cum for the first time.. five minutes later the second time, and after the fifth time, she stopped trying to drain me... there wasn't anything left!  I thought she had sucked my left nut through my cock and was holding it for ransom in her cheek!   She stayed in my lap the rest of the drive home and when we got out of the car I nearly fell over laughing.  Not because of the fantastic cum heist she'd pulled off, but because she skipped around the car, now that the rain had stopped, splish-splashing through the puddles, happy as could be.. and kissed her mom right on the mouth before giggling as she ran off inside for bed.

#2)  About a year or two before I met ^AngelBunny^ I was going through some troubling times, dating anybody willing to meet up with me and I do mean dating, not fucking.  I was still hurting over TR and to be honest, I really didn't care who I was with, so long as I wasn't alone.  I'd even bring dates home to sleep with me and be that "honorable man" who wouldn't have sex on the first date.  Hold them through the night, treat them to breakfast, and most likely never see them again.  My headspace was dangerous, Beast was being Beast as he loves to torment me at my weakest mental times... making things seem tempting that I would normally toss his ass in our mental cage and tell him to suck a bag of goat dicks.  The woman I was dating was the literal "Psycho bitch" type.  Anything that involved pain was welcome and when they discovered Beast, shit got bloody. (Remember, germaphobe... No sex until I saw the reports!) So there was this one who we were casually dating, almost like fuck buddies but a little more than that.  She was great about staying on her meds and if she was late in taking them, I noticed and reminded her.. however when the meds run out and you've been having a 48hr fuck fest, you don't really notice shit like you should.  We'd fallen asleep after another cock torturing session cuz her holes were so swollen it was hard to get it in, even with lube... everything was fine and she'd passed out laying on my chest.  She wasn't even Five foot tall, a hundred and twenty pounds soaking wet so to me, it was nothing, barely noticed her presence.  Dunno when it happened but here I am blissfully asleep feeling a light stabbing in my chest that kinda woke me up but not really... then her forearm pressed my neck but as I said, she was just a lil shit and her weight wasn't on the arm.  Besides, it wasn't the first time she'd been rough with me so to my extremely groggy mind, same shit, different day, right up to *CLICK CLICK* as the hammer was pulled back. A tap of cold steel pressed against my forehead and THAT woke me up.  I opened my eyes slowly, almost like a child peeking to see if the parents were still in the room and that's when I heard her having a very passionate discussion.  I focused on what she was somewhat talking... but sometimes whispering to me.. umm.. NOPE, she wasn't talking to me.  When I heard "you know he's fucking other women, kill his cheating ass..." I decided to get involved and just followed my instinct.
"hey babe... How's she doing today?" I was well aware of her "friend"
"She said you are fucking around on me!" Presses the gun against my forehead harder.
"and what does she base this on?" I asked as calmly as I possibly could, all too aware that her finger was on the trigger.
"We saw her!  We saw that bitch last night!"  She declared as her face became even more red but that didn't make any sense... we had been alone for the past 48hrs.
"Babe..." I said sternly "Where was you last night?  Remember riding my cock like the little porn star you are?" My hands went slowly to her waist and I started to mock grind her some.  Yes, I was using her fantasies to be in Porn against her but it was at this moment that I'm realizing I have more worth living for than what I had been acting like for way too fucking long.
"NO NO NO NO NO, We saw it!  We saw it in our dream!"  -_- What... The fuck.
I'm pretty sure I deadpanned at that moment... how the hell was I going to convince a woman who seriously needed her meds, that her dream wasn't a premonition??  A Dream is many times JUST A FUCKING DREAM!
So I did what any good therapist would recommend... I blinked my eyes, looked confused, and sat up on my elbows fully aware that this may get my skull a new ventilation window.
"In your dream?  Really? That's fucking amazing babe... Tell me about it, would you?" I don't know if it was the way I was saying it or the fact that she was just batshit crazy but she removed the gun from my head, laying it on my chest as she sat up on my torso (still in her hand, still hammer pulled back, still pointed at my neck) looking at me a little confused.
"Really?  You want to hear about my dream?"
"Of course I doooo.. You know I love it when you talk about your dreams.  They are fascinating!" or batshit crazy but I'm going with fascinating right now as I continue to focus all my calm acting skills on a lady who at any minute might be distracted by her friend, so not letting that opportunity happen, I press ever forward.
"You know what would be great right now?  Pancakes.  You know with the brown sugar mix that I make?  Whatda think?  I'll cook them up and you can tell me all about it."  I think at this point I was a bit happy that she was so predictable about breakfast foods.
"That sounds GREEEAT", she says as she kicks her legs around, slides off my torso, and puts the gun on the desk to head for the kitchen.  She liked to cook with me and I know I'm a good cook but how fuck'n good is your cooking that a person with a gun to your head, talking to a dark fae that hates you, forgets what the fuck is going on just for pancakes?!?  Hell yes!  Mine are no fucking where that good, but to her they were.  I got up behind her, quickly lowered the hammer of the gun, and dumped the shells into the top drawer while taking it with me where I placed it up on top of the cabinet.  She's not even Five feet tall... no way she's getting it back.  When we got to the kitchen I got her pills and reminded her to take them as though nothing had happened, made the pancakes, talked about her dreams, talked about a few other things, and ate her pussy like my life depended on it cuz um yeah, med don't kick in immediately and I wanted her asleep ASAP... I have WAY too many blades in my house to take chances.

While yes, I probably should have called the cops.  I knew she was Mentally Ill and required her meds.  I didn't so much as feel bad for her as much as I didn't want to ruin her life over forgetting to take her meds.  When she's on them, she's... yeah still batshit crazy but at least not dangerous ??  I did love my Psycho Bitches!  
Did I see her again? FUUUUCK NO! 

2 years ago. Sunday, October 15, 2023 at 7:49 PM

I've lived an adventurous life so for me it was trying to figure out what is a Lie that's not so obvious.  Thank you Pure for the challenge!

 

1) Mid teens: received a blow job to completion in the backseat of my girlfriends, Mom's car... While Mom was driving and glancing at me in the rear view.

2) Woke up to a pissed off girlfriend holding a .380 snub-nosed to my forehead while talking to herself on whether to pull the trigger.

3) Went to a Furry convention and ended up in a 5 way Furry orgy at a nearby hotel.

Once you stop laughing, feel free to figure out which one is the lie.

 

Good luck!

 

Max

2 years ago. Friday, October 13, 2023 at 6:17 AM

The following story and characters have all rights reserved and are fictional writing of my own imagination and/or experiences.

Clan Wars Ch5, Bear Cubs


As Beast strode through the cavern chamber, which was partially lit by the still-burning fires of the troll's discarded torches, Kah struggled to find her feet.  The dirt of the cave mixed with pebbles bit at her flesh every time she fell because her Master didn't slow in the least.

I'm not made of steel!" She said loud enough for him to hear while trying to dig her heels into the dirt.  Beast pulled her forward and lifted her off the ground by the chains.  His head tilted in curiosity as he perked a brow questioningly. 

"Uah" he grunted, lifting her higher and spinning her from side to side, as he inspected the dirt-covered scraps along her hips and legs.

"I'm not like you, Master.  My body hurts.  My wounds don't heal in seconds, and I feel like my arms are going to pop from their sockets." She was too sore to put up much of a fight but he didn't seem to be the mindless, lumbering brute the trolls were. "Please.. set me down and let me walk at my pace." She looked at him pleading with her eyes.  "I won't run." 

Beast inhaled her scent, making Kah that much more aware of her nakedness from the waistline to her hide shoes.  Without warning, he set her down as though her descent was an idle thought.  The impact to her feet made her grimace and buckle to her knees but she wasn't about to complain because he did what she'd asked. Sighing softly she struggled to get back to her feet. She wasn't exaggerating about her body being sore, a quick glance down her arms confirmed the blueish-purple skin, everywhere close to the chains.  She wished he would take them off but she was trying to heed Max’s insistence to leave them on.  As though he was reading her mind, Beast pulled the end link of the chain loose.

"Wait!" Nearly panicked at the thought of this being a test. "Wh…" she began to question, uncertain if she should ask.  Sighing again she gathered the courage and laid a bruised hand on his claw that was halted in the chains. "May I ask, why?" She requested humbly.

Cocking his head slightly, he nudged her gently against the breast with the back of his hand. "Mine." He said flatly.  Kah blushed and felt awkward under his attentive gaze. 

"I thought Max was a man of few words…" she mumbled flippantly, instantly regretting it as she found herself face first on the ground, the weight of one hand holding her chains down while the other spanked her ass till she screamed in pain and tried to wiggle away from the stinging strikes. A searing pain flashed across her ass cheeks as he intentionally used the back of his nails like a cane pole, to force her into begging for forgiveness. "Sorry, sorry, sorry" she sang in quick succession. "I won't do it again!" Instantly the discipline paused and she could hear his deep growl of frustration or anger.

"Dooo wha?" He asked as the verbal sounds reverberated in his throat, mixed with the gravelly tone of his voice.  His merciless eyes bore into her tear-streaked ones as he waited for her answer.

"Speak." She said, before cowering as his hand drew back and his growl became so fierce that the anger he radiated made her body hurt all the more with tension. 

"SASS!" She corrected and buried her head between her arms.

"Uah!" He agreed, lowering his hand to cup her under the chin and guide her back to her feet.  His hands and claws were too big to make quick work of unwinding the chains but she waited patiently.  She struggled to not wince or squeak in pain as the last of the chain was pulled from the indentations in her skin and the shackles were released to fall to the ground.  The metal had cut into her skin and now she could see the extent of the damage.  She pulled her arms close, trying to find a way to cradle them but every move made it hurt all the more.  Beast held his massive hand out and tentatively she lay her hand into his.  In one swift motion, the claw from his other hand slashed down the length of her arm, opening the swelling purple skin like fileting a fish. Before she could flinch her hand back, he snapped his hand shut like a trap, using his thumb to pin her palm in place.  Her self-preservation instincts were no match for his speed as he swept her feet and forced her face-first to the ground while extending her arm behind her.  He growled fiercely, applying a little force toward the shoulder of the trapped arm, ending her struggle. Then his sandpaper tongue flashed out, wrapping around the arm like a hummingbird gathering nectar as it darted back and forth into his mouth. The sting gave way to a warm, numbing sensation and when he let her go, he sat back on his haunches, holding his hand out once again, and waited… watching.

Instinctively she pulled her arm back, cradling it to herself, feeling betrayed and even more hurt than she already was.  [How could he!] She shouted in her mind while crying from the trauma.  "Whyyy" she whined through sobbing tears.  "What did I do?!" His only response was to tilt his head in curiosity. "You're not that stupid Beast!" She fumed, causing him to perk a brow. "That was just mean!", she continued as she found courage in her anger. "WHY WOULD YOU DO THAT TO ME?! I TRUSTED YOU!" pushing to her feet she went to swat his hand away but he caught it and held her solid. Try as she might she couldn't pull away and the bastard started laughing!!

