Its started out as a simple hello. Going through profiles and taking a chance. She swallowed her fear and decided to reach out one more time, just one more and she was done for the day. She never expected a reply. Just as she was closing the email she heard it the alert, he responded. Before she realized it they had exchanged so many emails and she found it frustrating because she had to wait. What was it that made her want to talk more kept her hanging on. She had to know more.
She took another leap and decided to move to an easier way to talk and he accepted. More messages and hours ticked by. The laughter and comfort felt easy and so good. Does she take one more leap no no not yet. Then a feeling hits and she cant help it before her brain catches up she sends a number. Then the text comes. Oh crap what did she do she gave him an in to her reality. No time to second guess now just keep talking keep texting.
As they come to a close she realizes hundreds of messages have gone back and forth and then it's a need she wants to hear his voice. She makes the comment and then gets shy. What ifs plaque her mind but he wants it to.
Then it happens the ring... she almost drops her phone but answers and with a single word she feels like shes coming home. Hours go by and it's easy no quiet spaces and even if there are they are comfortable. Finally they say goodnight and she is only going to have a few short hours of sleep. Was it worth it yes.
The morning rolls around and now her brain has caught up. Oh God what if it was just that a one night thing. Doubt creeps in but she remembers his words. Anxiety tries to take hold but again she hears his words. Doubt and anxiety are silenced when another text comes in and all over again shes in a safe place no fear no anxiety no doubt. Was it worth it she thinks yes it was so worth it.
I haven't wrote in a long time like this, thank you for the inspiration.
Remember assumptions are not our friend go with your gut like a wise friend has told me. Your gut always knows it will warn you when there are red flags and guide you when there's not. Gonna start going with my gut more often.
