She waits for his message to come
Doing everything he taught her
The day fades into night
She still waits
Giving into sleep she gets in bed
Saying her prayer for him
She drifts off to sleep
Another dreamless night
Her alarm rings and she wakes
Starting her morning tasks
Completing them she moves on
Going through her day
Phone always at her side
She thinks she feels it vibrate
She looks and nothing
She checks everywhere he can message her
Still nothing
She pushes through her day
A smile on her face
Time comes to go home
She waits for his call
It never comes
Into the house she walks
Every detail of her routine down
She performs her rituals for him
It keeps her connected
After dinner she kneels
Ready for his video call
It never comes
She kneels waiting still
Her legs start to ache
Bed time is closing in fast
She rises gets herself ready.
Kneeling again she says their promise
She crawls into bed and cries
The days repeat just the same
She does everything shes suppose to
He never calls
Her phone has gone silent
Messages have stopped
Videos dont exist
she starts to give up
Her nights are spent in tears now
Her heart still his
She devoted everything to him
And he walked away.
She is now broken and hurt
She is alone and feels like a failure
She questions if she is really a sub
If she is even worthy...
It doesnt matter how much time passes when something ends this way I as a sub have issues trusting the next. I also let people back in over and over only to repeat the same mistake I made the first time, i forgave.
Subs who are dedicated dont ever stop, if we are told to do something we will even without you being there. Its your job to not string us along, it's your job to make sure we are okay as you move along in your journey.
I have been in this situation before and the poor people who came after had to deal with my emotional baggage and fear of being abandoned.
A Doms job doesnt stop just because he released his sub, and a subs doesnt stop just because she agreed to the the reasoning behind the release. They check in they comfort and care. They started as friends and should remain friends in the end.
Stop ghosting stop hurting eachother and for the love of all things kinky stop acting like were in elementary school and running away from things that dont work. Talk it out like an adult, go directly to the source and ask if you think someone is being mean towards you.
The block button here is a good idea but all I can think if is a little kid talking shit then plugging their ears to not hear the other side.
Support and love eachother, if you clash then be graceful and leave them alone.
Strive to be the best you you can !
No this isn't about me it's about things I've seen lately.