"LET GO OF ME!" she demanded in anger. Instead, he pulled her into himself, spinning her around to end up with her back to his torso, and her own arm being held up before her eyes.

Kah batted her eyes trying to clear the tears and make sense of the pale flesh that had replaced the swollen purple, chain marks. Like a painter using random strokes the pale skin of healing turned pink, being chased by the light mocha skin tone of her race. "H… How?.." she asked bewildered as he let her hand go so she could examine it better.  All the pain was gone, as though the chains had never been there.  His hand gently pressed under her, still-wounded arm and raised it up, locking his pinky and thumb around her palm. Kah looked up into his ember-burning eyes to find him still perking his brow.  It took her a moment to realize he was waiting for her to come to terms… she blushed and nodded her consent.  Shame, embarrassment, and a flood of other emotions raced through her and she wanted to say something but feared the words would just come out in a blubbering sob. She held as still as possible, grabbing a small gasp of air as his claw slashed her wounded arm open but this time she watched as he raised it over her head so he could watch her right back. His tongue darted just like before, leaving that same warm and numbing sensation as she watched his tongue seemingly draw the purple tones into pale white, chased by pinks and back to the light mocha of her skin tone. The slash itself was last to mend, almost like he was willing the process to heal her.

"H…" she started to form the question but his finger touched her lips, giving her pause. The hand that held her to him pulled them apart and slowly spun her back to face him before scooping her off the ground with both hands, holding her out before him like a father does his children.  His eyes searched hers in the silence as she studied his.  He tucked his muzzle to his chest and pitched her slightly forward.  Following a sense, almost like a feeling of being guided through her emotions, she spread her arms around his head and lay her forehead to his… a rumble of peace vibrated through him as his once fierce growl, now took a different tone. Peace, happiness, and contentment seemed to come to life in gentle rolls of color in her mind.  Images of sunsets sprung from her memory, reminding her of younger days when she would watch them… those days before being a captive forced into slavery. She followed her senses, kissing him on the forehead. "Forgive me, Master," she whispered. "I didn't know… I didn’t trust."

No audible answer came, Beast adjusted her onto his shoulder and started for the tunnel. 

[I guess the how and why don't really matter.] She thought, wiping a tear away. [He doesn't waste words. He does or he does not.] A smile quirked her lips. [I'll always know where I stand and I can live with that.] As she exhaled, letting go of her worries, fears, and mixed emotions, he patted her knee and stepped into the darkness like he owned the shadows.


……………………..Tamarack of Frost Bear Clan……………….

 

In the dark tunnel that led to the chamber of which Beast and Kah were, another watched with curiosity until they no longer felt safe to watch, and silently as they appeared, they retraced their steps.  Tamarack was part of the lower class of the Frost Bear society.  His adolescent bear skin cloak was mangey with small bald spots along its length that ran from his knees to the nape of his neck, leaving the hollowed skull to sit awkwardly on his head.  It was his duty to feed the Trolls but when he reached their cave he’d found it empty, which he didn’t mind.  The Trolls liked to toss him about and push him around as though he was their play toy.  He’d left the food and was about to head back to the clan when he heard the commotion and went to investigate.  Upon arrival, he saw the first two already dead and something unknown to him, chewing on the neck of the third.  The hairs on the back of his neck pricked up, leaving a sense of impending doom to rush through him. Whatever could kill three trolls wasn’t worth his life to stick around and challenge.  He wasn’t a coward, but he wasn’t a seasoned warrior either and knew the better option was to run back for the Claw clan, which is the warrior sect of Frost Bears Tribe. He stayed long enough to gather information, though he couldn't make out everything being said. He was about to leave the safety of the thick and worn stalagmite he was hiding behind when the sounds of pleasured moaning caught his attention and tempted him for one more glimpse.

His stature in the clan meant that finding a mate would be impossible for many years to come so listening was one of the few pleasures he could hope for.  Peeking cautiously he beheld what he could only comprehend as a demon,  holding a woman to its muzzle and driving its tongue deep inside her.  To him, it was as alluring and erotic as it was frightening and vile to watch a demon violate the woman.  He didn't wait for her throws of ecstasy as he used the distraction for his best opportunity to get back to the tribe.  It would take him the better portion of the night to make the distance, even in a full run but as his mind raced in mixed terror and curiosity, It didn’t seem as long as he jogged the luminescent tunnel of glowing mushrooms that sporadically grew along the cave walls. The illumination refracted off the cold water stream that he followed, giving just enough light to be able to see without his torch which he’d left at the Troll cave, fearing the demon would see its glow and come after him.  The large tunnel dipped and turned to open up into one of the Tribes' main water sources… a huge cavern with a rope bridge suspended from stalactites that also held torches over the cave lake.  

There were a few low levels like himself gathering water and trying to catch the elusive fish by a few large braiser’s lights, and like himself, part of the Phemyr clan.  The Phemyr clan consisted of general laborers, the backbone of Frost Bear society.  From the time of birth to the nineteenth season of Spring, all those in the Frost Bear Tribe started life in the Phemyr clan, raised by the wet nurses whom they called mother bears.  During the Spring of their nineteenth season, they entered into the year of separation wherein they could choose their destiny.  Be placed in the Claw clan, who trained the warriors and hunters sect of Frost Bear Tribe, join into Skullins clan by showing aptitude for the mystical arts or knowledge of herbs and healing, or stay as part of the Phemyr clan. The three clans were dedicated to the Great Mother Bear, who ruled the clan and yielded the firstborn cub to every head of each clan.  She was the most skilled among the females of every clan, being trained in all three clans until she ascended to the matriarchy or fell to the earth in their last breath.  So sacred is the position that a Celebration of Finding was held every ten seasons wherein all the girls of the same ten seasons of age would gather and compete to find who among the clan had the ability to fight, cast spells, heal, and for all their tenacity, humble themselves to serve all three clans without bias.

As he made it halfway across the bridge, he could make out a couple of Bear Claw warriors who would be expected to escort the Phemyrs, for protection against the random snake, bats, or anything that would manage to slip by the Trolls. Though that was rare, it still happened now and then.
“Hail, Sons, and Daughters of Blizzard!”  A formal greeting that applied to all sects of the Clan.
“Hail, Tamarack, Son of Blizzard!”  The highest-ranked warrior among the group, Ezgret, responded.  “What’s eating at your heels?”
“The Trolls are dead,” Tamarack said when he was closer.

Both warriors drew their bone and metal-mixed swords, which the lower warriors were given as a sign of their status.  Those fishing quickly drew in their random lines or stayed their spears while the others finished what they were doing and waited for Tamarack to completely cross the bridge so he could tell them what was going on.

“There's a demon… nearly the size of the trolls themselves,” He said, panting at the edge of the bridge.
“What do you mean by a demon?” Ezgret asked.

"Twice my height," using his arms to measure "easily ten foot tall and half as much, shoulder to shoulder." Tamarack gulped down a couple of breaths of air. "It's not like anything I've ever seen!"

Ezgret gave a doubtful look to his fellow warrior but instead of verbalizing it, he ordered the lower members to take the catch of fish and jugs of water back to the tribe with all haste and report the matter to all the respected sects.


"Let us go see this demon," Ezgret said almost mockingly. "Bear doesn't raise cowards, right Jix?!"  

Jix and Ezgret were both well-built men close to twenty-one seasons old and much like all those in the Bear Claw sect, they sought to prove themselves so they could advance as warriors and join the raiding parties.  The three fishers were about Tamarack's age, ranging fifteen to eighteen seasons with little to prove and even less ambition to see any demon.

Jix slammed his fist to the chest and shuffled in place, eager and ready to go with his clan brother. "Nothing comes into our Den unchecked!"

Tamarack looked to the fishers before speaking up. "We'll keep the bridge and wait for the others to come." Accepting one of several throwing spears from a fisher.

Ezgret and Jix agreed as they started across the bridge with Ezgret glancing back to Tamarack, "If it gets past us and the Bear Claws haven't arrived, burn the bridge."

Tamarack nodded and watched as the two jogged across the bridge and into the tunnel's darkness, hoping the Bear Claw sect would be swift in arriving while sending up a silent prayer to their god Ulgma, Father of the snow storm.

Ezgret and Jix slowed to a stalker's pace once within the luminance of the glowing mushrooms, using their year's worth of training to watch the darker shadows and listen for anything unfamiliar within the tunnels.  They were both skilled at hunting, and it was those skills that earned them the trust to be the escort detail of the Phemyrs.
“Demon…” Jix whispered in light mock.  “Them damn Trolls fight among themselves so often that they most likely killed each other and a Snow Ape was gnawing off a chuck to keep from starving.”
“Yeah, most likely Tamarack panicked and ran off without even understanding what he was looking at,” Ezgret whispered back with a roll of his eyes. “Coward couldn’t even control those dim wits.”
“We’ll bag its head, and prove ourselves to be more than just hunters” Jix whispered with a grin before going silent once again and focusing on the task at hand.

By the time they came within range of the Troll's cave, the whole story that had been told to them had evolved into complete disbelief of any demon.  Still, they slowed their approach, resuming the stalking nature of a hunter as they crouched in their advance from one stalagmite to the next and resorted to hand signals.  Nothing seemed out of the ordinary except the silence.  Trolls are noisy creatures even when they sleep so at least that part of the story must be true.  Cautiously Ezgret peered into the troll’s sleeping cave where only the low light of a troll campfire illuminated the room.  At first, nothing seemed out of the ordinary but as they entered they could make out the shape of two forms lying on a thick stack of furs that the trolls had used for bedding.  Ezgret motioned for Jix to separate off to the right so they could hinder the intruders from escaping.
“Are you gentleman lost also?” Came a melodious voice, giving both hunters a pause.  One of the figures slowly rose from the bedding and stirred the campfire back into life while the other seemed to lie asleep.
Jix and Ezgret gripped their swords and readied for a fight but the stranger didn’t advance or even seem aggressive.  They passed confused looks between each other… “I knew Tamarack was talking shit.” Said Ezgret who didn’t take his eyes off this man who stood peaceably before them.
“So you do understand me,” the man said as went to move closer, causing both men to adjust into a defensive stance.  “You won’t need those weapons, gentlemen.  We mean you no harm and are just trying to find a way out of this labyrinth of a cave.” Max said, keeping a relaxed look about himself.
“Who are you and how did you find yourself here?” Ezgret demanded.
“I… am Maximilien but please, call me Max.  That one there,” motioning to the one on the bed, “is Kah, my mate.” His pale skin seemed to shimmer in the torchlight as he motioned for them to lower their weapons. “We are not looking for a fight.  As I said, we are only looking for a way out… peaceably if possible?.”
“Where are the trolls?” Ezgret demanded once again without lowering his guard.
“Further down the tunnel, in the large chamber at the end,” Max replied calmly “I assume they were your pets?”
“Hardly pets,” Ezgret stated.  “Are they dead, as we were told?”  Max nodded confirmation as Jix adjusted his stance so he could watch the entrance.  Tamarack had only mentioned the demon, of which neither of these two was but if there were two, there might be more still in the cavern with the dead trolls.
“Did you two kill them?” Ezgret asked, still weary of the strangers.
Max chuckled and waved his hands dismissively “Oh heavens no.” He said, letting the two hunters come to their own conclusions. “They were dead before I arrived,” he spoke truthfully.  “Kah and I were fleeing a creature we believed to be stalking us when we descended into that cavern, though obviously, it was a trick of the snowstorm and our overactive imaginations.” Max continued with a humorous shrug as he approached the bed once again and squatted down to give Kah a light shake. “We have company Kah, but don’t be alarmed… these gentlemen are just looking for answers.”

