In 2017, I set a goal for myself and I posted it here on the cage. At the time, I was in crisis from having been broken by a malignant narcissistic dominant for approximately 3 years. I was desperate to rebuild myself, take back my autonomy, and reclaim my self-worth. The goal I set was to become a therapist. ❤️🩹
I wrote a blog about it, and while it seemed to be an impossible dream at the time, taking me another two years to even get started, I am happy to say I have reached that first lifetime goal, to complete a 4-year degree. I’m now 3 semesters away from earning my master’s degree through an advanced standing program. 🥅
I’m no longer a high school dropout with a 9th-grade level education. A year from now I’ll have a degree that only 13% of Americans have. I graduated with a 3.8, and I’ve won three scholarships that were limited to two people out of all applicants. 🏫
I have earned some bragging rights by making sacrifices, being dedicated, and pushing through when things were hard. I rebuilt myself from being desperately broken, from having a psychotic break, and from a shattered soul. I recently received an award for resilience and steadfastness, I earned every bit of that. Daddy says it is the perfect award for his masochist! 🏆
I have three people here from the Cage to thank for supporting me through this journey. Always first, Daddy who is the love of my life, next a man I nicknamed Mr. Awesome, you know him as Literate Lycan and last a woman whom you all know as SatinDragon. 🙏
I met LL first when I was starting my second year of college. I was still quite broken, surviving but most certainly not thriving. LL spent around a year getting to know me, talking to me every day. He picked me up from the ground, dusted me off a little, and tried really hard to get me to drink some tea. LL brought me back to life, with no motives, no agenda, simply by being who he is, Mr. Awesome. He brought back the smiles, he brought back the self-confidence, and he rekindled something I thought was lost forever, the capability to trust again. He mentored and supported me through my first year of upper-division classes. He even took pictures of pine cones for my online biology class once. I am so grateful for you, Mr. Awesome, thank you for being a consistent friend in my life and for being who you are. 🐺
I met Satin Dragon next, and we had an awesome lunch together (we need to do this again soon!) and many insightful or just fun conversations. We haven’t had a single conversation in which Satin doesn’t tell me how proud she is of me, and her support and encouragement have bolstered me many times. Thank you for being a true friend, giving great advice, and listening when I need to talk. 🐉
I met my Daddy, Master, and Owner a little more than a year ago. Where LL gave me the capability to trust again, Daddy showed me what trust truly is, how it feels, and how it is the foundation of all that we are. I can’t imagine a day without him, I can’t imagine not sharing my struggles and my accomplishments with him. He supports and guides me in every possible way. He is the only person who has ever shown me what being seen, valued, and loved feels like. I achieve for us now, and once I graduate, we begin our life together. ♾
He is the caretaker of my past, the executive of my present, and the Owner of my future. I love you with everything that I am and ever will be. Thank you for providing a safe place, thank you for being my shelter through any storm, and most of all, thank you for loving me unconditionally. ❤️🔥
