Greeneyesuk

sub female

Single

I've not been on here for a long time. I've deleted everything my profile said because since starting this journey, alot has changed, that person I wrote about isn't who I am anymore. I have experienced a bdsm relationship in real life, quite some distance between us but nothing that got in the way of my journey in real time with him. That relationship is over now but wow it made me know what I actually need from any potential Dom going forward.

Pain rarely gets the better of me. I crave it. I've had experience with Canes, Whips, Floggers, Paddles, Nipple clamps, Bondage, Ropes, Orgasm denial (possibly one of my favourite things in bdsm) over stimulation, good old fashion spanking with the hand alone. I'm quoted as a "pain bunny". I've used a safe word once, after being struck with a leather belt but after 20 seconds or so wanted it again, but he had the good sense to stop when he thought I'd had enough.
I don't want to lose the bdsm side of my life though but I shall not be making plans to meet a random playmate. There are some crazy people out there. I got very lucky & met a Man who was a friend, who introduced me to things I never thought I could tolerate, but what a surprise, I am very much addicted to this lifestyle. Shockingly so.

I'm insecure, I over~think, I'm mouthy, I'm not a perfect Sub but Ioved the dynamic I was in. Its part of my inner being & I know I cannot go back to a Vanilla relationship 100% of the time. I need routine, structure, banter, lots of laughs, someone intellectual, a friend, before I can consider anything else. This is essential for me, esp the banter & intellectual stimulation. I thrive off of giving an opposing opinion & I could sit with a bottle of wine or two & talk for hours. I never feel the need to fill silences, I'll only say something if i mean it. I have to click with someone on a level where I like them before I can consider going further. You have to stimulate my mind before you can stimulate my body. This takes time. I'm still very bruised & out of a relationship which is going to take me some time to get past. So something online for awhile maybe, I won't rush into another relationship that wouldn't be fair on anyone but I'd like to talk about anything & everything to get to know you, it's a start but believe me I am not going to meet you next weekend & have some fun, only being honest. I also won't send you pictures of my body. I value myself alot more than that these days. You have to be patient, want to strike up a friendship & who knows where it will lead.

Impossible to say as I thought a lot of what I now love would be a hard limit. Obviously nothing illegal or blood, urine, faeces, that's not for me at all. I struggle with gags, I panic, in my head I think I'm going to swallow one despite the size but I want to over come this irrational fear.

I've learnt so much about myself. I was always intrigued with bdsm, I didn't realise how much it would consume me though. I am Submissive, possibly a mixture of Slave thrown in too. I can see myself in several roles but be patient. I am a walking contradiction, I am starting again from what was mostly a short term casual ( a few months) bdsm relationship but as it took me months to fall into a relationship previously, it will be the same in the future. I'm not rushing into anything. If we click, I'll be worth the wait. I'm no supermodel or someone you would turn your head at if you saw me on the street but I'm a half decent person. I won't settle, for anyone who isn't attracted to me on the outside as much as the inside. If I don't float your boat so to speak then please don't try & pretend I do because of my love of bdsm. It would be nice to start talking & learning who is on my wave length & see if there's an initial spark. Now I know what it is I want, love & crave I won't settle for anything less. ♥️

Sep 22, 2022

Jul 8, 2020