Kah, whom Max had woken when he first smelled the hunters approaching from the tunnels, sat up and scanned the two before quickly giving Max a desperate look of pleading.  [Well done, Kah.  Just like I’d asked when I originally woke you.] Max thought, nodding to her silent communication, and continued as though everything was normal. "Are you two hungry?" He asked the hunters. "It's not a feast nor is it the best I've eaten, but it'll fill your bellies."  Max pointed to a hand cart full of various scraps of meat and vegetation on the border of spoiling.

"We're not here for troll scraps!" Ezgret snapped. "Get up and go back the way you came." Motioning towards the entrance with his sword." We need to see the trolls for ourselves before we can decide what to do with you two." Trying to be sly he glanced at Jix with a slight grin and wink.

Max sighed and massaged the bridge of his nose as he became irritated with these two hunters.

[Kill them] Beast grumbled from the darkness within Max's mind.

[We don't have to kill everything.] Max responded back to Beast in their mental communication.

Kah placed her hand in Max's and pulled herself up to give him a peck on the cheek and a quick whisper "Frost Bears." Thankfully she had fashioned herself a short skirt out of the furs but she still felt naked as she caught the way Jix was eyeing her. "Cannibals." She whispered as she and Max stood.

"Well fuck…" Max murmured as Beast manically laughed in delight. "So much for diplomacy," Max said a bit louder, using his arm to guide Kah behind himself. "Are you sure this is what you want to do?" Max asked calmly while glancing from Ezgret to Jix.  He had been seizing them up since the moment they walked through the entranceway, noticing Jix was most likely the more formidable opponent of the two but clearly, neither was used to killing strangers.

"MOVE! NOW!" Ezgret barked, ignoring the question.

Max felt his blood rush hot as he pulled on Beast's vampiric magic, his eyes locked onto Ezgrets as he could feel his fangs sliding from their sheath. "As you wish…" Max said with a sinister smile, flexing his fingers as talons ripped from his nails.  Before Jix's heart made its next beat, Max had crossed the distance and severed the man's head nearly from his shoulders in a brutal slash that splatter painted the side of Ezgret,

"Your mistake…" Max said as though nothing was wrong.  He paused for a moment to enjoy watching Ezgret visibly shake while trying to comprehend what just happened. Max inhaled the man's fear and licked his fangs in delight and lust which only served to heighten the aroma as Ezgret finally realized he was going to die.  In the next blink, Max stood behind him, one hand staying the man's sword arm while the other held talons to his throat. "You should have been clear in what you demanded," Max whispered and plunged his fangs into the exposed artery of Ezgret's neck.  The paralysis venom Max injected was instantaneous, freezing Ezgret where he stood with only the ability to feel his blood and essence being drawn from his body.  Ezgret’s skin left its living pallor and became a death blue hue, while Max locked eyes on Kah, who stumbled back and fell on the bed.  

The sound of Ezgrets body hitting the floor was the only warning Kah had before finding herself pinned beneath Max, legs spread, and the feel of his cock pulsing against her. His musky scent washed over her and she was caught between pleading for her life and surrendering to his lust. "Mu, mu, Max?" She squeaked out the question, unsure of why he would attack her while his musk intoxicated her mind and pulled at her lust.  She felt him slowly grind against her, causing her body to respond and stir her desires.  A growl of anger boiled up through his chest, his fist slammed the bedding beside her head and as suddenly as he had been on her, he vanished into the shadows across the room. The sound of the cave wall being hit was followed by the sickening sound of bones shattering, and flesh being crushed into rock, time and again till the hits became soft and mushy.

Kah could hear him breathing heavily in ragged gasps and she wasn't sure what to do.  Cautiously she made her way to the edge of the shadows. 

"Max?" Her voice was low and uncertain.

"I'm fine." He growled though she could tell his words were forced. 

"Max… tell me what to do." She said, chewing her lip as her mind raced to figure out what she had done wrong to cause such a reaction.

"Nothing, Kah…" he responded, as he rolled his shoulders and walked towards her.  She could hear the faint sound of bones snapping and cracking in the silence between them as he approached. When he stepped from the shadows, she noticed his fingers twisted and misconfigured, popping back into place one bone at a time. His arm and chest were covered in blood, though whether it was his or that of the hunters, she wasn't sure.

"Gather the weapons and their bearskin cloaks.  We need to be gone before their friends arrive," he commanded and headed to the entrance without waiting to see if she understood. 

Kah gave a quick nod and raced to do as commanded, lastly taking up a heavy torch by the handle end and dragging it towards him.

"Leave it," Max said. "You won't need the torch. I can see a soft blue glow down the tunnel." He then twisted back towards her and held out his now-healed hand to her as she dropped the torch.  She took ahold of his hand and shuffled her burden that threatened to fall to the ground. 

Max looked at her hand then back to her eyes and flatly spoke. "I'm not him. Give me a damn sword and cloak, Kah." His eyes were as emotionless as his words and Kah felt embarrassed, pulling her hand away and rendering his request.

She wanted to know what she did wrong, her insecurities ate at her like vultures on a corpse but this Max was truly scary.  For now, she would just have to deal with her own demons and wait for him to speak.

His only kindness was when he tied his cloak around his waist and gave her the end to hold onto as she stumbled behind him until they came to the luminous mushrooms.  She was unsure how long they walked in silence but to her, it felt like an eternity. She noticed the subtle changes in his stride as they became slower and more fluid with a slight swagger of confidence but still, she held her tongue while a thousand questions raced through her head.

[Talk to me!] She screamed in her mind. [I ca…]

And as though he read her mind he spoke softly. "Tell me what you know about this Frost Bear people."

She thought about what she could remember and drew a cleansing breath.

"What I know is that they come out of the mountains near the end of the changing season when leaves fall. They come to raid villages and take supplies and captives. It's rumored that the captives are used for food to get their tribe through the winters." She said, feeling slightly better at being able to speak and break the silence between them. 

"And?" He ushered in his melodious voice, making Kah smile slightly at hearing it once again.

"And it's said they can shapeshift into bears so always be cautious around any bear as you don't know if it's a real bear or a shapeshifter waiting in ambush." She finished, slightly proud of having some knowledge that may be useful. 

"Shouldn't you always be cautious around bears, to begin with? Real or shapeshifter?" He asked in curiosity that rang slightly with sarcasm.

After a slight pause of her bubble being popped, Kah replied "Well, yes but.."

"But I think your village was good at controlling you by fear and fabrications," Max stated while cutting her off.

"Uh Noo" she retorted. "It's a known fact that they eat their captives and can shapeshift." 

"Have you seen it? Any of it?" He asked once again at the very edge of sarcasm and arrogance. 

"Well no, but it's common knowledge!" 

"Common knowledge by what proof?" He asked, never turning around to look at her.

"I don't know, it just is." She replied, feeling a bit miffed. "Besides, nobody ever returns if they are captured and their Den is littered with bones all around its entrance!"

Max chuckled, sounding truly humored by the conversation.  "If nobody has ever returned, then how do you know about the captives being eaten and their bones being littered about the tribe's den?"

"Are you always such an ass?!" She shot back.

"No," he calmly replied, "sometimes I sleep." Stunning her to silence for a second. 

"Fuck you, Ma.." his sudden movement had her snatched by the hair with her head drawn back and neck fully exposed. 

"Be careful what you say, Kah" he hissed in her ear, menacingly. "Your words are uncontrolled and flippant, but they are your words left to be perceived by any who hears them."

Her toes had curled to the gruff treatment of her hair being pulled and her moan was silenced by the sound of his tone.  She didn't understand why her body responded as it did but she couldn't deny the instant wetness that had rushed her mound.

"Saying the wrong flippant words when I've fed may cost you more than you intended… much like that stupid hunter cost him and his partner's life by not designating where he wanted me to move… now." He growled before sniffing the air as her scent caught his attention.

Max spun her away from him using her hair to guide her direction away. "And control your fuck cunt! Those offers you give may be taken against your will…" His visage returned to its cold demeanor and his words were bitter. "I'm a monster… Not by my choice, but I still have to live with the things I do, the people I kill, and the vile actions I take when I'm taken in bloodlust." He then spun back to the path and began a soldiers-like peace down the tunnel. 

Kah blinked a few times while her mind raced with new questions. She hurried to catch back up and followed along silently for a bit, gauging her words.


"Master… May I ask a question?" She asked meekly, hoping her reading of his softening stride was correct in his temperament.  Max sighed lightly as he wondered how much longer this tunnel could be.  They had seen several side caves and another tunnel that lead off in another direction but the lack of disturbed dirt gave an indication that it most likely wasn't an exit in those directions. 

"Yes, Kah.." the sound of exasperation in the two words.

"Is that what happened back in the troll cave?... you were taken in bloodlust?" She asked.

After a tense minute of silence, Max responded "Yes."  Nothing more.

She thought for a few minutes, seeing the evidence of how the question made him irritable. "Will you tell me what it's like, this bloodlust?  As in, what does it feel like and what kind of effect does it have on you?"

He stopped in his tracks and paused for a moment, causing Kah to flinch and second-guess the wording of her question. When he took his next steps she could tell this was not a subject he was comfortable with. His steps were shallow and slowed like a person caught in memory.

