So almost 2 years ago I joined the cage. Very shy and timid but looking to learn. I read blogs profiles even some of the chat. I finally found the courage to reach out to someone I knew would be a safe bet as he was taken. I had questions things only someone in the life could educate me on.
I became friends with this person and he challenged me to find the old me. The one who loved to write and Express herself. So he told me to write a story and I did. Well that set off the flood gates I haven't stopped writing since. I journal in some way almost daily either in blog or my note pad but I do it. I thank him for giving me the gift of expression again. I remained friends with him the whole time I've been here and recently his life flipped upside down (not my story to share) and he ghosted. Not even a good bye hopefully he will Return. I will always treasure him for what he taught me.
In the mean time I talked to others and connected with some. Then there was who I thought was it. I fell and fell hard. He got me to open up verbally find the person I wanted to be hiding in the shadows to see that the Sins weren't that. I wont ever be able to repay him for that gift but he ended up hurting me emotionally and didnt even realize it. I'm so very thankful for him because I learned a lot about me from him.
Then there were others that taught me things along the way some let me know that Dragons arent demons and showed me that I needed to put forth more of myself to find who I wanted. There were those that were Evolving that taught me even greater lessons such as always follow your gut. Even a Master taught me what it truly means to be a slave.
The friends I've made recently have been without a doubt what kept me here. I found a treasure an Elder, a Ghost, a Gentleman, and though we haven't spoke yet a girl who's pain I feel.
Just when I thought I had my fill of what I needed a Daddy stepped in and has shown me how to trust again. How to depend on someone and not shut down. To give fully and feel with everything I have, that it's ok to be so consumed with thoughts of someone and to want to hear them. That my crazy is needed.
My journey is far from over but I needed to take the time to reflect and understand who I am and who had a hand in guiding me. All of the people I have talked to here have one way or another touched part of my life and I'm truly grateful for that. Your blogs comments and conversation are so much part of me and have made me understand different sides of this whole crazy world.
So cage family thank you and let's never stop learning from eachother.
J
