I got a message from Dom #2 yesterday; he said some things that really upset me, and made me question our whole relationship. Made me question all my relationships actually. It all boiled down to it wasn't ME that he missed. It wasn't ME that he felt a connection to.
I understand that not all relationships, friendship or otherwise, last forever, but there had to be a meeting of the minds, some piece of their soul that touched mine...right?
So I contacted an old flame to see if it had been real. It was real to me, I don't know what I would have done if it had not been real to him as well. I cried... I processed... I found my life-lesson metaphor.
We are puzzle pieces, sometimes we get really close to the perfect match, some of the angles or curves match up but not all. Sometimes all we have in common is our color, or we are both border pieces... That was where I had been going wrong in my previous relationships. I was trying to put my puzzle together with pieces that did not totally align. That I am a submissive, I have no doubt; that I need a Dom with a firm hand...absolutely, but a relationship is so much more than that.
So thank you Dom #2 and my Italian commander-n-chief. This has been cathartic for me.
And to my Renaissance Man...you are my perfect piece.