"I'm not sure I can completely explain it, but as best as I can, it's like a rush of heat comes over me and builds till it burns in my veins." He paused a moment in thought. "Like water boiling, but inside my body, coursing through my body and though it hurts for all of its intensity there's a craving that chases it, saying that life essence will stop the hurting.  Blood carries this life force throughout the body and the monster within me howls for it so I yield to the call and listen for the beat of a heart. I know it will feed the magic I use to do whatever is necessary but nothing comes without a cost, so it then becomes a balance of weights… take what I need to do what needs to be done while stopping myself before the monster mind can deceive my mind and override my will.  However, that balance is difficult… that line is very fine and the allure is so seductive that I sometimes can't tell if I really need more or if it's just the monster mind craving to be set free and cause utter destruction.  Its desire is to kill, rape, torment, or cause suffering. Or is it... I who desire it, while being blinded by blood lust.  The more I consume the more I long for it, till I become intoxicated and blinded in a red haze from being engorged with energy, which usually means my Monster has gone on a killing spree.  When it finally subsides, slowly the lust begins to eat at me, like an itch under the skin that you just can't scratch but you'll remove flesh in trying."


They walked again in silence while Kah tried to imagine and absorb what she heard.

"Was you or rather, that monster version of you… going to… rape… me…" the words seemed to catch in her throat and though part of Kah, wanted to know, the other wanted to stay blissfully ignorant.

Max's fist clenched and he turned to face her, visibly trying not to become enraged. "Yes, Kah." He said through gritted teeth. "I, He, we, it… was going to rape and fest on you."

Her chin hit her chest and her fingers fidgeted under her bear skin cloak. "But… what if I didn't mind?..." she said in nearly a whisper, then realized her mistake and quickly added "Not the rape part, but the uh... you being, in… me." Gulping lightly she pushed the issue. "I felt your cock and I pressed my mound against you… willingly." Her eyes stayed fixated on the ground.

"But were you willing or do you just think you were because of the seduction musk I produce?" He asked flatly.

"Huh?" Her brow furrowed in confusion. "What musk?"

"Tell me Kah, do you fantasize about me?  Daydream about my cock inside of you? Do you have those… feelings… of want, desire, lust, need, passion, and longing all mixed up in butterflies in your guts, when you think of me?"

Again she looked at him confused without answering. 

"No?... then don't you find it strange, that when I'm… intense… with you, you suddenly have such an urge that your fuck cunt gets all creamy?" He said cruelly "It's the fucking musk, seducing your senses to force you to desire me, and THAT,... is not… free will."
She flinched slightly at the way he said it all but she closed her eyes and spoke a very meek, “But you didn’t.”
Which was followed by silence and then a low growl, “But I could have and there was nothing you could do to stop me.”

“But you didn’t” she repeated
Max stepped in with his talons out but Kah went to her knees, bowing her head with her hair draped to one side. “Go ahead Master… do it.  Take your anger out on me, but it won’t change the fact that you are a monster with a noble heart.  You do bad things because you’re a monster.  You speak cruelly to keep me at bay because you’re a monster, so beat me… Slash me open and feast upon my soul if you so choose.” Her tears began to drip into the dirt. “You have given me more safety in the short few days that we have been together than what I have had in all of the seasons of life.  You didn’t have to pack me on your back to jump blindly down into depths that broke your very bones, but you did it anyway because you knew I’d never make it on my own.  You didn’t have to jump down to fight those trolls, I’ve seen your speed.  You could have easily outrun them and most likely been to the end of this cave by now but instead, you jumped and let Beast out.” She glanced up without raising her head and saw his legs just a hand width from her head before continuing. “You could have talked your way out of that whole situation with those hunters, lured them back to the trolls, and vanished into the shadows, Master… I have been watching you.  You could have done all those things but to keep me safe, you didn’t.”

Taking the chance she raised her head and looked him in the eyes, she noticed the storm brewing behind them but spat out what she needed to say. “You could have raped me Master and I would have still picked up those items and followed you.  You may not love, you may not be capable of such a thing, but you have a noble heart, Max!” She shakingly placed her hand into his, mingling her fingers between his talons. “You mangled your own hand to keep from doing what you felt was wrong… so you don’t have to love me…” her eyes shifted from his right eye which showed blue and his left one which showed green. “Either of you, Beast” Assuming that was him behind one of those colors. “I am your slave.  You keep me safe, feed me, pleasure me.” Smirking slightly as she noticed the corner of Max’s lip flinches up. “So if all I have to offer is my body, then it’s yours… freely given, even if it cost me my life.”


[MINE!] Beast howled in triumph, echoing throughout Max’s mind and causing his blood to heat up.
“You don’t understand what you are saying,” Max stated flatly,
“I don’t have to understand, Master.” She said from her place on her knees as she continued to search his eyes. “Keep being that man that you are, for as long as you can and I give you my essence to feed from, my body to be used as you please, and if ever there be a time that you require it, kill me, knowing I give it all freely.”

[ACCEPTED!] Beast claimed, producing a symbolled document, marked in archaic runes.

“You stupid whore.” Max stated while lifting her to her feet and turning to continue down the tunnel.  “There are things worse than death.” Pausing only a moment he looked back over his shoulder with a slight scowl on his face. “But your contract is accepted.”
With a snap of his fingers, an instant searing pain wrapped around her left forearm where a branded image of the same tattoo that covered Max’s back, appeared in bleeding lines.


Every girl has that dreams of their ideal mate, the way they would meet, how he would swoop in and take her to himself… This was none of that, yet she couldn’t help but giggle and nearly skip to catch up to him.

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CH6, Were-Bear, coming soon

 

2 years ago. Wednesday, August 23, 2023 at 1:51 AM

That moment when reality went to far ???

 

 

 

2 years ago. Thursday, August 17, 2023 at 4:45 PM

[Some rumbling rubbish, I wrote but never posted. Are you a Monster or do you wear Mask?]

Have you ever wondered if you was born in a time that wasn't the same as you?

I often find myself alone in room full of people at a masquerade ball.  I find that telling someone what I'm looking for is just asking to be lied to, yet if nobody says nothing, nobody gets anywhere.  At this ball of trying to meet people nearly everyone likes my costume... I'm a Monster.  They see the way I dance and wish to be my partner on the floor.  They see the smoldering in my eyes and they yearn to feel that PASSION!  They heard the growl undertone of my honeyed words and they wish to be put beneath the fangs and claws.  All while the honeyed words touch their ego on how I see them in their costume... I wish the Ball would never end.  I prefer to live in the fantasy everyday of my life because when the ball ends, and the mask come off... I am the only Monster left on the floor.

My costume wasn't fake, my passion wasn't a show, my growl is now feared and all the honeyed words are seen as a lore to make them my victim...

I listen to them yell at me, tell me how I'm hurting them by my mere presence, how I'm the evil that causes their trigger and they pull out their proverbial dagger and descend on me without care

I take it.  I'm a Monster, I've been through worse and if I release in retaliation... How many will survive our anger?  What is the cost of emotionally induced vengeance upon a people who can not tolerant or endure your very presence?  What will it change... In them... In me?  Will I be more apt to give in to my Monstrosity in the future and at what point will enough be enough?

I showed up to the ball as myself, I was not the one in deception.  I said I was a Monster, a seducing king of blood and desire who lives for the passion, the connection and hunt.  I told how I viewed them and what I wished to do and because they are so wrapped up in their delusions of lies... My truth was ignored.  Yet it's my fault... But of course it is... I.. am a monster.  I lack empathy, therefore I must not be conscious of how my choices affect those around me.  I lack sympathy, therefore I must not have emotions.  Yet in situations that would require either, I mimic what I've seen or I sit silently to keep from making the matters worse.  Lacking both of these also means I struggle with compassion, therefore I must not be able to feel things like love, concern, or depth of emotion... but then... Why am I not Monstrous all the time?

I do not feel empathy for me, I am a Monster and was born this way.  I have nothing to be ashamed of.  I don't feel Sympathy for myself because I'm a Monster, and I've nothing to be sorry for just because I am a Monster.  I have no Compassion for myself because as a Monster I would have to say that something is "inherently wrong" with me being a monster and that would justify my own Monstrosity and Monstrous behavior... 

However as a Monster, I'm far kinder than most of those on the ball room floor.  I'm honest.  I'm intimidating.  I'm gruff but I love to laugh.  I'm passionate and full of silliness.  I live in a fantasy where I can be human and humans are nice and some are pretty... And want to be seen as pretty so that a Monster like me can look upon all their beauty and marvel.

But when the veil falls at the end of the day... I am a Monster and Monster aren't pretty.  We aren't cute or adorable.  We are the things that go bump in the night, causing horror and terror.  I am well aware and hyper sensitive of how we look in your human eyes.  So I watch what we say, I learn to control our anger and our nature all so we can be with you.  I don't talk about how many years we had to fight ourselves, by ourselves because nobody gives a fuck about the inner ticking of a monster... Well... Unless it's to study us.  Use us for personal gain.  I mean *snickers* isn't this the very purpose of Psychology?  Study the monster, see why they think this and do that... But I digress.

 

If left to be me wherein I didn't care to be better or try to be human, I would tell people to fuck the hell, right off.  Get over your childhood trauma from when you was 12... You're 30 to 40+ now and have yet to make a real positive difference in your character.  Put away your victim mentality and start seeing that you are not a child anymore. They can't hurt you unless you let them.  Your Monsters are not hiding under your fucking bed.  You invited them in, you gave them a home in your mind and you demonize yourself while blaming them.

You Humans live in a delusion.

Monsters know we are Monsters.  We either act monstrous because we can't get away from all the negativity that is forced on us or we strive to become better than.

I laugh louder

I find joy in simple things around me

I love deep

I forgive easy (even though my temper burns long and hot... I try not to let others see it)

I place our partners well-being before my own

I consider what I say BEFORE I say it and keep my fuckn mouth closed if I think it will hurt those I care for.

I take the cuts of others care-less ness and refuse to destroy them because of how it may affect those I love.

I bandage my mental and emotional wounds in silence because if we let people know that they hurt us, they'll only use it again the next time.

I acknowledge that I fuck up and I may not beg, but I ask for forgiveness.  And then strive NOT to repeat the offense again...

Because I know I'm a Monster and I chose to be better than Monstrous.

I don't hide who I am and I have days where I struggle but I'm proud to be "this" me because of what I've achieved. 

It just gets a lil fuckn lonely sometimes being one of the few not needing a mask in a room full of people who think they are at a masquerade ball.

2 years ago. Thursday, March 16, 2023 at 6:28 PM

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Clan Wars ch4, Trolls Landing

From a haze, Max's consciousness began to stir… the feeling of petite hands probing his body and the whisper of "Wake up, Master." A woman's voice seemed to plead from down a dark tunnel, like a ghost echoing in a memory. "Please wake up…" The feel of her hands pressed against him once again, not probing… pushing, as she tried to encourage his recovery.

He moaned and felt her hand clasp across his mouth.  This action brought a clearer consciousness kindled with hunger and anger. He snatched her hand away and was nigh unto growling when her heard her "shhh." He could feel her near panic "trolls.." she eeped out.

