Okay so today I'm on edge (no not that edge). I'm finally doing it. Gonna meet someone in my local community. He is a rigger and was looking to brush up on his skills and learn something new. His search hadn't paid off as he kept running into the insta subs who wanted him to run their lives or pay their bill's.
So needless to say we started chatting and we both saw an opening. Friendship with the possiity of a friend to navigate and learn more in this crazy world.
So today I have a coffee "date" to meet him face to face. I'm scared to death because I'm so shy, im so scared he will take one look at me and say no you cant do this.
So I wanted to say to all those people who dont think about your words having an impact on others, I almost didnt agree to this because a rigger said something about me. I wont go I to details the point is even a slight comment can take a dream away from someone.
That one person made me fear even more that I will always be told the same thing. I have an amazing rope bunny friend who told me to stop being scared of that. I have an amazing Dom friend who says the same thing and has every check in ready even though he knows my roomie will be checking in too.
I love how supportive they are and happy to push me but that still doesnt calm the vanilla butterflies I have about meeting someone for the first time.
Heres hoping I dont have an anxiety attack and I can make a friend who will help me walk into the real world life style
Fingers crossed
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