Everything came rushing back at once, the fall, the dislocation of his knee, and the pain of resetting it.  Letting her go he did a quick probe of the injured area… it was completely healed, and movement was unhindered and without any trace of pain. "How long was I out?" He whispered back to her, realizing her human eyes most likely couldn't make him out clearly.  They had landed on the edge of the outcrop he had aimed for, luckily not skewering them on the eight-foot-high stalactite or any of the smaller ones that created a sheltering ring about them. He hadn't noticed all of them before making that leap, but now he could see a soft glow across the tip of the largest one.  His keen hearing picked up the lumbering, thumping step that come from somewhere below and the pungent stench of Cave troll assaulted his nose.

"I… I don't know." Kah whispered.  "I woke some time ago but this darkness is disorienting and I have a splitting headache."

[I bet you do.] Max thought as he recalled headbutting her in order to silence her piercing scream… Most likely the sound that brought the Cave trolls to investigate. "And them?" he motioned as though she could see him.

"Not long but they seem to be looking for something." The sound of stone smashing against another punctuated her assessment. 

"Us, most likely." He mumbled as he slowly sat up, looking her over like a wolf does a lamb.

Her long black hair was knotted and caked with blood down one side, most likely from the fall that would probably have killed her without her now-dented helm.  Her overcoat had drifted to one side, covering her like a cloak and the smell of her fear was starting to subside.  This did nothing to quell his hunger.  He needed to feed and soon.  Nothing comes without a cost and most of the gifts he was imbued with, through Beast, come at the cost of blood magic, the energy within all things to sustain life.  He pondered his options knowing he could also filter energy from strong emotions and sexual actions, though the effects were less and lasted half as long as blood feeding. Unfortunately with the predicament, they found themselves in, only one option was viable. 

"Do you have any other wounds, other than your head?" he whispered. 

"No… Not that I'm aware of…" she said while instinctively poking a finger under her helm to touch the dried blood from where the metal edge had sliced her forehead. 

Max didn't mention the dried blood that had gushed from her nose due to his headbutt, instead, he stayed silent while undoing the chin strap. 

"Let me look at it…" he said pitching her head forward to investigate. "Try not to scream."

 

[Try not to scream?] Kah thought as his tongue slid up her forehead and over her wound. Her body tensed as the hairs on the nape of her neck stood up and goosebumps popped up in rows all the way down her body. The disgust was too much to stay silent and her moan of protest was audible enough for Max to hear but he continued relentlessly. She press her palms flat against his rock-hard chest but trying to push him away was like trying to move a boulder wedged into the ground, all the while his hands held her head solid, [I AM NOT OK WITH THIS!] She screamed in her mind. Then her eyes nearly bulged from their sockets as his hand clasped over her mouth and hers joined in the effort to stifle her audible scream. [HE FUCKING BIT ME!!! No no no no] her mind chased down a rabbit hole as she squirmed in his grip. 


His saliva was causing her wound to heal but the blood he needed had to be fresh and more…  More than this minor gash. Slapping his hand over her mouth, he bit into the closing wound, ripping the flesh back from the skull and re-healing it with long. slow, bloody licks of his tongue, just to repeat the action over and over again. By the time he finished, Kahs nails weakly sought to pierce into his chest, half curled into a pair of small first.  Max was sure if he moved, she would slump where she sat, her mind hiding somewhere within, so in one smooth motion, he spun her about and drew her back to his belly. 

"Shhh…" his melodious voice soothed at the edge of her consciousness. "I'm sorry…" he outright lied, knowing that is what people expected to hear. "It had to be done to get what was in the wound, out." He sat holding her, letting her mind come back and make its own conclusion. He kissed the side of her head while petting her long hair soothingly. Slowly her hands went to the wound, expecting to find her skull exposed and the skin filleted back. He could feel her confusion as the dab became probing in search of the wound that should surely be there. 

"H… How.." she began 

"Magic," he whispered bluntly in her ear while knowing by saying that one simple word, would resolve the barrage of questions she would inevitably have for him. Unexpectedly she spun to bury her face in his chest. The reaction was so inconceivable that Max simply held still, nearly holding his breath in the uncertainty of what the fuck was going on… He could hear her muffled sobs and feel the warmth of her tears as they trailed down his chest. Slowly he wrapped his arms around her, even though what he really wanted was to put distance between them and jump the edge of their perch. He hated the mushy emotions and struggled to deal with…  All that crap, in others.  It was rare for him to be uncertain about what to do next but he was at a loss. Does he push her away? Is her tears a sign of a mental break? What the fuck was going on?! As if she was responding to his unasked questions she turned her head up, sniffling lightly. 

"Thank you, Master." She whispered. "I didn’t believe that you would truly try to keep me safe, but you have, in every way..." 

In another movement, her chain-bound arms flew over his head and around his neck as she kissed him just as fiercely as he had licked her skull. 

Max's eyes shot wide and he backpedaled till his back slammed into the rockface. [I AM NOT OK WITH THIS!] his mind shouted as he sought to escape her kiss, sliding upright till he stood with her adapting to his position and wrapping her legs over his hips. "Fuck ME, woman!" he exclaimed as he tried to dodge her lips but at that moment several things happened at the same time. 


Kah giggled like a child who had just heard the funniest joke while snuggling into his hardened chest. 

 

The Cave trolls roared and a small boulder ricocheted off the large stalactite, and Beast roared in fury, his rage shooting heat throughout Max's body. 


[MINE!] Beast charged from the darkness of the mind as he sought to overtake Max's consciousness. 

[NOT MY FAULT] Max shouted back within his mind, sending a shockwave of mental energy at Beast in a futile effort to slow his advance.  As Max formed a mental avatar, Beast hurled himself at it, swiping a massive clawed hand at the Avatar's head. Max's avatar barely ducked under the swipe and came up in a spin-turn to face Beast. [SHE KISSED ME, FUCK FACE!] Max's mental words had no effect as Beast rebound off a newly erected wall, racing on all fours along its length as he willed it to shoot up beneath his stride. The wall curved to guide him back toward Max's avatar, wherein he leapt to slash at the avatar's chest.  This may be Beast's domain but it was also Max's mind and he was no longer the child that Beast use to torment and dominate.  The avatar's hand shot out, meeting Beast’s clawed hand as he took the impact in a yielding tuck-roll that landed the Avatar on top. Eye to eye, Beast pushed against the force of Max's Avatar but they were at a stalemate. Equal power, equal strength, neither having a greater advantage over the other when it came to raw power in this realm. However, Beast was far older and schooled many times over in the art of combat. Skill trumps strength. Beast let one of his arms go limp, causing Max to fall in that direction, while at the same time, Beast twisted his body and toppled the avatar to the mental floor. Without hesitation Beast pounced on top of the avatar, roaring in victory as fangs the size of Max's whole hand length slid from their gums sheath. 

[Miiiiine!] Beast growled menacingly and quick as a viper, went to snap his fangs into the avatar's throat. Instead, Beast was jerked off the Avatar, glowing chains bound about Beast's throat and wrist causing him to curse and struggle helplessly against them. The Avatar took his time standing up, sweeping non-existent dust off himself as he walked, perfectly controlled, to face his mentor and torturer,  Beast. 

[It doesn't have to be like this old man.] The avatar of Max flicked the binding chains. [You no longer have dominion over me.] 

Beast roared with fury at the insolence but the Avatar swiped its hand like zipping a zipper, causing Beast to look like he was caught frozen as a roaring statue. [You have no voice!] The avatar boldly stated. [Unless I permit it.]  The avatar's features and eyes softened as he ran his hand through the reddish-colored fur of Beast's head. [My friend, use that wisdom that you have so graciously guided me with. Look at the memory without judgment.] The scene between Max and Kah replayed behind the Avatar. [I did not kiss her, she kissed me… and she is still yours.] With a spin of the avatar's finger, the chains mystically spun Beast around so he could see Kah through Max's left eye. [It's my body she's clinging to, but it's you who made me such and you who gave me the gifts to heal her.  It's you who can protect her in ways I can not.] The avatar stated the praises to soothe Beast's hurting ego, Max physically gazed over the edge to see the Cave trolls and quickly pulled back as another hurled rock ricochet off the cave wall above them. [You want to kill?... Kill them.]  The glowing chains dropped off Beast and Max's consciousness sidestepped, merging into the Avatar as Beast took over the physical body. 

In a span of a blink, Beast leapt from their perch, tossing Kah around to his back on the drop. Beast barely acknowledged the thirty-foot drop, landing in a stance of one that springs from the blocks in a race. 

[You'll dislocate her arms] Max said as he predicted the full transformation before Beast could alter his body. 

Beast roared as the three trolls roared in acceptance of the challenge.  The one with a spiked club, lumbering forward like a batter with a cricket board from between his brothers. To his left, the smallest of the three clapped miniature-sized boulders together and rolled his shoulder in preparation for a throw. The largest of the three held back, spinning a morning start the length of Max's body as he stared down from his trollish twelve-foot height with ugly yellow eyes. 


Red fur sprung up on Max's head as his face and ears elongated to take on a smaller version of Beast's original head. His fingers spurt blood as nails ripped from the flesh and claws formed with gangly long fingers. Beast may not be able to transform into his own massive body, but he was not going to use Max's weaker flesh. With a flex of his claws, Beast shot forward as dull black scales raced up his arms like tiles being rolled out till they covered him, neck to clawed toes, leaving only a serpent's torso of thick hide exposed.
Beast was neither bat nor dragon but a splicing of the two merged with a human soul that would live on long after the stars ceased to shine. He was what the first humans called a vampire. One who was immortal, feasting upon the blood and flesh of humans… Little did they know Beast fed from whatever he wished and today, Troll was on the plate. 

As the Trolls club swung to swat Beast across the broad cavern, Beast sprung into the air, letting the club swing harmlessly beneath his legs. To him, things moved nearly in slow motion so gauging the landing on the forearm of the troll seemed almost effortless. He used the troll's swing to redirect to his next target and as the troll spun around in his miss, Beast’s claws came alive with flames in one arcane word.  Vaulting from his ill-witted host, Beast slashed the largest Trolls throat, searing the flesh from juggler to nearly the vertebra as he sailed past to land in a roll beyond. Troll flesh was thick and hard to penetrate, but cave trolls had a weakness to fire, and as the largest one fell backward clutching his wound, green ooze spurt from between his nasty fingers. It took a second for the other two to register what had just happened but before they could respond Beast zipped between the smallest one's legs, slicing the right leg tendon and rending the top portion of calf muscle with his claws.  To keep his speed in his assault, Beast hooked his nail tips into the solid packed dirt and skid-drifted into a change of direction, barely eluding the fall of the troll.  Full boar on all fours, with Kah flapping like a cape over his back, Beast pounced onto the side of the original troll and spider climbed diagonally up the troll's back.  The searing sting of Beast's claws had the troll dancing in place as he tried to bat at his tormentor or shake the assailant from his flesh but when relief came, it was too late to do much more than stare upwards, dumbfounded, as the sound of Beast's roar grabbed his attention.


Beast had climbed the troll in such haste that his momentum allowed him to spring from the troll's shoulder, into the air and now as he looked down on his victim, he took great pleasure in plunging his claws the full length of his fingers, through the eyes and into the brain of the troll. Kah was squealing, either in delight or uncontrollable hysteria, as they road the lumbering clod to the ground. Slowly, Beast pulled his fingers from the troll's eye sockets, with the goo slicked over his black scales. The delight he took in the thought of what was to come, served to be seen even more terrifying, as he menacingly made his way towards the smallest troll who kept glancing back at this demon they had found, while he tried to crawl away. 

"MIIIIIIIINE" Beast growled loudly as he raise a goo-covered claw that still held a skewered eyeball like a ring on his finger. Beast's long tongue chased from between his extended fangs and slurped the morsel into his mouth where it burst like a cherry tomato between his teeth. 

[Fuck me, BEAST…] Max mumbled in their mind while watching the whole thing through Beast's right eye. If he could have puked in his consciousness, Max would have but all he could do was watch on as Beast pounced onto the back of the smaller troll to sink his fangs into its hapless neck. Beast growled with deep pleasure as the pungent ooze slid down the back of his throat. The sheer raw power he was pulling from this creature was intoxicating. The troll thrashed at Beast’s head while Beast simply deflected the blows until the troll went limp to the ground.  Beast took satisfaction in listening to the last beat of its heart and the gurgling sound of its death rattle. 

 

Kah shrieked in surprise at what she saw as Max leapt into an unbelievable drop. The sudden stop nearly jarred her teeth from her head and the impact left her feeling a bit loopy but she quickly blinked, refusing to pass out. Her knees folded to her chest as the roars crashed in echoes throughout the vast chamber. She had barely peeked over Max's shoulder when red fur grabbed her attention as it sprung up beneath her chin and chest. With dismay, she nearly held her breath as she could hear the bones snapping and see the muzzle forming from Max's face. His ears grew and became bat-like but she could not tell the rest till the battle was nearly finished. For her part, she could only hold on for dear life and hope to not be squished like a bug or flung across the room due to the speed and sudden changes in directions. At some point, the fear had become so unbelievable that she began to laugh and cheer for him. 

[My Master can kill Cave Trolls!] she thought as she squealed in delight or madness, while gravity let loose its grip on their descent straight for a troll's face. She quickly closed her eyes as the goo splashed across her hair and the timing was the worst when she opened them and beheld those claws being licked clean.  The smell alone was vile and pungent but the vision of that tongue slurping the troll's eyeball made her stomach flop inside. "Oh gods," she murmured into his furry neck while her stomach threatened to spill its contents down Beast’s back. "Is there anything you won't do to keep me safe?" She nearly started to cry again but he pounced on the smallest troll's back and what followed horrified and awed her as she watch for what little she could see of fangs sinking into the troll's neck [Max…  IS the monster] her brain reeled. Her breathing became jagged at the contrast between the monster she'd seen in the village and the monster she now held between chained wrists. Her emotions conflicted over the different versions of him.


Beast hooked the chains in his claws and lifted Kah off his back as though she was a plaything. His nose sniffed at her body while she dangled before him like meat on a hook, causing her toes to curl up and her knees to press together. His growl was deep and primal as it seemed to rumble throughout his chest and penetrate into hers.

"M…Mu mu mu, Max?" she epped out the question, trying not to cower too much in her chains. 

A menacing growl emanated from him as he began to roll his shoulder.  The sound of dried wood popping and snapping didn't register as bones to her until she saw the scales pull away from one another just to reform over the new pale skin. The frame of Max nearly doubled in size and width, causing the features to realign and not appear so mismatched.  As she watched the monster appear before her eyes she drew in a deep breath and mentally reminded herself [He saved me, He saved me, He saved me] but the words that came from her lips were "Please don't eat me…" Her eyes squeezed shut as his muzzle came but inches from her face, his snarl revealing sharp teeth and long fangs. She squeaked in surprise as a claw pushed into her breast, just above the heart. "Kaaaaah." He snarled as he tried to form her name, causing her to peek.  Intimidation washed over her and once again she silently cursed her body and blushed, feeling the rush of fluid that threatened to run down her inner thigh. Beast thumped his chest with such force that it sounded like a base drum revibrating in her ears.
“Noo Max… BEEAst” His voice echoed with a deep base through the sound of gravel being ground together.
“Huh?” Her brows furrowed in confusion. “Where is Max?” One moment they were standing still and the next he had crossed the distance to slam her back against the wall of the chamber with a force that nearly knocked the wind from her. She could not help but cry out in pain but that was met with a harsh backhand, the scales raking her cheek that would swell and bruise.  Lightly dazed, she could feel the blood from the wound, trickle down her jawline and drip onto her garments.
“MIIIIIINE!” His word was so fierce and left no leeway as to their meaning.

“Yes Master, yes yes yes, yours” She quickly stammered out in a scream, tilting her face as she tried to put distance between his hot breath and her stinging flesh.
She felt the claw of his other hand slash across her pelvis and down the outside of her leg.  Cool air rushed against her skin and strings of blood ran from the light cut, down over her mound.  Yet again she blushed deeply as she released even more and when the scent of her juices caught in his nose he lifted her chains and hoisted her further up the wall. Instinctually her knees took purchase on his shoulder and her arms dropped over the back of his head.  The inadvertent pull she gave him, wasn’t necessary as she felt the prick and sandpaper of his rough patch tongue run the length of her inner thigh and straight up into her.  She pivoted and thrust as a deep moan escaped her lips… “Moooore..” she begged just before her eyes shot wide, “OH GODS!” she nearly doubled over on top of his head as he gave her what she had begged for and more… MUCH MORE! This creature's tongue was longer than Max’s di… “aaaaaaah gods!” she exclaimed, releasing in a flood of desire.  It was like a tentacle, driving for her guts and she found herself bouncing as the sensation of his sandpapered tongue did things within her that she had never dreamed of.  With a sudden climax, her knees swiftly clamped against his head as she held on riding out the waves.  She felt his tongue lazily withdraw and he dropped her unceremoniously, licking the blood and juices from his muzzle.  From where she sat stunned by the drop, her eyes trailed up his thick thighs till she froze in place
“Oh fuuuuck.” She whispered, for surely that could not be his… her eyes traveled up to find his alight with a fire's ember dancing in the pupils. He reached down and grabbed her chains before taking strides that would eat up the distance toward the only exit in the chamber, dragging her across the packed dirt of the ground like the slave she was.

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Thank you to my supports and their encouragement and my lovely ^AngelBunny^ for all her advise and editor work.

CH5, Bear Cubs, coming soon

 

2 years ago. Tuesday, March 7, 2023 at 6:09 AM

The following story and characters have all rights reserved to me and are fictional writing of my own imagination and/or experiences.


CH 3, THE CREVASSE:

The cold almost instantly bit at her exposed flesh as she rushed to catch up, leaving her to wonder how he was able to tolerate such extremes but unwilling to put a voice to it.
“Can you slow down some?” She asked trying to hold the lantern a little higher for a better view down the corridor of the cave.  Thankfully the stone floor was dry but the darkness was unnerving to her and caused her more than a little anxiety with the thought of running into a cave troll or bear.


“Can I, Yes.” He said, “Will I, No.  We have a limited amount of time before HE, comes back.”
At just the mention of that monster, she shivered and cast a look over her shoulder, half expecting to see him following behind to devour her.  That thought alone quickened her pace till she was almost bumping into Max.

“How will he know where we are?,” She asked while trying to focus only on the pale scars that ran vertically to each side of his spine, breaking up the black tattoo of some obscure shield running the full length and breadth of his back.  There seemed to be no beginning or end of the details that chased the pattern within and created the border of the oddly shaped shield.

“There is nowhere I can go that he can not find me.” He stated as he turned into a side cave littered with garments, leather armor, and old weapons.  He paused only momentarily before taking up a few daggers in their sheaths and lacing them onto a leather belt that he strapped diagonally across his chest.  Casting a few swords to the side, he settled on a short straight blade that he weighted the balance and twirled about in a few quick motions that gave the undertone of familiarity.

“What about me?” She hesitantly questioned.

“You ever kill a man?” He asked.


“Well, not really bu…” she started and was cut off.

“But you’ll do more harm to yourself than you will to anything we’d find.” He finished before scooping up a metal helmet and turning to plop it onto her head, quickly fastening the chin strap and giving it a tap. “There.  Feel better?  Can we go now or do you need to monolog till we wither into bone?” He said as he pushed past her and headed back to the corridor to travel deeper into the darkness.

She was coming to despise his dismissive attitude but hurried behind him trying to adjust the new headgear that bobbled a little, on her head.  The bend noseguard slightly blocked her vision in one eye, now and then, and despite her hands being full she kept trying to move the guard out of her vision.  After nearly burning her cheek on the lantern she meeped out “Help… Please?”

 

Max spun around, visually irritated. “What now?”

She tapped the noseguard that covered her left eye. “I can’t see…” Her voice lowered like a chastised child.

His irritated expression turned to one of mocking as he grabbed hold of the bent metal piece and bent it upwards as though it took no effort, even though the action caused the back of the helmet to bite into her neck and a slight eeping of pain escaped her.  “Better?” He asked with a tone thick with mockery.  She felt herself shrink back a bit from him but he seemed to take no note of it and once again started down the corridor.

“You’re not used to people, are you?” she asked quietly, instantly regretting every word that just slipped through her lips.  A growl came from before them as he once again stopped and slowly, menacingly turned to face her… Her eyes widened.  That growl WAS him.  Panic, anxiety, and that need to run feeling, raced through her but fear stayed her feet as she cringed before him.

“What.. the fuck… is your issue?!” His words hissed like a viper’s hiss before the strike. “This constant yammering drowns out the noises down the corridor.  Are you just looking to die in this cave?  Shut the fuck up, unless something is attacking you.  Do you understand me?”

[No… ] she thought as she shook her head yes. [None of this makes sense…], he huffed and began once again down the corridor.  His footsteps were silent as a mouse while her feet scuffed and kicked random pebbles, all of which made his ears twitch as she watched the back of his bald head. [Your pale as death. Immune to the cold. Silent as a shadow, and your traveling companion is a monster!!!] her mind ran in a near scream. [What about this is normal by any means?!  You seem to see in the dark, you walk like you own the world, and your arrogance!!] She could feel her teeth clench as she fought to not speak or question, bumping into his suddenly stopped form. [Oh shit] she thought as she stammered back a little [Is he hearing me?...]  She could see he was tense, most likely more irritated at her bumping into him but he simply pressed his left hand back and crouched.  He cast a glance her way with a finger to his lips as he seemed to be listening further ahead.

He listened intently, almost positive he heard something mixed with the sound of the running stream ahead, but with this cow clodding behind him and kicking every pebble in the damn cave, he could be mistaken.  He could feel the light updraft of air from where the steam fell into a  crevasse, but it also blocked most of the smells as it waft the earthy-smelling moist air back up the corridor.  Slowly he made his way further, beckoning her to stay low while following.  It felt painfully slow to him and he really wanted to pitch that damn lantern up the corridor but doing so would only make matters worse for her, thus more on him.  As they approached where the stream came through the cave's rock, he motioned for her to drink but once again put a finger to his lips as he crept a short distance ahead out of the lantern’s light to peer over the edge of the crevasse.


[Nothing…] He mused to himself, knowing Beast was always there if he truly needed him.  Max shrugged off his paranoia and began scanning the descent of smoothed stone and stalagmites.  It seemed like a warmth mixed into the chill of the water vapors which would be good for Kah if she survived the descent but also indicated that the depth was much deeper than he’d assumed.  Maybe they should camp here and wait for the night to come.  Beast could fly them down easily but Max was pretty sure Kah would shit herself and try to run… the absolute worst thing she could do was run from Beast.

“Fuck me…” he whispered to himself and walked back into the light, nearly wincing at its single candle illumination.  “There is a major descent ahead and far as I know,” He stated as his eyes quickly adapted. “It’s the only possible back door to this cave.” His voice lowered as though somebody may overhear them. “The issue is, you’re gonna have to go blind and trust me.  You’ll never make that climb down with that lantern and your arms bound.  We’ll have to snuff the light and pack you down on my back.”

“You could just set me free and I’ll climb myself…” She spoke softly, trying not to let her voice be louder than his.


Max caught the chuckle before it escaped him. “You forget… those chains are not your imprisonment, they are your safety.”

“But..” She started


“But nothing, Kah. You’d be better off nose-diving over the edge than for him to find you out of those chains.” He closed the distance between them and gently took the lantern while keeping eye contact.  “Now fight against every fuck’n self-preservation instinct that is running through you right now and trust the facts.  If I wanted you dead, there were a hundred times I could have done so even before you woke up.” Opening the tiny lantern door he blew the light out, leaving them in pitch darkness.  When he took hold of her hand to fish the dagger out, he could feel her trembling, smell her fear, and his hunger made his mouth water.  It was good she could not see his fangs slide from their sheath in his gums, as he pulled her arms over his head, stretching her taunt as her four-foot, eight-inch frame pressed against his five, ten.  His lust called like the wolves howling after their prey… He could easily take her against the hard cold walls of the cave, thrust into her, and fuck her till she passed out.  The sound of her quicking pulse and the scent of her fear, mixed with the smell of her moistness being released that he could tell was most likely slipping down her inner thigh. “Later” He growled, spinning around and lifting her onto his back.


She sucked air and held her breath when the light went out. [Run, run, run] she panicked but stood frozen in place. [OH GODS!] her mind screamed as her body was stretched taunt against his.  She could feel his shaft pressing against her pelvis area, and her nipples hardened as she squeezed her eyes shut. [No no no no…] she protests to her body's reaction to his treatment.  She gave a quick gasp, slightly pressing into him, ready to accept her fate if he was to do what she could feel he wanted to.  She could feel the trickle between her thighs that caused her to blush in the darkness and shakily exhaled while letting her body go slightly limp.  She felt the urge to kiss his chest to let him know that he was welcome to her mound when he suddenly spun around, nearly throwing her over his shoulder and onto his back.  She blinked twice but before she could even consider what the fuck just happened, he dashed forward and a slight gap formed between them as they plummeted into free fall.  All thought left her mind and the scream came from the sheer terror of falling into the unknown, then… nothing.


He tossed her over his shoulder and clamped his hands to her ankles, pulling them around his mid-section before darting forward and leaping into the crevasse.  Her scream drilled through his head like a banshee at point-blank range.  Instinct more than premeditated thought snapped his head back, connecting his skull to hers, instantly silencing her.  He could feel the slight blood trickle from the noseguard that had sliced the back of his skull but before he jarred to a stop by landing on an outcrop, the wound had already begun to heal.  Yet another perk he’d been given by Beast.  Was it worth his humanity… at the moment it was, as he gauged the next jump, aiming for the blur at the very extent of his night vision.  Every leap took a little more from him, she was becoming heavy, and his knees were beginning to feel the pain of the impact until finally, it gave way to the sickening sound of bone leaving its socket, smashing them both against the wall.  The excruciating pain shot through him, waking Beast.

[Fool] he snarled, as Max clenched his teeth together.  A cold sweat slicked his body and the chains choked him, preventing his hands from grabbing his knee properly.


[FUCKING HELP OR BACK THE FUCK OFF!] he lashed back at Beast. Silence comes back as Beast retreated to the blackness of Max’s mind.  [DAMN YOU, BASTARD!] Max shouted at his vampiric passenger. 


[You live.] Beast retorted nonchalantly from the dark place they shared as one controlled the body and the other watched or slept.


Max scrambled at the chains, cutting his head on the shackles edge, as he forced her arms back over his head and grabbed his knee properly.  He panted in deep ragged breaths, bracing his mind for what was to come… In what felt like everything he had left, he smashed his palm into the protruding bone, snapping it back into the socket and nearly making him puke with the world spinning and blood tears trickling down his cheeks. 


[Finish] he heard Beast echo through his flittering consciousness.  With his last effort, Max set his thumbs to the top edge of his kneecap barely acknowledging the bulge in its abnormal angle, and shoved it till he felt it slip back into place.  That was his last memory as the pain overtook him and he slid into the darkness of oblivion.

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2 years ago. Thursday, March 2, 2023 at 2:12 PM

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Clan Wars: Ch 2, Frozen Peaks


Beast dashed through the pitch darkness of the forest in an effortless stride, eating up miles in minutes as his eyes scanned through the night like looking through a spring day's rain.  Here and there he'd see the fading heat signature of some creature that ran from the snap of branches but stealth wasn't the goal tonight.  He'd make misleading trails, just in case someone decided to track the killers of the village before doubling back and heading off in yet another direction. After several trails had been laid, he headed towards their real destination.  From the darkness within his mind, Max stirred, feeling the pitch of the forest in its steady incline, and knew they would be heading into the mountains where one of their hidden cave homes would give them safety for a few days.

[If you didn't take every challenge, we wouldn't be in this predicament you know.  There was nothing wrong with escaping into the night and letting all those people live.] Max stated as he used Beast's vision to see their surroundings while staying in the mind's blackness.

"Hph!" Was all he received in response. 

Beast was focused on the task at hand with little mood for conversation but what was new in that department. Beast had never been known to talk much audibly because of his belief in words having power and power was to be used when needed, not for idle conversations.  Such idleness is what the rudimentary sign language or mind speaking was for.  Max was more under the impression that Beast struggled to form proper words due to his face being more representative of a fox bat so his muzzle caused a guttural tone that lacked clear verbiage.

Beast stopped as he looked up the cliffside that brought an abrupt ending to the forest and shifted the weight of the woman into his arms.

[COME ON! Just cli....] the sound of his shirt ripping and the sting of flesh tearing out his back as new bones shifted, broke, and reformed to extend outward into massive bat-like wings. [Damit Beast! You know how hard it is to find clothes that will fit you!?! Fuck me, man...] 

Max felt the smile on Beast's face, as the clawed hand extended just enough to see the middle finger lifted up for the eye that Max was watching through. [Fuck you too, old man.] Max said. [You could have at least looted some of those bastards if you're just going to shred our clothes.] A low chuckle of laughter was the retort as Beast's massive wings flexed and folded before he leaped into the air which took them nearly half the height of the great pines.  With two harsh pumps of his wings, they started the ascension straight up the cliff wall and didn't stop till they reached the snow-covered ledge.  Onward he flew, cutting through the mountains and covering the miles to their cave, where he landed with gentle grace.  He strode inside the blackness as a Master returning back to his castle and followed the cave back to the soft glow of a side chamber.

Their cave wasn't lavish by any means with its pine needles and smelly hide bed covered in furs, that stank more of bears than pine.  One candle-lit lantern to tell time by and a fire pit with a few logs to sit on.  Beast made his way to the bed which pressed into a darker half nook and unceremoniously dropped the woman on top of the furs. 

[What's the point in bringing the woman, if you're gonna kill her before we even need to feed?] 

"Mine. Nah you." Beast snorted as he climbed over her to a large diameter log that l ran the width of the bed. Pushing up the bark on top revealed extra clothes and essentials, along with the shackles and broken chain, Max was once set in.  Grabbing them from the hollowed log Beast set the shackles on the woman then bound the chain in an eternity knot above and below the metal bracelets.  He looped the tail of the chain between her elbows and wrist a couple of times before giving it a tweaking tug as she groaned and spoke incoherently.  As Beast hid the end of the chain in the knot, Max began chuckling.

[You're expecting her to stay of her own free will?]

"Uha, Uha" Beast acknowledged.

[Are you fucking kidding me? You think she won't lite out of here on the first chance she gets?]

Beast just snorted, ending his side of the conversation.  Dropping her not-so-secured wrist, she grunted and twist to the impact on her guts as Beast headed to the fire pit.  Slapping his hands together he kneeled over the kindling within and uttered an arcane word in a language Max couldn't understand.  As the word escaped his muzzle, he thrust his palm towards the wood and flame leapt to life.  Slowly he spun his fingers above them and the flame grew, rising up to touch the tip of his claw.  Max could feel the connection Beast had with the fire elemental and a soothing calm waxed over Beast's body.  The crack of bone and searing pain throughout the body, announced the morning was near as Beast's consciousness and form transformed back to Max's.  The process felt like it was slow due to feeling every break and rip of flesh when in actuality the process took less than a few seconds.

"Fucking hell!" Max panted on his knees before the fire.  "Just once, can you give me a little forewarning?"  The image of a middle finger slipping into darkness and the sound of chuckling was the answer.  "Yeah yeah, fuck you too old man."

From the bed, he could hear the woman moan and he turned to watch but she was only repositioning herself in her forced slumber. Slowly Max found his feet and pulled the slipknot rope belt tight to hold his worn black pants up.  His feet felt the cold of the cavern's stone but not to the stinging intensity that a normal human would.  The fire attunement that Beast had, kept his body temperature stable against most cold environments, one of many perks of being the host to an ancient vampiric spirit. Taking a deep breath of the frosty air he set about getting preparations for breakfast ready, periodically checking up on the woman who had started to shiver.  With more tenderness than Beast but less than tenderly, he pulled the furs out from under her and placed them on top.  "Bitch is gonna be a blood-cicle at this climate." He muttered to himself.

[She's gonna be hungry also, by the time she wakes up from that concussion... probably freeze her tits off without some decent clothes], he thought as he headed back to one of the many side caves.  They had stored plenty of meat from the former resident whose hide now covered the woman.  Taking a mental inventory he noted that there was enough bread to last about a week and the snow outside fed into the stream that ran clean, deeper inside where the cave became a crevasse that dumped into a huge chamber.  He hoped to explore it someday but that'll have to wait as he played babysitter slash warden to their new blood bag.  As much as he tried to keep a distance from the "cattle", basic humanity clung to him and in some ways, he clung to it.  Past the food storage and into a smaller chamber he knelt to sift through the piles of old items, searching for a worn garment from one of the many unfortunate travelers that found out too late, this cave was already claimed by a dominant male bear.  When he and Beast originally found the cave it had been littered with bones, hides, and broken weapons from the apparent hunters and trappers that took shelter here during the random snow storms that seemed to plague this mountainous area.  After Beast had killed the bear, Max began organizing items and storing things away.  Some he could sell, some he could repurpose or toss in the fire, and some, like now, can come in handy.  Finding a leather overcoat with a few claw slashes and some old blood-covered garments was still a better option than freezing.  He wished his vision was as clear as Beast but through the red tinge that was afforded him, he could see better than any other human in the pitch darkness of the caves.  After gathering up some others to do some minor stitch work with, he headed back to the food storage and then to the main cave they called home.  Upon entering, he notices the woman had moved from her place in the bed but showed no alarm as he moved to the fire and started cooking up breakfast and doing some not-so-graceful stitching with a bone needle and dagger.  His heightened senses could hear her trying to slowly get out of the bed, though it really didn't require a heightened hearing to pick up on the chains being tested. 
Without turning to look, "It would be best if you lay back down till I have you some decent clothes to wear.  That thin tunic isn't going to help you much against the cold of these mountains." He stated plainly.  A faint gasp followed a sigh of resignation and what he assumed was her laying back down under the pelts to stay warm. "Breakfast is almost done too." This time he cast a glance her way.  "Don't worry, I'm not the one you need to be afraid of," he said turning his attention back to the food and clothing. "Well, unless you give me a reason.. which I strongly suggest that you don't."  The clink of the chains made him smile and shake his head.  "Those are for your safety, not your imprisonment.  Whether you leave them on or remove them doesn't matter to me but leaving them on will keep you safe."
She had no reason to believe him, he knew that she'd seen him slaughter the sentry but it wasn't him that hit her or brought her limp body here.  He inhaled her fear, the smell was delicious and her quickening heartbeat was clear to his ears but he ignored both and set to finishing the task at hand.  Once both were done, he took the food off the fire and stood with the attire to present to her.  Walking over to where she lay peeking out from under the bear's thick pelt he held up the bloody garment and overcoat. 
"Sorry for the dried blood but there really isn't anywhere to wash clothes up here and if you put them over your tunic, you won't have to worry about it."  She didn't budge from where she lay so he tossed the garments on top of the pelt.  "Once you're dressed, come eat a bite, you need to regain your strength." He said but again to no response.  Max just shrugged and headed back to the fire, cutting the food into two portions placed on broken wooden planks that he used for plates and motioning in her general direction to come to join him.  After a few moments of shuffling under the hides and light curses at the binders, she slowly emerged into the firelight and sat opposite him.
"I'm not your fucking slave, woman.  Come get it or starve, the option is yours." He said, sliding her makeshift plate to the closest log, leaving a small dagger embedded in the wood for her to use on the meat.  He watched her look at the plate, then the dagger, and back at him.
"I told you, I'm not the one you need to fear." Causing her to quickly glance around, most likely looking for Beast.  "He's not here either." He said nodding towards the cave entrance.
This wasn't the first time he'd kept cattle, and it wasn't hard for the mind to draw its own conclusion without him having to make up an outright lie.  The human mind is a fickle thing that drew logical conclusions, especially when what she'd seen was probably the most illogical thing she'd ever seen... a human eating the neck of the sentry... a monster that appeared from nowhere, they had to be two different entities and she'd just not noticed the monster while being fixated on him.  Max smiled broadly, his fangs had long retreated into his gums.  When she finished her scan of the entryway she looked and he could see the relief wash over her.  She once again stood and made her way to the food, glancing at the dagger and biting at her own lip in thought.
"He's never THAT far away, hun... be a gracious guest and eat." He said with a wink and started doing the same.

[His voice is so melodious, almost like a shaman soothing a child if his language wasn't so vulgar.] She thought as she watched him eat without even a shiver from the cold on his bare feet and moderately hairy chest.  [How was he not cold] she wondered as she turned her attention to the food that called to her empty belly.  [Must be the heat of the fire.] she concluded feeling the fire's heat fighting off the cold of the cave.  She leaned forward to pick up her plate and hesitated. 
"H.. How am I supposed to eat like this?" She pushed her bound wrist out the bottom of the bloody shirt, hooking it at her elbows.
"Not my problem." He said between chews of food.
"Bu.." she didn't even finish the complaint as his eyes caught hers, trapping her in mid-speech that ended in the quick shallow swallow of air.
"Figure it... the fuck... out." His gaze was in strict contrast to his sweet and welcoming tone. "You managed to get the shirt on.  You even managed to keep the coat over your shoulders while getting out of my bed to sit here." He stated in his soothing voice.  "Which means you're not an idiot."
She gazed at her chains in a moment of thought and sighed before sliding off her log and going face-first into her food.  A slave's life is all she'd known while in the village they'd stolen her from, so this wasn't the first time she ate like the dogs.  [From one capture to the next] she thought as she sat back and grabbed the end to tear a piece of meat off.  She looked back at him while she chewed, pondering from whence he was to be so pale, and watched as he nodded and went back to consuming his food.
Even with the chains on, she finished her meal at nearly the same time as him.  He wiped his lips with semi clean cloth and stifled a belch. "Excuse me." He said in modesty while grease and mushed veggies dripped from her chin.  He tossed the cloth the short distance between the two "Clean yourself up and toss your plate on the fire." He said while doing the same with his.
"Bu.." she started before being cut off
"It's all firewood, hun.  Nothing here is permanent and I only plan to be here a couple more days till the snowstorm passes.  Then we'll be off to..." He hesitated. "Somewhere else." 
"Snowstorm?" She asked perplexed. "What mountains are we in, exactly?"
He stood and casually stretched out his athletic frame, crisscrossed with minor scars.  "The snowy ones to the north of your village."
"What?! How?!  That's days away from the village." She exclaimed, her mind racing to try to calculate the distance. "we're in the Frozen Peaks..." She said under her breath, blinking rapidly as her mind sought rationality.
"You've been out for a while." He said, once again letting her mind do the work of misdirection.
Her head snapped back to the entrance of the cave and she shook noticeably.  Her voice dropped to a whisper, "What about the cave trolls and Ice Giants..." Panic began setting in ".. the bears and wolves?" Her fear was truly magnificent to inhale and stirred his hunger slightly.. his true hunger... the lust for blood.  Her heart beat so loud it played a rhythm like a drum to him.
"STOP!" He demanded.  His breathing was heavy and musk filled her senses, causing her to look and be captured by his gaze once again.  His eyes seemed to swirl in a pool of blue and green with streaks of red, and she fell into them as though he was the calm eye, inside a storm.  Her panic shed off as though there was nowhere else that could possibly be safer than where she was right now.. bound on her knees before him.  He was meant for her, she was meant for him, all else no longer mattered.. and just as suddenly she blinked as his fingers touched her chin.
"You are safe here, with me." Pulling her out of his hypnotic gaze.
"yes, master" She heard the words come out unintentionally but naturally.  He wiped a bit of grease and mushed veggies from her chin with the cloth that had been in her hand.
"Now, please... clean up and make yourself useful." His tone was calm and soothing yet his eyes had a struggle beneath them.
[MINE!] came the voice of Beast, within Mas's mind.
[Yes, yours... but until the night comes, I'll do as I wish, old man.]  Max could hear the snarl but pressed the issue. [If I am to be the one to tend to her while you sleep, then I'll take what I will even if she is yours.  We work as one so what is yours, IS mine, and what is MINE, IS yours.  That was the contract, abide.] Calming himself further... [She's just cattle to me, so calm your tits and get some sleep.  Apparently, this cave you brought us to is in the region of the Ice Giants... remember them, Old Man?] Max's frustration peeked back out. [I told you not to kill that kid but oh NOOOooo, you can't pass up a challenge.  Let's just hope this tribe hasn't heard the news yet or discovered our presence.]
The familiar middle finger appeared from the darkness of his mind, followed by a dark chuckle. "Fuck me..." Max whispered audibly as he turned away from the woman to busy himself elsewhere.
"What was... that.." She asked tentatively as she finished cleaning her face.
"Nothing, just thinking out loud," He said, causing her to blush and hurriedly toss her plate into the fire. It wasn't until she started to remove her garments that he realized what she must have heard and quickly returned to stop her. "That's... not what I meant.  I tend to talk to myself as I plan and sometimes the words just... come out." He could see the confusion and perhaps a bit of hurt but refused to explain further.  "I need to get some more firewood for tonight.  Stay here and uh..." He looked around and silently cursed his organizational skills. "Busy yourself.  I won't be long nor will I go far." Letting go of her bound wrist, he turned to head out into the snow, though not for wood... there was plenty enough to hold them for a week, but he needed to clear his head and smell for smoke.  Even Ice Giants cooked food.  He didn't even make it to the entrance when she grabbed his rope belt.
"Please don't leave me...." She asked meekly.  He turned ready to chasten her but when he saw her head bowed, her hair cast to the side and the soft tender flesh of her neck, he found he could not.
Sighing he motioned to the lantern.  "Get the lantern and that dagger I gave you.  We need to find a back door to this place."
She didn't hesitate and scrambled for the dagger which she used to slash a hole through the garments so her hands could hold the lantern, and quickly returned to him.
"What do they call you?" he asked while fastening the top cross chain of her overcoat.
"Kah.  They call me Kah." She stated.
"Well Kah, You can call me Max or you can call me Master. I'll respond to either." A slight smirk of arrogance on his lips.
"Aren't you at least concerned?" Her brows furrowed, unsure if she appreciated that look, and presented the dagger in hand.
"You're not that stupid, Kah.  Even if you managed to kill me, how long would you last without me?" His answer was a mix of statement and cockiness. He didn't wait for the answer as he headed into the darkness of the cave, heading towards the crevasse.
[Ass] She thought, but hurried behind him.

Clan Wars: Ch 3, The Crevasse... Coming soon.
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